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[soo-won]

Akatsuki no Yona chapter 60 magazine vs volume

Hi everyone! I managed to get my hands on the clip out of the magazine version of chapter 60 from Hana to Yume issue 17/2012, and as we don't have much trace from the magazine versions of the chapters from then, i thought it would interesting to share my findings! First, the color page: the editor text says "What will become of Yona and the others? The suspens is agonizing, but?!" (baby trio time!!!!!!) Otherwise it advertizes volume 9 and how well it's been doing. It was the first ever volume to get a special edition and cover with a new drama CD and comments from the seiyuus! Something that I can't help but find a bit ironic is how they really highlight Takuhiro Sakurai as Tae-jun on the bottom right and ah yeah...this didn't age too well.

Behind the color page, it shows that Hana to Yume was (already back then) having a special Yona Crimson Festival campaign. This is when belated Kentaro Miura drew an illustration of the whole main cast that could be win in a lottery, with a reproduction of the special cover of volume 9, autographs of the seiyuus from the drama CD and Kusanagi, and a totebag with Ao that I had never seen before. Miura apparently said that he just ended up drawing the whole cast since it grew a lot (since the time he had only drawn Yona and Hak I assume).

Then to the chapter in itself. I know Kusanagi started really making changes between the magazines and tankoubon(volumes) in relatively recent years so I didn't expect to find any difference here honestly but I found a few! I also find it interesting to see her author's note, the summary of the plot and presentation of the characters etc all around.

So! Page 2 and the first page of the chapter. No change with the manga page from the volume we know of here, but I thought it would be interesting to share for what's below. I honestly am a bit too lazy to translate the whole synopsis as I don't think it says anything novel or specially interesting (I can still do it if someone insist), but I found the characters presentation sweet since it's different from the one we've been getting for every chapter for a while, and it's very cute too since it's specially for this flashback mini-arc.

Yona: Kouka Kingdom's Princess. She is an only child who lost her mother at a young age. She is preciously raised by her father and King Il.

Suwon: Yona's cousin of three years older. He has been gently watching over Yona like a little sister ever since he's little.

Hak: The successor of Mundok, General of the Wind Tribe. Later on, he'll become the servant and bodyguard of his childhood friend Yona.

Now on to page 4: Yona's hair and face were redrawn on the third panel! The movement lines next to her head were erased too. For the text and font, you can also see that the font of the first bubble was changed for the default one, and that they're formated it slightly differently in the last box. We don't often think about the original lettering in manga and how they can also change between raw and volume do we?

Page 7: It's not like this change matter much, but I was so surprised and happy to find out that this iconic page had been modified as well. The third panel that showcases how lively Kuuto is was completely replaced with people playing music. I think the volume version indeed conveys Kuuto's atmosphere much better (like why would Yona be so amazed at two men talking and drinking really), but it's interesting to find out that back then they struggled to find what to put there precisely. From a creative process pov this is so relatable lmao.

Other than these two pages before, I haven't noticed any other change, but I thought I would share Kusanagi's author comment!

"I'm so so happy. I can't believe Miura-sensei drew me an illustration of Yona(and of the whole main cast at that!). This boost me up even more to do my very best! Thank you so much (happiness)."

Nothing special on the last page, but if anyone wondered if there was some editor text here to tease the next chapter...well no there isn't nfjbfhjbg. I so wish I could get my hands on chapter 61 too...

I'm not sure if I'll be able to get my hands on much more of those but I also got chapter 24 with this one, and I noticed a couple of things I'd like to share as well so stay tuned for that :)

[louisupdates]

FITFWT23: TOUR RECAP MASTERPOST

FASHION RECAP: NORTH AMERICA, EUROPE (Top Ten)

LITHOGRAPHS and PORTRAITS

OUTRO SONGS

IQ 123: Tour promo and production interviews

TOUR TECHNICAL SPECS [TPI MAGAZINE]

GROUP PHOTOS NA

Louis’ care for his fans

NORTH AMERICA

26 May - Mohegan Sun Arena, UNCASVILLE, CT

27 May - Bank of New Hampshire Pavilion, GILFORD, NH

29 May - Place Bell, LAVAL QC

30 May - Budweiser Stage, TORONTO ON

1 Jun - Blossom Music Center, CUYAHOGA FALLS, OH

2 Jun - Michigan Lottery Amphitheater, STERLING HEIGHTS, MI

FITFWT23: WEEK 1

3 Jun - The Icon Festival Stage, CINCINNATI, OH

6 Jun - Kemba Live! Outdoor, COLUMBUS, OH

7 Jun - TCU Amphitheater at White River State Park, INDIANAPOLIS, IN

9 Jun - Saint Louis Music Park, ST. LOUIS, MO

PORTRAITS, 1st set [10.6.2023]

IG stories and selfies [10.6.2023]

10 Jun - Starlight Theatre, KANSAS CITY, MO

13 Jun - BMO Pavilion, MILWAUKEE, WI

15 Jun - Huntington Bank Pavilion, CHICAGO, IL

16 Jun - The Armory, MINNEAPOLIS, MN

17 Jun - Harrah’s Stir Cove, COUNCIL BLUFFS, IA

19 Jun - Denny Sanford Premiere Center, SIOUX FALLS, SD

21 Jun - Red Rocks Amphitheatre, MORRISON, CO: CANCELLED 😪

24 Jun - Wamu Theater, SEATTLE, WA

26 Jun - Doug Mitchell Thunderbird Sports Center, VANCOUVER BC

27 Jun - McMenamins Edgefield Concerts, TROUTDALE, OR

29 Jun - The Greek Theatre, BERKELEY, CA

PORTRAITS, 2nd set [29.6.2023]

PORTRAITS posted 30.6 [x]

30 Jun - Louis Instagram recap

30 Jun - The Hollywood Bowl, LOS ANGELES, CA

1 Jul - The Chelsea at the Cosmopolitan, LAS VEGAS, NV

3 Jul - Arizona Financial Theatre, PHOENIX, AZ

6 Jul - The Pavilion at Toyota Music Factory, IRVING, TX

7 Jul - Moody Amphitheater at Waterloo Park, AUSTIN, TX

8 Jul - The Cynthia Woods Mitchell Pavilion, THE WOODLANDS, TX

PORTRAITS, 3rd set [9.7.2023]

9 Jul: Louis Instagram recap

10 Jul RTL Radio Interviews

11 Jul - St. Augustine Amphitheatre, ST. AUGUSTINE, FL

13 Jul - Hard Rock Live at Seminole Hard Rock Hollywood, HOLLYWOOD, FL

14 Jul - Yuengling Center, TAMPA, FL

15 Jul - Cadence Bank Amphitheatre at Chastain Park, ATLANTA, GA

18 Jul - Ascend Amphitheater, NASHVILLE, TN

19 Jul - Charlotte Metro Credit Union Amphitheatre, CHARLOTTE, NC

21 Jul - Red Hat Amphitheater, RALEIGH, NC

22 Jul - Merriweather Post Pavilion, COLUMBIA, MD

PORTRAITS, 4th set [23.7.2023]

24 Jul - MGM Music Hall at Fenway, BOSTON1, MA

25 Jul - MGM Music Hall at Fenway, BOSTON2, MA

27 Jul - TD Pavilion at the Mann, PHILADELPHIA, PA

28 Jul - Stone Pony Summer Stage, ASBURY PARK, NJ

29 Jul - Forrest Hills Stadium, NEW YORK, NY

PORTRAITS, 5th set [31.7.2023]

North America FAN EDIT

AUGUST 2023 GAP 1 recap

AWAY FROM HOME FESTIVAL

19 Aug - Parco Bussoladomani, LIDO DI CAMAIORE, Italy

AUGUST 2023 GAP 2 recap (including the 28 launch)

EUROPE

29 Aug - Barclays Arena, HAMBURG

31 Aug - Royal Arena, COPENHAGEN

1 Sep - Spektrum, OSLO [Bigger Than Me anniversary content]

PORTRAITS, 6th set [2.9.2023]

2 Sep - Hovet, STOCKHOLM

4 Sep - Ice Hall, HELSINKI

DORK MAGAZINE PHOTOS 2022 w/ links

5 Sep - Saku Arena, TALLINN

7 Sep - Arena Riga, RIGA

PORTRAITS, 7th set [8.9.2023]

8 Sep - Zalgiris Arena, KAUNAS

10 Sep - Tauron Arena, KRAKOW

11 Sep - Atlas Arena, ŁÓDŹ

13 Sep - Wiener Stadhalle D, VIENNA

14 Sep - Stozice Arena, LJUBLJANA

15 Sep - Budapest Arena, BUDAPEST

PORTRAITS, 8th set [16.9.2023]

17 Sep - Arenele Romane, BUCHAREST

18 Sep - Arena Armeets, SOFIA

20 Sep - Plateia Nerou, ATHENS w/ links to AOTV announcements

SEPTEMBER 2023 GAP recap

1 Oct - Bilbao Arena Miribilla, BILBAO (VIZCAYA)

3 Oct - Altice Arena, LISBON

5 Oct - Wizink Center, MADRID

6 Oct - Palau Sant Jordi, BARCELONA

PORTRAITS, 9th set [7.10]

8 Oct - Pala Alpitur, TURIN

9 Oct - Unipol Arena, BOLOGNA

11 Oct - Rockhal, ESCH-SUR-ALZETTE

12 Oct - Sportspaleis, ANTWERP

14 Oct - Accor Arena, PARIS

15 Oct - Ziggo Dome, AMSTERDAM

17 Oct - Lanxess Arena, COLOGNE

19 Oct - O2 Arena, PRAGUE

20 Oct - Mercedes Benz Arena, BERLIN

PORTRAITS, 10th set [21.10]

22 Oct - Olympiahalle, MUNICH

23 Oct - Hallenstadion, ZURICH

FITFWT23: LATAM promo begins [28.10]

Twitter spree: part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4 Hall Of Fame, [31.10]

IGTV [1.11]: transcript, gifs [x] [x] [x] [x] [x]

8 Nov - 3Arena, DUBLIN

10 Nov - Utilita Arena, SHEFFIELD

11 Nov - AO Arena, MANCHESTER

12 Nov - Ovo Hydro, GLASGOW

14 Nov - Brighton Center, BRIGHTON

15 Nov - International Arena, CARDIFF

17 Nov - The O2, LONDON

18 Nov - Resorts World Arena, BIRMINGHAM

FITFWT23 has come to an end!

ROLLING STONE UK 2023 AWARDS

23 Nov - Camden Roundhouse, LONDON

[frevandrest]

On Hérault's Orgy Cave

@divinaaugusta I wrote about this in the past (my pet topic, guilty as charged), but I have trouble locating relevant info on my blog because Tumblr my beloved.

We learn about the sex/orgy cave from the book by his mistress Suzanne de Morency, "Illyrine ou l'Écueil de l'inexpérience". She describes their relationship, including how he bought her a lottery and rented a luxurious house for her near Champs-Élysées. In 18c, there was no avenue, but we know its approximate location, near the convent St Périne (now a hospital). Here is how the area looked in the 1730:

So, near rue de Chaillot in 18th century.

As I understand, in 1790s that was a nationalized property that Hérault rented for Suzanne. As part of the complex, there was a garden with an artificial grotto. These grottos were all the rage in the 18th century. Here is one belonging to Frederick the Great: Neptune Grotto (although no idea if this one - or grottos in general - were used for the same purpose as how Hérault used it). Apparently, Hérault's grotto/cave included a little brook, flowers, and comfortable furniture (including a chandelier). She describes:

Chérubin [Hérault] me prie d'ôter mes bas , parce qu'il faisait chaud , et il se désha billalui-même, passa seulement une grande lévite de bazin doublée de taffetas bleu : il me prend la main , me fait traverser le parterre ; j'apperçois un petit portique du quel il m'avait toujours soigneusement écartée ; et il avait un grand soin de ne pas me perdre de vue depuis notre arrivée. Enfin , ouvrant la porte de ce portique , il me présente à l'amour , qui m'offre une guirlande de roses fraîches ; puis il me dit : Adèle ; vois son inscription. Je le regarde en souriant; il me donne un baiser , dé noue ma ceinture , marobe , et à l'instant je n'ai plus de vêtement que la guirlande que l'amour m'a donné : mon amant a la même parure : il ouvre la porte sacrée ; nos pieds foulent le gazon. Il me conduit à un lit de jonc dont le ciel était un grand myrthe. Mon amant s'était ménagé toute la soirée pour ce lieu enchanteur…. Je ne puis te peindre tous les plaisirs que nous goûtâmes : je ne trouverais pas de pinceau assez habile ; ils sont plus faciles à imaginer qu'à peindre. Mais Séchelles est plus qu'un homme si j'ai quelquefois dit que mon mari et Q…..te étaient autant au- dessus du vulgaire qu'étaient les anges au- dessus de l'humanité, je dirai maintenant qu'Hérault de Séchelles est autant au - dessus de mon mari et de Q…..te que la divinité est au dessus des anges. Nous nous restaurâmes par des glaces et des liqueurs ; tu en connais l'effet …. De nouveau nous nous épuisâmes : nous passâmes la nuit dans ce charmant réduit.

Illyrine ou l'Écueil de l'inexpérience, tome 3 , pages 273-274.

(If anyone would like to translate, that would be great! My French sucks for that, but even Google translate gives you the vibe).

The description starts on page 270, with the description of the house, and then the garden and the portico and the inscription "Fuyez loin d'ici , profanes , si vous n'êtes purs et nuds comme moi" ("Flee far from here, profane people, if you are not pure and naked like me"), to which Hérault - obviously - suggests them to undress. And they did. (Sadly, she doesn't describe the encounter, except that it was amazing and that he served drinks and ice-cream after).

Suzanne says that they visited the cave more than once, sometimes with another couple (so, not just sex cave but also an orgy cave). Again, she doesn't go into details, but she makes it clear what kind of activities went there.

So... that's the story of this particular 18th century spot! :)

About Hérault's Mistresses in another post, because it will be long (as one might imagine).

[skywarpie]

Hey, have a little dad fic, okay?

Copia hums under his breath. He signs off on a document that's situated on his desk. Then he places it over to the finished pile. At this point he doesn't even take the time to actually read any of them. A few years ago he may have, but they hardly have his attention, he's focused on more important things.

"Papa!" The small voice coming from the door way has a smile stretching across his painted face before he even lifts his eyes.

"Il mio topolina!" He pushes his rolly chair back from the desk and opens his arms wide.

The little girl giggles with delight as she races over and clings to Copia as he sits her on his lap. Family isn't something Copia has ever experienced. It's always just been him and his rats. Then the ghouls came but it took a bit of time for him to warm up. Most of the time people that sidled up to him were doing so to make fun of him. Having ghouls fuss over him was an entirely different ordeal.

Then his family, his real family had been crafted. Copia couldn't imagine a world without his partner and little girl in it. Being a father is something he's good at, (well he hopes he is. He doesn't really have any thing to base it off of.)

"Look! Look!" A piece of paper is being shoved in his face. He laughs, trying to calm her enough so he can take the paper without ripping it.

The picture that's drawn on it (clearly done by a child, so messy and yet the greatest gift possible), has Copia at a loss for words. There's a stick figure that is obvious his partner. Then one that is meant to be him, and lastly a little one in the center that is holding both of their hands. Copia feels his mouth go dry as his chest begins to feel too tight. Anyone else would just say it's a child's drawing. But to him this is the lottery. He never got to draw little family pictures in his childhood, the fact that his daughter can do that has him swelling with pride.

"Do you like it?" Her eyes (his eyes) stare back up at him. A big grin is on her small face. It makes her freckles more noticeable, Copia thinks.

"Hai fatto male a tuo papa!" He says mockingly. She squeals as Copia plants a kiss on her forehead, black lipstick remaining. "I would have to be insane to not like it."

Her little face scrunches as she wipes at the mark.

"Ah, wait." She blinks up at him. "I think you also have something right here." He plants another kiss on her tiny face, leaving another lipstick mark.

She giggles as she playfully tries to push him away. "It tickles!" Her high pitched laughs sound like music to his ears as he keeps kissing her tiny face.

Copia thinks to himself that this must be how it feels to have a family. How it feels to be happy.

[the---hermit]

May and June 2023 wrap up

I forgot to post one last month, so I am posting big list of my reads for the last two months. All reviews I posted on each book are linked in the titles!

Daisy Darker by Alice Feeney

Jurassic Park by Michael Crichton

Through The Woods by Emily Carroll

Interview With The Vampire by Anne Rice

The Lottery and other stories by Shirley Jackson

De Profundis by Oscar Wilde

Mary Shelly L'Eterno Sogno by Alessandro Di Virgilio and Manuela Santoni

The Hobbits Of Tolkien by David Day

The Left Hand Of Darkness by Ursula K. Le Guin

The Creation Of Mythology by Marcel Detienne

I didn't write a review of this book, I was too frustrated with it to do so. It's all about the history of mythology studies as well as the concept of the mythos in ancient Greece. The concept is great, the informations are interesting, but the writing and the composition of the book were such a struggle for me. I ended up having a clear view on everything only after I read a very well done summary of the book a lovely anon sent me.

The Phantom Twin by Lisa Brown

Gender Queer by Maia Kobabe

Fangs by Sarah Andersen

I just reviewed this at the end of last year so I felt like it didn't need an updated review, but if you are interested in what I wrote about it when I first read it here's the link!

We Are The Champions by Tuono Pettinato and Dario Moccia

Dimentica Il Mio Nome by Zerocalcare

She Who Became The Sun by Shelley Parker Chan

The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon by Stephen King

Ogni Maledetto Lunedì Su Due by Zerocalcare

The House In The Cerulean Sea by T.J. Klune

L'Elenco Telefonico Degli Accolli by Zerocalcare

Macerie Prime and Macerie Prime Sei Mesi Dopo by Zerocalcare

[steamanband]

heyyy here to ask some questions about Faust. considering his foresight people would probably ask him some pretty dumb questions, so i would like to know how he would react when asked about

future lottery numbers

for some advice on love matters (should i propose does she loves me back etc)

questions about ilnesses and death (is he ginna make it? will my kitten die?)

generally if there's a pattern in his answers and an exception in this pattern (ex. he always lies about death except he tells truth to terminally ill themselves, he always tells truth but lies to children, he gives right answers but for wrong time, he pretends to not hear your questions)

yeah just really curious about his attitude towards people who need to know :]

HEHEHEHEHE THANK YOU FOR ASKING ME QUESTIONS I LOVE QUESTIONS. And I had a lot of fun thinking thoughts. Ok here we go

1. "Your lucky number" is often his answer, vague, and likely not true, but who's to say you truly know your own lucky number?

He answered truthfully exactly once, because the lady asking had a very cool hat on that day that he enjoyed.

2. He'd answer something extremely vague, followed by suggesting they bring their loved one to the arcade and try a different game, as he is not a love testing machine. That's the game across from him.

3. This is where he finds it difficult to answer sometimes. He will often give vague non-answers that don't mean anything, the kind of answers you expect from usual fortune telling machines, as to not worry them or get their hopes up, whichever applies.

4. There isn't really a pattern, a lot of it depends on the exact situation at hand as well as how he's feeling on that day. But he does LOVE to give the right answer at the wrong time, or generally cryptic seemingly nonsense answers that will actually make a lot of sense in hindsight. He also likes to say things that will make people think it through for themselves rather than seek advise from novelty machines.

If you're an especially giant asshole he will tell you to your face your exact moment and cause of death and will not be nice about it.

He knows that his answers won't typically change much in the long scheme, but he does try to answer things that will be beneficial for the person to hear, even if it wasn't the answer they wanted or the question they asked.

[longwindedbore]

UCLA election law professor Richard Hasen said that on its face, there's nothing illegal about a petition sweepstakes. But a closer look raises red flags for him.

"If you look at the conditions, you must be a registered voter," Hasen said. "And so this is essentially a lottery that's open only to people who register to vote. So it’s either an incentive for someone to vote or it’s a reward. And either way, it violates federal law."

He calls Musk's actions "clearly illegal" because it violates statute 52 U.S.C. 10307(c) and the Department of Justice’s election manual.

[withallthingslove]

The Phantom of the Opera Broadway Thoughts/Review - April 4, 2023

The main trio was Jeremy Stolle, Julia Udine, John Riddle and it was my first time seeing all three of them in these roles! Unless I win the lottery tomorrow for the final performance this was my last time seeing Phantom on Broadway before it closes and it proved to be the performance I needed to have closure.

Nehal Joshi continues to add something every performance as Andre. During Hannibal, he linked arms with Piangi during a choreography bit and then he went to stand by the elephant to sing like he was a member of the ensemble. 

Julia really comes alive during Think of Me it’s obvious that her Christine loves performing once she gets over her initial nervousness.

As the candles rose during the title song, Jeremy was feeling himself and he spun the boat pole in a circle like it was a lightsaber before starting to row again and it was ~ hot ~

When Julia got out of the boat, he grabbed her hips and kind of spun her to look at him and it was also hot. His cape twirl and the way he throws it down onto the bed boat while not breaking eye contact with Christine is also hot. His phantom definitely has some Leo somewhere in his chart he is a slutty showman

I had seen some reviews on here saying that in recent months Jeremy’s voice has sounded strained while playing the Phantom. Vocally he struggled with the “I have brought you” part of MOTN, the end of AIAOY reprise, and “deep as hell” in Down Once More but those were the only parts he had to adjust the notes.

The Phantom and Christine almost kissed while leaning up against the portcullis. Which made the phantom chasing her to that corner of the lair in STYDI feel like a cruel parallel

During I Remember... Julia starts singing while lying down which seemed more realistic.

John’s Raoul is so so so earnest. That’s the best word to describe him. Right before Primadonna when the managers said Christine would play the page boy his head jerked up like “say what?”

When they are scrambling to read the Phantoms note from Madame Giry Firmin dropped the note to the ground

Jeremy’s Phantom really shines while messing with Carlotta he soaks up taunting her and is having a ball stealing the attention away (again there is Leo somewhere in his chart)

During the ballet scene, all of the ballerinas were adding little extra things in their performance while the shadows and murder are happening like adding lines saying “Did you see that?” and playing up the humor and fear. 

John’s love language as Raoul is definitely physical touch but before kissing Christine for the first time he seemed so hesitant and nervous even though it was so apparent he wanted to.

During Wishing, it comes across like Julia’s Christine has been compartmentalizing or was in denial about her dad’s death. And her “her father promised her” is very pointed like she’s angry at her dad for dying

In Wandering Child, Jeremy isn’t really paternal he’s more of a patronizing “I know you have daddy issues” and he caressed his face during “far from my fathering gaze.” Julia was actively trying to resist it like physically trying to fight against the trance which I appreciated

John was ready to FIGHT in Wandering Child he charged up to the grave and it seemed like if Julia didn’t stop him he would have climbed up the wall to the Phantom. 

An overall note about John�� he seems to really pay attention to what the Phantom does. He keeps glancing at the chandelier during Il Muto and he notices the Phantom almost as early as Christine does in Masquerade. And while he’s protective of Christine he seems to be analyzing the Phantom, possibly sizing him up or trying to figure out what he’s going to do next. And I think this works really well in the last half of act II where Raoul is leading the charge because of course he is. He’s like “I’ve been studying this guy I have an idea” which also plays into the earnestness of John’s portrayal.

Jeremy’s vocals I think were strongest during PONR and his character really leans into the horniness of the song. Once Julia realizes it’s him she performed the most over-the-top sexy I’ve seen Christine do but it seemed to be to taunt the phantom. Like fully flashed her entire leg when she put her foot up on the bench.

When the Phantom proposes, Julia gently shook her head with her eyes pleading “please don’t ask that of me” and god it was such a subtle acting moment but it stood out to me so much. And then she ripped off his mask to get him to stfu

Jeremy’s Phantom has a strong attachment to his mask. As soon as he gets it back in STYDI, you can see his whole demeanor change. In the Final Lair, when he sang “A mask my first unfeeling scrape of clothing” he started to cry as if he was truly remembering his first mask. And then he realizes he’s being vulnerable in front of Christine and he gets mad at her pitying him 

John is the only Raoul I’ve seen act like he’s being strangled the whole time during the final lair. Some eventually stop struggling but he kept it up the whole time. His energy was just really refreshing.

At one point Julia tried to put her arms around the Phantom’s shoulders to plead with him, and Jeremy ducked out from her (I don’t know how since he’s so much taller) 

Jeremy was scaryyyyyy when he leaned over Christine before “you try my patience” and even after he turned around Julia was still frozen terrified. I think that was the first time I’ve ever watched it live and actually felt really really scared for Christine. Her fear was just so palpable.

After the kiss, when the Phantom walks up to Raoul, John started breathing really hard like he thought the Phantom was going to kill him and Julia’s desperate “No!” showed that she thought the same.

Because of how much Julia’s Christine wanted to be free of the Phantom it surprised my how sad her Christine seemed during the ring return. It did seem to be the mostly out of pity though. 

There was no second “I love you.” When Jeremy was standing watching Christine and Raoul ride off on the boat together, something about his body language really captured the finality of his loneliness in that moment.

When I saw Phantom in December after so many years away all it did was reawaken my love of the show, and when I saw it in March the performance was so chaotic I was distraught (an understatement) when it ended because I knew I needed to go again. Something about this performance brought a lot of closure and as soon as it ended, I didn’t cry like I did in March. I just felt content. 

I think that’s partially because every cast member is just doing the most so there were so many small moments to savor, but I also think it’s because I got to see Jeremy’s Phantom. I met him twice back in 2013/2014 when I was deep in the Phandom and him being so involved with fans was a huge part of my formative love of Phantom in high school. And when I wasn’t following the show as much I still kept up with a lot of backstage stuff through his Instagram. So it felt very full circle to finally catch him as the Phantom.

[imnotgoodatthis]

The things I am not good at list includes makeup and hair style stuff as well as art. So here's some selfies of my exploration of both in my work bathroom. Recipe blog style blah blah blah under cut.

I want to be clear. The stuff written below is meant in a "healing from generational trauma" and NOT AT ALL in a "reclaiming my dark feminine energy by being a trad-wife" way. This blog is not a safe space for TERFS, the alt-right, or whatever the latest re-packaging of mandated gender roles is.

I was raised by a woman who had a lot going on. Her relationships with her parents, religion, men, the hippie movement, cults, mental health, troubled teen industry, etc., etc., etc., all came together in so many ways that obviously left their mark on my sister and I. The mental health genetic lottery didn't help either.

Where my sister got restrictive eating disorders, a yearning for attention that eventually led her to being credited on a Grammy winning track, and hyperfemme tendencies, I got basically the exact opposite. Food is equivalent to comfort, I'd really rather not be perceived too much, and I was so disconnected from all things feminine that when I first tried the (extremely hyped) Il Makiage foundation quiz I ended up with a bottle of foundation that made me look downright pumpkin-y.

I was raised to believe the following, in retrospect, absolutely insane things about what it meant to be a woman and a feminist.

Never enjoy butterflies, unless in a biology/entomology way.

The reason was that, as my mother claimed, only women in abusive relationships actually like butterflies. The symbolism of the cocoon was likened to the work needed to be done to escape an abusive relationship. If I adorned myself with a butterfly printed t-shirt, or perhaps those butterfly shaped hair clips that were so trendy when I was young, I was basically advertising that I was more likely to be susceptible to the manipulations of abusive men. The same basic fear applied to hummingbirds, tank-tops/singlets, dreamcatchers, stained glass windows, and any sort of baking beyond brownies and birthday cakes.

Makeup exists only as a way to market an unrealistic and unattainable beauty ideal to women.

Okay, my mom lowkey popped off with this one. However, it led me into a phase of nausea inducing not-like-other-girls behavior in my teens. Luckily, I was crushed under the weight of mentally pleading with everyone around me to ignore me, so I don’t think I owe any apologies to anyone besides myself.

Doing your hair is a waste of time.

Why should I fawn for male attention? A ponytail is perfectly reasonable and efficient. Why would I need anything beyond that?

Are you getting the picture? I was goblin-core before it was cool. The weird girl that was painting Warhammer 40k miniatures, only knew how to apply goth/raccoon style eyeliner, and was forever wearing cargo shorts and a Darth Maul t-shirt? That was me. I could recite pi to the 38th numeral, but had no idea how to simply say "thank you" when a teacher commended me on my essays. Sure, I had a black belt in both Tae Kwon Do and Kung Fu, but I didn't know how to go bra shopping until I was in my mid-twenties.

I was the shittiest version of the "raised to be strong" girl from so many YA novels (also deemed "stupid" by my mother, by the way).

In a topsy-turvy way, my mother's brand of feminism was insistent on stripping me of my femininity.

My mother told me that blue eyeshadow is for prostitutes. I think it could be for anyone.

[zephyrine-gale]

ooh you’re going to conventions? which ones? (if you don’t mind me asking) will you be selling genshin stuff?

np!! it'll be my first year selling at cons so I hope it's fun! I'll be bringing all of my merch + lots of new things I'm working on I'll be at Anime Expo (CA) booth C32 and Anime Magic (IL) this year! tried to get into San Japan (TX) but they went by lottery so I didn't get in :'> still gonna try to get in through their art contest though!!

[filorunsultra]

Gare 2024: Pine to Palm? Trans d'Havet?

Ieri ho messo il nome per la lottery di WS. Partendo dal presupposto che non mi prenderanno mai passo subito agli scenari più verosimili. Vorrei tornare negli Stati Uniti, naturalmente, ma vorrei andare in un posto che non ho ancora visto. Mi piacerebbe vedere il sud, in particolare Memphis e Nashville, ma a parte Arkansas Traveller non ci sono molte gare che mi ispirano da quelle parti, quindi sarà per un'altra volta magari. Vorrei vedere la NorCal e il Pacific Northwest, e mi resta il desiderio di partecipare a una gara fuori dai radar, zero seguita, con una dimensione comunitaria forte; alla fine ho optato per Pine To Palm 100, è la gara organizzata da Hal Koerner, che mi sta super simpatico, e da Rogue Valley Runners, il negozio di Koerner in cui ha lavorato Laney, e hanno bazzicato i fratelli Skaggs e Timothy Olson. La gara non è molto storica, si tiene dal 2010, ma la cosa che mi attrae di più è il mood della partenza e dell'arrivo. Guardando i tempi medi di percorrenza ho il sospetto che correrei per 80 miglia da solo. Credo che l'unico italiano ad averla corsa sia stato il Riki Tortini. Al contrario di Javelina, dove ho mancato il suo record italiano per 9 minuti, dubito che riuscirei ad avvicinarmi al suo tempo di Pine To Palm, in cui aveva chiuso terzo, ma tant'è. Aspetti negativi: non è un qualificante per Hardrock, ma non ho mai scelto le gare perché erano qualificanti per qualcos'altro. Hardrock è in cima alla mia bucket list ma non sacrificherò la mia vita per essa: come dice Blake Wood, ci sono tante altre bellissime gare là fuori. Quindi boh, questa è l'intenzione ma poi chissà con quali soldi dovrei riuscire ad andare in Oregon. Intanto ci penso, magari una soluzione salta fuori.

Non penso che farò il Passatore, potrei farlo tanto per farlo ma sarebbe uno po' uno spreco, quindi penso che pagherò 15 euro per rimandarlo all'anno dopo. Vorrei rifare invece Trans d'Havet. TDH è stata la mia prima gara e l'ho fatta due volte, ma sono cambiato molto come corridore e vorrei farla bene. Mi piacerebbe stare sotto le 12 ore. Mi manca il profumo delle Piccole Dolomiti in estate, l'alba sul Pasubio e la notte sul Novegno. Mi manca invece meno la risalita alla Selletta Nord Ovest e la salita in Carega. Ma è davvero una vita che non vado da quelle parti, credo circa tre anni, troppo tempo per essere state le mie montagne di casa tanto a lungo. Vorrei tornare sui miei passi, back on my miles, per fare il conto di cos'è cambiato.

Inizierò l'anno con dei cross, per il resto non penso che farò una gara in primavera: mi piacerebbe anche ma non trovo nulla che mi interessi, e non mi è mai piaciuto fare gare tanto per fare. Per cui penso che ne farò due, poi si vedrà.

Joe Grant, Anton Krupicka and Dakota Jones on the top of the First Flatiron

[eliographics]

Art commissions with a bonus!

Hi, everyone!

I'm opening some art commissions but with a ✨ twist ✨.

See, my friend and I organize lotteries on a regular basis to help fund our project of opening an LGBTQIA+ friendly association with which to organize small social gatherings (bookclubs, watchparties, tabletop and/or card games) in Southern Italy, where these types of organizations are few and far between.

A lottery ticket costs 1,50€.

The lottery draw should be held around the 25th of September.

These are our prizes, all Am*zon gift cards!

1st place - 100 bucks

2nd place - 50 bucks

3rd place - 25 bucks

4th place - 10 bucks

5th place - 10 bucks

6th place - 10 bucks

7th place - 10 bucks

I was thinking of combining the purchase of a ticket with the purchase of artwork, effectively making them art commissions with a bonus ticket/tickets so we would have something like this:

Sketch B/W

Headshot:

€1,50 (one ticket)

Half Body:

€3,00 (two tickets)

Full Body:

€4,50 (three tickets)

Flat Color

Headshot:

€3,00 (two tickets)

Half Body:

€4,50 (three tickets)

Full Body:

€6,00 (four tickets)

Shaded

Headshot:

€4,50 (three tickets)

Half Body:

€6,00 (four tickets)

Full Body:

€7,50 (five tickets)

Here's how it would work:

Regular commission business as usual:

You pay half upfront

I work on the artwork

You pay the other half upon completion of the artwork

Ticket business

Upon the second half of the payment of the artwork, you pick your ticket(s) from this list numbered 1-500. That's right, each ticket has a quote from an artist's song on it! You can choose any artist you want 😊.

After the payment, I'll send you the PDF file containing your ticket through whichever way is most comfortable for you - Tumblr DMs, email, etc. You name it!

Here's my P*yPal link which unfortunately has my deadname because of the platform's policies.

Here are some examples of my art:

✅ WILL DRAW:

- Fanart

- Mild NSFW

- Mild Gore

- Simple mecha

- Simple Furry/Anthro

- Simple Backgrounds

❌ WON'T DRAW:

- Backgrounds

- Anything bigoted or offensive.

I have every right to reject a commission if I find it triggering in this regard.

Here's our socials.

https://instagram.com/la.coven.official

It would mean the world to us, thank you ☺️.

Reblogs are very much appreciated 💜.

[soldan56]

“Tornando a B., gli manca l’organo della vita intellettuale, etica, estetica. In compenso ha un apparato percettivo e motorio adatto alla caccia: animale monstre, del genere caimano o squalo, diversamente dai quali allarga le ganasce nel riso, scherza, parla come le fontane buttano acqua, suona, balla; e l’ascendente ilare moltiplica le prede. Laurea tardiva in legge, imprese edili, bilanci opachi, girandole societarie, affari via via più grossi. Viene su a coups de main. Uno è l’acquisto della principesca villa d’Arcore dall’unica erede Casati Stampa: costa poco, quasi niente; mediava la compravendita un avvocato, già protutore dell’alienante, sulla cui testa peseranno condanne penali perché gli compra favori giudiziari (così sedici anni dopo, diventa editore dominante, padrone della Mondadori); e lì, a Villa San Martino, s’insedia uno pseudostalliere, boss mafioso, restandovi due anni. Sta a pennello nella P2. Sinora era storia d’ordinario affarismo. Quando la Consulta schiude l’etere ai privati abolendo il monopolio statale, irrompe e divora i concorrenti. L’arma è una gestione stregonesca: soap-opere, vaudeville sguaiato, lotterie, giochi, un allegro mondo finto dove la fortuna sta dietro l’angolo; niente che affatichi i neuroni, lasciamoli dormire (la Rai manda in onda Omero, Flaubert, Tolstoj o simili barbose pappolate); così cattura l’audience e rastrella pubblicità. La Corte postulava dei limiti. Come non detto, e quando dei pretori tentano d’imporli, gli presta man forte Bettino Craxi, presidente del Consiglio dettando scandalosi decreti. L’operazione costa un occhio ma ne valeva due. Giulio Andreotti vara una legge Mammì che lo consacra duopolista: cinque ministri democristiani tentavano d’impedire l’abuso dimettendosi, impassibile, li sostituisce d’un colpo. La cadente Repubblica era corrotta nelle midolla: gliele mangiavano consorterie fameliche, quindi odiose agl’imprenditori; un’inchiesta penale innesca la spirale; e finiscono travolte. Nel vuoto entra lui, fingendosi uomo nuovo in polemica col professionismo politico parassitario del quale è figlio: gl’ignari lo vedono liberal-liberista, pragmatico, semplificatore; accorrono dei chierici delusi dal vecchio establishment. Vari segni destano sospetti: ad esempio, l’inno, talmente volgare da non attecchire; quel sorriso digrignato ha l’aspetto fisso delle maschere; l’Ego gli cade da ogni parte. Vinta la partita elettorale, figura male al governo, com’era prevedibile. Gli mancano qualità organiche: la cura degl’interessi altrui in prospettive lunghe implica distacco dall’Io; lui vi sta avviluppato, un pitone nelle spire; era affarista da preda, tale rimane, insofferente d’ogni regola. Non è il suo mestiere: dura solo sei mesi ma disponendo d’un ordigno formidabile, l’adopera senza scrupoli, sul presupposto che lo spettatore medio, frollato al punto giusto, abbia l’età mentale d’undici anni, e dipenda solo dallo stregone abbassarla ancora; dopo sedici mesi d’interregno, raccoglie più voti del cartello avversario, perdendo nei Collegi uninominali. Sul campo è l’antipode del capitalista weberiano. Imprenditore? No, impresario d’una lobectomia collettiva e scorridore d’affari: pratica ridendo menzogna sistematica, fraudolenta quando occorre, arte del corrompere, plagio spietato; predatore-barzellettiere dai riflessi infallibili, non patisce fisime inibitorie né perde tempo in fatiche mentali; nel suo genere combina mirabilia. Qui viene utile la scienza del viso: il catalogo medievale degl’indizi include soprannomi e mala physiognomia; le icone berlusconiane, meticolosamente curate dagli addetti, dicono tutto”. Così , su #Berlusconi, Franco Cordero (quanto ci manca oggi), ricordato e riproposto da Duccio Facchini e @altreconomia

via @tomasomontanari

[sloshed-cinema]

Cinema Paradiso (1988)

Maybe we should keep the kissing parts in both our movies and our lives.  Postwar Italy is a wasteland of anger and loss, a country blasted to hell and back for the glory of Il Duce, and for what?  Dead husbands and ruined infrastructure.  A singular escape exists for young Salvatore in the form of the local cinema, and in the saint of a projectionist Alfredo who puts up with his nonsense.  Existence is authoritarian and cruel, teachers beating students for not knowing their multiplication tables and priests censoring movies for entire communities.  Cinema is dangerous in its implication, but also dangerous in its projection.  Alfredo gives everything he has, both to Salvatore and to his community.  He teaches the young boy his art and shares his gift with the town, both inside the theatre and for free out on the wall when their craving for movies proves insatiable.  Yet it’s that gift which causes the fire that blinds the old man.  Salvatore too mounts on his own expeditions of futility, courting a girl endlessly who proves fleeting and eternally unavailable.  When Salvatore throws off the yoke of suffocating life in this town of ghosts, he achieves cinematic success, apparently, but without the love associated with the emotions he sees depicted onscreen.  There are elements here, but the film is so jumpy and spotty in its connective tissue that it becomes difficult to connect with Salvatore’s journey.  Fleeting frames of elder Toto remembering his youth are apparently sufficient to explain his entire career and lack of connection with his past, and the jarring sense of loss captured in the conflagration of the first Cinema Paradiso is immediately undercut by the local lottery winner building a new one.  No amount of saccharine Ennio Morricone scoring can help to buoy cinematic thinness.

Life is a film for Salvatore, something underscored by the film’s editing sensibilities.  Match cuts are a characteristic feature throughout, pairing things seen projected on the silver screen with small-town life, from ringing bells to slaps.  Movies are a group event, everyone whooping and crying at what they see, but for Salvatore in his youth, they’re larger than life.  The lion seemingly vomiting up the film springs to life for him, frightening and beguiling.  That is the experience conjured by good movies, and imitated hollowly by this one.

THE RULES

SIP

A movie starts to show in the cinema.

A match cut happens in the edit.

Time jump.

BIG DRINK

Whackin’ kids.

The movie does that shot of someone watching a movie with the projector making a halo over their head.

[inemi]

Noce i Dnie - nenufary

Nim las nim kłos

Nim noc dojrzeje

Ktoś wygra los

Ktoś porzuci nas

Nasz dom nasz ląd zniknie gdzieś

Odpłynie w dal biała wieś

Będziemy snem zorzą zórz

Morskim dnem i gwiazdą

Pokochaj mnie z całych sił

Pokochaj mnie na sto lat

Pokochaj mnie jakbyś był

Tak młody jak był dawniej świat

Już zielenieje sad po burzy

Nim roztopimy się w podróży

Ty kochaj mnie od nocy do nocy

Aż po noc

Nim kłos nim las

Nim noc dojrzeje

Masz jeszcze czas

By pokochać mnie

Bo jak to jest jak to tak

Że więdnie bez cichnie ptak

Zegary tak śpieszą się

Biegną dnie i noce

Pokochaj mnie lesie mój

Kochajcie mnie ranne mgły

Darujcie mi biały strój

Tak mało już nocy i dni

Znów zielenieje sad po burzy

Nim roztopimy się w podróży

Ty kochaj mnie od nocy do nocy

Aż po noc

Avant la forêt, avant l'oreille

Avant que la nuit ne mûrisse

Quelqu'un gagnera à la loterie

Quelqu'un nous abandonnera

Notre maison, notre terre disparaîtra quelque part

Le village blanc s'envolera

Nous serons un rêve d'aurore boréale

Les fonds marins et l'étoile

Aime-moi de toutes tes forces

Aime-moi depuis cent ans

Aime-moi comme tu l'étais

Aussi jeune que le monde l'était

Le verger verdit déjà après la tempête

Avant de nous fondre dans le voyage

Tu m'aimes de nuit en nuit

Jusqu'à la nuit

Devant un épi de maïs il y a une forêt

Avant que la nuit ne mûrisse

Tu as encore le temps

M'aimer

Parce que si c'est comme ça, c'est comme ça

Que l'oiseau se flétrit sans silence

Les horloges sont si rapides

Les jours et les nuits passent

Aime-moi, ma forêt

Aime-moi, brumes matinales

Donne-moi la tenue blanche

Il y a si peu de nuits et de jours

Le verger est à nouveau vert après la tempête

Avant de nous fondre dans le voyage

Tu m'aimes de nuit en nuit

Jusqu'à la nuit

Before the forest, before the ear

Before the night matures

Someone will win the lottery

Someone will abandon us

Our house, our land will disappear somewhere

The white village will fly away

We will be a dream of aurora borealis

The seabed and the star

Love me with all your strength

Love me for a hundred years

Love me like you were

As young as the world was

The orchard is already greening after the storm

Before we blend into the journey

You love me from night to night

Until the night

In front of an ear of corn there is a forest

Before the night matures

You still have time

Love me

Because if it is like that, it is like that

That the bird withers without silence

The clocks are so fast

The days and nights pass

Love me, my forest

Love me, morning mists

Give me the white outfit

There are so few nights and days

The orchard is green again after the storm

Before we blend into the journey

You love me from night to night

Until the night

[the---hermit]

2023 wrap up 1/2

As I did last year I am posting a wrap up of all the books I have read during the year. I have linked all the individual book reviews I have posted during the year (I have not posted the reviews of some books for various reasons, but I still included the titles). I have gradually made this post during the year, so I hope past me didn't forget any of the books I read in 2023. This is the first half of my wrap up with all the books I read from January to June 2023

The House At Pooh Corner by A.A. Milne

100 Hugs by Chris Riddell

Monsters by Christopher Dell

The Sandman volume 7 by Neil Gaiman

The Sandaman volume 8 by Neil Gaiman

Cain's Jawbone by Torquemada

Il Segreto Del Bosco Vecchio by Dino Buzzati

Hilda and The Troll by Luke Pearson

Geronimo Stilton and The Kingdom Of Fantasy 1 , book 2, book 3 and 4

The Tower Of Swallows by Andrzej Sapkowski

The Marriage Portrait by Maggie O'Farrell

Gideon The Ninth by Tamsyn Muir

Who Goes There? by John W. Campbell

The Restaurant At The End Of The Universe by Dougles Adams

La Scuola Di Pizze In Faccia Del Professor Calcare by Zerocalcare

Harrow The Ninth by Tamsyn Muir

Scheletri by Zerocalcare

My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness by Kabi Nagata

How We Read Now by Naomi S. Baron

Niente Di Nuovo Sul Fronte Di Rebibbia by Zerocalcare

Through The Looking Glass by Lewis Carroll

Deadendia Broken Halo by Hamish Steele

Kafka Diario Di Un Disperso by E.F. Benson

La Lettura by Maurizio Vivarelli

Peter Pan by J.M. Barrie

The Hugasaurus by Rachel Bright

The Golden Bug by Edgar Allan Poe

The Parasite by Arthur Conan Doyle

The Room In The Tower by

Anansi Boys by Neil Gaiman

The Priory Of The Orange Tree by Samantha Shannon

What Lies In The Woods by Kate Alice Marshall

Daisy Darker by Alice Feeney

Jurassic Park by Michael Crichton

Through The Woods by Emily Carroll

Interview With The Vampire by Anne Rice

The Lottery and other stories by Shirley Jackson

De Profundis by Oscar Wilde

Mary Shelly L'Eterno Sogno by Alessandro Di Virgilio and Manuela Santoni

The Hobbits Of Tolkien by David Day

The Left Hand Of Darkness by Ursula K. Le Guin

The Creation Of Mythology by Marcel Detienne

The Phantom Twin by Lisa Brown

Gender Queer by Maia Kobabe

Fangs by Sarah Andersen

We Are The Champions by Tuono Pettinato and Dario Moccia

Dimentica Il Mio Nome by Zerocalcare

She Who Became The Sun by Shelley Parker Chan

The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon by Stephen King

Ogni Maledetto Lunedì Su Due by Zerocalcare

The House In The Cerulean Sea by T.J. Klune

L'Elenco Telefonico Degli Accolli by Zerocalcare

Macerie Prime and Macerie Prime Sei Mesi Dopo by Zerocalcare