#ignore this ofc i'm yelling because i don't have a therapist

[freethefable]

having a bad time :thumbsup:

[anawkwardlady]

idk if I can ask for things on your own prompts, but 12 or 15 would be pretty neat to read from you

Ofc its alright. I feel like going with the 12 ! It's mostly dialogues which is not my strong point, hope it still has some values ! Also, ironic from the person who said "dont take this list seriously" probably lol

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"I'm suffering, you cunt !"

"Right. And do you ever tell Claude about this suffering ?"

Alois got startled by the weird response he got from his therapist. Was she so used to getting called names it wasn't doing anything anymore ? He looked at her and looked at Claude. They were separated by an empty chair, a statement really, about how Hannah couldn't be here today. It was really important to still leave her place, apparently.

"Well... I think I did... But if I didn't, it should be obvious"

"Because your friend Ciel thinks it's obvious"

"It got obvious with the breakdowns..."

"You have to get to the breakdowns to have people noticing you're not doing good"

"I mean he did talk about that before"

"And you brushed him off. But even when you get to that point, Claude is not noticing."

"Because Ciel is mean about it. No he is not"

"Alois, Claude is right next to you, why didn't you tell him instead of yelling at me. I know you're suffering thats why we're here."

The boy turned his gaze, he didn't know why he had to do it, he felt like he went through this a thousand time but couldn't remember a single one. He is mad at him.

"Claude, I'm in pain."

Claude, who was usually mostly quiet during these sessions, finally broke the silence after a few seconds.

"I hear you"

"And did you know he was before he said it ?" She asked,

"How can I not notice. He's..."

"Talk to him" She cut,

So he did, looking right in front of him.

"You, you are unconsolable."

"You don't have to say it like that ! If you're noticing then... then you're just ignoring me."

The boy's voice broke in a few sobs. Why did he turn any cry for help into a rancid criticism. Like... Like he is being an inconvenience existing like this. Claude rubs his temples with irritation.

"That is why I don't like coming" he whispered,

"Because he is crying ? Is crying a bad thing Mr. Faustus ?"

"No, I guess if he needs it. But what am I supposed to do ?"

"Meaning ?"

He quietly sighed, and coldly stared at the therapist he wanted to strangle right there.

"I hear you Alois. I don't know what to do with you. I don't think Hannah does either."

Every word took its time and felt hard enough to say like they were heavy secrets or humiliating apologies.

"Then I'm fucked, I'm glad I came to hear that"

The blond chuckled in between his sobs while this therapist slowly shook her head, pretty assured.

"Oh no no. I think we can finally start working with you."

She then looked at her watch

"I told you, I know you're suffering, that's why you're here. They both know that when they come. Even if you hate it, Mr Faustus you're coming"

No answer, he just started to gather his clothes and cleaned his glasses.

"We'll see you next week ? With everyone ?"

"Sure." Claude throws. Alois wiped his puffed cheeks with his hands and grabbed on his arms.

They leave.