#if this post gets 50 likes then maybe i'll consider it who knows??? 😅😅

[timothyslucy]

so, once upon a time i tried to get into doctor who (only made it about hmm.... 2 and a half(ish) seasons before clocking out), and i rarely see dw content on my dash since it's not a particular piece of media i consume, but every once in a while a gifset of rose and the 9th doctor will come along, and i think "god i should watch this again!" because i love them so much.

[fentrashcat]

So until Friday the 22nd, I Want to Love the Thunder is a available as a free ebook on Amazon as a little birthday/week thing.

It's a short read, and some poems are CERTAINLY better than others, but if you have some time to kill, please check it out!

Since I'm doing this I wanted to talk a bit about like why I chose to publish something I'm not the best at, but it'll probably get rambly 🤣

I have been writing fiction since I was in third grade, and have always had an interest in story telling. When I was younger, a lot of times a majority of my friends existed in the pages of a book, or sometimes in my head. I was the kid skipping recess to read, or escaping to the library when I finished my work early.

Come seventh grade, I began writing "novels" (never finished), and short stories with a focus on fantasy and some sci-fi. This was also a really dark point in my depression, and my stories were my only escape. I also remember a teacher asking me what I wanted to be in the future I said "there's no want to, I'm GOING to be an author." When she asked what if I couldn't do that, I replied "then I will be a failure."

As well as writing these stories that I only shared with my friends, I discovered fan fiction. Other than just reading it obsessively, I began to write some as well, and got some attention. I adored interacting with the people who read my stories and made requests, and it made me want to share my own stories even more. Side Note- even if you think your writing is cringe and you dont want to work on it anymore, leave it up. I deleted this account bc "cringe" and I still really regret it, because I lost the encouragement and kind comments along with my cringe. Not to mention probably ~600 pages of work, and a shit ton of personal "milestone" notes that I added at the end of chapters.

I wrote CONSTANTLY in high-school, but I had a problem- I could never finish a story. I very often would write 30-50 pages, and lose interest. Even my most prolific work is unfinished, despite having well over 300 pages of writing and rewriting, and the most world building I have ever done.

As of now, I have about 55 WIPs, and countless that have been deleted or lost (NEVER USE YOUR SCHOOL ACCOUNTS FOR THINGS YOU WANT TO KEEP BTW). I Want to Love the Thunder is my "I can do this".

I have a complicated relationship with poetry, but I realized that this is something I could finish. It's a start. Hopefully, especially since my school fell through, I Want to Love the Thunder is just the first of many, although I'll probably stick with fantasy instead of poetry lol. If there is a next one, maybe I'll do short stories, and build my way to novels, or (in the case of my largest WIP) even series.

I know that being a full time author is rare, or really difficult, but I still love writing, and it lets me share a peice of myself with others, and maybe a way to leave SOME kind of legacy in the world, even if it's never read, it's out there. A tiny peice of my soul is forever available to others to see, even if it's just one person. This is my whisper in the void of existence.

I got mushy and rambly, which is kind of funny considering a lot of the poems in the book or just silly or stupid things 😅. Thank you so much of you've read this far, and thank you double if you check out my book.

TL;DR- I published a book in a style that I'm not great at, just to prove to myself I could, and so that maybe 100 years from now, someone who's never met me can see a sliver of myself.

This is more than likely the last post I will make about I Want to Love the Thunder, because even though i want it to be seen, its also kind of scary to be seen. If you want to check it out after the free promotion it will be 2.99, or free on Kindle unlimited, ebook only as of now.

[trying-to-find-you-in-the-moon]

Valentine’s Day ask

1 through 65😊

Jesus,all of them ? Okay that's going to take me a minute to answer 😂

1. Do you have a crush at the moment?

Yeah

2. Have you ever been deeply in love?

Mhhm I have

3. Longest relationship you've ever been in?

You know exactly how long 😅

4. Have you ever changed for someone?

Nope never.

5. How is your relationship with your ex?

Good

6. Have you ever been cheated on?

Ahh yep 🥲

7. Have you ever cheated?

No

8. Would you date someone well known for cheating?

I don't think so no

9. What's the most important part of a relationship?

For me communication

10. Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

Relationships, flings aren't for me

11. When you are dating someone, do you believe in going on "breaks"?

Nope I don't

12. How many people have you ever hooked up with?

A total of 0

13. What's the one thing you regret doing/saying in a previous relationship?

Jeez, umm I'm not sure,I'll get back to you on that

14. What age do you think it's appropriate for kids to start having sex?

18

15. Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number"

Nope,creepy.

16.do you believe in love at first sight?

I do

17. Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?

Yep I do

18. What do you consider a deal breaker?

Cheating, emotional, physical any of that

19. How do you know when it's time to end a relationship?

When you're not happy and nothing is changing

20. Are you currently in a relationship?

Nope.

21. Do you think people that have dated can stay friends?

Hm I think so

22. Do you think people should date their friends?

Yeah sure why not as long as it's what both parties want

23. How many relationships have you had ?

1

24. Do you think love can last forever?

Yeah definitely

25. Do you believe love can conquer all things ?

Hmm I'm not sure

26. Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of ?

Depends if they had valid reasons or not

27. If you could go back in time and give yourself advice about dating what would it be ?

Oh umm idk 😂😅

28. Do you think long distance relationships can work?

Definitely yeah

29. What do you notice first about another person?

How they treat other people.

30. Are you straight, gay, bisexual or pansexual?

I'm bisexual

31. Would it bother you you if your partner suffered from mental illness?

Not at all.

32. Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?

Nope

33. Do you want to get married one day ?

Yep I do.

34. What do you think about getting your partners name tattooed ?

Creeps me out

35. Could you be in a relationship without sex?

Yeah

36. Are you still a virgin?

Yep 😅

37. What's more important looks or personality?

Both

38. Do you enjoy love films?

Sometimes

39. Have you ever given/received roses ?

No never.

40. Have you ever had a valentine?

Not really no

41. What's you imagination of a perfect date ?

Hmm I don't know tbh 🤷🏻‍♀️

42. Have you ever read Romeo and Juliet?

I have

43. What's more important your partner or friends?

Both are important

44. Would you consider yourself romantic?

Definitely

45. Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?

Maybe

46. Have you ever been friendzoned ?

Haha yeah

47. Which famous couple is your favourite?

Blake lively and Ryan Reynolds

48. What's your favourite love song ?

Don't have one

49. Have you ever broken someone's heart ?

I don't think I have no.

50. If you're single why do you think you are ?

Oh jeez we could be here all night if I answered that

51. Would rather date someone who's rich and doucebag or poor and nice guy.

Poor and a nice guy

52. Are you good at giving other people relationship advice ?

Surprisingly yes

53. Are you jealous of couples when single ?

Wouldn't say jealous lol

54. How important is it to make a relationship official i.e Facebook

I think it's important to let other people know that you're with someone,like posting pictures and stuff, don't hide it

55. Would you consider yourself clingy,over attached or jealous?

Probably a little

56. Have you ever destroyed a relationship?

Nope

57. Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart ?

Maybe ? I don't know ,I can't talk on that ...

58 Are you the dominant or submissive part in the relationship?

Both.

59. Have you ever forgotten important dates like birthdays and anniversaries? .

Nope

60. What's your opinion on open relationships ?

It's not for me but each to their own once everyone is happy with it.

61. Who's more important family or partner?

Both

62. How do you define cheating?

Stepping outside of the relationship, emotional, physical or even entertaining someone else

63. Is watching porn while in a relationship inappropriate?

I don't think so

64. Do you think valentine's day is overrated?

Nope I don't

65. Would you consider yourself a cuddler?

Oh definitely.

Okay I got there in the end, enjoy 😂😅