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memento-mariii · 6 months ago

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I finally womanned up and went to the local queer-affirming church I've been eyeing for ages now. I'm closeted to pretty much every single person in my life, so in a way I guess this was my first time being openly queer in any capacity. It was so healing to share a space with other queer people in real life.

For so long, I've been searching for people who'll love me while seeing me as I truly am. And I was so scared, too, but I guess the mortifying ordeal of being known isn't so mortifying at all once you really get down to it.

I am loved. I am loved. I am Loved.

Love saved me and I am made of love.

(The local pride parade was yesterday and while I couldn't go (re: the whole being closeted thing), this church had a booth there so long story short, I got a cool rainbow rosary in the end 🥹)

#this is so lovely I really should have gone sooner #and I would have #if I wasn't so unreasonably paranoid about my parents finding out (since I kinda depend on them for my current housing situation)#but maybe. maybe sometimes taking the risks is worth it if it means you get to actually *live*#instead of taking the path of least resistance feeling like a passive observer in my own life #mmari rambles #faith #queer christian #queer christianity #I also learned from them that there was another(!) queer-affirming church even closer to where I live #and it's even the denomination I grew up with #(well; one of them; my family moved around a lot when i was a kid #and dad and I had a strict ''don't really care about denominations as long as it's protestant and closest to our house'' policy back then)#so maybe next sunday I'll give them a visit

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