#if anyone hasnt read this series yet please do

[ma4chestier]

actually, im not surprise anymore. he tried to kill himself at fricking 9 years old, he's capable of everything at this point.

umemiya may be a well-witted person wih good intentions and a charisma that can befriend anyone but when it comes to his mental strength.... im not so sure he's as strong as others, like sakura or... or no one actually. sakura is the strongest when it comes to the state of mind in a fight, the most stable. yes, he has abandonment issues but thats outside of a fight. we could see in almost every fight that everyone somehow gets distracted or is affected by emotions they shouldnt be distracted with, they're easy to manipulate in that state of mind, and im prerty sure endo knows it and thats how he managed to bring the old umemiya back to give takiishi a good fight he could enjoy.

endo says a lot of times that he isnt capable of a good character judgement, but he was capable in the past its just that he has become more thrown to please takiishi that he makes errors he didnt use to make about people, because whether he noticed or not, meeting takiishi changed the way he used to read other's motifs and actions. the way he can talk about umemiya that way proves that he is still capable to read people so well, even noticing sakura's worries (and being worried himself). he may not be able to read takiishi like a book, but thats no reason to not understand him, also something about not knowing what he will do next is part of the beauty endo sees in him, that spontaneous personality and disinterest in everything makes endo want to see more, to keep reaching to the unknown.

i dont know where i was going with this but yeah, i love these four dynamics like no others. and i know it wont turn out this way but im really hoping for takiishi to talk with sakura, just a couple of words would satisfy me, they dont even need to be directed to sakura he just needs to say something controversal to make sakura yet again have a crisis, that would be so cool

anyway, someone give sakura a hug please

sakura's trying to understand for the first time the reason why soemone fights. he hasnt question in his entire life why someome fights, he just assumes is a very common way to act, but umemiya changed his way of thinking inside a fight, with the "you can have a conversation with punches too", and im pretty sure sakura is trying to understand what he's trying to tell takiishi with his fists. we already know what takiishi is trying to make across, with the little snippet of his mind we were allowed to see, but we dont know what umemiya is thinking at this moment.

i think that apart from seeing that piece of hell that was takiishi's mind, satoru nii is making the fight in sakura and endo perspective as a whole, not letting us know what this two monsters are even thinking about, making the feeling of anticipation even greater

i love this series so fricking much, satoru nii is really amazing with their job, i love the visuals and metaphors they put in their work.

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Wednesday Tag Game!

whooho! we're half way through the week

thank you @such-a-barbarian for tagging me <3

🔤 Name: gigi

🎶 Last song you listened to: homecoming which feels pretty appropriate to this blog (psa i think k*nye is a fucking asshole as much as the next person but you can pry graduation and college drop out from my cold dead hands)

🎵 Artist on Spotify giving you the feels right now: its fall so ive been listening to the entirety of preachers daughter -ethel cain on repeat on my walk home

👯‍♂️ Fave Blorbo Moment: when my very BRAVE blorbo kissed his crush <3 (he got the order a little wrong but he got there eventually)

🍟 Your guilty pleasure snack: i am not a huge snacker, nor do i feel guilt associated with food itself, i do however feel a little shame for how much $ i spend on the shittiest mangos, papayas, lychee etc. on the planet all for a taste of home :,(

🌮 What food are you craving today: sushi and trust i will be eating some this weekend

📖 Last fanfic tab you opened: @sam-loves-seb 's whumptober series, i doubt anyone who follows me hasnt seen this project come up on their dash, but its worth mentioning again how truly exceptional these fics are

🖌️ Favorite fic project you've created: idk about favorite, but most recent is Psychopomp! Please go read it if you're interested

https://archiveofourown.org/works/51164713/chapters/129278920

other than that i think the best is yet to come !

👩🏼‍🎤 Next tattoo you want: i am not going to get any tattoos in the near or distant future (even though i love them on others), and if i ever did i would be the worst kind of client with a million tweaks and a long (obviously compensated, but annoying) design process, you know, the type of client i complain about all day

🧐🆓 What's living in your head rent free this week: yall, i had such a crazy halloweekend i am still exhausted aside from work nothing has been going on in my head thats not strictly necessary, but i have had a few ideas for new fics so stay tuned

Wednesday is almost over so in the last few hours i tag all you nice people

@i-think-you-mean-reduction @jezzibelle89 @solitarycreaturesthey

@sweetperversiongirl @milkovichrules @gallavichlover19

[theelibugs]

Oh shit I got tagged in stuff time to go do my friendly duties \o/

Get to know me better! Tagged by @/bruxbea!

Last song: Hello, World! by Bump of Chicken! They're one of my favorite Japanese bands (got addicted after they did the opening for Tales of the Abyss). I listen to a lot of Japanese music when in story hyperfocus mode, because they seem to set my daydream moods a lot better than other music, so my JPN playlist is on repeat right now. BoC is a lot of it, lol (my favs of theirs are Karma, Aurora, Supernova, and Souvenir).

Currently Watching: okay so.... I don't... Actually watch TV or series much at ALL (much to the chagrin of my movie loving husband). Like. I am very very bad at focusing on TV shows or movies so tend to not watch em much.

That being said, the last show I watched was Bleach: Thousand Year Blood War arc and THE NEXT SEASON IS ABOUT TO DROP AND I'M GOING FERAL. A bit upset they aren't using Tatsuya Kitani for the opening though. I never finished the Quincy arc in the manga, stopped after Full bring, so it's been a lot of fun seeing the anime and wondering which parts were changed for the anime and what parts they kept from the manga (apparently Kubo is doing some slight rewriting!)

Currently Reading: I actually read way more manga than I do novels or series. I just got caught up to Call of the Night/Yofukashi no Uta and holy FUCK it is so good. Basically a kid loves wandering the streets at night, because he's alone and it's silent. And he befriends a vampire and ends up wanting to become one. It's kind of laid back in the beginning, but starts to dive into lore and plot, and I absolutely love the direction it's currently going. It's a very good 'Coming to terms with life' manga imo.

Current Obsession: Absolutely Stardew Valley. It's my go-to calming game when I just need to shut off my brain, but my brain has gone into story writing mode. And now that I'm finally into drawing comics, I've been coming up with so many HCs and story tidbits for my farmer that just makes things more interesting. Esp with all the fucking mods I have altering dialogue and events, it makes it more fun and gives me more freedom to write. So I guess look forward to more comics soon? Lmao

Adding just for funsies

Current Game: TEARS OF THE KINGDOM. IF YOU HAVE FINISHED THE GLYPHS MAIN QUEST PLEASE TELL ME I NEED TO DISCUSS WITH SOMEONE OR I'M GOING TO GO BONKERS, HUSBAND HASNT GOTTEN THEIR YET AND I NEED TO SCREAM. Not beaten the game yet, though, I'm fucking around with getting all the outfits, exploring the Chasms, and getting all my health (my stamina is maxed lololol)

Uhh gunna tag @marsipanic @hawkeshep @maebird-melody (and anyone who wants to!)

[fandom-blackhole]

I'm back from my mandatory two day socialization recovery period required for all socialization even if I enjoy it. It's time for some Mermaid!Din au thoughts (No thots unfortunately but we'll live)

First off I love the isolation that the reader faces because of the lighthouse they live in. And I love how the townspeople being nice to the reader help give them a reason to stick around when weird things start happening.

I love how it took months before anything strange starts happening, like were Din and Grogu just not around or were they observing the reader. Did Din ever try to stop Grogu from damaging the lighthouse or did he let the little rascal do as he pleased.

· And gosh I love the idea of reader dressing in old worn clothing, a knit sweater with fraying sleeves, sweat pants covered in paint from repairs, an old windbreaker to help keep the cold out. It makes me heart all warm and fuzzy.

Edna, who i've head cannoned as this series Miss Chatham (H2O: just add water charter) is honestly life goals. Like live near ocean - check(ish), have rare knowledge that can be used to help new person - check, being just slightly spooky -amazing. And is that a little matchmaker I see her playing? I love it.

Then Grogu being injured :( I bet that Din is absolutely being eaten alive by guilt even though we all know it’s not his fault and he does literally anything he can to keep Grogu safe and happy.

And In love how Din is venerable enough to ask for help, like he recognizes that this is something out of his area of expertise so he goes to the person he knows is “safe” to get help. He’s humble enough to admit that he needs help and is not capable of doing everything for Grogu. And being able to admit that is an important life skill that not enough people have.

· But even after he ask the reader for help he is still hesitant which shows that even though hes trusting reader he will still kick (is it still a kick if its with a tail) the readers ass if he hurts him.

“But you can help him” Oh my heart the trust in that sentence. Like Din just heard, “so yeah I can help your son but I have to take him somewhere it will be hard for you to follow. And he needs to stay there for at least a week, and even if you manage to come its going to be so far from your natural element.” But he was still on board with the plan. And then he goes to climb on the rock so he can drag himself all the way to the light house because he can’t let his little boy go alone even if it means hurting himself to do it.

Reader was smart af for doing the old blanket slipperaroo trick

Reader immediately knowing something was up when she walked into town is so realistic. She literally is hiding a massive secret at her lighthouse of course anyone would be on edge walking back into society. Especially a society that already knows a little something about the secret. But them to amplify it. Miss Chatham to the rescue. She knows that reader is up to something and she uses her powers as an old lady with lungs and karen potential to scare off the problem for a little bit. The reader just placed so much trust on Edna by straight up telling her that she's housing Din and Grogu.

· Also that fool browsing the menstrual hygiene rack, like dumbass. Is this your way of making him miss every shot? Because we know that storm troopers are well known for their ability to miss every shot so making him automatically turn to tampons? Genius

Cashier for the win, like beep beep bitch now pay up

The "cyare" omg and then the reader warning Din about the cookies and him being so curious about them. The way Din is so perceptive of the readers mood that he is already able to tell that something is wrong. It was such a smart idea to have the reader lead with asking him to give her a small chance to calm down about what happened in the town.

Din and the reader low-key flirting and teasing each other at the end is so adorable. Grogu with the cookie absolutely melts my heart like of course that boy is hungry.

So this is a slightly polished layout of my stream of consciousness while reading this. Does it make sense? Probably not. But I love this idea and you have done it justice.

Ahhhhhhz thank you for all of the lovely thoughts and compliments, im glad you like my story and I hope it continuesto meet your expectations!!!! And you made perfect sense darling!

To reply to some things:

Honestly, I chose the isolation for two reasons, 1- it made sense, especially for how the plot is going to play out, privacy and isolation is needed, and 2- im introverted and I like being alone, so I just projected

The town's people are great! They are used to having lighthouse keepers just up and leave because of all the weird stuff, so the second that one sticks around they were all overjoyed, because like I said, a lot of the people work on boats fishing so the lighthouse is super important to them

Din did wait and observe the reader, wanting to know what to do when to attempt to scare them off. But also like no, he tried keeping Grogu away from the lighthouse as much as possible, not knowing what the reader might do to him, and just being a protective father, but we all know Grogu is a little shit and he snuck out before Din could stop him

Reader dresses in the COMFIEST clothes, and honestly, I am very much a sweater and comfy leggings kind of person, so again, something I am projecting

I love that you and everyone is loving Edna, she is definitely one of those cool old ladies that sneak you treats and shenanigans when no one is looking!

Also because idk if anyone has pointed it out.... in the last chapter I thought I was heavily hinting at it, but maybe it was more subtle than I thought, Edna and her MERMAID were alot more than friends *wink wink* she's gay as fuck and thats why she made the joke about not liking NUTS

Din loves Grogu, in and out of this AU, and it was 1000% not his fault that Grogu got hurt, in fact he was trying to protect him! Din definitely panicked and the first person that came to mind was the reader, and while he didn't know them, he knew for some reason they were safe to go to for help (as well as knowing the lighthouse would be a good place to hide while some things cooled down 👀), but Din will always be cautious because he is scared for his son

Din is just *chef's kiss* 👌, an amazing father who will do ANYTHING for his son, no matter what it takes

The whole blanket thing literally came from my childhood, thinking about how my sisters and I would drag eachother around on blankets, and I just thought it would be great for this scenario

Like the reader is gonna get real paranoid during this series, im not going to lie to you, things are gonna get rough, but Edna is the MVP she's one of those people that could pull your darkest secrets from you just by glancing at you, and the reader pretty much assumed she was safe to talk to after she had informed her about the food offerings

Ok ok, as for the dudes, I was too lazy to look up their names and stuff but they were these dudes from season 1 that gave Din Grogu's bounty: the first dude is the one 'hiding' in the women's hygiene section

Din is just obsessed for human food at this point, and he feels things for the reader even of he doesn't want to admit it quite yet

Din also may be oblivious as fuck, but he's also observant, hes a bounty hunter for fucks sake, he needs to be able to pick up on these things, so yes in my stories Din is really good at picking up on emotions, even if he doesn't fully know how to react to them

Im aiming for a slow burn foc, but to be honest with you all, chances are it is going to be a regularly paced romance, which for my writing is slow paced, so yeah the idiots are flirting and teasing eachother, but also like they will not be talking about or admitting feelings for at least a few more chapters

Grpgu deserves all the cookies!!! He's a growing tadpole, who has been magically healing himself while in a coma like state, so he hasnt eaten in days, and if he wanted he'd probably be able to devour 2x his body weight and then some, so a few cookies recieved in some kind of mysterious way are well achieved

Merman!Din Tags: @writeforfandoms @ahopelessromanticwritersworld @honey-goth  @mando-abs @lux-cream-67 @rachelle-on-the-run @katcharm   @ladamari68 @bluegalaxyprime @my-life-as-a-bird @altarsw @zarakem @stargazingthenightaway

(Added the taglist in case any of you guys wanted to read over my thoughts and things bc I have some hcs and cleared somethings up ypu may be wondering about)

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Rec List #1 Theme: 2018 Favourites

One of my fandom resolutions is to rec more in 2019. I’m going to post rec lists for some of my favourite Nick fics divided up by theme/content/ship or whatever I fancy throughout the year. It seems fitting that my first rec post of 2019 should be my favourite Nick Fics of 2018. If you’re interested in my Harry Potter themed recs, you can find them over on my other blog @writcraft under the tag #writ recs where I’m undertaking the same initiative.

This is by no means an exhaustive list - I’m limiting myself to ten recs per list and it is very difficult, I could have recced many more. I’ve read and enjoyed a whole raft of terrific stories and this rec list is simply based on my personal tastes which may not be everybody else’s cuppa. Please heed the content warnings the author has flagged on AO3 in each case, none of my recs include the content tags.

#1. Ten Track Sophomore Album by @junkshop-disco​ 

Nick Grimshaw/Harry Styles | 4,228

Nick has always lived in noise, been the cause of a lot of it, but one day a boy writes him into a pop song and the whole world dissolves into static.

It doesn’t happen like that, not that easy, not that linear, but that’s the heart of it, the soul, if these things have such a thing.

My Rec: The Nick fic of 2018 is undoubtedly the final installment of junkshop-disco’s incredible Doodle of a Surface Life but that has quite rightly garnered so many recs by now if any Gryles reader hasn’t yet indulged, run, quick, what are you waiting for? I love DOASL with all of my heart, but I’m also a sucker for angst and I wanted to highlight this equally terrific fic in my rec list. The structure of this story, in which Nick loses his ability to hear music, is so cleverly done. It’s a very skilled writer that can create an entire fic around sound and make it come alive, and junkshop-disco manages it brilliantly. The fic reads like music, even as it describes the absence of it and it’s a stunning piece of writing. If you like your Gryles contemplative and angsty with confident, lyrical prose, this is the one for you. Junkshop-disco has such a terrific way with words I highly recommend reading all the works by this author. Every single one. But when you do make sure you take a moment to stop by this beautiful story and leave it all the love it deserves.

#2. Tell Me It’s The Strongest Shape by @louandhazaf

Nick Grimshaw/Elgar Johnson/Louis Tomlinson | 73,224

Nick and Elgar have it all. They’re famous, successful, and engaged to be married—and sometimes they play with others.

When uni student Louis gets street cast by Elgar for a GQ photoshoot, he's drawn into Nick and Elgar’s complicated relationship.

They've always invited mates into their bed. It doesn’t ever mean anything. Until… it does.

My Rec: This is such a great exploration of polyamory and the complexities of open relationships, and the author took a great deal of time developing the relationships between the characters and really working on highlighting some of those difficulties. I tend to gravitate towards fanfic where I care deeply about the characters, and although Elgar seems terrific I don’t have the same fannish relationship to him as I do to Nick and Louis so I was curious to know how I would respond to this fic. Basically, the author killed it. I felt such a deep investment in Elgar, Nick and Louis throughout and everything just flew by as I was reading. It’s also really fucking hot. Like, REALLY. Brilliantly done. I loved it. 

#3. Let The Boys All Sing And The Boys All Shout For Tomorrow by @lunarrua​

Nick Grimshaw/Harry Styles | 18,429

It's February 1988. Thatcher is in power. There's a new drug sweeping through the clubbing scene. In Manchester, it's the eve of a major protest and a new musical movement. And when Nick finds Harry looking lost outside his favourite chip shop, it's the start of a weekend that will leave an indelible mark on both their lives.

My Rec: I saw the summary for this fic and actually yelled at my screen when it popped into my inbox. Gryles, set in Manchester in the 80s? Hell yes. The fic itself certainly didn’t disappoint, it’s absolutely beautiful. The author writes a well-researched, confident piece and the result is stunning. The atmosphere of the whole story is captivating and you can feel yourself transported to the heady days before the Manchester music scene shifted, the anxieties of the AIDS crisis and the fragility of the relationships formed during that period. The Harry of this fic has a transient quality which evokes the nostalgic reflection on a different time in our not so distant past. A real triumph. I loved this story with my whole heart. 

#4. Séjour by @silveredsound

Nick Grimshaw/Louis Tomlinson | 6,288

It is so quiet, which should be conducive to concentration, but Nick is bored and listless and lonely. He’s been there for two days and wants to know where the helpful lady is who’ll deliver him a gamine but takes-no-shit housekeeper who he can fall in love with without words. Words are not his friend.

“Where is my Love Actually moment?” he asks the ceramic kitchen sink as he pokes holes in the cover of one of the M&S ready meals he brought over with him.

«≠»

Nick’s got writer's block. Louis is a master of distraction.

My Rec: I’ve loved a number of stories by Silv this year and I was swinging back and forth between this and others, but there’s something about this little fic that has wormed its way into my heart and has taken hold so this is the one I’m choosing. As I said in my earlier reblog rec, this has such lush, evocative prose it perfectly captures the sense of a fleeting summer. There’s a seductive quietness to it, and a lovely unfolding of the story through snippets of tasting notes left by Louis on bottles of wine and Nick feeling a little bit lost and searching for words as he struggles with writer’s block. Two boys find one another in the warmth of a sleepy French town and it’s beautiful. Really wonderfully done.

#5. Fists & Flowers ‘Verse by @jiksax

Nick Grimshaw/Harry Styles | 1,613 (Make It Worse) and 2,322 (I’ll Do What You Like (If You Stay The Night)

He’s looking at Nick with that soft, terrible look in his eyes, the look that tells Nick the two of them are probably something.

My Rec: If anyone other than Jiksa had told me they were planning an angsty fisting fic series I would have been like umm really? But of course, it’s Jiksa, so naturally I found myself sobbing at the raw, devastating intensity of the story. Jiksa deftly weaves the intensity of the physical act itself into the emotional tumult of Harry and Nick’s relationship in a way that’s incredibly beautiful. A bold, brave, superb piece of hot, confident writing, rich with emotional complexity. Gorgeous.

#6. Constantly on the Cusp by @shiftylinguini

Nick Grimshaw/Louis Tomlinson | 6169

It’s 5 in the morning, and Nick’s got an alarm going off, an unexpected bed full of pop star, and a nation to wake up.

It’s far too fucking early for this.

My Rec: UNFFFFF. I love Shifty’s writing. Like, an obsessive amount. I was so thrilled when Shifty started writing Tomlinshaw I didn’t know quite what to do with myself. It’s actually hard to believe this was Shifty’s first Tomlinshaw, because everything about the fic felt like they have been writing them for years. Louis is sleepy, horny and pissed off, Nick is awake, horny and wondering what it all means, and together they have this scorching hot, sexy moment. Nick’s internal monologue  gives us so much insight into their relationship and the fic offers a lovely, warm, hopeful moment at the end. Fantastically written and a sexy delight from start to finish. Loved it!

#7. this cookie’s baking by @disgruntledkittenface 

Nick Grimshaw/Harry Styles (Genderswap Femslash) | 8,148

Harry’s eyes flicker between Nick’s eyes and lips. “I just want to be your–”

“Baby,” Nick says softly, cupping Harry’s jaw, “you already are.”

Nick and Harry have a long-overdue conversation.

My Rec: This was the first genderswap Gryles fic I have read and I absolutely loved it. The relationship between Nick and Harry feels so perfectly them and there’s a lovely warmth to the whole story. It’s light and funny but also contains moments of real emotional depth and those first time explorations and the hesitancy of admitting to being something more than friends is handled in such a terrific way. It’s a gorgeous story with wonderful writing and I loved every minute of reading it.

#8. let’s make some new rules by @camiii 

Nick Grimshaw/Louis Tomlinson | 12,743

A coffee shop, a Christmas party & a fake date to make sure no one gets laid at the end of the night.

My Rec: This was such an enjoyable read. I love camiii’s Tomlinshaw, and seeing this pop up was a wonderful surprise. Barista Louis agrees to be Nick’s fake boyfriend as he pines over an ex that definitely isn’t worth his time, and they become closer in the process. The pace of the story is wonderful, the flirting is brilliant and despite some misunderstandings and Nick’s no good ex trying to fuck things up, the ending is warm and hopeful. A lovely story, full of festive cheer. Thoroughly enjoyable.

#9. I’ll be seeing you by @daretomarvel​ / renlyne

Nick Grimshaw/Harry Styles | 11,481

It’s 2028, and Nick’s bought a house.

My Rec: I love Ren’s writing and this Notebook inspired Gryles is a beautiful treat of a story, in which Nick starts buying little bits for his dream house. It’s hard to believe this story is just over 11,000 words because the world the author creates is so rich, detailed, layered and complex. The relationship between Nick and Harry has all of these gorgeous details and nuggets of history as it grows and develops, seedling-like, into something that might just be everything they’ve both been searching for. It’s a warm, hopeful, beautiful story but as it’s Ren, it manages to still tug at the heartstrings in the best kind of way. I read this again as I was putting my rec list together and did so with a lump in my throat, full of feels for the Nick and Harry of Ren’s universe. Gorgeous writing with bags of emotional intensity. I loved it.

#10. All I’ve ever had are love songs by @candybarrnerd / icarusinflight

Nick Grimshaw/Louis Tomlinson | 21,688

Things are finally coming together for Nick.

Nick is the DJ of his uni's radio stations, and he passively aggressively dedicates a song to Louis.

My Rec: Icarusinflight is another author who was already on my periphery from Harry Potter fandom who wrote their first Tomlinshaw fic this year and I was so thrilled to see them writing in this fandom and I’m very excited about their upcoming 2019 projects which also includes fics featuring the 1D boys in various ship combos. I love uni AUs and I hadn't read one for a while, so this was such a treat. I loved how Louis is sharp, sassy and confident but with niggling insecurities. Harry was so affectionately humorous in this story and Nick’s voice is wonderful. This is a really well-paced, enjoyable story with a hot af first kiss that deserves a mention all of its own. The music references, the tea and the cameos from various 1D members are all terrific and the writing is brilliant. Can’t wait for more from this author this year.

Bonus Rec: I was meant to limit this to just 10 recs but I also wanted to give a quick shout out to @nightwideopen. I’ve said this in previous rec lists before, but I am constantly impressed by the quality of @nightwideopen‘s writing and the way they explore things such as asexuality and gender dysphoria which can be harder to find in a relatively small fandom. I’d particularly rec so far (it’s alright) and i’ve been thinking lots about your mouth from this year, both Tomlinshaw.

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Time for Happy and I to scream our love for 20 random peeps! First off an adorable fellow Exceed who followed back and has made my days wonderful by blessing my dash with their precious muse. @fromosou, I love this little Frosh blog so much, they are precious, follow them if you didn’t already!Multi muse accounts are fantastic, I love them. It takes a lot of work to pull muse for even one character, but to be able to rp several, on the same account without getting them confused or crossing character traits is something, and a bonus, they run sideblogs too. I have sideblogs on my other account, they’re a pain to work with sometimes so having so many of them shows that the mun has a lot of patience with tumblr’s bullcrap. That’s why @mirasrphub deserves so much love and a major shout out! I have so much love for this next FT blog, they’ve been one of my strongest followers since day one, back like 4 blogs ago and follow like every account I have. A fantastic roleplayer who I recommend to follow if you don’t already, @miss-lucy-celestial-princess/ @mladyofsabertooth. Both of her blogs are a treasure. @edolastwindragons An amazingly talented duel muse blog! From my understanding, they DRAW THEIR OWN ICONS. Which to me, someone who loves art, but has no talent or patience for it really, is a huge thing! It takes skill that few have. Love seeing them around on the dash, the rp is wonderful, go follow them!! Next is the very person who dragged me back into the FT fandom and encouraged me to make this blog. My other rp account is in the Free! Eternal Summer fandom and I followed a duplicate muse on there and found out they had a Natsu blog too. Just the word Natsu brought on like all these flashbacks to when I had first started reading the manga. The mun was kind enough to hear out my request for a crossover RP and in order to keep Makoto in character and recall the FT world to make the crossover work, I started reading the manga again, which eventually led to Happy’s blog and I blame @ignicity 110% for that. GRAY YOU’RE NEXT!! @i-ced I’m a terribly shy person in general, which is why I’ve followed so many of you and made little to no effort to talk even though I want to be friends with everyone. When I first made this blog, I was scared to add people because of bad experiences on other blogs, and like the second I put out my promo and it got reblogged by a Natsu, i-ced was one of the first to follow it and even sent me the sweetest welcome message I’ve ever gotten on here. They were so polite and became one of my first interactions in this fandom and I have such a fun time writing with them and every time I read their replies I hear Gray’s voice in it and laugh my ass off as I picture the frosted stripper acting out the scene, ever since we became mutuals they have consistently remained my top most active fan and idk how one could love a simple trash blog like mine that much, but whatever they see in this blog, I thank them for it immensely! JUVIA I LOVE YOU!!  another  mutual on multiple accounts whom I love, love, love, love, LOOOOOOOVVVVVVEEEE with all my heart is my dear friend, Kari. @juviasbutt​, the mun and I go way back, to like my first muse ever and since then we have remained mutuals faithfully to this day even through several blog changes for both of us. They’re so dedicated to their muses and a major delight to have around, and the only thing that will ever keep me from following them is a tumblr malfunction. Shout out for Levy @mugensaki Who I recently had a very relaxing talk with when I messaged them to inform them their rules had been read and I found out they’ve had some similar experiences where their rules have been neglected in the past and it was such a breath of fresh air to hear that someone else shares the same frustration I do when things like that happen. Thank you for letting me vent like that sweetie, and I hope to rp with you soon!! The muse might be ice cold, but the mun has a heart of gold! Lyon, thank you again for helping me figure out the stupid buttons on my blog! I love your presence on my dash and I love reading your work and I couldn’t be happier in the world to call any other Lyon my mutual. Thank you for just being you and being there for me even if it’s a simple question or just to talk to or send a message or ask once in a while. Thank you, @wintergracedThe Edolas King Himself is next @mystificd Thank you for the random interactions we’ve had so far. I appreciate you being brave enough to throw Myst into my inbox randomly like that, in fact I often prefer random interactions like that over trying to plot something. I love your muse and your writing and I hope to rp with you again soon, dear! Another Shadow Dragon Slayer who I hope to interact with sometime is @prxestigiae seeing their replies makes my day. Their Rogue is so sassy sometimes I can’t help but laugh as I scroll through and read their responses. They have such a way with his character it’s indescribable. Following them is such a pleasure, even if it’s just to read their rps. Follow them, if you don’t already. I love them so much! OCs always deserve love as well, so this next shout out goes to @littlesandstorm Happy and I are having such a blast writing with you and Cari. Thank you for blessing me with the opportunity to work with a fabulous OC who is just sugar personified as far as Happy and I have seen. Keep up the creative work sweetie and I promise I’ll reply soon! Another crossover friendly blog who has been there for me and follows damn near every account I have and has shown me nothing but love since I first became mutuals with them is a wonderful D. Gray Man multi-muse blog @thenoahfamily. Ti, you’re a wonderful friend and a fantastic role player and I love you to death and will follow you on all my accounts, always! The Strauss siblings were some of my favorite characters from the series so when I saw  Mirajane followed me, I got really excited. I haven’t had a chance to talk to the Mun yet, but I have read through some of their blog and I really like the way @enferdoux​ writes Mira into life practically, and their comments in the tags are an added bonus. #NOT LIKE GRAY HASNT HAD ENOUGH SHIT TODAY ALREADY X’DD Another OC who I love seeing on the dash @celestial-prince-of-caulem the sassy interactions between Maikeru and Sting are enough to make them worth a follow. If you haven’t read their threads yet, please do, they will brighten your day. Erza deserves love as well. @titaxia does a wonderful job at writing our favorite FT redhead and let’s be honest, I’d kill for a theme as beautiful as yours. Keep doing this cake lover justice, please I beg of you! @tigreesse Though I know you and I have yet to talk or rp, I’m flattered to have you as a follower. You’re probably the only Yukino blog I’ve seen around. A more recent follower who deserves a shout out is @laxusthelightning, who I just became mutuals with them in the last few days and though we have yet to interact or talk, I do enjoy their Fraxus threads with @freedthedark, keep up the awesome job, both of you! I have yet to work with @snowdriiift but the more I read about their OC, the more I love them. Though I have yet to see them rp with anyone, I’m hoping Happy and I get a chance to work with you and Samara soon. And finally another crossover follower that is actually in my old fandom @laviskandayuu is a D Gray Man muse that followed me recently and I got hit by so many feels and war flashbacks from my old Allen Walker blog it hurt! Ps. I am still accepting this meme as I do have other mutuals I’d love to spread love to, but thank you to whoever sent in so many. 

[chucklerjuergens]

Im gonna do this here hope you dont mind!!

@hoosiers-blanket i have a ton of andyeddie fics that most anyone reading this has probably already read but im still dumping for anyone who possibly hasnt

Strange things are happening everyday is the genderbend andyeddie fic where theyre women in the marine corp and it makes my heart so happy. Nothing goes wrong in this fic really and its definitely a feel good fic

Hard rains a-gonna fall andyeddie in the pacific but nothing bad happens! Its basicaly andy dealing with shit and eddie helping him make it bearble

So spoke the wanderer I LOVE THIS ONE!! Its so magical and yet ordinary?? The writing is incredible and the concept is really fun but the way its set up makes it feel like the plot of the fic happens a lot within that universe? Anyway i adore this fic yall need to read it

When our historys told andy finding eddie after the war. Enough said. (HAPPY!! Theyre not dead dont worry)

If you sing these words, we’ll never die perconte centered which i thought was awesome. Brings in a lot of good characters and its space themed!! Its amazing!!

Sagittarius amaryllis a real fun nice andyeddie fic thats super cute :’)

In gold light, lakeside and backlit THE ANDYEDDIE SOCCER FIC!!!

A vida e o amor que criamos são a vida e o amor que vivemos this fic was amazing and the title makes me emotional. Magical realism using luz’s portuguese origin as a starting point. Theres more in the series with lena riggi but i havent read that one yet

A day of firsts tab, smokey, and shifty during d-day and its perfect!! My three boys all in one fic. Shiftys side is sort of heartbreaking but i love this fic so much

Come in from the cold the smokey coffee shop fic that stole my heart

Make it up as we go along the crown jewel of my heart. If you cracked open my head, all you would see would be this fic in its entirety, especially the grant and liebgott friendship interactions. This fic literaly owns me and its perfect in every single way. Please read this fic

The one name war has gone this fic is so sexy (not in a actual sexual way) its speirton and its perfect please read this fic

A history of summer this fic combined all my favorite things. The pacific, band of brothers, and a league of their own. Its so perfect and well written and a league of their own already makes me so fucking emotional but this added to it. If you dont cry at the end of a league of their own idk if i can trust you

Where the hell would i be without you its a canonverse webgott fic thats really good and cute but also i love it so much bc penk and skip dont die and im all about that shit babey!!

Ok now i think this is it. Sorry if its way more than you asked for or not at all what you asked for!! I know its not all or aven mostly andyeddie shdjndb sorry! Anyway i hope some people enjoy this list :’)

Is there someone i can talk to abt fic recs?? I have so many i need to shaareee

[iflifesuckeatpie]

My honest Mr robot s3 theory

First of all im swedish so My english suck but bare with me! Okey, the two previous seasons there Have been a twist, the mr robot twist and the prison twist. Now if Sam Will countinue with this then I think Tyrelliot Will be the twist of season three, and here is Why: Sam Have said a couple of Times that he Have subtexted a thing since season one and thought that people would Have picked up on that but no one has yet. Now Sam Esmail is so fucking intelligent and everything he does Have a meaning. And I do not belive for a second that he would ever queerbait because Mr Robot is to fucking deep for anyone to do so, and like I Said before everything on this show is subtext for so many other things its crazy. And because I dont know or maybe cuz Sam doesnt go on tumblr and see the tyrelliot tag he hasnt seen anyone crack what he has been hinting since season one exept us shippers and he dont know that we know. Because come on! Now I ship like a lunatic and I Have never seen anything like tyrelliot. There isnt even subtext it is text! Even My dad is convinced without us two ever talking about It that Tyrell is madly inlove with Elliot! From the moment They meet its there, for god sake Elliot is biting his lip *insert that slowmo gif of Elliot looking up and down Tyrell * And The things Tyrell says to Elliot are just so damn strange . It makes no sense. IF you are not inlove. And I dont feel like I need to talk or explane all their moments to you we are blessed and Have episode 12 from the second season to do that for me. No one can say that that episode was not a sad romantic movie about tyrelliot. I could write a whole book about all the subtext that isnt really subtext becaouse Sam is so smart that It isnt even subtexted it is in the lines. My husband even reacted to When Tyrell stopped Elliot and Said " I belive in faith, there is a reason we meet, there is something between us I can see it" and I could not belive the words coming from Tyrells mouth. I dont know Why nobody talks about that scene more because it is so in our faces. It is a love story, i can name like a houndred love storys from movies or tv that Have used that line over and over, it is sooooo in our face. Now here is what I think and what Sam is making us think, Because Elliot or more Mr robots answer for Tyrell is that he is Only seeing whats in front of him not above him, and thats When Tyrell gets this "god "obsession. But what people forget is that he did not Have that before that moment. That was just him saying that they belong toghether and that faith brought them togheter, like a man inlove would say when he had had enough of playing around their feelings. Or am I just crazy? I mean that Sam would not frase that scene in that way if they were just bros Being bros. Okey enough rambling! This is what My theory is, in those three days Elliot as Mr Robot and Tyrell did the hack ofcourse but then finally something happend between them. The dark side of Elliot feelt conected to someone like he Have never done before. Something happened that made Tyrell fall deeper inlove with him, and thats Why Tyrell is so freaking touchy touchy with him When they meet again. And I do belive that Mr Robots intrest in Tyrell was at the start that "oh he is crazy and he is obsessed with us and we can use him to blame the hack on" but it turned after the hack and he Began to fall inlove with Tyrell. And that could also be a strong factor to Why mr robot gets so fucking mad everytime Elliot asks about Tyrell. And I Have read the book, and mr robot is screaming at Elliot like a Child accousing him for being obsessed with Tyrell, plus all the Times in the series aswell When Mr Robot gets angry with him for asking about Tyrell. hmmm maybe he does not want Elliot to know that Mr Robot is indeed inlove with Tyrell cuz that could show Elliot that Mr Robot has a weakness that Elliot could fuck with. Maybe thats Why the three days are never really explanied? And maybe becouse Elliot is Mr robot the feelings are slowy catching on to Elliot. Remember in the last episode of the first season When Elliot ask us Why is he even looking for Tyrell. Elliot does not even know Why he is so intrested in Tyrell. And When Elliot asks Mr robot in that basement : Why Mr robot is hiding Tyrell from him and acting like Elliot dont see him can that also Have with Mr robots fear of Elliot finding out or Mr robot not Sanna deal with his feelings toward Tyrell? I think that in the middle of season three we Will finally see those three days and I really hope that we Will Have one whole episode about just those three days. And at the end of that episode they Will kiss or do something big so the " no homo"-guys can shut up. Mr Ronot Have exploited all the craxy things with Elliots mental illness and to Have his other personality fall inlove with another person and Have Elliot realize slowly that he must also Have feelings for that person is so interesting to me (now im sorry IF I offend anyone about that please correct me IF I said something stupid.) So it becomes full time fucking Canon from Elliot/Mr robots side too! And then we can look back at the other seasons and that would make so Much sense. And all those who where so blind Will Have their minds Blown! All this strange things Tyrell Have said to Elliot would make sense and even more his behavior after the hack and why he cried When he had to shoot him. And the fucking "I LOVE HIM" would make so Much sense for non-shippers. Because all of the rewiews I Have watch Have the Non-shippers so confused about that phonecall. (Mohahah) I hope that Sam Will pull this off. Becouse no one beside us shippers would see it coming and it would Have been a twist that would Have been going on since season one. And to finally Have a ship become canon in that way would just be changing Tv once in for all. And it would make the whole show so Much deeper and darker and it just feels like it is so fucking close guys. I hope Sam does this or I Have been fooled. Now this is My theory, its shitty and I dont know myself IF I ever explained anything I just want to talk about tyrelliot again!!! This tag is so dead!!! Five months to go right?! Okey im so tired but Canon tyrelliot for season 3 Sam! We need it!

[richard-of-windoor]

naknaknakadile

Tell me about your ocs!!!!!!!

imagine. i launched myself through your window rn 

ive been having a lot of oc feelings lately but i also have a sort of writers block and i  w anna cry. im gonna do a read more tho bc im scared itll get really long. also i want my series to eventually be a video game s o some elements may sound very game like for that reason

okay!!! s o the setting is high fantasy so expect magic and fantasy races. i also rework a lot of things out of the blue but this is what theyre like right now

*last name subject to change one day maybe

Davorin Mors - vampire and necromancer. i still cant decide if i want vampires to have lived hundreds of years or regular human years s o his age rn is either 16 or 1698 (every hundred years equal one year for vamps). The Mors family is related to Agatha the goddess of death and ruler of the underworld which is how Dav got his powers bc vampires sometimes dont have magic. Davorin’s older brother Vladimir is very upset Dav got powers instead of him which causes a lot of tension between them. 

Davorin is quiet and observant but can also end up being very reckless. he was forced into being a sort of servant to Agatha bc she feels he owes her for giving him powers that he didnt even ask for. so he is very very jumpy around her bc shes a god so. very powerful. Davorin still doesnt have great control over his powers bc necromancy is the darkest magic and even with being a vampire one wrong spell could kill him so he has to hold back  a lot (which is also sort of an excuse for him not to be too overpowered in the series). as a vampire he used to be okay with sucking blood from people bc it was what all vamps did, but he feels disgusted with his past self and refuses to drink blood from unwilling people now. he almost always wears an enchanted coat (it grows with him so it always fits) into battle that his uncle gave him before he was killed. he uses a scythe mainly but likes to use knives/daggers. i love him dearly. 

Vince Solastice* - vampire and bard. comes from a long long line of bards so music is literally in his veins. 15. he loves being center of attention and loves the stage. hes sort of the yin to davorin’s yang while Dav is very quiet, Vince is very loud. he was born with albinism so he grew up bullied for it in school. he ended up dying his hair and wearing colored contacts for a long time. he puts on a very confidant, tough act but hes actually kinda insecure. hes very good at hiding it tho bc not even Davorin has picked up on it yet. he picks a lot of fights in school bc people accuse him of stealing their boyfriends a lot. hes very flirty and loves making others flustered. he loves teasing others esp nate bc nate gets super riled up. hes flamboyant and pretty open about his sexuality (which flusters Nate a lot who Vince calls a prude).

he sometimes works with Dav to do stuff for Agatha but she really hates him. shes snapped his wrist before but he’ll do anything to help Dav. he wants to get Dav away from her but doesnt know how. 

he was born and raised in France, but then moved to Romania and then to California. the Solastice and Mors family are good friends which is how Dav and Vince met. ive been playing around with the idea of giving him older sisters but as of now hes an only child.

Nate Ryder - human and wizard (dont have a term for his magic yet). 14. a young boy who grew up in a village that was filled with ancient magic and culture. but then the Serpents attacked them. 

the Serpent King is an evil king basically. i need to work on him more.

anyways the Serpents took Blake and Nate and pillaged and destroyed the village. Blake and Nate were made to become servants to the Serpent king. Nate is more heavily focused on magic and uses a staff. his magic and combat was taught by other Serpents so its going to be better than others. the Serpent castle also had a huge library of (stolen) books so Nate knows a lot about history and cultures. since he was very young when he was taken he doesnt remember much of his own, he cant even recall his parents faces. eventually Blake and Nate escaped (they realized just how cruel it is and what they were doing) the Serpent castle and run as far away as they can. after that they dedicated their lives to helping others. they know they cant fix what theyve done but they can at least work towards redemption. the big problem is that they were both branded when they were brought to the castle. so they have a big white serpent going along their arm (left for nate, right for blake) and people easily recognize it so they dont get treated that greatly.

Nate is very stubborn and aims towards perfection. hes a believer of “if you want something right do it yourself”. due to the way he was raised he was forced to grow up fairly quickly so hes mature for his age so to speak. but he does have moments of childlike behavior which pleases blake a lot. Nate is also very tactical and wants to always have control of a battle (which is why he clashes with Dav’s reckless behavior). hes esp protective of Blake in battle since hes the only family he has left. hes willing to lose a battle for Blake’s sake. he has a lot of issues with trusting others and looks down on friendship. i always wanted to have Nate be THE character who changes the most overtime. while i want everyone to have development i want nate to grow the most for some reason

Blake Ryder - human, half dragon, and fighter. 18. Nate’s older brother. same backstory as above but instead of focusing on magic when he was younger Blake focused more on combat. a master with the swords. a slightly different aspect of his backstory was that the Serpents experimented on him when he was younger. (tell me if this sounds dumb btw) they put dragon DNA into him which caused him to become half dragon. he still has no idea how to control it or what he can even do, but he does know he has to keep it a secret (except from Nate). he appears fully human s o nothing does ticks anyone off. he does have a bad habit of smoking bc he says he needs to feel some sort of fire in his lungs to feel right (Nate refuses to believe him and hates the habit). he does eventually learn how to use his powers but theyre obv much less powerful than a real dragons (which have been extinct for a long ass time. also another way to not make him op).

he doesnt talk much. Nate does the talking for the both of them. when he does talk though, hes very calm and patient. unless its concerning Nate. since they dont have parents his become Nate’s in a way. reprimanding him when he gets to hot headed, making sure hes taken care of himself, etc. he also didnt get to have much of a childhood but he just wishes Nate could have one. like Nate he also has a very tactful mind and aims for the best solution to victory so the two work extremely well together. 

Kristen Masuda* - human, fighter. an upbeat, energetic transgirl. 16. wants the best for everyone and wants everyone to get along!!! loves her friends and would do anything for them!! fun fact: was the second oc i ever made!!!

growing up her mom taught her that teamwork is the recipe for success so tries her ultimate best to work well with others. can be naive and easily  trusting which puts the team at risk from time to time. she gets very upset after these times and feels she isnt a good leader at all for her team and shes just going to lead her friends into danger. 

shes been trained in close combat so mainly uses swords. she can use magic but i havent decided what her magic should mainly be. i think what ill have her do is enchant her sword.

she gets upsets during friend fights and tries to patch them up. she gets told that she should let them patch things up but she just cant stand seeing her friends fight and be mad at each other.

Valerie Perxina* - fairy, fighter, and magic user. 16. loves fashion and always looks her best. she thinks of every day as a new fashion show. she fights with Nate and Vince mostly for that reason as shes self titled herself the prettiest of the group

she grew up in the forest with other fairies as is the usual. but she hated them all and was considered weird for wanting to explore the outside world. she eventually got fed up and left in the night. she hasnt gone back since. shes extremely edgy around other fairies for that reason and doesnt like them. she met Kristen one day while looking for a place to settle and the two became quick friends

she knows what she wants and prefers it when things go her way. she questions anyone since Kristen is so easily trusting with people. Valerie’s sharp tongue can get the group in a lot of trouble. also wont tolerate anyone who sees her as just a pretty face. 

she uses a cutlass for close combat and magic for distance. i havent been able to think of a lot of fairy magic so as of right now its not much.

Luke (no last name yet :( ) - element (ice), magic user. 15. a happy boy who loves cracking jokes and making the mood lift!!! 

quick explanation of the (probably dumb) element thing: basically a person who is made of a certain element. in Luke’s case his body is made of ice and he has ice powers. so his body is always freezing and he loves the cold more than anything. 

anyways!! Luke grew up in a village in the snowy mountains with other ice elements but he never found himself becoming long term friends with anyone. so he left to go on his own. he later found Max and the two found Valerie and Kristen and the four became fast friends. Luke is the youngest of the group so hes the most immature and doesnt like it super serious long meetings. he does know of course when to act serious but he just likes making people happy esp Nate who he feels is always serious and unhappy. 

he can use ice powers and walk on water by turning it to ice. he can also breath underwater (due to the fact that hes sort of made of water) so underwater quests are up to him. his preferred weapon is an ice sword he creates.

his original concept had him and max growing up in britain so they have english accents and you can pry that concept from my cold dead hands. their accents are strong

Max Ignis****** (I know dumb last name so its def getting changed) - element (fire), magic user. 18. laid back and just wants to play guitar. if only he would stop burning his strings :(

grew up near a volcano with little population. so he mostly grew up alone. he met Luke (who was wandering aimlessly around the world) and decided to join him. he likes relaxing and when things are calm but his temper can fire up sometimes. he doesnt like fighting and will try to keep things peaceful if able. but hes ready to protect someone when needed

his favorite thing to do is smoke with blake (and davorin at times) since max is literal fire. he enjoys smoking and filling himself with smoke. he also likes playing guitar with vince, but he feels like vince is too strict about music sometimes.

his uses his fists when fighting and launches fire balls.  sometimes hes able to melt a weapon but he has to get close and ahold of it to do it

Cameron Green - human, magic user, probably crying as we speak. 16. didnt want to be the chosen one and doesnt know whats going on.  FIRST OC EVER CREATED BTW

Cameron and Andrew are the big plot people. theyre the reason the plot happens and arguably the most important two. but i still want everyone to have an equal spotlight. 

Cameron is a space wizard. which means he can do things such as star bombs which causes a blinding flash, change the gravity for a small area, and have meteors fly down. the space wizard hasnt been heard of for a long time and is considered an ancient magic. the only problem is Cameron is wielding it.

Cameron is clumsy, cautious, and terrified. hes terrified of what he can do and what could happen if he messes up (will he hurt his friends, will he fail the world, will he disappoint everyone). he was unknown to the magic world growing up due to not knowing his real parents. he and his brother were dropped off at a orphanage one night after it was deemed too dangerous from an attack for their parents to keep them. he grew up being considered an outsider and a loner in a small town in Nebraska. he loves creating art and drawing and painting is his speciality. while Andrew may be the opposite of Cameron, he still loves him and protects him the best he can. Cameron can be mouthy but quickly shuts up if someone stronger than him shows up (which is. most people). Next to Nate I want Cameron to have a lot of growth as well. him growing used to his powers and being able to wield them and him growing confidant in himself. 

i love Cameron dearly since he is the first oc ever made by me. i bought platform boots bc of him and im pretty sure he helped me realize i was always goth bc hes always had those big platform boots for some reason. 

Cameron likes to uses a staff summoned from the galaxy to fight with. it sounds very extra but its just a staff that has the sun on one end and the moon on the other. very sick.

(this pic is tiny but u can see the platform boots a bit)

Andrew Green - human and magic user. 15. wants to protect the earth more than himself. this kid will slap you if you dont recycle. 

Andrew is an earth wizard which is very generic in fantasy but i plan on having it as rare as the space wizard in my world. i wanted something to connect them as brothers so i decided to do the earth and space thing. basically an earth wizard is always accompanied by a space wizard and vice versa. the two are always blood related also. 

Andrew’s powers are kinda generic in fantasy bc earth is always used. he can make vines appear, shake the earth, form rocks, etc. his sword is summoned from the ground and has a very earthy appearance. 

Andrew is seen as the perfect boy. popular, outgoing, friendly. people refused to believe he was related to Cameron. When Andrew found out about magic it was estatic , he was a huge fantasy fan and was more than ready to take whatever it threw at him. which ended up being a lot. Andrew tries his best to keep up with whatever is happening but sometimes. life just gets too much and he loses it. when stressed he tends to go to places with lots of nature and trees. 

When Cameron cant stay motivated Andrew tries his best to keep him up. 

beep beep this ended up being way longer but!!!!!!!!!! this helped me get lots of shit straight so thank u for asking!!!!!

[survivemiddleearth]

Episode 1: “Hobbits, we gonna slay this all the way to Isengard.” -JG

I’m back and better than ever!

Heylo! Who loves a pre-game confessional oh we do! I cannot wait for this season to be honest. I am finishing a season as we speak being in the final 3 so the adrenaline rush and hype is so real. I am a not a super fan of LOTR but I do love and enjoy the the stories. I read the books when I was in second grade and the saw the movies for the first time in 7th grade. My goal is to be like Frodo in this game, make myself known when it's really important and needed, then disappear when I am not, why make a target on myself when I don't need to. Hopefully the power of the ring won't consume and something wild happens.... eeks here goes nothing, FOR MIDDLE EARTH!

Ahh fuck Johnny is in this game he's gonna betray me I know it fml I just wanna win an org how hard omfg

This is my first org in 5 months and honestly I forget how to play. I'm just gonna do whatever and I do how I do, but I'm not gonna be scared to yeet people out of here.

Part of my strategy is to try and be social to everyone in the beginning. I want to try and have a conversation with everyone on my tribe as soon as possible and try to gain a slight favor so people think I have something to contribute to them if we happen to lose the first immunity challenge and go to tribal

First confession of a new game is always a lot. I haven’t played since…March? Maybe even earlier than that. And if you know me, you know there’s been a lot of drama surrounding me since then, so I’m definitely nervous to be back in the saddle and playing again. Pre-merge queen. Basically, on my tribe, I feel…neutral to nervous. I have Dylan R, who is my ORG child, so I should be able to work with him fairly easily. I’ve also hosted Eric, which could be good if he weren’t friends with so many people who don’t like me. Same boat with Vi. I’m hoping I can kind of work both of them to my side, but it might not be possible and I may just have to rely on Dylan keeping me in the loop. There’s also a newbie, which is usually a good sign. Finally, we have Johnny. I FEEL like Johnny has an issue with me from something, but I’m not 100% sure. I love reaching a point in my life where I can’t remember who hates me and why, but, hey, that’s running and destroying the biggest ORG series since Mains for you. As for the other tribes……..yikes on a bike. Aside from Zach, JG, and Stephen (more of my sons), we’re fairly stacked with people who would cut my throat without a second thought. Drew has seen me play before and we had a, uh, messy relationship in that game. I’m certain Sammy still hates me from Lago and also from The Drama since he’s friends with the core few people who hate me. Nick I don’t know, but he has “skinny” in his bio as a positive which means we probably won’t get along, plus he came from tengaged which can be a yikes. Crow I hosted for like three seconds in Emathia, so maybe he’ll have mercy on me. Dennis I think hates me from the Athena stuff. Bodhi I think hates me, and I’m not wild about him either. Roxy I know hates me but I don’t have any idea why since we’ve never spoken. Probably just more Athena Stuff. Hopefully I make merge with JG. That’s going to be my big hope for this season. Well. Idol hunting is going to be my lifeblood. Wish me luck, unless you hate me like everyone else.

So Drew in this game? Kill me with an axe right now. What the fuck is JG doing here? I'm finished, I was going to play nice but THREE zwooper people are on my tribe. MESS.

Small tribe, which means riskier tribals early on but its easier to get to know everyone. So far Roxy and.. dnn??? I like (I’ll check the cast reveal for what we should be calling dnn). JG and Sammy I know from other games, I feel I can trust JG a little, we’ll see. Sammy I don’t know I like to give people clean slates but almost every game we’ve been in he’s gone straight for me. Bodhi hasnt messaged me back yet :/

Hello ! Welcome to my first confession. Excited to exist. I haven’t met everyone in the tribe yet but I am playing with my old host so that’s funny. I don’t really have any interesting things to say so just. Hello. The first immunity challenge is one that I really didn’t do well in the first time I played so. Yikes. Whatever I’m still excited !!

Well hey! Got a clue on my very first idol hunt? But in a series so aggressively dominated by men, where the hell is "sisterhood" supposed to take me?

Honestly, I did not want to do the first challenge. I know I am good at it, but I didn't want to be the one responsible for losing for the tribe since its a hero challenge. I made up an excuse which is not a lie and is at the same time. Hopefully our tribe does well at the challenge!

This game so far is really stupid, I mean no talking during heats is fine but the fact that my tribe didn't offer any condolences or anything like "you tried" is rude and frankly, tragic.

You ever agree to face an Australian in an endurance challenge at midnight your time, 2pm his time? What a disaster for me

What are half the things mentioned here. Like what's a hobbit. I know its a movie but like, really? There better not be a quiz on LOTR or I am getting last place.

Yas!!! I love getting lucky and being on a winning tribe. First immunity lets go hobbits, we gonna slay this all the way to Isengard. So far I've mingled and stayed for tea with my hobbits and gotten to know them. Of course I'm excited to play with Stephen again, cool to finally meet Roxy and Bodhi. We shall see what will happen I'm anxiously, excitedly nervous. But let's go!

You know the most embarrassing part of losing that comp in 2 seconds? The fact that I almost called in sick to work bc I wanted to free my schedule for the day. Yeah that was a flop. If I get eliminated first that would be simultaneously hilarious and also very depressing. No one other than Eric and Jay have messaged me so I should probably like. Pop in and say hi

watches crow flop

My tribe is so...INACTIVE.

In this immunity challenge, I have no other option but to beat Vi if i dont, I will lose my spot in this game, I swear on it

Im deciding if I should tell Crow Run wants him out. I like Run but I gotta cover myself...

So uh...it’s kinda fuckin wild. We lost and don’t really have an easy vote because everyone’s active and ready to play the damn game. I’m fairly certain there’s a large majority though I don’t think anyone will be absolutely shocked about who goes home.

I'd like to start this seasons confessionals of with saying that I absolutely hate Bodhi. Since he took my Tom Bombadil and then told me, he had forgotten that he was cast for this season... LIKE COME ON ARE YOU SERIOUS, THATS MY AVATAR. After calming down I saw the tribe I was on. Bodhi (AJUSNKDIKWQJNE), Roxy, Sammy, Stephen and JG. I have played loads with Sammy and Roxy before. Stephen seems nice. Bodhi must die and JG is prolly the hardest person to talk to since I was in kindergarten. I mean. It should be that hard to give proper answers to your questions. MAYBE it was because he was busy playing the inferior BR game fortnite, but still come ON. I agree to play the challenge, but didn't need to actually do something in it, since Stephen and Sammy beasted it. The idolsearch first went SUCKY. because I went to bree ignored Aragorn, got durnk and got a 35 % DISADVANTAGE ON MY NEXT CHALLENGE (LIKE WHO THOUGHT OF THAT HIGH NUMBER) then at my next search I find out, that the other option I had, prolly would've given me an Idol... OH MAN PLEASE DONT LET IT BE GONE I WANT THAT.

You know I'm winning when my tribe wins immunity. Time to take the free time to make an alliance of my own. I have to choose who I want to trust for now.

okay so i haven’t made a confessional yet but I’m super excited to see some familiar faces in the game. I’ve played with Dennis before but I know that if I’m a threat to his game he will take me out so it’s a good person to stick with for now but idk if I can trust him in this game. JG is very friendly and chill but I’ve onkg played another game with him where he quit. He had a lot going on so I understood but I’m willing to work with him again if he’s willing. ROXY IS ON MY TRIBE AND SHE IS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND I KNOW SHE WILL NEVER VOTE ME OUT. SO I GOT HER AND IM EXCITED. Okay and who else? oh yes Stephen! Stephen is cool and I’m 100% down to work with him despite our past in orgs. I just don’t want him to think of me as an enemy. If we have to boot out someone I’d say bodhi would be the most obvious choice because he hasn’t been active...but bodhi is a fun player to play with I’m just hoping he becomes more active before our tribe decides to give him the boot. I see Crow in this game and he’s super nice and I’m so glad I’m playing with him and also Johnny is playing and I’m hoping he’s gonna want to work with me. Okay okay I’m done for now. Let the games begin.

CRAP i forgot to talk about immunity and idol search...okay sooooo i went heat 2 after Stephen won heat 1 and like i was expecting to be targeted bc if I won, my tribe would get immunity. However Dylan(I’m sorry if i umm spelled that wrong) forgot the period and Crow spoke out of turn or something and I won...I was shocked but glad that it didn’t last as long as the first heat. Oh and I searched for the idol and went to the bar or something and it turns out the item i was gonna get had been snatched before I had a chance....WE GOTTA THIEF IN HERE....I’m just trying to make it to merge so i need any advantage i can get.

Johnny just approached me for an alliance and I told him, "of course johnny! :)" But I am internally screaming like "nooooooo why meeee," because just before this game we were talking about how Johnny likes to betray everyone in orgs so now I'm like, please just let me win one org I got Ryan V casted in Bermuda you owe me.

The nice thing about not going to tribal council is that it really gives you the time to flex that social game and work on building up relationships, which is super important early in the game.

me doing this 4 hours before tribal is a mood but uhm ahem in conclusion, i've heard 8 names this round and let me breakdown how and why begin: i tell nick i think first boot should be someone who didn't compete, and then narrow it down to jayden or zach nick tells me he's been pushing for jayden and that drew is on board and is working on zach jayden comes to me saying he knows he's in trouble and asking me what to do, he reveals that runs ratted out nick about targeting him i tell nick runs ratted him out nick reveals to me that runs has been pushing me to everyone (confirmed by Drew, and later Jayden, as well) i confront rataways subtly and he insinuates that his loyalty is to me and that we're friends and my BS alarm goes flying off the charts rataways thinks he's sly but he's not end: im voting rataways and got confirmation from jayden and drew that they'd do the same....currently working on nick who has supposedly already told zach to vote runs as well if everybody minus rataways isn't a completely shady bitch, this should be an easy 5-1 with rataways thinking he somehow has votes on me and i'll probs get idoled out but w/e. i'm not going to lose my sanity trying to beg rataways not to vote me, idc. oh and i threw the immunity challenge cuz tribal seemed fun (and boi it is!)

Well I wasn’t the first person evicted so I consider this season an accomplishment. I’m trying to attach myself to Ford, since he’s completely new.

Alright hold on a second. 2nd day. 2nd conversation with JG. AND its like day & night. He seems pretty chill :). MAYBE HE WAS JUST BUSY WITH FORTNITE (what I as a gamer understand. I mean.. you gotta set priorities.. right?). Just wanted to clarify, so I don't come over as a dick at the end of the season. In case we end up being best friends *shrugs*

[anxietyfilledscreaming-blog]

My Mental Health Month Input

Homestuck, seriously, helped me in my darkest times. Highschool was THE worst years of my life and honestly made me lose hope for my own future. It made me pissed off at the world to where I wanted the planet to be destroyed, i wanted to kill almost everyone i knew, and made me question existence in general because i truely hated the human race.

I wont get into details about how it helped me, any fan of it knows exactly what I'm talking about, and if you've haven't read it, you should honestly give it a try. The art style is a bit odd, and yes its kinda boring at first, and very confusing, but trust me it's amazing.

But my biggest issue now is that, I'm still super hyped over it. My hype hasnt died down one single bit because its just made THAT much of an impact on my life and i just love it so so much. The problem with that, is that the rest of the fandom has basically gone so quiet that its like over half of us are gone. The very few people i knew that liked it and read it with me, now dont care for it and almost seem to get annoyed anytime i talk about it.

Now, that might not seem like much, but it just really SADDENS me to such an extent. How can this fandom, the most accepting and loving fandom, go quiet so quickly, as if the comic never existed? The cosplay groups I always watched now hardly post anything, infact any good Homestuck cosplayers are almost hard to find now, and it just makes me so legitimately sad.

I honestly can't wait for Hiveswap to come out. Not just because its a Homestuck game all fans have been dying for, but because I CAN'T WAIT to turn around and see a fucking nuke of grey grease paint, fake horns, wigs, shades, tab, and faygo explode off in the distance and watch as fans pop out of hiding spots left and right so we can all be one huge ass family again. I can't wait for the cosplay to kick back up, for new huge sprite sheets to spawn from deviantart (props to you motherfuckers for having the patience to make those so fans can make their fantrolls), for walls and walls of text that are nothing but theories of how this and that works, for the ungodly amounts of fanfiction for who knows what OTPs will come from it, just ugh, I can't wait.

This year's 4/13 revived some hope in me, tbh i thought the fandom was dying out but just seeing all the posts from that gave me enough of a sneak peak to assure me that when Hiveswap drops everyone will come back with so much new excitement.

Now, why am I posting this for the Mental Health Month thing?

I have VERY bad Social Anxiety. To the point that I'd say its crippling (i haven't gotten tested yet). However, if I think about cosplaying with some Homestucks or even performing something with some Homestucks, I don't feel one single bit of nervousness. I get excited, I get overwhelmingly happy, and that's just me THINKING about it. I haven't been to a single con in my LIFE yet (just for the record I'm 20, almost 21), you'd think that since I have this particular disorder that the very thought of those things would freak me out, but it doesn't at all! Its the one thing that involves social interaction that DOESN'T make me scared. I want to do it SO BAD, but I wont do it alone because I'd feel way to awkward to be a lone Homestuck cosplayer, and I just honestly love doing stuff with friends but none of my real life friends will even give the comic a chance. If I had just one or two friends that would cosplay with me, that'd be SUCH a huge way to help me overcome my harsh anxiety, so if you know anyone that has anxiety and asks you or even begs you to give something they're obsessed with a chance, please PLEASE give it a chance. It will give them something good to talk about instead of them having to rack their brain for conversation topics that have a 50/50 chance of ending in awkward silences. Awkward moments can trigger an episode quicker than anything when it comes to anxiety because it'll replay in our heads over and over, and we just end up overthinking until we practically fry our circuits.

Friend want you to check out an anime? Give it a chance. Friend want you to check out a book series? Give it a chance. Friend obsessed with a horror movie? Let them tell you their favorite parts and why.

A good geek-out session can be the best medication we could ever have and is worth it.