#if I'm the writer I don't write Ai's relationship to be a toxic one she had to get out of.

[yuseirra]

What I picked up from the lastest ep was that Ai really loved being around her man.

Could have been out of habit but she drew a cute heart with her name on that toothbrush of hers she left in Hikaru's place right? That made my heart flutter a bit. It's a really cute and playful gesture, they must have really been so happy when they were together. Hikaru's visions of him and her smiling while they held hands in Ch 153 must have been an accurate depiction. Those little details speak "happiness" to me... It really works with how she's commented that she's wanted to live forever with him. She really wanted to stay...

Think about it, would you draw little hearts around your name when you're with a person you're not happy with? Ai must have been really comfortable with Hikaru. Those were her expressions of having felt joy and love. She really did find someone she wanted to make family with, and knowing how defensive her personality could be at times, that really is a lot. He must have been REALLY good to her that she's warmed up to him. Everything she did regarding their breakup was for his sake, and even after that, Hikaru wanted to send her a bouquet with a blush and a smile. I think he became happy that he could go meet her again if she accepted it, and meet up with his kids too. He had all the reason to be careful about it because Ai made it really clear during the breakup that she DIDN'T want him(it was a lie, but). If anything, he was being very careful and considerate with his precious girlfriend who'd been raising their children(he should have just went though). He's been the shy, mild and timid type.

His consideration backfired terribly. That happened because he trusted people who he considered as friends. He trusts people too much but how would he have known? He was going to be happy if Ryosuke and Nino were just normal, sensible people. How can what's happened be anything that's he desired or have predicted? He lost everything.

They were happy. I feel their relationship was one that was mutual and gave both of them both the strength to go on about their lives even after. Ai adored the children she had with him, and Hikaru did eventually recover a bit to wish to send Ai a bouquet to congratulate her concert at the dome. He still loved her and she did too. None of this is something that can be brushed off as toxic or metally ill. They could have really had it. Become a nice family together...

[indianaec]

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Hi! My name is Indiana and this is actually a side blog, so don't freak out if you see a random fandom account following and liking your posts! I'm a Y2K baby, nonbinary, disabled, and an aroace lesbian. I have a degree in archaeology and classical civilisation. Recovering childhood 'advanced reader' trying to relearn how to enjoy books.

I write in a lot of genres but my favourites are low fantasy and scifi. Not published yet but we're manifesting! I like to centre familial and platonic relationships in my stories, including QPRs and found family. I also keep writing about grief by accident.

My current WIPs are a low fantasy toxic yuri story about two fae and the kid one of them adopted (One of Us Has to Die); and a scifi cyberpunk story about a girl and the AI she modelled after her dead best friend trying to save her brother from the metaverse (Gutterdog).

I also write fanfiction, but that's not what this account is about.

To get ahead of it, yes I have written (and still do write) ATEEZ lore fanfic. I don't consider that RPF, but it's cool if you do and if that means you'd rather not interact with me, I get

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