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[skylerfurmaniac-deactivated]

HELLO MY CHEOTIC MANIC FRIEND, I WANTED TO ASK

Wana spill a bit out your ocs/persona :3?

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welp now I feel obliged to just give you every single one of my oc and shit and a bit behind them sooo

this is gonna be a long post lol uh

everything underneath the keep reading!!

SKYLER:

They are my persona! they are everything I want to be and how I want to look like! They're personality is the same as mine and, everything else lol

-5'6

-they/them

-is a god don't ask

-MAJOR TRAUMA lol duh

-they can't die, yet they kinda want to

-has insanity attacks

-also if they loss control of themself, they kinda turn into a monster and rage havoc and murder if no one stops them

-only a few can stop them, having to be a close friend or lover (spamton)

-when they fall into the dark world, they start getting possessed by the "other being" (us)

-they fight with it, being able to have control, but sometimes its to much, and the player takes control for a bit

-they are a god so that's why they can gain control easier

oh yeah they do have a dark world outfit! I just made it yesterday lol

anyways I'm getting an actual ref for the dark world and regular self stuff lol

they have daggers >:3

SPAMTON EX/DIALTONE/DIAL:

its my spamton ex, needeth anymore explanation?

well I guess a bit

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-showhost, the show is called "THE BIG SHOT SHOW!" and its a game show, but it also can range into other things

-also has a phoneline on where you can call him!! (spamton's asks lol)

-10'8 he's tall

-since he's like half robot, he puts his like, entire code into a hard drive, so if anything happens, you can just repair his body a bit, put in the hard drive, and he's back!

-he has wings, but they are kinda small, and he's a bit embarrassed about them, so he usually keeps them hidden away unless he really likes you and trusts you <3

-yes, he does have a bit of ADHD and autism, but not too much where it really affects stuff, he just stims and some other stuff

-VERY STUBBORN

-if you get to him, he's actually a very great lover, and will give you a lot of affection, but he just is not the best with it in public, kinda shy about it tbh

-he/it pronouns

HARVET:

this is Harvet! she goes by she/they pronouns and are a bit of a goth lol

-20 years old

-likes rock

-secretly gay lol

-has a crush on Nieve :3

-trans!

-5'11

i don't have enough info on them yet sadly :/

NIEVE:

my other blorbo and the one that Harvet has a crush on lol. Tjhey are so innocent to this world yet at the same time can will kill you =)

-19 years old

-she/her pronouns

-is into drawing and likes animals

-the rainbow and sparkles kind of person in the group :D

-5'8

-is questioning if she is gay or not

same thing as Harvet lol

SILVIA:

my fursona :3

-7'8

-they/them

-dragon :3

SANTUILUS/SAMMY:

oc from spamton!! so yeah

uh

-17 or 18 years old still kinda deciding

-autistic & adhd

-cant remember anything past like 9-10 years old

-doesn't remember how he got those scars

-8'6 feet tall

-pronouns he/it/they

-They're a little shy baby, and has a lot of social anxiety, but if it finds just this one person, lover or just friend, you will the most important thing to him

-he doesn't have a lot of people to interact with sadly

-touch starved

-has trama lol, but it doesn't remember even half of it until, like later XD

-he still tries they're best with everyone, even if it gets a bit scared with it ,:)

-has some panic attacks, but he isn't to mentally damage, don't worry

annnd that's it!!!

:D

I hope you enjoyed my rambles about my characters lol

[n0resistance]

Adulting is boring

    Everyone says our 30’s are better. After being 2 years in it, yes, we have the mistakes and the wisdom of our 20’s to not repeat those same mistakes. I have learned growing up only really happens when you want to. In my 20’s I was soo poor, so anxious, I had the experience of being in school, sharing bed rooms because that was all I could afford, totally got my heart broken. Then you’re in your thirties the land of discipline and responsibility. 

    The best part of being in my 30’s isn’t that I have more money, or know what it is I can and can’t tolerate, it isn’t the better living situation. It was finding my person. I was telling my friend when you finally find them, it makes sense why it didn’t work out with everyone else. I think they come when you heal a part of yourself too. 

    When you find your person, like when you find your passion, it doesn’t feel like work. Adulting is very boring. Everyday there's cleaning, cooking, budgeting, paying bills. Then there’s self care like yoga, exercising, sleeping enough, creating boundaries, forgiving, not drink too much, or work too much. To adjust your stress; because it leads to illness. Or being on social media too much. Just getting rid of anything toxic in your life. Fully being okay with things not working out and grateful when they do.

 Then there’s checking your anger and your anger towards yourself. I’m exhausted with work so figuring out my schedule is crucial. Keeping my circle small and being done with low effort relationships is important. I am done people pleasing, I’ll only say yes if I want to and have the means but not out of obligation anymore. If I have other priorities, I need to focus on that. Not caring about what people think because; why does it matter in the end? You have to care for you.

    Life is too short to not say how you feel. That’s what I’m always trying to strive for, truth, not being afraid of hurting anyone. That has always been my fear to fight with and hurt people. It's really important to not take other people's feelings as my own. That’s the hardest thing I ever had to learn to do. If I really think about it, the most important thing to me is my mental and physical health, my relationship, my family, and my trajectory of the person I wana be. 

   I want to be able to say no without feeling guilty, say how I feel without an argument, to not give up or let anxiety get the best of me. Now is the time to stop blaming your parents for how you are and be your own parent. I want to be someone who works on their dream job, which I am (making another short film). I want to love what I do or atleast not neglect my hobbies. I love doing yoga, spending time with dogs, and kids (my nephews). I hate comparing myself or wishing my life was different. Everything I am I chose. I have good people around me, I'm healthy, and creative. I feel like as I grow, I'll be just like this. Just more evolved, wiser, and more skilled. Life doesn't get easier as you get older. You just give less of a shit. Which gives a result of it being easier.

    I finally would like to enjoy my 30's until 40. I didn’t enjoy my 20s like I should’ve. I made a lot of mistakes and was always worried but it made me who I am. I don't know what's ahead but I hope it's building a family and a career I'm proud of. A healthy lifestyle and an awesome community. I think what I would like the most other than good credit and finances, is just peace of mind. That I did everything I could with the time I had. Also, not stress because that makes you age really quick.

[lightwelost]

rules: answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions. I was tagged by the lovely @isakvaltzrsen (thanks for tagging me sweetie!!!)

1. coke or pepsi: COKE

2. disney or dreamworks: disney is bae

3. coffee or tea: I like the idea of coffee, but I haven’t really had very much of it (my family tells me I don’t need more caffeine c:) so I’d have to go with tea but only green, because green tea is perf

4. books or movies: Books all the way

5. windows or mac: mac for sure

6. dc or marvel: marvel

7. x-box or playstation: uhhh idk. I’m not a video game person (my favorite console is the Nintendo 64) but probably x-box?

8. dragon age or mass effect: All I know is that Yvonne Strahovski was in Mass Effect so I’ll go with it even tho I’ve never played either

9. night owl or early riser: Night owl, but there’s nothing better than waking up early for vacation.

10. cards or chess: cards!!!! (spoons is bae)

11. chocolate or vanilla: Is twist an option?

12. vans or converse: converse!!!! (They always remind me of Chuck and Zachary Levi so they’re my favorite)

13. Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash, or Adaar: what ? ? ? 

14. fluff or angst: ANGST. I love fluff, but angst inspires me to write and also evicts more emotion.

15. beach or forest: beach! It’s my second home.

16. dogs or cats: idk. Cats probably

17. clear skies or rain: I love clear skies but my favorite thing is to walk outside while it’s raining, so rain.

18. cooking or eating out: cooking!

19. spicy food or mild food: I have a terrible spice tolerance, but it’s my favorite.

20. halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: Christmas!

21. would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: I’d rather be a little too cold because it’s a lot easier to warm up than to cool down. Also being always a bit cold is kinda cosy bc then I could always have blankets.

22. if you could have any superpower, what would it be?: Idkkkkk maybe mastering any instrument immediately (bc i’d love to be perfect at piano but it’s taking so long)

23. animation or live action: Live action!

24. paragon or renegade: idk what that is

25. baths or showers: showers!

26. team cap or team ironman: civil war sucked so i can’t side with either (i honestly hate that movie so much. everyone loved it but i’m just like??? noooo)

27: fantasy or sci-fi: ack..... fantasy I guess? BUT SCI-FI THO. I can’t choose

28. do you have three or four favorite quotes, if so what are they: I have so many favorite quotes!!!!! some of which are: 

“Is it better to have had a good thing and lost it, or never to have had it?” - Charles Dickens

“It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.” - JK Rowling

“A wise man can learn more from a foolish question than a fool can learn from a wise answer.” - Bruce Lee

“He came to hear the music.” - Charles Bukowski

but I honestly love so many, those 4 are just my favorites as of right now.

29. netflix or youtube: netflix (I just started a show called “Prison Break” and it’s really good!!!)

30. Harry Potter or Percy Jackson: I love PJ but Harry Potter wins by no contest. 

31. when you feel accomplished: Uh after I’ve just cleaned up a bunch of stuff nonstop or if I’ve been extremely active one day, that night i’ll lay in bed and just feel so satisfied and accomplished.

32. star wars or star trek: Ive never seen star trek and star wars scarred me when i was a child so neither

33. paperback or hardback: hardbacks are prettier, but paperback is much better to read from, so paperback.

34. horror or rom-com: rom com!!!

35: Tv shows or movies: tv shows all the way

36. spotify or pandora: I’ve never used spotify, and I’ve only used pandora once but I guess I’d have to go with pandora.

37. zootopia or inside out: zootopia was so amazing

38. favorite book: Harry Potter (ofc), The Statistical Probability of Love at First Sight, Fahrenheit 451, and The Geography of You and Me (I can’t choose just one)

39. favourite flower: I love lilacs so much. They’re my favorite scent, favorite color, and favorite thing about spring!!!

40. what field of study are you in (or aspire to be in): I’m planning on majoring in Social Work so yeah.

41. favorite subject: ooh English Literature, Chemistry, and Photography

my question: 

42: would you rather have to move every 2 weeks, or have to stay within a 2 hour radius of your home forever?

I’m supposed to tag 42 people but nah so I tag: @cherokeepiper, @sar-uhh, @skywailker, @special-agent-sarah-walker, @mapiyahuyana, @ladyophelia, @simplylemonade, and i’m sure there’s other people to tag but i can’t remember!