#ik what you're thinking 'theyre just lines' EXACTLY

[donttouchtheneednoggle]

don't mind me just dethorning the bramble in my stick insects' cage because a CERTAIN beautiful old lady

managed to snag her wing on one and got stuck there until I saw and detangled her and I am not eager to repeat the experience!!

ALSO I finally managed to get a picture of the whole family as it is now :DDD

1 adult Indian stick insect, 1 adult Pink Winged stick insect and three Pink Winged stick insect nymphs at various stages of development

(I also have an Indian stick insect nymph but she lives in a separate enclosure at the moment and is so tiny getting her out would be way to stressful for both her and me)

[good-oldfashioned-lover-girl]

(yes yes yes oml like on the surface she looks peaceful and calm but then you sorta delve into her thoughts and actually start to understand what’s rly going on in her mind and all the multitude of feelings muddled together perfectly sorta building and spiralling down) (also fuck me her voice in labour i can’t it’s not fair how good it is but i mean even without that aspect no the building in it your so right like the pure emotion is actually insane especially i actually have so many thoughts on the labour music video it’s not even funny it’s a work of art like even down to the tiny things when on very specific lines he reaches forward and your stomach just drops like what’s he gonna do will he hurt her but instead he just takes more of the food she prepared which in some way is the same bc he just takes more and more from her and what she’s produced but anyway that’s a tangent)

(the idea of life and death being intertwined its sorta just intrinsically part of the song somehow? like everything about it dances across the line not least bc even when dead she’s still kinda conscious yk like she’s writing from the pov of a dead woman but sorta implying the ability to still think which ik is just bc she’s writing a song but still the choice to do it from that pov and not looking on at a dead woman whilst still living) (yesss like how humans are apt to romanticise everything as a form of escapism when we don’t like and/or understand it bc otherwise it’s just a sorta terror of the unknown, like almost the need to comprehend the incomprehensible bc there’s not another option, and what happens after death has to fit into what happens in life bc we cannot fathom anything different, which she literally says in the song with ‘death won’t bring what you think it will’ and then even the brief change to ‘hope it will’ which just absicndin has so many more implications) (yes yes yes to her this unknowing and uncertainty is comforting as opposed to worrying bc ig almost you can’t get ready or prepare yourself for it and that just makes it more comforting and peaceful, finally she can relax) (you’ve written that so prettily what and also yesss like the idea of her writing from the point of view of the dead person, and so imagining the comfort and then i cannot think of anything to add to the rest bc you’ve said it so perfectly) (oml the idea of respite not equalling permanence like she just wants a break, she wants one more millennia but then she’s ready, one day she’s ready to go back and interact again but for now she just wants to rest)

i spent so long trying to work out what i thought about it bc its not as simple as the anthropology professor verse but i almost like to think of it as her looking upon her living self idek if that makes sense but not just her living self but who she sorta longs to be? like someone who is peaceful despite the hardships of life they've faced, and is able to relax without waiting for death which isnt the ideal time to long for, not least bc you lose some of that freedom life can gives you exactly as you say, she 'doesn’t want to give up perceiving, awareness, feeling, and like, the experience of just…being' so even when she finally reaches that point of rest she's so happy about there's always something more she wants like humans we can never be content we're always longing for something more, the grass is always greener on the other side. But i'm so curious to hear you're thoughts bc for some reason i just listened to this section on repeat for so long trying to get my thoughts straight

yess her songs just in general are perfect for both just letting the feelings wash over you, but also to analyse every individual line (as we've demonstrated lmao) its so perfect. (pleasee like its almost similar to in fictional books, i mean tfios ok? ok., instead its sorry im repetitive and reassurance its ok bc truly theyre in love, and tiny reassurances like that can be so simple and yet so genuine.) (oml ‘gentle violence’ as you say, there’s something so sweet about that idea bc it’s such a complete trust that’s needed to achieve that it only adds and adds to the safety just that comes naturally to them, jesus christ you put it so beautifully 'because we’re so accustomed to mourning something beautiful before it has even died, the sheer force of all that? It’s violent.'???? like help please i feel like i want to just analyse your words now im in shock but oml no your so right also like the, even just vulnerability that being in love requires and yet we as humans are so adverse to the concept, i mean there's a reason so many poems about love focus on insanity bc the multitude of contrasts being in love evokes? like naturally the next step is violence and yet its gentle, it lets you strip away the hatred behind violence and turn it into something beautiful and simple somehow) (oh the songs cruel alright im never gonna be able to stop thinking abt it it shall torture me till the day i die)

also i need music recs bc the music isn’t musicing atm

okayyy sooo lizzy mcalpine has my heart and soul (pancakes for dinner always gets me right in the feels) and also paris paloma’s new album?? It’s so cathartic and omg bones on the beach is one of my favourites (I think it’s also a really lovely exploration into like the romanticism of death and just captures this kind of dreamy but world weary feeling that kind of just settles in your bones and just kind of quietly suffers or rots there) (AND THE KNITTING SONG IS SO SOFT AND WARM AND GENTLE AND COMFORTING) (also been listening to so much queen lately because good omens)