#if your honestly wondering why I stay anon I'd love to have a convo with you

[bimormondisaster]

You cannot be Bi and a member of the church. The leadership does not love or support you. I don’t understand how queerstake exists it baffles me.

I know losing your faith is hard, but staying in the church will be so much harder as you’re condemned every sacrament meeting and every general conference. They may act like they love and accept you but they will always want you to change a fundamental part of who you are. I hope people like you see the light and leave.

Hi Anon! It's pretty late for me so sorry if some of my sentences don't make complete sense. 1) I don't need the leaderships love or support in order to live based off the personal revelation I've received.

2) Queerstake isn't just active members, we have people who have left, people who have stayed, and tons of others

3) Who said I lost my faith? It's right here in my pocket... or maybe not, crap I think I left it at home

4) How am I condemned? By what others say? My friend words may cut deep but the knowledge that I left behind something I feel so strongly about without fighting for a better experience for the next generation cuts so much deeper

5) Some may want to change me that I wont deny, but some truly love you. Queerstake, my old bishop, some members of my ward, they all love me and either wanted to hear my experience, wanted to learn how to be better ally's, or both

6) I see the light everyday, I see it in my friends, in the love of my life, in my future, in the faith of others, in community, and so many other places. I do not have a lack of light in my life because my path is different than yours. I'm truly grateful that you care enough for a stranger on the internet that you took the time to send me a message which seems to only have concern and love in it. But I know that for me the church is where I need to be, at least for now.

7) This brings me back to your first sentence, watch me.

[kinnsporsche]

once again an episode that made me absolutely lose my mind!!! kp are so in love and they finally said it!! although, i would have liked it better if they said it to each other in private first but oh well can't have everything. and porsche is officially a stay at home wife i love that for him. the scene when p was drying kinn’s hair though, it was the softest shit i have ever seen in my life <3 i also loved the scenes with taytime they are always so good i wish they had more screen time. 1/4

and we got the kimchay breakup :/ i was expecting it but it still hurt. I still have hope that they will end up together. however, the most important part of this episode (for me) was vegaspete!!! god these two make me go insane. the way we went from sadistic torture to that convo at the end. bible and build's chemistry is actually unbelievable i can't get enough of these sick motherfuckers. and don't even get me started on the cinematography like the lights and the shots and just the whole atmosphere it was so good and so sexy and I’m gonna need 3-5 business days to recover. that preview was the final nail in my coffin i don't think i can wait a whole week for more. I’ve read some metas about them but honestly I don’t even care if vegas changes for pete or not. their relationship is so fucked up on so many levels that I don’t think it can really be redeemed. certainly not in 3 episodes. and honestly does he need to be? can’t he just stay the fucked up villain that he is? I wouldn’t mind. I’m just here to enjoy some toxic fictional men be sexy and gay and so far they did just that so I’m satisfied. I can’t believe we only have 3 episodes left T_T I don’t know what I will do when this show ends. (I hope you’re doing well )

omg my kp anon i've missed u so much!!!!

for me i'd always had a hc that kinn had a hard time saying ily to anybody bcs he'd been burned by love in the past so he hated saying it but this show roundhouse kicked that in the face and left me obliterated at the scene this mf is out here shouting it from rooftops to anybody who'll listen good for him

god you know what sends me absolutely feral? kinn casually mentioning his mother to porsche. her death must still be a sore subject for him, nobody talks about it we've hardly had any mention of her and for him to just be like "my mother used to do this for me" god how long has it been since someone's taken care of him like that? and now here's porsche the biggest caretaker in the world just so ready and willing to do everything he can to take care of kinn bcs thats his love language and he loves him sm i just y'all mind if i break the fuck down real fast

pls the kimchay break up!!!! like kimothy i get why you did what you did but that doesn't mean me and tankhun won't beat your ass for it bestie 😔😔 you made the baby cry. like he's literally alread living at the estate, he can't get anymore involved with the mafia, but i guess kim was literally just faced with the reality of porchay being kidnapped because of his ties to the mafia through his brother, and he's probably thinking about how much worse it'll be if he's tied to the mafia through HIM, he's probably thinking about all their enemies and how much of a target it'd make him so he's being a self-sacrificing little shit about it god tankhun needs to hit him with a tray and knock some sense into him

i haven't been that eager about the vp arc yet, im betting that'll probably change in today's ep and next weeks ep 👀 just wanna see pete humble that man so bad, and i dont want vegas to stop being a bad person just bcs he gets with pete ykwim? he's interesting because he's a villain lets keep it that way besties. i do bet he'll get a redemption arc, i've mentioned this to a few people i talk to but with the way things are going it made me wonder if the big shootout at the major family house in the promo where vegas is framed as a big bad is actually misleading and vegas'll be there to help kinn and the major family and maybe put a bullet in his dad's head i just wish him a very big die even if i will miss the dilf 😔

pls dont mention that we only have 3 episodes left pls dont mention that theres only 2 more weeks of kinnporsche or i'll start to eat glass