#if you take out iftye the man maathp london boy yntcd and me! -- then it's a great album

[petruchio]

not to beat a dead horse but honestly the most annoying thing about lover is that there really is a great album in there if you look for it.

like first there’s the progression of light in the album. how we move from artificial with the “glow of the vending machine” and “the christmas lights (in) january” until all the light disappears while “i wake in the night/i pace like a ghost" and "i whisper in the dark." but somehow, light still manages to creep in even during the night: “the moon is high/like your friends were the night that we first met," until “the morning comes and you’re not my baby." still, the speaker holds out hope that the morning can bring the lover back, saying that “this ultraviolet morning light below tells me this love is worth the fight” so we end up in the daylight. in some ways, the whole album is an expansion of the single line "starry eyes sparking up my darkest night" from reputation. we see that line spiral out in real time as lover progresses.

and then there's everything that happens in cars (im drunk in the back of the car/we were in the backseat drunk on something stronger than the drinks in the bar/we can follow the sparks i’ll drive/cut the headlights, summers a knife/i want to drive away with you/show me a gray sky, a rainy cab ride) which in itself is revisiting something that occupies of so much of taylor's early work. so much of debut and fearless take place in cars (just a boy in a chevy truck/i was riding shotgun with my hair undone/in the passenger seat you put your eyes on me) because cars are one of the few places where a teenager can be afforded privacy. in some ways, extreme and isolating fame is a form of ongoing childhood (i never grew up, it's getting so old) (there's this thing people say about celebrities, that they get frozen at the age they got famous) and it's against this background that cars again take on that same significance as they did in adolescence.

and then there's all the repeated imagery of city streets and traffic lights (i’d never walk cornelia street again/i ask the traffic lights if it’ll be alright/he got my heartbeat skipping down sixteenth avenue/i'm new york city/you're the west village/as if the streetlights pointed in an arrowhead leading us home) because lover is a story about a person becoming a city and a city becoming a lover. welcome to new york -- but we are no longer talking about the city itself, because new york has become one with the object of lover's affection. so it's no wonder that the dead center of the album is cornelia street and dbatc. side a ends with cornelia street and side b begins with dbatc, because they're two sides of the same coin: it's the story of a physical place becoming so wrapped up with another person that the speaker realizes that if that person were to leave them, they could never experience in that place the same way again. "windows flung right open" turn into "i look through the windows of this love, even though we boarded them up." "we were a fresh page on the desk" turns into "if the story's over, why am i still writing pages?" the streetlights that once "pointed us home" now cannot even tell us if it's going to be alright anymore. while the speaker can "get mystified by how this city screams your name," they could just as easily "see you everywhere" because if it ends, "the only thing we share is this small town." if the lover leaves, the entire city will be ruined.

and that's the fear on which the whole album is centered. lover is not an album on love, but on anxiety. what do you do after you've realized that one person has the power to truly break you? that if they ever left you, the very city that once welcomed you, waited for you, and taught you "a new soundtrack" would be ruined forever by the mere memory of them? that's where we begin to understand lover: that anxiety. we start with so many questions: "i love you, ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?" "who could ever leave me darling? but who could stay?" in this context, "can i go where you go? can we always be this close?" is not just romantic, it's an indication of this same terror. the speaker isn't confident enough to know that they can be together -- they still feel the need to ask. lover being placed so early on the tracklist indicates that it's a song that still comes from a place of anxiety.

at some point, we find a false confidence: i think he knows and paper rings lay out a vision of love that sounds almost simplistic again. we don't need anyone but each other, "i ain't gotta tell him i think he knows" and "i like shiny things but i'd marry you with paper rings." the speaker tries to let go of the anxieties of cruel summer and the archer, but too soon, that cornelia street fear creeps in again. and so the speaker decides that the love must hold something false in it: "we might just get away with it" but "it's a false god." and eventually, inevitably, everything falls apart. and the speaker, so angry with themself for letting it happen again, returns to the questions we found earlier on the album: "why'd i have to break what i love so much?" there's an apology, and an acceptance that there has to be a stable friendship in order to make this work: "it's nice to have a friend" to have someone to "call my bluff," to admit that "you've been stressed out lately, yeah, me too." the lovers are able to be honest with each other here, to apologize, because they've built up a foundation of friendship underneath all the drama and anxiety and intensity of feeling we saw earlier in the album.

so after all this, when we finally reach the end, the realization is not that the love or the lover themselves is grand or beautiful or anything really. the realization is that the anxiety itself is what will ruin things: that's why the album ends with the lines "you gotta step into the daylight and let it go. just let it go." because after all this anxiety and stress and questioning, the only answer is to simply let it go. for the speaker to accept that the love is more important than the fear: "i want to be defined by the things that i love, not the things that i'm afraid of." and so the album ends, not with a statement of love for another person, but with a declaration about the self: i just think that you are what you love.

[whiskeyswifty]

In your opinion are Taylor’s self-written songs usually better than the ones she wrote with co-writers?

I think it really depends. I joke a lot about how I want her to work with more no-men who will edit her work, but if I’m serious about it I think it’s more WHO she works with and under what circumstances. Other than folklore, I don’t actually know how much she balances that workload and creative contribution and collaboration with the people she works with. and on top of that, sometimes a writing combo produces absolute ass and other times it's one of my favorite songs she's ever written, so it's really hard to make a generalization like that. she actually doesn't write as many songs all by herself in a locked room or whatever as much as people think.

Let's take Lover for example because it's very interesting to me:

-of the 18 tracks, she is the sole songwriter for only 3 songs; Lover, cornelia st, and daylight. Right off the bat, i'm 2/3 for enjoyment, mayyyybe 3/3 if i'm feeling generous, but both daylight and lover are mid to me, cornelia st being the strongest of this trio imo.

-There are 3 main songwriting groups she works with on this album. Joel Little is Group A. Jack Antonoff and friends is group B. And, rather forgettable, Louis Bell and Adam Feeney are Group C. Lets break down the track listing by those subgroups + her solo work.

Group A: The Man, MAATHP, YNTCD, ME!

Group B: Cruel Summer, The Archer, I think He Knows, Paper rings, DBATC, London Boy, Soon You'll Get Better, False God.

Group C: IFTYE, Afterglow, INTHAF

Solo Written: Lover, Cornelia St, Daylight

This is a great example of how difficult it is to say who produces the best work and who produces the worst with her, and if she's better off with co-writers or not. lets get into it.

For group A, i think pretty widely we can agree she didn't work with Joel Little again after this for a reason, so that's perhaps the only simple answer which is that their creative collaboration, for whatever reason, was extremely unsuccessful. However, that's Mr. Pure Heroine producer himself so a good example of how it might not be HIS fault that the songs were bad. nor her fault either, but proof that she alone cannot carry a song to success despite a co-writer, and proof that a cowriter can't save a shit song. he's clearly capable of creating incredible work, and so is she. just only with the right creative alchemy and chemistry which he and taylor clearly did NOT have.

Group B, Mr. Antonoff a troubled figure in my eyes but here really shines. the only song's i don't like in this group are Paper Rings and London Boy, which are also not top tier songs for most swifties and the genpop. not as hated as i hate them, but certainly not top performers. that gives jackie boy a 6/8 hit ratio which is pretty good, AND some of those songs are some of my favorite taylor songs of all time. now the question begs why are these such smashes and creatively compelling songs, and other (ahem later) work so lackluster? i don't know of course, but this might be a good example of how the alchemy and chemistry might be there, but as I said before circumstances are also key. at this point, several things have happened. since their first collaboration on 1989, jack has branched out and produced several genres of music for other artists and has grown his toolset, experience, and his confidence. also, this is taylor and jack's 3rd record together, and their rapport and shorthand and creative energy has likely strengthened and electrified by now to a very goldilocks zone you could say. both of them not exactly on top of the world so they still have something to prove, and they're at a point where they likely understand each other and are energized by each other, but aren't comfortable and complacent. it's hard to say definitively if thats true, but that's certainly how it can be positioned and how the quality of the output can be explained. once again, circumstances and timing!

Group C is very interesting, as i only like one of the 3, INTHAF, however it's weighted so heavily because its, imo, one of the most beautiful, interesting production wise, and completely original works taylor has ever made. This is perhaps a good example of something else that i wish taylor would do more, which is take creative risks and work with people who encourage those risks. Afterglow is more run of the mill for her, so we'll throw that one out. but IFTYE and INTHAF are both very outside the box for her. IFTYE is sung in a predominantly spoken word way, verrrrrry conversational, often speaking off beat. and maybe the only song similar to it is TIWWCHNT, but even then, the cadence is way more freeform and reactionary on IFTYE. while i find that song unsuccessful, that same freeform songwriting structure works WONDERS for INTHAF. the song is more of a 3 part poem, with a repeating single phrase but no real chorus (which she talked about being challenging for her when writing this song), and for miss pop formula that's a bold move. the whole song was an exercise in distilling a song down to only what is most necessary, forcing her to be incredibly purposeful and thoughtful with every word. again, some words are also sung on the downbeats, but they flow seamlessly because the instrumental of this song is just stunning and perfectly paired. also EXTREMELY out of left field and experimental for her. it has steel fucking drums!!!! which you typically find in tropical/Caribbean music which could not be further from her sound. and a trumpet solo!! which comes off almost jazzy that pairs so well with how the lyrics are also that kind of meandering, unstructured jazzy freeform for her. but the real killer is how for once, she holds back lyrically when it comes to scene setting. she's very reserved in what she shares and then lets the instrumental tell the story too. she gives you some information that the song starts with the story of children, but the children's choir comes BEFORE the lyrics start to already lay that thematic groundwork. they carry through the song and at the end, the children's choir doubles as further scene setting for the church where the subjects of the song get married. but even then, before the lyric about church bells comes in YOU HEAR ONE RING IN THE SONG!!! she's purposely holding back lyrically and letting the instruments fill in the gaps of the story, which is a method of songwriting that is almost cinematic in how sound effects and sound scapes tell the story just as much as the lyrics do. it's a great challenge for her as a songwriter and really pushed her creativity, forced her to think differently about what a song can be, and imo it produced phenomenal and completely original (for her) results. Clearly Group C challenged her and pushed her in new directions. the downside of that is with taking creative risks comes a high chance of failure, and while the other 2 songs are not failures totally, they're much less successful. but that's important still!! pushing her is important and it's the only way we get to great creative work that is new and exciting and important, so to me, the failures of Group C are worth it for the delicious success of INTHAF.

As for her solo work, i will say i enjoy Cornelia St. a lot, and Lover and Daylight are ok, but imo they're like almost fully baked. there are aspects of all 3 of them that could be pushed juuuuust a little further towards greatness. clunkiness that could be cleaned up, metaphors and turns of phrased that could be polished just a bit more until they really shine. compared to all 3 groups, clearly her solo work is better than Group A, and some of Group C, but i think falls short of a lot of Group B.

idk. on the whole, i guess i can conclude that her solo work these days, while some of her best work, doesn't seem to quite reach the greatness of work she's collaborated on that truly shines. so to make a broad statement yes, i prefer when she works with someone even just a little bit. i think she has raw, incredible talent and a great mind, but i love even more when people bring out new sides of that mind and that talent and show how much she can do, or help her trim the fat and show us the most seasoned and delicious work she has to offer. but as evidenced by Lover, it's not as clear cut as just she needs to work with someone and those will be better songs always. who and under what circumstances are going to be important and unfortunately impossible to predict. i can only hope that she will take away from folklore's insane success, combined with how it was entirely collaborative in a way she hasn't been in a long time, that creative collaboration that pushes her is a good thing. and she'll try to do more of it because midnights is incredibly creatively stagnant and stale. maybe her partnership with jack is getting stale, too complacent and they know each other too well. comparatively, her work with Aaron on Midnights are the best songs on the album imo. someone new, fresh, from a different world and someone who has the chemistry and alchemy that are hard to find, but the newness of their relationship clearly challenges her again. maybe that too will grow stale and she'll need fresh blood, and so on and so forth. i don't think that's her burning through people or that means she can't write songs on her own, of course not. i just tend to see creative work as greater than the sum of it's parts. it's about all these factors, some intentional and some accidental and circumstantial, coalescing together to produce something truly amazing, and there's no other way to do it. unfortunately it can't be replicated or turned into a factory line. there's an elusive magic to it, lightning in a bottle is how a lot of songwriters refer to it when a great song comes together in the studio. and all i hope for is that no matter how big her ego grows or how comfortable and easy working with the same people over and over can be, she remembers how magical it feels like when she manages to catch it and she will never grow tired of chasing it.

[likeadevils]

rank Lover for Lover anniversary?

ooooh boy alright let’s go

cruel summer: (this will be a long personal tangent btw) i remember when loverfest was going to happen and i didn’t have a car or money or anything so i didn’t even try for tickets and i was like. well it’s not a single so this might be the only tour she every plays it on and i was just kinda resolved to never listen to it live. and then eras tour rolls around and everyone is getting tickets to opening night and the biggest part of fomo for me is like. i just want to scream this song with my friends and i was like idk i hope at least a few of them think of me when they scream my url and then i luck into basically face value tickets the week before and im prayyyyyying its on the setlist AND THEN BOOM ITS ONE OF THE FIRST SONGS. NAD AFTER FIVE YEARS I GET TO BE AMONG THE FIRST PEOPLE TO HEAR THE SONG LIVE. and i was CRYINGGGGGGGG

the archer: genuinely made me the person i am today for reasons i can not express without getting way to personal. you might be going, claire, if it’s so important to you, why is it #2? and look man. taylor screaming out he looks up grinning like a devil is just that satisfying

lover: i love this song i listen to it all the time it restored my faith in taylor swift etc etc. now if i can rant about track listing for a minute. this should’ve gone after the archer like the archer leaves you with this note of unfulfillment and uncertainty and the beat never drops and then what does lover start with? this deep reassuring thrum of a bass. it allows the archer to have its artistic integrity and make its point about anxiety never fully dissipating and then BOOM they’re choosing to build a life with each other and she’s being vulnerable and the transition between the two enhances both songs

cornelia street: LIKE THATS HOW YOU TAKE A SPECIFIC AND MAKE IT UNIVERSAL LIKE!!! that one interview where’s she’s explaining the concept of the song and the interviewer goes “oh, that’s me with this bar. if my wife left me i’d never be able to go into that bar again” LIKE HELLO. ALSO THE CITY OF LOVER VERSION?????

daylight: like cmon now LIKE CMON NOW

soon you’ll get better: its a really good song it means a lot to me i think its expertly described

paper rings: on my first listen i could not stand this song and i can not tell you why it’s so fun and well made. apologies to paper rings 2019 claire wasn’t ready for you

inthaf: no because the speaker loses both of her gloves so the lover gives her one so they’re both a little cold and a little warm and neither of them are alone. like shut the fuck up

afterglow: THOSE DRUMS

ithk: so when lover came out i would take the bus everywhere and to get from one bus to the other i would have to walk through this big empty field with an abandoned parking lot in it and like no one was around so i would strut and dance and sing along to music and ithk was a favorite for my empty field time.

maathp: one of my first listen favorites! it’s fallen over the years but i still think the core of it— americas sweetheart falling from grace alongside america’s self mythology— is a really cool concept

false god: over the course of my first and second listens i ate half a jar of peanut butter with a spoon and i don’t remember exactly what point i started but i think it was this song

dbatc: i used to HATE the production of this song and over the years it’s risen but i must admit i’m still avoidant of it

london boy: it’s a bop but i am irish. american but still

yntcd: the step up of the oh-oh Oh-Oh- OH-OH OH-OH ᴼᴴ⁻ᴼᴴ is solidddd. also it’s cheesy and all and it’s not like i thought she was homophobic but it did mean a lot to me to hear taylor swift be so publicly okay with gay people

iftye: i listened to this while driving with the windows down to the beach once and you know what. song of all time in that moment

me: it’s fun! i don’t hate it! not my favorite though. obviously

the man: so to be fair this song was never going to live up to the killers song with the same title that i was Obsessed with in 2019 BUT it’s also just like. like it has some amazing lines and i connect with some of the sentiment but i like. idk i just don’t dream of being the oppressor yknow

[kurtcobainsgreencardigan]

oh my god the relationship i have with lover lyrics is yeah

IFTYE: I forgot that you existed / And I thought that it would kill me, but it didn't

cruel summer: I love you, ain't that the worst thing you ever heard? (one of the best taylor lyrics ever)

lover: With every guitar string scar on my hand / I take this magnetic force of a man to be my lover

the man: They'd paint me out to be bad / So it's okay that I'm mad

the archer: Who could stay? / You could stay

ITHK: It's like I'm 17, nobody understands

MAATHP: They whisper in the hallway, "She's a bad, bad girl"

paper rings: Now I've read all of the books beside your bed

cornelia street: Sacred new beginnings / That became my religion, listen

DBATC: My heart, my hips, my body, my love Tryna find a part of me that you didn't touch Gave up on me like I was a bad drug Now I'm searching for signs in a haunted club Our songs, our films, united we stand Our country, guess it was a lawless land Quiet my fears with the touch of your hand Paper cut stings from our paper-thin plans My time, my wine, my spirit, my trust Tryna find a part of me you didn't take up Gave you too much, but it wasn't enough But I'll be alright, it's just a thousand cuts

(this was my surprise song im sorry)

london boy: Babes, don't threaten me with a good time

sygb: im sorry this wont get a lyric i cant even think of this song without breaking down cause my mom almost died in the hospital too so um yeah

False god: Religion's in your lips / Even if it's a false god

YNTCD: SHADE NEVER MADE ANYBODY LESS GAY

afterglow: Tell me that you're still mine /Tell me that we'll be just fine / Even when I lose my mind

me!: And there's a lot of lame guys out there

INTHAF: Something gave you the nerve / To touch my hand

daylight: And I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you (best taylor lyric ever)

In honor of Lovers birthday tell us what your fav lyric(s) is/are from each song

IFTYE: Your name on lips, tongue tied/free rent, living in my mind

Cruel summer: Said "I'm fine," but it wasn't true

Lover: My heart's been borrowed and yours has been blue

The man: If I was out flashing my dollars/I'd be a bitch not a baller

The archer: They see right through/Can you see right through me?

I think he knows: Lyrical smile, indigo eyes, hand on my thigh/We could follow the sparks, I'll drive

MA&THP: It's you and me, that's my whole world/They whisper in the hallway "shes's a bad, bad girl"

Paper rings: The moon is high/Like your friends were the night that we first met

Cornelia Street: Baby, I get mystified by how this city screams your name

DBATC: But if the story's over, why am I still writing pages?

London boy: BABES DON'T THREATEN ME WITH A GOOD TIME

Soon you'll get better: I know delusion when I see it in the mirror

False God: The alter is my hips

YNTCD: CAUSE SHADE NEVER MADE ANYBODY LESS GAY

Afterglow: Hey it's all me, in my head/I'm the one who burned us down/but it's not what I meant

ME!: HEY KIDS, SPELLING IS FUN

INTHAF: You been stressed out lately, yeah me too

Daylight: I don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you/I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you & I wounded the good and trusted the wicked

tagging some of my fellow swifites (no pressure) @ava-taylors-versionversion @angerycat @mqstermindswift @when-emma-falls-in-love13 @two-maroon-ghosts @wonderstruck-land89 @stvrlighhttt @poppy-inmyhair @person4924 @bookish-swiftie13 @bejeweled-13 @my-castles-crumbling @andtheysaidspeaknow-13 @sleepingswift85 @erasofswift @friendship-bracelets-anon

sorry if I forgot anyone, if you want to join you can <3

[certifiedmirrorball]

HAPPY ONE YEAR OF LOVER!!! 💗🦋💌🌈

to celebrate i’m going to share my favorite lyric from each song on the album!🥳

iftye: “i just forget what they were, it’s all just a blur”

cruel summer: “he looks up grinning like a devil”

lover: “and you’ll save all your dirtiest jokes for me, and at every table i’ll save you a seat, lover”

the man: “they paint me out to be bad, so it’s okay that i’m mad”

the archer: “all of my enemies started out friends, help me hold onto you”

ithk: “he’s so obsessed with me and boy i understand” *THE SASSINESS WE STAN

maathp: “it’s you and me, that’s my whole world”

paper rings: “kiss me once cause i waited my whole life”

cornelia street: “memorize the creaks in the floor”

dbatc: “my heart my hips my body my love tryna find a part of me that you didn’t touch gave up on me like i was a bad drug now i’m searching for signs in a haunted club our songs our films united we stand our country guess it was a law list land quiet my fears at the touch of my hand paper cut stings from my paper thin plans my time my wine my spirit my trust tryna find a part of me you didn’t take up gave you too much but it wasn’t enough but i’ll be alright it’s just a thousand cuts”

london boy: “darling, i fancy you”

sygb: “what am i supposed to do, if there’s no you?”

false god: “we were stupid to jump in the ocean separating us”

yntcd: “CAUSE SHADE NEVER MADE ANYBODY LESS GAY”🌈

afterglow: “tell me that your still mine tell me that we’ll be just fine even when i lose my mind”

ME!: “hey kids! spelling is fun!”

inthaf: “light pink skies up on the roof sun sinks down no curfew”

daylight: “you gotta step into the daylight and let it go”

🌸💌🦋🌈💞🌞🍄💍

@taylorswift , thank you SO much for this album, it means the world to me! one year ago today, the world was blessed with 18 new bops💓 i love that this album shows how happy you are and that makes me even happier. ily, tay! 💌

[thesaxaphoneintroinfalsegod]

fav lyrics from Lover the album

IFTYE: “..sssooooo yeah”

CRUEL SUMMER: “I LOVE YOU, AINT THAT THE WORST THING YOU EVER HEARD??? HE LOOKS UP GRINNING LIKE A DEVIL!”

LOVER💖: “With every guitar string scar on my hand, I take this magnetic force of a man to be my...LOVERRRRR”

THE MAN: “When everyone believes ya...what’s that like?” And also “what’s it like to brag about raking in dollars and getting bitches and models...?”

THE ARCHER: “I see right through me! I see right through me!” And “who could ever leave me darlin..but who could stay?”

ITHK: “Lyrical smile, indigo eyes, hand on my thigh we can follow the sparks, I’ll drive”

MAATHP: “and I’ll never let you GO! cause I know this is a FIGHT! that someday we’re gonna WIN!”

PAPER RINGS: “kiss me once cause you know I had a long night, kiss me twice cause it’s gonna be alright, THREE TIMES cause I waited my whole life!”

CORNELIA STREET: “I rent a place on Cornelia Street, I say casually in the car”

DBATC: “My time, my wine, my spirit, my trust, tryna find a part of me you didn’t take up”

LONDON BOY: “Took me back to highGATE met all of his best MATES so I guess all the rumors are true!”

SYGB: 😭💔😭💔😭💔😭💔😭💔😭💔😭💔😭this song is a heartbreaking masterpiece that I won’t defile by isolating a single lyric tbh

FALSE GOD: does the sax intro count? Lmao also “But we can patch it up good, make confessions and we’re beggin for forgiveness, got the wine for you”

YNTCD: “SHADE NEVER MADE ANYBODY LESS GAY!!!!”

AFTERGLOW: “This ultraviolet morning light below, tells me this love is worth the fight, oh”

ME!: “I know that I’m a handful baby UH!”

INTHAF: “School bell rings, walk me home, sidewalk chalk, covered in snow” but specifically mirrored with “Church bells ring, carry me home, rice on the ground, looks like snow”

DAYLIGHT: “Maybe you ran with the wolves and refused to settle down, maybe I’ve stormed out of every single room in this town, threw out our cloaks and our daggers because it’s morning now...it’s brighter now” and also “I once believed love would be burning red...but its golden...like daylight.”

[saltandvinegardreamteen]

Answering the Lover ask

Iftye: my so called best friend called me a pedophile, I'm kinda sorta not over it I just cut her off, and I wouldn't change a thing about how I dealt with it. True, I lost my "best friend" who was deeply in love with me and I loved her too but in the end I was getting rid of someone toxic

Cruel summer: oof having to choose between my "best friend" and the guy I was with, simply because I didn't want to choose, he was fine with my decision and supported me 100% but she wouldn't have me unless I made her my only commitment, in the end I chose him bc he was obviously more accepting of me and I do think it was worth it, it hurt but it was better for me emotionally and mentally

Lover: yes, we don't fight that much and usually it's bc of my BPD, and we usually make-up just by talking through it and coming to an agreement, haven't been on any dates yet 😉

The man: honestly I have a tendency to self-harm when I feel 100% powerless but I'm working on not doing that, and tbh I feel like 85% powerless most of the time especially with everyone trying to convince me to go to college and all that

The Archer: I'm most insecure about my weight especially when people comment on it even if they're saying something positive like I carry it well or that I look really good, I'm insecure but also proud of my intelligence bc I'm really smart but that makes me feel really stupid when I can't understand something, with my weight, I make myself feel better by wearing things tht I'm comfortable in obv and with my smarts I tend to stick to things I know well

Ithk: I guess yeah, I kinda just act the same as I would if we were just friends unless they say something to let me know that there's something else going on, idrk what makes me like someone it just kinda happens but sometimes there is something that will make me realize how much I like them *cough cough*

Maathp: oof my image of myself fading a long long time ago and honestly I couldn't pinpoint when, and yes I would 100% ditch this life if I could

Paper rings: um I'd kinda prefer something sweet and simple though it'd prob be very unconventional, I don't really have a favorite memory, true some are better than others but I don't know

Cornelia street: oof angel with a shotgun by the cab. I really liked how he was so sweet and innocent but it would've never worked out

Dbatc: oof leaving my baby boy (ex bf, also I say leaving bc I never got to tell him goodbye) my biggest regret is that I didn't meet him sooner, and obv I love him to death but chances are we'll never see each other again

London boy: I kinda like no accent (like when people talk really properly to hide their accent) but I'll have to admit there's something about a southern drawl, I'm probably most fascinated by German culture (maybe bc I'm learning German in school) and I've never been outside of the US but Georgia is absolutely gorgeous

Sygb: I'm really worried about college bc I kinda don't want to go but everyone is pressuring me about it and also ugghhhhh y'know life, honestly I spend the most time taking care of my fish which says a lot considering I only feed him like twice a week, um, most painful memory would definitely be the first time I fell in love

False god: I guess I was religious at some point but not anymore, don't really have any superstitions, and Satanism really fascinates me

Yntcd: people criticize me a lot about my attitude and how I talk to people bc i talk to everyone just about the same, and tbh idgaf so I just do me they do them and hopefully we don't do each other, pansexual boi😜😜😜

Afterglow: I tend to avoid confrontation but yeah I've driven people away by fighting with them over stupid stuff, I honestly forgive way too easily, someone has to do so so much to get me to the point where I won't forgive them

Me!: Most proud of my intelligence, most people probably like my humor the best and I'd have to agree that it's pretty great

Inthaf: my best friend hayven for all of those, fav memory is when we went skating and on the way home we stopped at a gas station/laundromat and we were doing all kinds of crazy stuff

Daylight: Patrick Stump, listening to music, music

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It took me like 3 hours to finish this lol mainly bc I can't focus for shit. But here you go lovely