#if that makes sense? I'm so chronically bad with gender that i dont know if im making any sense ahusijdkasda

[gameclam]

Transfem anyone anon hi sorry! I just got really excited about women PFT

I was more just meaning if you have anyone you headcanon in particular as transfem I'd love to see them! It was 2 am and I was overcome with women sorry! (Also you weren't rude! I understand dw!)

Ohhhh ok! I don't think there's anyone i specifically have labeled as transfem exactly but i DO know that my Benry is one of those characters i draw and don't think much abt his presentation.

Their gender is up to the viewer at home. So I hope this'll lil doodle is ok 🥺

[4thenookie]

Hi hi i heard you wanted some headcanons!! As always this is /lh, not meant to be taken that seriously, agree to disagree, yada yada all that good jazz lmao. Most of them are pretty crack-y in nature as well, they're just meant for fun lol. And with that, I'll compile my miles long headcanon list into (mostly) sorted by character for everyone's convenience lmao

- starting off strong with trans EJ! Idk why but do headcanons really need a reason? (I do know why) (i like to make my blorbos suffer 💖) (and also [diverges your neuros] [transes your genders] [homos your sexuals]). Also biromantic asexual king

- more EJ because he's THE blorbo. Boy is british asf and he knows BSL and is learning ASL. Touch averse as well. I feel like EJ would actually be a decent if not great cook.

- EJ purring like a cat when he's content/happy? I think yes! Also has a tail with one of those tail tuft thingies? Kinda like lions if you know what i mean. And the pointy ears (peak character design yaknow)

- moving on. I feel like Jeff knows how to play an instrument. Probably electric guitar. He also has like a bajillion band t-shirts. Jeff also likes to take long, hot showers but hates to comb his hair lol

- while Brian cooks food so bad/raw it could as well just still be alive, Toby is either a great cook or a disaster in the kitchen with seemingly no indicator for which one it's going to be on any given day. I'm talking managing to burn a pot of water one day and cooking a michelen star worthy meal the next.

- Kagekao is actually fluent in English and speaks and understands it perfectly, he just refuses to speak it. He takes great amusement in watching other people lose their minds over this

- speaking of languages, i feel like Toby would be bilingual if not multilingual. He speaks English and German, maybe even Spanish if we're going the multilingual route

- also. Oh my god. The generational difference between BEN "memelord who quotes vines like there's no tomorrow" Drowned and Slenderman is just. I cant stop laughing thinking about it. Any given conversation between these two is just a gamble on who is going to lose it first

- BRVR is kinds Lost Silver's pet but also not really? Like he just kinda goes wherever but Lost Silver mainly takes care of him

- LJ he/it truther

- Me and a friend came up with this which probably explains why it is cracky as fuck but hear me out. Jeff as a makeup artist. He made Slender look like Beyonce once. No one knows how he did it and how he's not dead (the answer, as my friend said, is "no one can hate Beyonce")

- i feel like Toby, BEN, and Jeff would be like. The chaos trio. God knows what will happen when you put the three of then alone in a room together

- i also feel like Brian sunburns really easily.

- Tim is one of those dads that wants to leave in the middle of the night for road trips / holidays to avoid the traffic jams

Hope this makes even a bit of sense and i hope you enjoyed whatever my brain spewed at me lol if u ever wanna share more headcanons or talk about blorbos or share character slander (looking at Brian and LJ (affectionate)) feel free to dm me!! (I dont mind i promise lol /lh)

hi!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg these are so so so real thank you for sharing them with me!!!! ill go into some more detail under the cut :)

to be honest, i can kinda see trans ej being real now that you mention it, ill definitely think about that a lot!! and i also hc him as asexual!!!! :)

im british and i claim ej as one of us lmaooo

i absolutely agree w the purring thing!!! i think ej does a lot of cat things idk :)))) i love all of your ej headcanons!!!

tbh i can see jeff either playing electric guitar like you said or maybe drums?? just any instrument he can go ham on when hes mad lmao

in my hc he has the worst case of chronic greasy hair and he doesnt want to do anything about it

cooking hcs are so real brian can NOT cook!!!!!!! toby will either serve you some 5 star gourmet shit or some rotten takeout he found during a dumpster dive

omg omg omg I hardly see anybody talk about kagekao!!!!!! i totally agree he would do that lmaooo

idk if its canon or not but i read somewhere that tobys German so i totally agree that hed be bilingual!!!

oh my god BEN whos native language is memes meets grandpa slendy that would be so funny

in 4 words youve converted me into a fellow he/it LJ truther!!!! could we consider he/it ej too? maybe??

ik you said it was a cracky hc but i can actually kinda see jeff being good at makeup??? like one of those things where he tries it once and it's the most drop dead gorgeous makeup look you've EVER seen and everyones like how did you do that

toby BEN and jeff are an absolute riot when rheyre together lmao

omg i never thought about it but brian sunburning super easy is so real!! and in summer he always wears sunglasses so he has like an unburnt patch on his face where his sunglasses were yk??

OMG YES LMAOOOOO "guys get up our flights in 10 hours WE'RE GONNA BE LATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" he would 100% have a checklist or 3

thank you so much for sharing these with me!! i hope you dont mind me adding my own thoughts lol but theyre so much fun to think about!!!! if you ever wanna slander lj and brian with someone feel free to dm me lmao!!!!!! take care <33333

[cloverslovelygarden]

1. I have chronic migraines, irregular menstrual issues and hyperacusis. (All obviously physical)

2. The menstrual stuff has gone on since I got my first one and the chronic migraines happened about 4 years ago, hyperacusis is new to me though as it has only been here for half a year!

3. I dont really have any specific meds yet but I use regular painkillers like Nexproxin and Ibuprofen. (When a migraine is present I use maxalt.)

4. Alot of my friends and family have mental disabilities but I think I only know maybe one other person who had migraines like me in my family and she only had hers once a year. (So not really many like mine.)

5. Yes, I do. If my menstrual issues are acting up really bad then I will get a migraine (which is usually) but it doesn't happen vice versa. My hyperacusis can cause very bad migraines and a slight headache can cause my hyperacusis to become just the slightest bit more sensitive which gives me a bigger headache.

6. Almost nothing but there is a very slim chance that when you tell people they will be incredibly aware of it and make sure they don't to anything to make it worse/happen.

7. Honestly I wish people talked about how common disabilities are and also how its not something to be afraid of. Whether it be mental or physical its a challenge nonetheless and your should talk to a doctor or a trusted loved one about it. I also wish educators would talk about periods more. Especially menstrual isses or irregularities.

8. I dont think they affect my gender or sexuality but they definitely effect my hobbies. I cant do sports because I always get a headache from the heat and end up throwing up and Ive even stopping some of my more complex hobbies like candle making because of the stress and low energy from my migraines.

9. I usually say juice or just energy. Like for example, "My juices are running low, I need to lay down."

10. I talked to my doctor and she understood and wrote me a note for all of my classes of something along the lines of, "They need to drink lots of water so make sure they get extra bathroom passes if needed. When having a migraine take student into a dark, quiet room until migraine it dampened or gone." and she even used the exactly words, "Sometimes absences are inevitable." Which was really cool. I also use earbuds or noise cancelling headphones when I have bad noise sensitivity and sometimes and ice pack or cold wet rag for my head to help.

11. The need for quiteness /j but on a real note probably the ban on noise canceling headphones in school to be lifted. I know people who just like to use them that don't have the common sense to take them off when instructed which is taking some resources away from disabled people which is incredibly annoying.

12. A lot of people don't know that my migraines can cause excessive dizziness or tiredness so they don't understand why I can't do anything with a migraine "just because your head hurts."

13. Its a strong tie between, "Well you don't look sick." and "Well youre speaking okay, you don't sound bad." (Its not being sick Karen, I'm not going to have a raspy voice from a headache, also I've dealt with migraine long enough to look my lowest constantly.)

14. No, actually. I've had almost no moments where I've thought, "I have the same struggles as you!" or "I can relate to you because we go through some of the same things." (I mean my OBGYN totally understood my problems but I do not know her very well so I didn't really see it as a community moment.)

15. What disability pride month means to me is being able to talk about my disabilities and share with others so that other people could possibly get the help they need. I like sharing my stories to bring light onto hardly talked about situations like menstrual irregularities in children and teens and how to help someone with a migraine or dizzy spell. It also allows me to show how I can talk about disabilities without feeling embarrassed or alienated so it gives confidence to others who may feel strange to talk about them.

16. Happy disability pride month, drink lots of water or re-hydrating sports drink. Eat balanced meals if you can and do not feel forced to eat 3 meals a day if you feel like you cant eat but don't starve yourself either!! And also tell people about disability pride month, spread the word and share your stories!!!

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[jamboreeofsurprises]

I might regret admitting this, but i feel like i might as well open up about it. i can always delete it later lol.

A lot of my dysphoria is gender related, but some of it is age related as well and I feel like this is a difficult concept for most people to wrap their minds around. Depression started with the onset of puberty for me. it felt like the beginning of things going downhill, and it has, for the most part, continually gotten worse throughout my teen years and now into adulthood. i never looked forward to growing up whatsoever and the fact that everyone else did only further enforced these feelings. it created a great sense of isolation to feel so differently about all these disturbing changes everyone else seemed ready and excited for. the only person i've ever seen who expressed similar sadness about the end of childhood is the artist henry darger. he felt like it was losing important and precious that he would never be able to get back, and that's how i feel about it too. when i still wanted to play with toys, my friends had already grown past that and lost interest and got rid of theirs and it gravely upset me. i didn't want this, but you have to accept as a living being that you have to grow up.

regardless of how i feel about this, i've tried, of course, to do 'grown up' things as you should as you get older, i went to college, took up some more responsibilities, have a job, have other outlets for money, pay taxes, pay for my things etc., but i have always gravely lagged behind where other people seem capable of doing things. i am 24 now and still feel the same as i did when i was about 12. maybe that isn't that strange, but i don't look that different either. i have childish interests. i fit into most of the same clothes (and actually weigh even less). i'm average height but didn't otherwise grow or change very much. because of gender dysphoria, i'm relieved about this. a lot of people still address or treat me like i'm a child and it's because i look and act like one. but i don't know that i even want to or if it's just because i'm chronically immature.

one of the biggest avenues for 'adult pain' to me is driving. i can't do it. it gives me such bad sensory overload and i've seen my own death via car crash in my mind so many times and to be honest with you i'm pretty sure thats the way im going to go. but because i live in california where it's basically required (and i really dont want to leave here), and my parents, and all my peers here, can do it just fine, and have been doing it since they were teenagers, i have to just do it. so okay i try. and ive already been in like 3 accidents. no they weren't serious but i can't do it. everyone else i know does not have that kind of luck with it. but every time i pleaded with my parents repeatedly that i can't do it they just told me to keep trying and now that i'm moved out they made me the owner of the van. because my mom's mom couldn't drive which 'made her basically crippled' in my mom's words, im going to be a disappointment if i can't do it. but i absolutely cant do it.

someone at a desk today needed to know my age and when i answered it they had some disbelief and asked for it again. when something stupid happens like a car accident and i prove again that im just a dumb child, it make me feel a thousand times more embarrassed than if i actually looked and felt like an adult. because it really does just make me a scared incapable little kid all over again.

i dont even know what's autism or what's dysphoria sometimes but i always need so much fucking help with everything to a humiliating extent. my childhood friend was already cooking and maintaining the house when we were little and driving all over the place as soon as they were old enough too. i cant do any of that now. i can barely fry a god damn egg. and the pressure is on all the time because my friends and parents could do all of it way younger than me. im so tired of being me. im so tired of looking and feeling this way and not being able to do anything.