#idk what to do with my abundance of feels u g h

[haikyupid]

Order from Lunatrix B,

Hey there! First of all THIS IS SUCH A GOOD IDEA! I can only imagine the time and dedication it took you to think this through and make the orders! (Also I am lowkey so shy doing it off anon like AAAAH) May I please order a Dalgona Matchup Latte? (If it's possible to go with more than one drink then it would be nice to have the Strawberry hearts frappineccino as well!)

So I am an ENFP capricorn and my enneagram is 7w8! My behaviour with other really depends on my mood and on their personalities so other's image of me goes from "wow she is so friendly" to "wtf she is so conceited and manipulative". But most of the time people describe me as crazy, outgoing and bubbly! Since my height is on the shorter side and my cheeks are always red and freckly, I look younger and more innocent than I actually am.

I'm adaptable, super spontaneous and hate overthinking stuff. Also I am shortsighted lol but I don't really like wearing my glasses in public, they make me look so serious and studious when LOL no. I don't really care now but when I was younger I hated the 'honor student' label it gave me. I am a TROLL, super sarcastic and my sense of humor is hard to understand for some people since it's super ironic and kinda dark sometimes.

I have many hobbies and love learning new skills but the most important ones to me are definitely drawing/painting, cooking/baking, piano, reading, acting, swimming, travelling and learning new languages (I am fluent in 5 and learning 2 more). I used to be super passionate about martial arts and reached a black belt but had to stop due to health issues 😭. I'm ambitious, mischievious and cunning. I laugh super easily and smile a lot! I laugh at really inapropriate times, and since I don't cry easily my friends and family call me insensitive oupsii.

I have a super flirty personality but since I do it unknowingly or ironically sometimes, when people take it seriously I freak out and run away. I am hella oblivious to people flirting with me though like even if I notice I go nah there is no way they are serious, so when cute guys confront me about it and say it straight out all my confidence crumbles I BECOME SO SHY and speak in tiny font (and deny it like haha wow you're funny).

 I am really honest about my 'positive feelings', like I compliment people a lot and am the type of person to text others saying that I am happy to have them in my life, that I had a great time hanging out, etc. But I SUCK with my negative feelings?! Like I just ignore them and never voice them out. Friends and family sometimes blame me saying that since I never confide they feel like I put a wall between us and that our relationship is kinda unequal since they tell me everything (I am a really good listener) but I really don't do it on purpose... I kind of feel obligated to be the 'strong' one who does not really feel anything...

I am sorry this is so long, thank you for taking the time to read it! Good luck for all your other orders i'm sute you'll do great!)

Thanks a lot for sending in your order here at Kyupid's Love Shop. One Dalgona Matchup Latte coming right up!....... where’d the side effec— oh, here it is! I matcha with ˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥

➞ this relationship thrives on the fact that you’ll both feel like you’re on top of the world when together; but honestly though, boring is not a part of this couple’s vocabulary like whew— (lemme be a part of this, ples, like i’ll third wheel)

➞ don’t get me wrong, it doesn’t mean that you and nishi are immature (it’s actually quite the contrary) it’s just that you both don’t feel that societal pressure that most do, you’re both just so free and that’s not something the majority of the population can afford

➞ so to say that you’re both beyond lucky to have found each other is a huge understatement; this be the type of relationship that iconic romance anime movies are based off on 

➞ nishi will be the first one to make a move for sure, like bby did not even hesitate for a second — i want it, i’m gonna try to get it typa man

➞ it won’t even matter if you push him away or if he has to court you for a year or so, he’ll only stop if you actually say that you’re not interested but i mean WHO in the world would reject him?! 

➞ your looks will definitely remind him of a tropical paradise he’s visited, which is what he feels whenever he’s around you, so best believe this man won’t let his walking paradise go; he’ll probably also call you his lil’ firework

➞ he values the fact that you both can view the world the same, but if there’s a difference in your viewpoints, it doesn’t lead to arguments like most do, but instead having each side doing their best to understand one another — nishi is the type to be very open-minded and always fights for what’s right, i also get that vibe from you

➞ nishi is up for anything; so when he found out about your abundance of hobbies, he will bombard you with questions about them, your advice to get the hang of them, and always asking if he’s doing them right 

“look babe, i tried to draw something for you!”

“aww, yuu, this cow looks so cute.” 

“.......”

“...it’s a baby bear, but thank you so much, baby, it’s definitely an improvement from the last one. i love you!”

➞ he has a very innocent type of humour... maybe sometimes perverted, but that’s not the point— so if he does find one of your jokes to be too dark, he will ask if you’re okay, but he definitely won’t be like ‘wtf is wrong with this betch?’

➞ you two would always be traveling whenever your schedules allow you two; and you guys would always be learning something new! surfing, atv riding, bungee jumping, hunting, fishing (durh), learning some catch phrases in the place’s native language, cooking their national dishes, and so so much more

➞ with nishi, there’s never a time where you’ll be bored, everything will just be perfect when you’re with him; literally you’ll both be the couple who probably doesn’t even plan their days unless it’s like something so important

➞ ‘there are some flowers you only see when you take detours’ type of life motto/vibes

➞ oh, and you always complimenting him and telling him how much he means to you? mans could die from to much heart palpitations... uwu, just pure uwus

➞ he’s not very romantic all the time, so most of the compliments he’ll be giving you will be like:

“baby, you’re way cuter than this. you’re the most beautiful person i’ve ever laid my eyes on. you’re perfect!”

“...but you’re holding a fish i— y’know what, thank you... now can you throw it back in the water, please?”

➞ loves, and when i say loves i really mean it, when you wear your glasses, but he definitely will be cheeky and say, ‘oh, sorry, i didn’t know this was the library. i was looking for my very beautiful girlfriend... oh, that’s you? well you look a lil’ too gorgeous to be her’ but foreal, pls wear you glasses more often, he literally melts when you do

➞ he’s always telling you that he loves you; and when he’s in another country, expect photos and vids from him that look like those tinder fish-boys (idek if this’ll make sense to you) but he has the most beautiful smile a man could ever have and such a sincere paragraph of how much he misses and loves you to follow along with it, that it doesn’t even matter anymore that he looks like a dad

➞ a relationship that make the people around you, whether they’re strangers or not, go ‘they’re the main characters’ — to them you two were in your own beautiful world, and no one would ever dare to interfere with a love so magical and true

Kyupid hopes that you enjoyed your Dalgona Matchup Latte! Here’s the view from the top of the world with your out-of-this-world relationship with Nishinoya Yuu: he always does things that end up turning you as red as a tomato, but he doesn’t even intend to, mans is just naturally smooth... so you either malfunction or just straight up push him away; when he wants you to listen to his 3 AM thoughts/honestly just some weird shet he probably does all the time with you; when he tries to make you talk about how you’re feeling when he knows your ‘i’m fine’ reply is a straight up lie; and when he finally comes back from one of his trips around the world, just wanting you to be safe in his arms again.

Thanks very much for ordering — Kyupid hopes to see your cuteself again at the shop in the future! Have a magic-filled day ⁀➷

an: henlo, i hope you didn’t mind too much that i bombarded your dm’s with questions 😅 thank you so much for being patient with me!

i didn’t know what to do about the url thing, so this was what i resorted to in a short amount of time, i hope that’s okay with you. i almost lost your submission twice, huhu. also, is the gif working??? tumblr’s being a bitch again, so idk if it’s working and i’m freakin out.

btw, now i can’t stop being jelly over this ship like— this is too cute and i feel like this kind of relationship only exists in movies 😔

[shxujobrave]

ALL THE PALACE QUESTIONS JUST ALL OF THEM

Send ‘Palace’ + a number and I will explain;

oH GOD HERE WE G O I GU ES S?? ?? 

What the my muse palace look like

Riku’s palace would very much look like an overpoweringly elegant Grand Hall, plopped right in the middle of massive amounts of attractions for entertainment. Beautiful yet hectic, it’s a place of folly and glamour; complete with flower petals falling outside, and constant music somewhere in the distance.It’ll eventually come to light that the palace, despite looking so beautiful and well-put-together in appearance, is a complete mess by design. Diving in further and further into the Grand Hall, it becomes quite twisted and confusing, almost wonderland-esque, trying to meld the group’s desires into it’s design---as if to fit in and make everything seem ok, or make them like it. There are often many dead ends, many rooms have completely contrasting themes that seem to have nothing to do with Riku, hidden catwalks above are abundant, and it seems like shadows could use even the most unassuming things as weapons. When the final boss comes around, Riku’s desire to keep everything happy fun time crumbles almost immediately---Her sudden rush of fear and shame causing the figurative ‘veil’ to lift from the group’s eyes to reveal just how crackled and downright horrifying the palace becomes in it’s dissonance.

Riku’s palace is the reflection of a heart of a girl who wants to be everything she can be for the sake of someone’s happiness, and indirectly her own; and fool everyone when it’s not working. Her heart’s cracked beyond compare---She’s been (and in some ways, still being) abused, neglected, and used, but she succeeds in hiding it all from everyone, depriving herself comfort or understanding because she can’t bear the idea of showing it to herself, let alone anyone else. She glues the with the tiny amounts of genuine happiness she feels, try to protect herself by willingly being used instead of being fooled into security. The fact that no one ever believes her,  turn on her when she’s not what they want, she just. Stopped. Put everything in boxes and left it there, never to be touched again. She puts a mask over her own heart so she can go on with life, and if it’s torn away, the amount of raw shame she’d feel for not being what people expect her, what she’s been through, would be heartbreaking---whether to you or to her, I’ll let you decide. 

Many of the palace’s symbolism wouldn’t make sense to those who haven’t taken the time to get to know her (which would take awhile), causing it to seem even MORE of a nonsensical mess.

The keywords to get into the palace

Hall

What their treasure is within the palace

There’s massive amounts of “treasure” in the treasure room, mostly of stereotypical womanly desires (jewelry, perfumes, clothing, a very beautiful sculpture of a man) the correct choice is a pearl necklace adorned with the ‘most expensive jewels in the world’ as it’s broach. It’s a glorification of her Mother’s most prized jewelry. 

Her shadow, though, references it as a ‘collar’.

What the treasure take form after being taken out of the palace

It turns into a worn out blue ribbon. 

Completely useless, though it will definitely be pointed out that it’s a replica of the ribbon Riku wears in her hair. If the Protagonist chooses to keep it, there WILL be an option to give it to Riku as a gift.

How the shadows look like

Shadows come in all shapes, sizes and appearances in this palace---which goes along with the many things her palace has to offer in account of appearance. adults seem to be dressed extravagantly, very bourgeoisie yet with very similar clothing, different colored cocktail dresses and suits, shining jewelry and champagne glasses. Teenagers are either dressed in uniform clothing or in very high-fashioned outfits. Their masks are very reflective of traditional Venetian masks (ie: teens/student’s have Colombina masks while normal adults have Morettas), and could also depict the danger levels, as well as differentiate the normal npc’s to ones u can fight/who can attack. 

These shadows are very...selfish. They won’t do anything they’re interested in, and will only do something if you have something to give in return. Despite Riku being the ‘owner’ of the palace, no one really has many good things to say about her, saying ‘who?’ and ‘oh that girl’.

What their shadow self look like + how they behave

Her outfit is pretty reminiscent of a marionette---short skirts puffed up with ruffles, and ribbons in places where. She’s even referred to as a puppet to the ‘Madame’ of the Grand Hall---and honestly, everyone’s puppet. The fact that she dresses so pretty isn’t bc she see’s herself in that outfit, but because everyone else expects it of her. Riku’s outfit is the most personalized out of all the other shadows in the palace ( besides the final boss, who is another woman ).

Shadow Riku plays on how ‘playfully perfect, angelic and sprite-like’ people think of her as, yet seems to be more avoidant. She dances out of view quite often and is quick to run away if you ask too many questions, as if being too close will do something to her. To make up for this, she’s massively blunt, shedding all of the sugary kind talk and just telling it like it is. When confronted at the end of the palace and you defeat the final boss, sHE WILL CALL OUT AND ROAST THE FUCK OUT OF YOU. Call you out on all your shit, dig into the depths of your heart and throw it back at your face---especially when it comes to the topic of her. The truth of what you’ve thought of and about her, what you’ve done to her, the things she hid, sacrificed and protected you from for the sake of your “fragile pride and weak happiness”. It’s only made worse by the fact that she speaks so happily while dragging all your transgressions to light, she giggles and laughs while talking shit about you aND herself. The fact that she can easily figure things out about someone and is generally known as the group confidant makes her words seem like a knife, easily cutting deep to the point of someone wanting to lash out and harm her---Which is pretty much what she wants. You’ve seen too much, she needs to break all bonds with you or else she cant take your disappointment. 

When you correctly smooth things over and portray to her that no, you’re not going to do all the shit she expects you to do, what everyone else has done, she’s silent for quite a long time---Before apologizing for what she said (not apologizing for the truth, but apologizing for saying it in the way she did) and saying you should go. You can hear a quiet thank you, before she disappears. Sorry, no tearful revelations here--You get that from the now going to be completely distraught real!Riku

Which sin they represent the most

FUCK IDK. I’d say it’s pride---referencing to Riku’s very...off colored sense of pride that’s PRETTY BIG once you understand how it goes. It also plays into how she’s too prideful to allow someone to see who she rlly is.