#if the sheeple are looking left... I'm looking Right

[jadeylovesmarvelxo]

You and Eddie are enemies, you can't stand each other, but when you spot him with Chrissy in the woods you're forced to confront your feelings for him and the fact you'll have to hide it from him.

He hates you, he'd only make your life miserable if he found out.

Everybody lives, nobody dies Au, angst to fluff, jealousy and idiots very much in love. 18+ mdni.

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You can hear Eddie before you see him as you walk into the cafeteria with your cheer mates. As usual, he's making a spectacle of himself at the Hellfire table, standing on it and calling out the marching band, basketball players and the party crowd.

Rolling your eyes at his dramatics you attempt to walk past the table but Eddie seeks you out, a smirk on his face as he focuses his attention fully on you.

"There's my favourite cheerleader" his winks at you and you stand your ground, ready for whatever shit he's about to say.

His purpose was annoying you, or at least thats what it felt like. It was always you that got his ire, who grabbed his attention every time. Honestly it was the same for you when Eddie was around.

It was like both of you were moths to a flame, something simmered between the two of you that you couldn't place or at least if you could, you didn't want to examine the cause too closely.

"There's my favourite dumbass" you fire back and he clutches his heart like you've wounded him. Ever since you and Eddie laid eyes on each other it was like you were magnets to the other.

Whenever your paths crossed there was tension in the air, banter exchanged that left both of you bothered and wanting more... Whatever it was between the two of you could wait for another day, you had cheer practice, prom committee and a bake sale to organise.

You did not have time for Eddie Munson today.

Not that he cares about your plans. He jumps off the table and lands right in front of you. Ugh. "Munson, I haven't got time for your dramatics today, go bother someone else"

He pouts and it's frustrating that he looks almost endearing while doing it. "How can I cope if I haven't been told to go kiss my own ass and the many other insults you've spouted at me just in the last week or so sweetheart?"

Here's the thing. You're certain Eddie enjoys arguing with you, gets some sort of pleasure from it. If you're being honest you enjoy it too.

"Oh bite me, you'll survive Munson" his eyes light up and then you hear a snigger from behind you, it's his sheeples or whatever he calls them, Dustin, Lucas and Mike watching the two of you fascinated.

"You say I'm oblivious, look at those two" Mike mutters and Eddie still overhears even though Mike has whispered it.

"What was that Wheeler?" Eddie narrows his eyes at him and Mike turns pink and looks suddenly very interested in his soda. You slip away from Eddie when he's distracted.

Both of you are rattled by what Mike said but you try not to show it as you walk away.

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As the day winds to an end you're beyond relieved to just be going home, then you notice Chrissy walking into the woods instead of heading home herself.

Curious, you follow her into the woods, then freeze as you find out that she's meeting up with Eddie.

It's an awkward conversation at first but the tension melts away as Eddie and Chrissy are talking, he's goofing around to make her smile.

Throws himself backwards into a pile of leaves, asking if there is something in his hair, shy little smiles and hiding his face with hair as he talks to her.

There's a sinking feeling in your stomach, an aching in your heart that multiples when Chrissy giggles along with Eddie.

Seeing enough you stomp away, crashing blindly through the trees, there's wetness on your cheeks and you realise you've been crying. Crying over Eddie fucking Munson and the fact he was obviously smitten with Chrissy.

It wasn't a surprise, everyone was and to Eddie you were just an annoyance, someone who pissed him off and that was that. You always knew that but now the realisation was paticularly crushing.

You liked Eddie, like really liked him. Of all the guys you could fall for, why did it have to be the one who spent half his time thinking of new ways to irratate the hell out of you?

Couldn't you have realised this any sooner?

Shit if he even knew how you felt about him it would he horrid for you, he would never let you forget it and show you his disgust.

So it was settled. You would stay far far away from Eddie Munson, and his cute dimples and pretty brown eyes. They were nothing but trouble.

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For the next few days you keep your distance from Eddie. It's hard though, because he seems to be wherever you are with that amused grin on his face.

You don't even entertain his stupid barbs, you ignore him for as long as you can, but he's growing more frustrated that you aren't your usual sarcastic self.

It gets to the point that you turn around during one encounter and glare at him, embarrassed as tears pool in your eyes. "Will you just leave me alone Munson" his eyes widen at your tears, you storm away before he can say anything else.

...

Eddie does leave you alone, you don't see him the next day which is a rarity.

It doesn't last for too long, you find him at his van talking to one of The Hellfire Members. He turns around and spots you, shooing his friend away.

"Will you talk to me" he sounds almost pleading and it throws you off balance. There's no way he missed talking to you is there?

"Why for you to rant and insult me, or make me feel even more shitty about myself,'" he reels back like you've slapped him.

"What? I don't... 'he trails off as you scoff and turn away from him.

"Yes you do. Not all time but sometimes you're just fucking mean. I guess because I'm and I quote "so bitchy and vapid''you think that it won't bother me" his face falls and he shakes his head.

"I shouldn't have said that. I was a mean douchebag" you look away from him stubbornly and shrug.

"Yeah well, I'm not sweet and perfect like Chrissy, everyone adores her" fuck you adored her, so no wonder Eddie liked her.

"What does Chrissy have to do about this?" He looks puzzled. His big brown eyes searching you for an explanation.

Flustered you explain what you saw. "You were all flirty and sweet with her the other day, when I saw you in the woods together, not that I care" you wince realising that you've gave away that you do care very much.

This was stupid. You were jealous of your friend and you shouldn't be. Having enough you decide to walk away but Eddie follows you.

"Chrissy wanted some weed for her and Jason, that's all, I'm not interested in Chrissy princess and she's definitely not interested in me". You're stunned by this, you never expected Chrissy to ever try weed and this stops you in your tracks.

"Seriously?" you gape and he gestures for you to sit in his van, opens the door for you as he does so.

"Why were you avoiding me sweetheart?" he asks you his tone very gentle. You feel your whole body flush with mortification as he stares at you, waiting for an answer.

"Please don't make me say it Eddie, you'll only turn around and be a complete ass about it"

Or be sweet like he is now and turn you down kindly, looking at you with pity. There's a brief pause and then his fingers interlace through yours, the feel of his calloused fingers entwining with yours sends tingles down your spine.

"Tell me"

"I have feelings for you okay. l've fallen for you badly, seeing you with Chrissy made me realise that. So now you know and if you're going to be a dick about it then do it now" your lip wobbles but you refuse to cry again.

He softens and cradles your head in his hands. The gesture is so tender and kind.

"Sweetheart, you're all I think about. Every single day from the moment I wake up until I fall asleep. Only you" he kisses you tenderly and pulls you close to him, kisses you until you're both breathless and smiling goofily at each other.

"I'm so fucking into you sweetheart, one of the things I talked to Chrissy about, if you stuck around long enough to find out"

Now it makes sense why Chrissy asked you earlier if you had talked to Eddie, looked disappointed when you said no, gently urged you to.

"You know he talks about you a lot" Chrissy grinned at you, there's a knowing look in her eyes, yet you shrugged off what she said. Figured that he only talked about how you annoyed him.

Shit you were such an idiot to not see what she really meant. So wrapped up in the idea that it was Chrissy that Eddie was smitten with. Chrissy would never let anyone talk crap about you either, you should have known that.

Eddie rests his head against yours. Kisses it briefly then a cheesy smile forms on his face. "You're crazy about me huh sweetheart?" he teases and you roll your eyes at him.

"Doofus, you're just as crazy about me" he squeezes your hand, tugs you back in for another kiss that robs you if your next words. That's fine, you could argue about that later... much much later.

💞

[halt-kun]

Hunter x Hunter Chapter 405 - Masquerade

At the end of this chapter, we'll probably be halfway up to the next hiatus

It's going to be fine most likely as Togashi has some chapters ready for the future. It'll be Shueisha's choice

So now we switch to the troupe and the mafia

I've been missing the Heil-yi plot though, I love their weird relationship to murder and nen. For them it feels like a videogame. They'll probably not have nice death (like Luini)

Cashew might survive for a long time though. AND she is most likely a specialist.

Is that Hisoka ?

it would fit him

IT IS

Very pretty chapter cover

look at him !

So will it be about Hisoka then ????

VANILLA ???? YOU !?!? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

just ants ? I think you would have loved them my dude

I can understand Halkenburg too

Hisoka is vanilla in the sense that he isn't a monsterfucker then ? HAHAHA

And he likes simple one to one fights without too much covenants.

HAHAHAAHHA I love this chapter

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Wait two Hisoka's ? I can only see Illumi masquerading but Illumi isn't the vanilla one. Unless he is trying to get in character ? Roleplay isn't vanilla my dude. THE NILE IS A RIVER IN EGYPT, YOUR HUSBAND IS GAY

So is the Hisoka hiding behind a pillar Illumi ? The one that talked with Hinrigh ? Noooooo, I'm thinking too much

We'll know soon enough

IT'S BONOLENOVVVVVVVV WHAAAAAT

HAHAHAHA

So the Hisoka that talked with Hinrigh was actually a fake as I supposed.

And it was a plan for Chrollo to let the troupe roam free

nice

he smort

CHACHACHA

Now he's Owl

did that guy see him transform ???? At least go to a toilet or somewhere private. Oh I forgot about Korutopi, maybe it's a bad idea too

Oh interesting, is it a time limit forever ? It doesn't get reset after each transformation ? Because how long did Bonolenov discuss with Owl

This Owl is fun looking too

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

YOU KILLED HER

YOU BITCH

SHE WAS COOL

At least the scrawny blood manipulator is alive

Lynch died

Zakura lives

Well, she did kind of dig her own grave there

SMART BONO

I'm actually enjoying spending some time with Bono

I hope he won't die

But he probably will then, bad match-up since Bungee gum can just cancel his dance moves and basically seal his nen. And now he's getting a focus chapter.

And he's alone near Hisoka

So smart to also disguise your murder,I guess Bono isn't an amateur at killing and hiding bodies

Well, everyone knows Chrollo's very saaaaaad

I'm scared

But this is going to be fine

Oh ! Who's ability then ? A zodiac's ? Beyond's ?

Was 9 Shal or Korutopi, Wasn't Shal 6 ? Or maybe it was Paku's

Oh noooooo I bet this guy was part of the snuff movies industries

"underprivileged chidren" were not properly taken care of I bet

Please Chrollo don't say sheeple because that will make you use like all your charisma. You're not a weird alt right incel or a trump voter. Media are mostly just neo liberal and capitalist since most journalist come from that class. It makes them very bad at handling information and makes them more prone to tolerating far right ideas and then want to censor left-wing ideas more critical of the actual problem that capitalism is.

I get what he meant though but also people won't believe undocumented claims. A forum isn't the best place to get informed dude. If that guy was actually influent and did such bad stuff, I bet you could have easily exposed him with your brain. Some actual field journalists or victim associations probably got wind of such things too.

Anyway, I'll say it here for the united statesians around, go VOTE. Sorry if this seems insensitive. Your country has a lot of reach in global geopolitics and if it became an autocratic fascist christian state based on lies. Then it will fuck up a lot of stuff. Your election system is fucked with two parties and single round elections. Don't make me begin on the supreme court. Voting isn't supporting someone, it's a tool to make the system suck less so you can politically organize at bettering it. It's just a paper with names. Also from what I understand you also vote for counties and state representatives who have also some form of power and maybe suck less. Not voting will just lead to you brooding that "everyone is the same, nothing ever changes". Not voting just leads to less people being involved in politics. If you can't put a name on paper, you won't do much more.

All of that just because Chrollo said Sheeple LMAO

Smart NOBU

they clearly are not really mafia anymore, they're more akin to the troupe

rogue killers that do as they want

Nobu will agree with me I bet,

he kinda likes them

I LOVE YOUUUUUUU NOBU

YESSSSSSSS

AND

they be real revolutionists. I kinda like them know

Guillotine the ruling class. Kings don't need their heads. Educate the people, let them become their own guiding lights.

Am I a french cliché ? MAYBEEEEEEEEE

They're just psychopaths though

so I doubt they've real ideas behind what they're doing. They're also killing passengers

and such people will just bring ruin to a country

They won't build anything out of the ruins they create.

And yes mafia are also bad because they just seek to maintain the "balance" in other words, the system in place. They just found an ecological niche where they can thrive and keep a priviledged role

Indeed what will you do my guys

Hahahaha, so the Heil-yi are already in the Char family

Did someone kill this guy and morph into him like Bono ? Or was this guy on their side the whole time.

OHHHHHHH

interesting enhancement ability

I know this guy is after the royal guards

to kidnap them so that they have someone close enough to kill a prince as a Heil-yi

And Tse's childhood friends were prime targets for that.

But now he's talking about nen. And if he snifs their head, he can identify what ? their nen ability ?

Ah yes, Sodom is a manipulator I think

Well they'll definitely bring back someone

Oh so they indeed want to have non nen users

then does it mean Dogman can identify the nen type and proficiency of people unable to use nen ?????

"Grinding" hahahaha

they're horrible

Hum

their names are Demon for the black haired guy I think

The blond guys fled Hinrigh did he not ?

I checked and Quorolle (black coat) is an emitter that indeed fled against Hinrigh

Tevelares did too and is an enhancer

did they change their fit too ?

Want to feel like they upgraded ?

Good luck Hinrigh

Ah just some teasing, I see you Togashi.

Well I've missed these plot lines

it was fun

[middlecross7]

In 1948, 69 percent of Americans identified as Protestant christians, 22% as catholic, and 4% as Jewish.

It's happening.

RIGHT NOW….

It's happening.

They're sitting on the education boards, on their political committees, on the floor of Congress, in the boardrooms of the elite….

Behind closed doors in every political Capitol in the world, Kings and Presidents and Czars and Queens….

They create laws and herd the sheeple through their manipulation of public opinion to specifically evict God from the planet He created, and scrape true believers in Christ who follow Him faithfully out of existence.

They've expelled God from our public schools, His Word is not welcome… but transvestites looking like something out of a circus-themed horror movie from the seventies

can sit your five year old on their lap while they read them softcore, erotic, “gender fluid “ stories.

…and if one of them influences your simple thinking little child, the state will — without your authority and against your will — butcher the child with knives and razors and lasers to imaginarily change their “gender”.

Because that's how insane we have become as a civilization.

That's how FAR we have moved away from God and Holiness, ALL THE WAY in the other direction, to chase after Self and darkness.

…just as in the days of Noah, modern society has gone over a cliff!

It saddens my old heart to see how the precious and tender grace of Almighty God has been pedalled like a cheap trinket in the popular doctrines of Western Churchianity.

How incredibly blasphemous that the deadliest idol of the age has been fashioned from cheap, twisted ideas of grace; and delusional, made up fantasies of our Great and Fierce God's mercy… delusions born in the minds of children of hell who have never met the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.

Empty clouds filled with vain janglings, seating themselves as Teachers when they yet need instruction themselves, they find no terror in the idea that they might deceive one of Abba Father's little ones….

And too many of you, my dear brothers and sisters in the Faith — if indeed you are truly my brother or sister, too many of you have already bought into the lies of this modern, apostate church age in more ways than you could at this moment even imagine.

I will, first, offer in our discussion a teaching about which I'm hopeful most of us already share the same conclusion:

SOLA GRATIA!!!

GRACE alone, by FAITH alone, in CHRIST alone, and ONLY in Christ, having placed NO CONFIDENCE in our flesh to either begin, uphold, or complete our salvation. We are saved by grace alone, through faith, and that is not of ourselves, it is the GIFT of God- our Faith.

We owe Him praise, the DEEPEST worship for allowing us the PRIVILEGE of believing in His Son, and granting us the Gift of Faith so that we COULD believe.

And if THIS is not the very root of whatever “gospel” you have chosen to hang your eternity upon, you are to this hour lost in your sin— and I don't care HOW MANY “sinner's prayers” you've said.

Any man who ever guaranteed you that you had genuinely been born again the moment you said some prayer is a fool, or a charlatan.

Search the Scriptures all you care to search, dear friends, and you will not find a single Biblical justification for the modern practice of “The Sinner’s Prayer” or the things that are commonly taught to those who repeat some form or another of it.

Dwight L. Moody began using this tactic as a means of tracking numbers at his gospel meetings. But he didn't preach the madness of that the vast majority of modern churches and denominations and their offspring today teach.

There are a few men of God still left, but they are growing more rare as the whole of western society enters into Judgement beneath Almighty God.

God is thinning out the herd. That's how it starts. The people of Israel didn't adopt the religious ideologies of their pagan neighbors overnight. It DID happen explosively over a few generations, however. And suddenly, the only nation on planet Earth to ACTUALLY be getting messages from the One True God, didn't hear a peep from the Lord for 400 years, until Christ was born to us.

The Lord sent faithful men who were called to preach the TRUTH!!!

And how did Israel respond to God's men?!?

“Tell us NO MORE of this God! But (preach) to us SMOOTH THINGS!”

….and 400 years after God had divorced them, they still didn't get it, they still believed God was well pleased with them and their religions. They still thought they were a favored nation.

And no preacher better tell them any different!

They'd ALREADY decided what they were going to believe. If you contradicted that, they didn't CARE if it was in their Bibles!

And when some poor, broken down preacher comes before you— doing nothing more than presenting to you GOD as God has PRESENTED HIMSELF in the Scriptures, how do YOU respond, spiritual Israel…?

You're running out of time, People.

��Awww!!!” most of you are already murmuring in your hearts, “I knew it! He's going to be over of those ‘hell fire and brimstone’ preachers!”

…or, to use the biblical equivalent, “I knew it! He's going to preach to us about THAT God! He's NOT going to preach to us SMOOTH THINGS!”

Because, TODAY, we have recreated God in our own image; made Him more palatable to our new age religious teachings we accuse the Bible of endorsing.

As a result, we have reimagined the Gospel of Jesus Christ from beginning to end. And seldom indeed do I encounter a soul today that wholly understands what the Bible teaches about salvation one way or the other.

2 Timothy 3:1-5

1 But realize this, that in the last days difficult times will come.

2 For men will be lovers of self, lovers of money, boastful, arrogant, revilers, disobedient to parents, ungrateful, unholy,

3 unloving, irreconcilable, malicious gossips, without self-control, brutal, haters of good,

4 treacherous, reckless, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God,

5 holding to a form of godliness, although they have denied its power; Avoid such men as these.

All of your life you have heard this text unpacked as if it spoke of people of the world, lost people. But I ask you, have not the lost people of the world ALWAYS been these things? What great end times sign to the Church would it be for lost people to just keep on acting like lost people?!?

No, friends! This text refers to the common state of what theologians call “the visible Church”, the public face of Christianity consisting of all those who claim to have faith in Christ Jesus.

Those who have, as chapter four tells us, gathered teachers together to tickle their itching ears. Those who have NO CARE for the preaching of THAT God - they want to feel good about themselves, they want their pastor to tell them SMOOTH THINGS.

BEWARE the spirit of this age, Family!

The very first time we find the words “New Covenant” in the Scripture, it is GOD HIMSELF Who is speaking to His prophet.

Turn with me in God's Word to:

JEREMIAH 31:31

✝️vss. 31&32

*Verse 33.

In this New Covenant which the Lord is unveiling, GOD SAYS that HE will:

Put My Law within them, write it on our very hearts.

Now, what does that MEAN?!?

Have we heard this information from anyone else in the Bible?

Yes, indeed, we have. You see, Jeremiah gave God's message to his fellow countrymen in the northern kingdom of Israel.

God's man in the southern kingdom of Judah, you may have heard talk of him somewhere, was a wild eyed fellow named Ezekiel.

Now, I want you to turn with me if you will to:

EZEKIEL 18:31

THIS is the Old Covenant message, friends. God instructs man to MAKE HIMSELF a new heart and a new spirit.

EZEKIEL 36:16-32

In the Book of Ezekiel, chapter 36, beginning in verse 16, we read as follows; (✝️*READ)

THIS, friends, is the very foundation of the New Covenant which GOD has made, though man has recently idolized himself and imagined different covenant reasons. But THE REASON we are even given the offer of any hope of taking part in the New Covenant promises

Is THE GLORY OF GOD and the integrity of His Great Name.

And what God has specifically stated that HE ALONE can and will do with those whom He calls to Himself is:

TAKE AWAY that heart of stone and PUT within them a heart of flesh.

PUT a new spirit within them.

PUT His Holy Spirit within them and CAUSE THEM to walk in His ways and BE CAREFUL to observe His ways, His statutes, and His Laws.

And before you set your heart against me because “you are not under law but under grace”, turn with me to:

✝️GENESIS 26:5

Born into a Kingdom that, like, any other Kingdom had LAWS.

Result: legal and formal charges against us.

No trial.

Already condemned.

ONE Hope! ONE legal propitiation!

Coming to Christ Jesus on any other grounds, for ANY other reason, will find you cast off in that desperate moment.

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[gingus-doon]

MAN. I WANT TO KNOW WHAT STUPID THOUGHTS KEIJI THINKS IN HIS STUPID BRAIN SO BAD.

i was just writing a ✨~meta~✨ on him (yes, again lmfao) and i said something like "this causes him to embrace the role of a cold blooded murderer blah blah blah"

but like. does it really, tho?

HE NEVER EMBRACES THAT ROLE!! NOT ANYTHING NEAR IT!!! not like shin's skinny ass over here with his spooky faces and “WORTHLESS RIFF RAFF..!!! EAT MY ENTIRE ASS, YOU INSOLENT SHEEPLE”

(that's a real shin tsukimi quote, btw. 100% authentic)

it's more like:

everyone: so, you killed this megumi person?

keiji: no, no, i didn't kill her. i'm not a murderer

everyone: but... you left her to die

keiji: ...

keiji: this conversation is getting a little upsetting

SERIOUSLY!!! it just makes it seem like he has absolutely stifling cognitive dissonance and that's the only way he can carry on, esp with what he does in the death game

it's sad because like, it's understandable if he'd have that problem with avoidance right after his trauma and then hopefully work on it, but we don't know if he did (I Think. it's pretty unlikely JSHDJSN) and in the death game so many awful things just happen so fast and he does so many awful things so fast, istg he's just like "THE GUILT CAN'T CATCH ME IF I DON'T LOOK AT IT AND RUN AWAY VERY VERY FAST"

i think if he was forced to confront all of this he'd break tf down. imagine if he came to a point where logical rationalization of his actions wasn't enough anymore. HOO BOY

is it bad that i want to see it. give me angst nankidai make my fave SUFFER

[asmallbirdinmayy]

I'm not sure why I haven't posted anything here yet since this world craziness started... Normally I would have bombarded it with posts everyday and such.

This social distancing is my life style, so I've been doing pretty okay better than most unfortunatly. Thank you Tumblr, and hours of scrolling for preparing me for this moment in time!

I've been filling my days with video games, reading and trying to force myself out for runs. I've helped my mum clean the house. (She has a bad back and would end up killing myself if I didn't go over every once in a while to help out)

I've also recently shaved my head! Finally, I've wanted to do it for years to see what I'd look like and to get rid of the years of dying it and hairstyle frustrations. I like it, but some days I get self conscious and don't end up going for runs. But maybe I'm just using that as an excuse and I'm just hella laazy!

It's a learning curve for sure, I've been reading a lot of philosophy lately and listening to the philosophize this podcast for the past year now so I've been trying to work on myself, thinking more and trying to meditate and gain self confidence and just be able to help myself help others. If that makes sense? Anyway, cutting off all your hair really helps practice Stoicism. There's no instant regrowth, and my hair takes longer to grow out than normal people.

I do love myself, a hella a lot more than I used to. There's nothing I wouldn't change, and I think that mind set alone has been what gets me out the door more often for runs and wanting to take care of my body and mind!!

I've also been cooking more, to save on money and because I'm not a huge advocate for waste being delivered to my door. I have had breakdowns however, I did it twice, I've ordered breakfast for myself to help me get up earlier and to get better coffee. Because the Maxwell can is not working out for me, and it's so gross, its taking me forever to get through it! I'll still drink it though, because, caffeine! Hello.

Back to cooking more! I've been mostly making mashed potatoes and what nots, but I'll occasionally make a vegan grilled cheese or have vegan hot dogs! I've made some pasta, quinoa and lately before bed I'll get a chia bowl ready to set while I sleep. That's pretty healthy and delicious. I've made terrible pancakes, I accidently got the whole wheat flour rather than the other stuff, soo that wasn't a fun mistake. Alas, no waste, so I have to make it into things!

I also signed up for a sustainable cities online course, lots of reading, but it was on sale. If anything it'll help me plan imaginary cities better in my head and I'll be able to put it on resumes. So level up?

I've re arranged my living room so I can easily switch between laptop and PlayStation without having to get up for any reason! +40 laziness. Aha. Fun.

Cats bombard with with attention and cuddles All. The. Damn. Time. I thought cats were supposed to not care and be independent and stuffs. Not my cats, noo. I wake up pinned, cat by my head, in the curve of my back and on my feet! If I'm laying on my back xews will be on my chest. Like hello! Let me breathe. They follow me to the bathroom, and to the couch! My couch is tiny, and all three of them find a little spot and take up all the space. It's hard to take notes! Anyway. I love them, I love their cuddles I'll never take them for granted and I'll always be like okai in the lap you go! It's nice playing a videogame with your cats stretching their paw onto your paw!. #catmum

Works been telling me the new opening day is July 3rd.. July 3rd two more months of this madness. I'm okay with it though, I'll hopefully finish the online course and get out for more runs! I've signed up the the social distancing run thing, I'm hoping to do a 10k for it!

Our government is all over the place about everything, and its making people crazy! There's lies, uncertainty questions unanswered. There's conspiracies left and right and I don't know which ones to believe. I mean some seem drastic and obviously crazier than others. I'm just not politically educated enough for this. But what if they're true to? I dunno, I've been watching a lot of things and reading stuff of history and stuffs and theirs some people that end up being corrected and proven right when people thought they were insane ? And yea people are just crazy and have their crazy thoughts. I dunno. I just want to have a back seat, and I mean my first and foremost fight is with nature, so my bias towards anything will be on how it affects the future of how we live with nature. If that makes sense? I could go on and on about this part, but this part makes me the most unwary and depressed honestly. I've been crying for days about this and where I stand, I've always been one to stand with the people. But which people? My brain hurts. I'm a sheep guys. I'm a sheep. I'm just a very lost sheeple.

People that I know from South Africa sent me a message saying that they were starving and asked for help, I wasn't sure what to do. I sent them some money, but I don't have much to give. I hope it'll be enough to get them by for a couple of days! I haven't heard from her since? So I don't know?

Anyways.

I haven't heard from my possibly future school yet about the upcoming semester and what to do, am I still able to go? Are they going to be opened by end of August? Will I be allowed to travel to another province? I'll wait till the end of May to send an email and find out! I am not doing that course online, I have a hard enough time motivating myself to do this current baby course. And I really want to do well in this course if I get there! It was a whole thing guys.

Before all this started I had started therapy, volunteering for the theater and taekwando. I'm really sad that i haven't been able to take part in these new hobbies. I had the chance to volunteer for the opening of the wizard of oz production before all the other shows at the theater got cancelled. It was amazing. Maybe I'll be able to do something similar while I'm in Vancouver. I only had one beginning trial class for taekwando, I'm slightly sad because by the time it reopens I'll probably be heading to Vancouver and won't be able to attend.

Cancelling therapy was the hardest, I had just started after years and years of being afraid to go for many reasons. I only got two sessions in before having to stop due to being laid off. But it's okay, because I still have my writing as my therapy. I end up asking the questions to myself while writing. I've read a lot of psychology, well not a lot, but a good amount. But the extra help and guidance was nice. I learned new terminology that applied to myself and my childhood and a couple other things that I'm able to sit back and acknowledge during meditations.

It was like I was finally getting out more, trying to fix myself, trying to go meet new friends and say hello to the world. And then the world was like nah. Back to social distancing! Kay, thaanks.

The last three or so days I've felt a little pull back into myself and I couldn't motivate myself lately. I think a large part of it was due to an argument I had with my mother, and the political drama that's been going on lately.

Wanting to go on runs or outside to enjoy the chilly sunny day has been a struggle, when it hasn't been I'm a while. I was playing ESO with a couple friends when all of a sudden all I wanted to do was just lay on the couch, curl up with my eyes closed and just bleh. I listening to the ESO music for a while and remembered that I haven't wrote anything in a long while on Tumblr or anywhere. So here I am, returning to my old therapy just writing my garbage thoughts to replace them with happier more motivated ones. It's sort of working, we'll see how the day goes.

All in all, I'm okay, my family is okay. And only time will tell what craziness is next for this year!

If anyone read this far down, first of all thank you. You're probably someone that I love! Love you <3 and I hope you're also doing well, and staying safe!!!

[madphantom]

The Sound of Life - Chapter 4

The next morning they were eating breakfast. Phoenix was still wearing her pajamas.

"Phoenix," Winslow suddenly said.

"Yeah?"

Winslow looked as shy as he had on the day Phoenix had seen him for the first time. "Ahum... Phinny..."

"Yeah?"

"Phinny... on Friday it's my sister Lucy's birthday. I...I think it's about time you meet my family."

For a second she was very quiet. Then: "Ohmygoshohmygoshohmygosh."

Dunphy looked just like it had when Winslow had left to look for fame. A soft summer wind was blowing over the yellow fields and playing with his hair. The sky was blue. First golden leaves were sailing across the streets, but most trees were still green. Some people passed them. Not everyone recognized Winslow. Those who did looked surprised or shocked. And they whispered.

"Look!"

"It's him! It's Winslow!"

"Harry's kid!"

"The Leach boy! The one who ran off to New York!"

"The musical one, who got lessons from Carmine!"

"My God, what happened to his face?"

"And who's the girl?"

"Yes, who's the girl?"

Before he rang the doorbell Winslow realized that Phoenix deserved a warning. "Phoenix...I have five talkative sisters."

She laughed. "Good company for me. Let's go."

He pressed the bell.

For a few seconds nothing happened. Then the door opened. The fragile elderly woman in the doorway had fluffy hair and was wearing thick glasses. She hadn't changed a bit.

"Winslow!", Joan Leach yelped and pulled him into a long hug.

"Winslow?" Suddenly a tall lanky girl with equally thick glasses and a ponytail appeared in the corridor. "Winslow, bro!" She sprinted over and joined her mother in hugging the lost son.

"Whatcha sayin... Wins'!!!"

"The lost son has returned!"

"Bro! Bro! Bro!"

"Winsy! I knew you'd come back!"

"Sonny, don't you ever dare scare your poor old dad like that again!"

In the end, four siblings and the father had joined the group hug. Phoenix was awkwardly standing next to them.

Finally Momma Leach chased her children off. "Dear God, we're gonna suffocate the lost sheeple. Emmy, Jenny...Jenny! Sandy! Ellie! Harry, don't smother your son like that, I want him to live another day. Winslow, for God's sake, what kind of trouble did you get in in New York?"

He laughed shyly. "I'm gonna tell you later, first of all-" He reached out for Phoenix and pulled her to his side. "- I want you to meet Phoenix, my girlfriend."

"We've lived to see the day, my wee lil bro got himself a girlfriend," Emmy commented.

"Emmy!", Joan hissed. The girl shrugged her shoulders. Winslow laughed.

"Why are we standing in the doorway?", Jenny suddenly asked. "Come in! Let's get in the living room!"

They sat down at the table. The twins, Sandy and Ellie, brought two extra chairs.

"Winslow, we want you to tell us everything," Poppa Leach said. "And Phoenix...if he exaggerates stop him from doing that."

She laughed. "I will."

"First things first: What the hell happened to your visage?", Emmy asked.

"Emmy!"

"What? He was ugly already when he left, but it was definitely not the pollution in NYC that made him even uglier."

"Emmy!"

"No, no, she's right," Winslow laughed. "Gosh, Emmy, I missed your salty comments."

"See, mum?" She grinned triumphantly.

"Anyway," Winslow continued. "I got my head caught in a record press."

Poppa Leach looked over to Phoenix. "I asked you to prevent him from exaggerating."

"In fact he's understating,' Phoenix mumbled.

"Gosh, Winslow you've always been one clumsy individual, but this just takes the cake."

"Emmy!"

"How is it even possible to do that?"

"Right, how do you get your head caught in a fucking record press, Winslow?"

"Sandy! Language!"

"I tried to destroy all copies of Faust Death Records printed," Winslow tried to explain.

"Oh yeah, I heard those bastards play your stuff on the radio...!"

"Ellie! Language!" Everyone laughed.

"And your voice?", Joan asked.

"Same thing."

"I've told you, son, New York is no good," Harry murmured.

"But how did you two meet, I'm curious!", Jenny burst out. Everyone else was quick to beg Winslow to tell the story. He laughed. "Well, I heard her sing Faust and..."

"Dot dot dot? Ey yo, you're not usually that type," Emmy remarked.

"Emmy!"

"Sorry momma."

"We kind of lost contact after we first met and then later Winslow found me again and we had a chat - I didn't recognize him then, because-" - Phoenix gesticulated at Winslow - "-Face. Then the next day Winslow saved me from being shot and got wounded himself and while he was in hospital we started talking and, well, became a couple."

"Awwwww," Jenny commented. "Hey, Phoenix, you're his first girlfriend, just so you know."

"Really?" Phoenix looked over to Winslow. "You didn't tell me!"

He blushed. Everyone laughed.

"Lucy is gonna marry soon too!", Ellie burst out.

"Really?" Winslow raised his eyebrows. "What'd I miss?"

Sandy grinned mischievously. "His name is Oskar. He's a historian from Germany. He's divorced and has a kid."

"They met in the grocery store!", Ellie yelled.

"I wanna know more!"

"She bumped into him..."

"...more or less deliberately."

"Less, according to her! Apparently it was an accident!"

"Sure."

"When is she coming?"

"Should arrive any minute, Winslow. Get ready for confused German mumbling!"

Everyone laughed.

"I left the cake in the oven!", Joan yelled and rushed into the kitchen. She returned with a warm oven-fresh cherry pie. A wonderful smell filled the living room. Winslow felt truly at home. The doorbell rang.

"That's them!", one of the twins yelled and sped off to open the door.

"She's gonna go flippin' when she sees you, Winsy," Jenny whispered.

"I hope she doesn't get a heart attack from your visage, bro," Emmy joked.

"Emmy!", Joan hissed. Winslow quickly combed his hair over his bad eye.

"That's not necessary, you know," Phoenix remarked.

"I was just joking," Emmy agreed.

"I know, I just thought I really shouldn't shock Lucy more than necessary right away." Winslow grinned.

A short woman of around forty with wild dark blonde hair and thick glasses walked into the kitchen, only to freeze as soon as she spotted her long lost brother. She stared at him in pure shock.

"Winslow?!"

"Hi." He grinned like a young shark.

Behind Lucy a lanky redhead of forty and a little girl with pigtails appeared.

"Hey, Lucy, what's wrong?", Oskar asked.

She pointed at Winslow, her face as pale as if she'd seen a ghost. "Tha-tha-that's my brother...and he's dead!"

"Happy Birthday," Winslow replied.

Lucy looked like she'd just been forced to swallow a rolled up newspaper. "H-h-how this possible?"

She was so shocked she'd literally forgotten grammar.

The Leaches looked at each other and collectively burst out laughing at Lucy's puzzled expression. Finally Winslow got up and walked over to her.

"Jesus was resurrected," Emmy commented.

"Emmy! No jokes about God!"

"Sure, mum."

Lucy blinked five times. Then she reached out and touched Winslow to convince herself that he was, in fact, real and standing in front of her. Then her eyes widened. "I'm not dreaming!"

"Nope."

And suddenly she launched herself forward and gave him a hug. Winslow laughed. "It's nice to see you too, Sis." Over his sister's shoulder he greeted Oskar, who looked quite baffled. "Hi, you must be Oskar. My sisters told me about you..."

"Ja," Oskar replied in confusion, then realized he was speaking the wrong language. "Ich...I mean - yes, I'm Oskar."

"Nice to meet you. I'm Winslow Leach." They shook hands and Lucy let Winslow go. She reached behind herself and took the little girl's hand. "Maite, c'mon. Winslow, this is Maite... Oskar's daughter. Maite, this is Winslow - your uncle."

Maite tilted her head curiously. "Mr Winslow, why do you have silver teeth?"

"What?", Lucy asked in confusion, followed by a "Holy shit!"

She looked absolutely helpless. "Oh my God...oh my God...I... I...I need a chair."

Sandy brought her one and Lucy plummeted onto the seat. She was still staring at Winslow like he was a ghost. Joan served the cake. "Lucy, will you drop the plate if I give it to you?"

"Wha - no." She took it. She was still staring at Winslow.

"Her eyes are going to pop out any second," Harry commented.

"H-how come you're here?!", Lucy asked Winslow.

He laughed. "Ah well... it's a long story. But first of all, I want you to meet Phoenix - my girlfriend."

"Hi." Phoenix waved. "It's nice to meet you."

"Okay, I must be dreaming," Lucy slowly and serenely uttered. "Winslow's back, he got a makeover and he has a girlfriend. I'm asleep and my brain is playing tricks on me."

Winslow and Emmy collectively rolled their eyes.

"Now you're overreacting," Jenny said.

"No, I'm not." Lucy finally managed a shaky laugh. "Alright. Winsly - you have a lot to explain." She frowned. "Hey, what's that with your eye?"

Winslow wiped away his hair and Lucy visibly paled. "Alright, the tabloids weren't lying."

"Nope," Phoenix agreed. And then Winslow started telling the wild story that had happened to him. Joan gave everyone pieces of cake. Occasionally Winslow was interrupted by gasps, either from Lucy or Jenny or Joan. The twins admired Winslow's makeover. Harry asked him whether metal teeth were more useful than usual ones. Phoenix and Emmy soon appeared to get along greatly. Ellie slid off and returned with Winslow's long-lost copy of Goethe's Faust - she'd borrowed it. It was a wonderful afternoon.

When it got dark Lucy and her new family left to drive back to Oskar's home. The twins were sent to bed, but of course they didn't even bother to go.

"It is crazy to get you back, bro," Emmy at some point commented. "Specially with that Goth upgrade you got."

Winslow chuckled. "Thanks."

"Still," Jenny added. "I wouldn't be surprised if I woke up tomorrow and it would've just been a particularly nice dream."

"Me neither," Winslow laughed.

Joan checked her watch. "It's getting late. Did you take the train?"

"Yes." Phoenix nodded.

"The last train goes at midnight," Emmy said. "Will you take it?"

"Probably," Winslow replied.

"Then you oughta hurry. It's eleven thirty," Joan said. She sighed. "Winslow, I don't want to sound like a stereotypical country mum, but I hate to see you leave."

He chuckled. "I'll come back."

"You promised that last time."

"And I kept my promise, didn't I?"

"You were a year late."

"But I came."

"I have an idea," Phoenix suddenly said. "I can just leave our phone number. And y'all can call. Whenever you feel like it."

And so they did. Phoenix scribbled down her number. Then they left. When Winslow turned around for the last time he saw his family standing in the doorway and waving.

He smiled and waved back.

[bluewinnerangel]

Omg yes thank you yes hnng imma add what my last braincell is spluttering out

It's been 2 years since louis followed harry! (On the 10 yr anniversary)

It's been 1 year since nothing happened on the 11 year anniversary!!

We thought for a bit it was 369 days since louis left syco because we forgot about a wholeass year, so today it's been ONE YEAR AND 369 days since louis left syco absolutely useless but I guess let's clown anyway

Liam gallagher was tweeting directed at louis in the night in Australia while louis is also in Australia, I'd like to think (I'd love it for louis if) they're hanging out, right after responding to a tweet about harry

Louis was pointing at multiple 1d signs and flags during his show

He also gave a happy middlefinger / pointed at / made crazy eyes with a fan dressed in bluegreen

Harry waved @curlyhairedprince s flag at his show!!! But then he quickly bundled it up and I think he might have been afraid of the text on it? it just said love on tour! But he didn't try to check what he just bundled it just pompommed it instead of waving a flag I'm just thinking maybe he was experiencing AIMH flag warflashbacks djfhsjs

He called the crowd "perfect"

He also started the "this is a family show" but didn't say orrrrr issss itttttt he just kinda had a moment considering that maybe it might be dhdhs

I think the crowd doing the lights up and down thing during lights up was spontaneous??? It was glorious tho. Also all the light projects that were planned. Youre amazing.

Harry talked to someones pregnant aunt (and also fan) via FaceTime on stage and showed the belly on the big screen with a big happy fetus harryesque face behind it hehe. He also talked to a fan about her grandma that didn't know where she was on vacation so he turned it into the grandma being lost. He also talked to a dad he was happy about dad

He looked at a sign for a long time and then just ignored it without a reaction

There was also a sign that said rock paper scissors if you lose you have to sing falling and then he pretended he was gonna do rock paper scissors but walked away before he picked one and didn't acknowledge it again lil shit

Harry picked up a piece of paper and a shirt not showing either to the crowd until later. The shirt was the 1d one (WHICH WE KNEW IT WAS GONNA BE AS SOKN AS WE SAW A WHITE SHIRT DHDSH) that was PERSONALISED amazing love, and rhe piece of paper was "we want medicine PLEASE" and as medicine started he showed the paper and said IT WAS THE PLEASE IT WAS THE PLEASE

MEDICINE!!!

He put on sunglasses and a boa at the same time and it was fabulous

I nearly peed my pants during kiwi

Harry's outro song was pillow person - bleu

I will make a playlist with his preshow stuff but the only one I didn't know had been played previously was Ohio players - love rollercoaster but it probably has SHEEPLE PLS DOCUMENT THESE SONGS WAKE UP🔪

Louis' outro song was A Thousand Years, which has been on his potential exit songs playlist since may, and we had a moment watching ancient 1d/larry edits with this song overlayed

DJ Elf posted a pic where you can vaguely make out the songs of the outro playlist but because we got to see his playlist for a lil bit we now know a bunch of songs have been taken out between like 6 weeks ago and now.

Louis' wore the black and white checkered🏁(stop) 28 programme top 7 days (stop it) after harry wore the black and white checkered pants paired with a kiwi top

I am fried

here's a recap of the last... let's say 30 hours:

hslot cologne with h talking to fan who just had a breakup + holding up 1D tshirt like it's a pride flag

1d anniversary commences

it becomes known louis does not follow el anymore and does not like any of her posts either

he goes on stage wearing black/white/yellow checkered top (themes. multiple themes.)

photos come online of him meeting bentley, the kid with whom he facetimed during lockdown and who then also met freddie - WEARING A CHECKERED 28 PROGRAMME TOP

the x factor posts never-seen-before content of how nicole and louis slayed the selection process and came out with the most perfect boyband the world has ever seen. harry and louis as gaspingly cute together there is no way louis isn't in there they look too good coupled up like that

el posts a story where she's next door to harry's house (chronology of this one is wonky for me sorry)

for the wonderfully overwhelmed @bluewinnerangel kiss on the head goodnight it has been an insane time

[sagebodisattva]

MGTOW and Nihilism

Welcome, followers of MGTOW. Before we begin, just real briefly, for those who are watching this video and are unaware of what MGTOW is, the acronym stands for Men Going Their Own Way, and is the title for a movement by and for men. A few samples of definitions mined from the internet include:

“M.G.T.O.W., Men Going Their Own Way, is a statement of self-ownership, where the modern man preserves and protects his own sovereignty above all else. It is the manifestation of one word: “No”. Ejecting silly preconceptions and cultural definitions of what a “man” is. Looking to no one else for social cues. Refusing to bow, serve and kneel for the opportunity to be treated like a disposable utility. And, living according to his own best interests in a world which would rather he didn’t. MGTOW asserts that only you have the right to decide what your goals in life should be. It is saying that, as a man, I will not surrender my will to the social expectations of women and society, because both have become hostile against masculinity. MGTOW often talk about seeking “independence” from western and/or consumer culture, and a few MGTOW try to live that sort of Zen existence. Most of those who embrace the term have a deep hostility towards and/or profound distrust of feminists and women in general. Many MGTOW refuse to date “western women” and some try to avoid women altogether.”

Well, before we go any further, it should be noted that, just by being a MGTOW, you are a nihilist, plain and simple. And before you get all up in arms, relax, this is a good thing, and I mean this in a good way. After all, you are watching a video by the Meta Sage, and you could say that the Meta Sage channel is the flagship station of nihilism on the internet today. So, this isn't a disparaging title aimed to degrade you, nor is it indicative of a characterization that you are either depressed, violent, lazy, immoral or apathetic, but, meant just as a label that is reflective of a matter of truth and fact. Nihilism is a philosophical doctrine that suggests the negation of one or more reputedly meaningful aspects of life. MGTOW itself is a cornucopia of negations of normative meanings and values that are usually associated with the average life. Tossing out the investments into dating, sexual relations, marriage, child bearing, societal expectations, social and cultural traditions, and the disposal of all aspirations to emulate the role of a specific gender archetype, are all value subtraction equations, no matter how you slice it.

So, you have arrived at this point; so are you gonna live up to the name of MGTOW and really be a man that goes his own way, or are you gonna remain bitter and resentful of women and get stuck on moaning about it. If your aim is to be an activist and spend the rest of your life screaming from a rooftop about the inequities of women, it can't really be said that you have gone your own way. By doing this, you are still giving women power and importance by way of investing value judgements into their behavior, which continually provokes taxing anger and indignation, which, thereof, serves as validation by way of negative attention. Remember, negative attention is still attention. And eventually it gets to the point where, thou dost protest too much.

Are you really ready to move on from these values you have subtracted, or is this all just an elaborate ploy to continually sustain a platform on which to complain about women? If you consider yourself MGTOW, then you identify as such because, either you are a product of the so called “incels”; that is, a group of men who call themselves involuntary celibate, (which is just a round about way of saying, you can't get a girlfriend,) or, you are a man that has had girlfriends or a wife, but has been somehow royally screwed over by one. Either way, it's time to use all that time and energy you would normally waste on trying to jump through hoops for a female, or in complaining about a female, towards your spiritual growth. In other words, it's time to actually go your own way. And when I say "spiritual growth", I don't mean religion, or any other vague supernatural notion concerning a soul, or the divine, but rather, am more referring to what was implied earlier from the definitions of MGTOW, to seek to live, and know, a Zen experience of life.

You are not the first ones to renounce women, only the most recent ones. A man's struggle to find a suitable woman as a companion is nothing new. The inequities of women is not something new either. Granted, the modern western world seems to have gone berserk with many of these courtship issues, but this is mainly due to the explosion of a very shallow materialistic western culture coupled with overpopulation and the subsequent massive influx of mediocrity. Yes, women far outnumber men, and so most of the decent men out there are already taken; coupled up with compatible women and are currently in relationships. Of the small pool of men that are left, some are gay, some are in prison, some are homeless, and what remains are either the cads, that is to say, a few cavalier males, that are usually very confident with themselves and therefor unobtainable and unwilling to be pinned down, which makes them a very desirable albeit unrealistic ideal for a woman, the so called hidden fruit, so to speak, or the common average insecure desperate man that women generally don't want, but usually end up settling for; ie the bulk of what's out there. And of this bulk, the ones with the money or career get the girl, and then usually a subsequent knife in the back, aka, cheated on, divorced, child custody battle, paying alimony and child support, and the rest of the bulk get nothing, aka, Involuntary celibacy.

All of this, and yet somehow, we are still overpopulated. Go figure. And don't tell me that we're not overpopulated because of a fallacy of scarcity, or because we can fit the entire population of the world into the state of Texas... that isn't the point. The point is, the more you have of something, the less valuable it becomes. The significance and importance of the contributions of individuals are undermined by an over flooding of individuals, which drives down the value of individuality. Too much of anything isn't healthy, and humans are not excluded from this truth... of which, is also why I would encourage MGTOW's to dig even deeper into philosophy and to check out anti-natalism, which is not too far of a stones throw from your current positional mindset. You see, I'm waiting to see the fourth wave of feminism, wherein women reject procreation... but honestly, I don't think they have the balls for that.

But anyway, MGTOW man, now that you are not tied up in chasing the meaningless mundane pursuit of conquering a woman; of which, doesn't lead to enlightenment, and will, given enough time, only lead to having babies, which will seriously jeopardize your pursuit of an awakening, because having a child is almost always indicative of passing on the buck; why not use your newly found freedom to investigate the inner connectivity of reality with the mind?

This is what all people should be investigating: the secrets concerning the source of attention, instead of wasting all our time being desire whores and value junkies. Honestly, I enjoy people's disillusionment. I enjoy it, not because I enjoy people's suffering, which is how your average sheeple of righteous indignation would like to portray it as, but because disillusionment is what ultimately leads a sheeple to a place where he or she can finally have an opportunity to possibly discover the truth of awareness. In order to arrive in such a place, often a feeling of disappointment resulting from the discovery that something is not as good as one believed it to be, is required. Whether it be a disillusionment due to let downs associated with school, politics, religion, work, justice, fairness, the opposite sex, or expectations of success in some field of interest, doesn't matter... the seeds for a possible enlightenment could potentially be planted, depending on whether or not this disillusionment leads to nihilism, or to a wounded ego that is gonna play the victim because it still deep down desires what it is disappointed in, and is just bruised from rejection. I root for the former.

Hey, I have an idea. Instead of getting a gun and shooting up a school, a movie theater or a nightclub, drop the value of the investment into that which is facilitating your malcontent disposition, and instead, meditate. Instead of spending all day as a keyboard Rambo, posting diatribes on online message boards, explore the inner connectivity of reality and the mind. Instead of indulging in the poignancy and resentment that comes with the territory of playing the victim, take responsibility for your reality and incorporate a little existential nihilism in your life. Don't swear off women as a means of protest, swear them off and then close that chapter of your life. Truly let go of the value you have placed on the gratification you receive from female companionship, courtship, sexual relations, union and family.

MGTOW is a good thing. It's an excellent beginning, but there is still much more work to be done. There is more conditioning to unlearn, and more attachments to let go of. It doesn't end with women. Welcome to nihilism, where you will deconstruct every attachment, every convention and every expectation. For you MGTOWers that are curious to find out a little more about nihilism, I recommend searching through my video library to find out some more useful information, for this is one of the only places where you will find the subject treated honestly and not demonized or maligned with a negative connotation.