#idk this was gonna be better and more profound

[abacus051601]

because it’s easier, isn’t it? to not do anything?

[mysterycitrus]

THE NIGHTWING 93 FIC WITH AN OUTSIDER POV??????? i would trust no one but you

so sweet!! hehehehehe

ive spoken about it before but i have a bone to pick with a lot of fic regarding nightwing #93 — that a lot of them bend canon to insult other characters (roy, kory, babs) decenter dick from his own trauma to make other characters look better, can sometimes be insincere depictions of assault, etc — so this is like. kinda a response to that

the thesis for persephone and wolf king and all the other (eventual) fics in the series is a graysons nature is to perform, and is an examination of dick graysons legacy. this is gonna be yet another fic about assault as told from someone who isn’t dick, so how can dick remain centred in the story? how does it portray his particular struggles with autonomy and control? how can it be compared with the people in his life — kory and babs have also experienced a profound loss of control and autonomy, etc.

idk i think trying to incorporate the change from dick grayson being a serious monogamist to someone with more partners is also interesting. how would he handle being in a relationship with someone who knows what he was like before, and might be able to accurately deduce what inspired said change? i also think it’s interesting to think about what justice looks like in this context? dick doesn’t want anyone to hurt or kill her on his behalf. he doesn’t want to talk about it. im pretty sure the closest thing we got to an actual confrontation was dick telling bruce about blockbuster in the cave, and bruce dismissing his concerns because he values dick’s life more

like…. what would the actual aftermath be if u kept something buried so deeply for so long and someone knows u enough to find out anyway?

[restesdelune]

*A Richonne Content Rant*

> Comin' Soon on Restes de Lune ?

Hi TWD fam, Richonners, gals, guys and theys

I've been editing like crazy but the youtube algorithm won't let me post my 20min edit of HRWB #3 - Next World Lovin' (A day in the life of Rick Grimes) without butchering my work. Looks like I won't be able to finish this series with a bang like I hoped.

So here's a load of stills to give you an idea since for now, all my hours on it just went down the drain. I still want to share something though, as I know others are just like me :) Maybe I'll share snippets, bits by bits... :(

Here's the first part

Idk, looks sexy and funny to me! ^^

I still don't understand why so many channels can host whole scenes of the show online, HD scene packs and longer edits and seem unbothered (good for them!) but I can't ?

Whyyy Ô Whyyy ?

My Richonne rabbit hole originally started with an Ultimate Edit From the prison to Alexandria. It was right after watching The Ones Who Live as it was released and I needed to go back and re-experience Richonne all over again. Unfortunately, it was too long of an edit and my hardware could not keep up...

That's when I took on smaller endeavours, exploring the origins of Richonne further from behind the scenes. I love listening to Danai talking about her work. So many actors tend to respond quite superficially to questions about their characters, Danai has such a profound understanding of Michonne, it shows both on and off screen and I'm here for all of it.

Then, I've explored more behind the scenes with Andrew and Danai's chemistry, and how it showed and still shows up on screen years later, and have many of us hooked, locked in a love chokehold everytime we see Rick and Michonne gazing into each others' eyes. That's how HRWB #2 came to become Dandy On Set and Off.

Yes, I'm fluffy like that and have no shame about it :)

Anyway...

I'll still try to edit further HRWB#3 and share it with you what I can, but I need to cut back my Richonne hours and find new ways to engage with the fandom if I can't find a better solution.

My series How Richonne Was Born was supposedly a lighter prelude to the deeper and more interesting work I want to share (see The Ones Who Love Live On teaser). Might take a while though, as I work too slow for the algo, so don't hesitate to sub to check me out here, on youtube and twitter to follow the work.

And yes, I'm gonna get even fluffier with these ones, and a lot more political too. Fingers crossed!

I still plan to share everything I wrote (essays and fanfic), it will only take yet a lot more time and creativity. Maybe I should just forget video and do a podcast? Just brainstorming in the tumblr open...

If you're into any of it let me know, feedbacks and advice are welcome! I may have started this on a whim but I found people along the way, and it's always easier when we're not alone and have support, right?

My posts about

"The Last Grimes"

The Michonne effect

Mother Michonne

**** See You around and Happy Shipping ****

[rinskazuu]

always imagining enemies to lovers with childe.

imagine both of you being harbingers, and you rank higher than him, cus he fucking sucks /j. anywho, he literally loves picking on you, because you get irritated easily. in return, you always beat his ass, but he really likes it, cus idk, he’s a pain whore.

back on topic.. when i say enemies to lovers, i truly mean enemies. you guys are literally sabotaging each other left and right, staying up all night planning out how to get each other killed. the moments you’re not thinking about how to kill one another, are very scarce and are rare moments.

now, the fatui decides to hold a ball, for whatever reason. that’s up to your imagination, but i’d say for malicious purposes; like seeking a target out. like i said, it’s up to your imagination. you’re dressed in your sexiest dress/suit/whatever formal attire you wanna wear.

you guys may have a little too much to drink. and oh no!!!! you end up sleeping with each other. i guess, all that planning, trying to sabotage and murder each other made you really fucking obsessed.

btw, it was brutal sex, like hate banging, so much degrading, choking, and you get the point.

the next morning, you’re absolutely regretting everything. tartar, on the other hand, is like “i knew you were into me, you just needed a little push,” and some other bullshit. now, you’re fucking pissed. but you can’t deny that there’s a new profound tension between you two.

it’s less sabotaging, and more ogling. during meetings, he’s like secretly, not so secretly, brushing his hand against your back or thigh. idk if he could brush your thigh tho, cus they seem to have meetings standing up. and if you ask me, that’s kinda weird, but that’s just me. YOU GET THE POINT.

every time you spar, he can’t help but give you a small smile, and you have to force yourself to look away. you do not want to fall in love with this man, he’s terrible, unhinged, blood thirsty. he’s not gonna ever focus on you, when all he wants is world dominance. and he can’t get that, cus you beat his ass up every time.

point is, you cannot risk loving a man who’ll never prioritize you. that’s what you believe anyway.

he falls first, and he realizes it. surprising both of you, he makes a choice to send you flowers. the next time you see him, you scold him, and tell him to not pull shit like that. he’s confused, because to him, you did seem interested. you remind him that “just because we slept once, doesn’t mean i’m into you like that.”

but, our boy childe, doesn’t give up. (that was corny, i’ll never say it again. i sincerely apologize). he chases after you, because he’s really got nothing better to do with his life. you’re literally his new obsession.

so one day, he’s had enough, and he decides to ask you. “you can’t tell me you’re not the least bit interested in me, when you have to force yourself to look away, or when your cheeks warm up after my touch. i won’t believe you, so riddle me this, why are you lying to me?”

for once, in all the years you’ve known him, you can catch the small glimmer that appears in his usually dead, blue eyes. and you can tell, he is genuinely sad.

“i can’t be in a relationship with someone, where i’ll always be second choice.” this oddly confuses him, because, he himself, doesn’t know who’s first.

“huh?” he has this really adorable puppy face displayed, and is extremely confused.

“you idiot. i admire your spirit for always wanting to fight, but i’m unwilling to love you, if you won’t come home to me one day,” your eyes darted to the ground, and hands fiddling with one another.

“so that’s what this was about. are you doubting my strength?”

“yes, i am. you lost to the traveler, who held only a dull blade. isn’t that quite embarrassing?” of course, you were only half joking. he looks at you sheepishly before pulling you into a hug.

“i’ll always come back to you, i promise.”

I ALWAYS MAKE THESE LONGER THAN INTENDED.

[tboybot]

a couple things keep bugging me about gwitch analysis today, namely, because of course, el5n and norea. I think I got a totally different read on what happened and where everyone’s head is at.

“El5n fell in love and shed his selfishness!” I mean, did he really though? Or did he find his damaged goblin nightmare girl and see her as a vehicle to a better life? not that there’s anything “wrong” with this if we’re trying to humanize this character- inserting someone into your dreams is a very, very human thing to do.

“Norea felt it too!” idk, idk, idk. Strong disagree. El5n professes what he thinks is possibly love, and Norea’s first thought is Sophie. There’s no hopefulness when she starts to reply to him; if anything, she looks resigned to a potential constellation prize. And I fully believe she entered the suit ready to die with such sincerity that Sadboy Number Five isn’t gonna be the one to pull her from that headspace. She’d like to know his name because they’re having an exchange as humans, as individuals, not because she’s ready to hitch her star to his plan. The end of hope, indeed.

And then on the flip side, there’s those who are pissed that his declaration came out seemingly nowhere. You’re right, it did come out of nowhere! As an act of desperation. As an act of attaching oneself fully to someone else without even having your own since of self.

Pull the romance from this moment, and I feel like there’s something far more profound and interesting here.

[pbs-theundeadmaggot]

₊°✧︡˗ˏˋ❤ˎˊ˗ 𝖩𝖺𝗇𝗎𝖺𝗋𝗒 ₊°✧︡˗ˏˋ❤ˎˊ˗

I hope everyone has had an amazing start to the new year, I know it can be tough and January lowkey sucks but it will get better! 2022 for me was a long year of recovery and somehow I'm kinda clean (although I still don't know how to feel about it, especially when people comment on how much 'better' I'm doing but I'm taking it a day at a time.) Anyways, I kinda feel like 2023 might be a good-ish year so I hope it is for you too <3

ps. I know this list is early but I'm like a toddler who gets to excited to wait for anything and ruins it, so here is the early but one of my favourite rec lists to make. (idk why but it was particularly fun this month lol)

this year I'm also gonna try putting out some decent content starting with my fics (available here). I'm currently only writing for Steve and Eddie from Stranger things but in the future I may try writing for other fandoms (the Xavier Thorpe fic was a self indulgent piece idk if I'll carry on writing for him though), I'd really appreciate anyone to give feedback and reblog cause it keeps me motivated (pls I'm actually begging for some attention lmao my last two fics have got like zero attention and I genuinely don't know if I'm a shit writer or something else lmao, pls even if you hate it lmk! I'll take anything atp).

anyways... ignore my rambles as always, the last piece of news im sharing is my new series I'm starting soon! where I'll be diving into the history of metal and what it means to the community etc so if thats something you'd be interested in you are more than welcome to join the army of maggots I've got going on (I say an army but I'm pretty sure it's just me lol).

[please respect writers terms, I am not responsible for what kind of content you consume but please be aware that minors will be blocked if they chose to interact with 18+ content.]

more fic recommendations available here

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The mixtape detectives by @babyrunsforfanfic

Want me like I want you by @beezywriting

Under the covers by @stevesbabysittingservice

Hey Steven by @munsonsreputation

If you loved me (why’d you leave me?) by @1986harrington

When we are together by @foreverromanticising

I’m never going to dance again, the way I danced with you by @all-alone-he-turns-to-stone

Love as sweet as honey (and lover I’m hungry) by @stevebabey

Time after time by @musingginger

Sharing secrets by @livingintheupsidedown

A virtual romance (new series!) by @justmeinadaze

Tis the damn season (series!) by @katyswrites

Bad at love by @loveshotzz

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Need you tonight by @sebuckyverse

Flipped by @ashwhowrites

Bottom of the bottle by @fanficsgal0re

New sensation by @darkdarkroom

Fooled round & fell in love (series!) by @bimbobaggins69

Lavander haze by @munsonsreputation

I think I’ve loved you forever by @cinemaquinn

Something new by @newlips

In the middle of nowhere (ongoing series!) by @sweetpeapod

Mine and yours by @muertawrites

Morning coffee by @jamdoughnutmagician

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Side effect by @delaber

cherry blossom by @buckycuddlebuddy

Everyone’s watching him (but he’s looking at her) @writing-for-marvel

Shouldn’t have gone by @imyourbratzdoll

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Chocolate & promises by @michelleleewise

lost prince (ongoing series!) by @xxntiimulti

For better or for worse (ongoing series!) by @wheredafandomat

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Flower power by @pythonees

Siren song by @wintervalewritersecond

Rumors by @yourmidnightlover

Kiss me and shut up by @elysianrogers

Invisible string by @mntalbrakdown

Foxglove to adorne thy dells (ongoing series!) by @nevermoremagic

Something that we’re not by @profound-imagination

Artists collide by @shesluxurious

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So gorgeous it actually hurts by @folkloreslovechild

[awrkive]

hi dee! this is gonna be such a long message and i hope u read the entirety when you got time ♥️ english is not my first language so im sorry if this is not exactly cohesive.

ive been reading ffs since since 2017 and i really feel u came right out of the 2017-2020 era of bts x reader fanfic community bcs the way u write makes me reminisce about those times. idk if this is just me being picky, but i feel like fics nowadays are focusing too much on the smutty parts instead of actually building a world around their characters. and i dont usually mind smut or pwp fics, i enjoy them time to time. but the problem with it is that it's honestly all i ever see now, esp with jungkook fics.

it feels like no one really wants to write a proper fanfic anymore? some of my fave x reader authors before here are gukyi, vankoya, btsmeetsweevil, kpopfanfictrash, fortunexkookie, prolixitae and many more that i cant really name anymore – all of which have deactivated or inactive now – and one thing about them was that as much as they wrote smut, there was actually more to their stories.

and that is honestly what i feel about your writing. its so simple but so profound in a way? like its so easily digestible but the simplicity of it does not exactly equate to plainness? i feel like the trend of writing pwp is to gain more traction (which was also a trend back then, but not to the point of overpowering) but i love that you dont exactly succumb to that and instead take time to build the world of ur characters in such a way that makes me feel so connected to them.

i just LOVEE how u create these backstory for ur main leads. like with nb, we are witnessing two strangers getting along with each other slowly but surely, and with tlp, we are witnessing two best friends navigating a crucial point in their lives relating to romance between them. and the YEARNING, the LONGING, and just the TENSION that you make me feel with those? its just so incredibly insane. the giddiness of it all – you dont get that from fics who just go straight right into sex.

and i know its just fanfiction and its not supposed to be that deep, but tbh fanfic is just as much of a form of art as other "published books" – esp when theyre written so well like yours.

i apologize if this is coming off as a rant at this point. i think im just frustrated with the lack of creativity im seeing nowadays with bts fanfics all over tumblr thru ao3, and ig im just frustrated that i cant bring back the golden era of 2017-2019 (or 2020 if u will) anymore for fanfics. but thank you so much for reviving that feeling for me♥️ i also know youre busy with college and all that, and im really really greatful you lend time to share ur writing with us all for free ♥️ i really adore your talent!! i hope u write for a long time ♥️♥️

- 🌱

this has been sitting on my inbox for the past three days and ive honestly just been rereading and rereading this over and over again because im so incredibly touched?

i agree that 2017-2020 was the best era for x reader bts ff esp 2018. writers were really putting in the work, and i just love how you mentioned all those lovely people. miss guyi (gukyi), miss ivory (vankoya), and miss lu (prolixitae) were some of my favorite blogs here EVER and they wrote some of the best fanfics in my life that i still read over and over again up to this time. they were literally a few of my inspo to also write fanfic on my own – and im so glad u think that my writing can make u feel like the way u do when u read theirs, bcs that means a whole lot to me!!

the bts fanfic community has truly changed for the past few years. prob cos the fandom has grown bigger overtime and things will just never be the same as they were before. its a huge factor that the great ff writers before are busy with their adult lives now and even if i myself am not really that much into reading ffs anymore these days, i still believe we'll pick up being better on the oncoming years!!

and lastly ur english is great and thank you so Freaking MUCH for sending this in. i truly am so moved and touched by this message 🥹 i hope u are having a great day wherever u are 🌱 anon!!

[thewingedwolf]

Reading ACOK and there are three fatal mistakes I think Tyrion makes

He tells too many goddamn people that he hates Cersei and would love to torture and kill her.

He slaps Shae when she gets shitty with him for not standing up to his father on her behalf.

He sends the Vale wildlings away and is stuck with only Bronn’s sellswords, and he knows they are not trustworthy.

I get why he’s so shitty with Cersei and it’s not like she doesn’t give it right back to him, but for a man who is always keenly aware of how unfairly he is perceived, he sure doesn’t spare a second thought for how Tywin, Joffrey, and Cersei are all gonna take him threatening to rape Tommen, telling Varys he’d love to murder Cersei, locking up Pycelle without checking in with a single other Lannister, purposefully sending all her guards away, slapping around Joffrey, and all of this while Jaime is nowhere in the area to run interference. Tyrion is the definition of the trope “poking the tiger.” He simply doesn’t know when to stop when it comes to his family, and especially to Cersei, or how Tywin, who hates him for being a dwarf and refuses to name him heir after Jaime has been on the kingsguard for nearly two decades, and how Cersei, who he knows has this weird and disturbing obsession and hatred of him since childhood, are going to react to the shit he says and does. If Ned’s ultimate sin in KL is that he doesn’t go far enough, Tyrion is the flipside of constantly going too far. Yeah man, Cersei isn’t gonna react well when you threaten to rape her son. IDK what else to tell you.

He is not at all consistent with Shae in what he asks of her. He expects loyalty and affection but the only time he ever tells her about his own life is when he’s telling her horrific stories about Tysha. He clearly sets up their relationship to be “live in girlfriend” and when she gets annoyed because she’s not living the live in girlfriend life, he slaps her for not understanding his fear of his father. Shae goes from being a jokey, bubbly, seductive girlfriend to completely deferring to him after this. It has a very profound affect on her and it reads to me like the moment she realizes being with Tyrion might be more dangerous than it’s worth (and she’s right but she has no way of escaping).

As for the Vale wildlings…he’s just an idiot for this akskkd. The other two “fatal” flaws are steeped in his trauma surrounding his family but this one is just him being an air headed noble, a Lannister believing the world will always bow to him because he’s a cut above the rest. He knows damn well it’s a dumb thing to do because the wildlings are loyal to him for a longer term purpose while Bronn will jump ship the minute he’s offered a better prize. But he puts all his eggs in Bronn’s lil sellsword basket and Bronn stomps all over them just like he has always promised he would!

[kirafanxx69420]

i need to get this off my chest its been in me for too long

i think deco 27 songs ever since vampire and onwards don't really hit at all excluding salamander, deco really peaked there it was a very nice song

i just finished listening to his latest song, rabbit hole and compared to zombies or journey it's definitely better but it feels kinda idk maybe im just missing his less upbeat style (that's definitely the case) because all these songs feel lukewarm to me at best and i feel like the lukewarm thing can apply to many more

i also think when voca-p's make songs for the sake of prsk it never goes right because they release it in vocaloid with human singing in mind and i was never really a fan of the prsk covers, im sure there are some good ones but so far overall its a very hit or miss thing with most going miss

because i think in most cases vocaloid songs are sang through vocaloid for a reason and it has to be made with vocaloid in mind and majority songs made for prsk felt mid (cosmospice didn't do anything for me despite my overflowing love for Pinocchio-p)

this is a section to commend becoming potatoes YEAH NERU!!!! NERU!!!! NEVER MISSES!!!! neru is so good

i know im sounding like a huge pissed off vocaloid "i think im better than you prsk lovers, i play project diva im a real one" person but dont get me wrong i love how vocaloid is getting a revival through prsk and the new genre/style of vocaloid is booming and i have a profound respect for people who play prsk and are good at it, i can clear up til 9.5 ex/exex songs on project diva all i want but i somehow cant do shit on proseka and watching gameplay is always amazing

i do admit they bang and i like the people who are discovering or even rediscovering vocaloid due to the resurge and i do admit some human covers of vocaloid originals do them justice (ahem miyuu ahem) this is just a very in general observation

im pretty much navigating through multiple topics but another thing im gonna add is nowadays i personally dont see heavy story telling based songs a lot i might be shit at finding them so if anyone sees this and think i am so wrong please prove me wrong with those sweet sweet YouTube/nico nico links but anyways things like the evillious chronicles hell not even that much even things like what hitoshizuku x yama does or the shama series

i also kinda miss how the artists draw the vocaloids themselves for the characters in the story or songs just outright about vocaloids interacting with other vocaloids like a little slice of life but i dont really want to complain too much because seeing individual and iconic designs for songs is also nice

i think thats all, my head stores a lot of thoughts towards vocaloid wait til you see me talking about MEIKO and her tuning and how i grieve for her everyday because I've found so many songs that sound nice but the way people tune her breaks the song but in the cases where she it tuned skilfully i drop down to my knees in amazement and i will stop there because i know i might spiral into this whole separate thing

so yeah i might be a hater at times,i can spend a whole 24 hours shittalking corn (I'll get on that some day) but you know what I'm not a hater of?

schoolmizzy, more people need to know their songs oh my god just amazing shit right there simplistic yeah but good stuff and only 1.6k subscribers im fucking crying man

[velvetineblue]

COMMON MISCONCEPTIONS

tbh I don't really know how other people perceive him, so it's hard to say ! but i'll do my best . . . he's a very complicated character, and i think in times past, he sometimes wasn't seen that way at all. he was seen as more of a simple 'comic relief' or just a typical sort of... protag... guy....... idk. people ( ooc & ic perhaps ?? ) may not always take him seriously as a complex individual because of his tendencies to act playful and/or blasé -- which is understandable !! but recently i've gotten more chances to really show his depth of personality and write him in situations that i feel better showcase him, so !! i don't think he gets misconceived too often now. . . but i'd have to know how he's perceived to really be sure of that, and i don't rly know what's in other people's heads, so JSJAJ idk!!

AN IMPORTANT HEADCANON

one thing about Tai is that he needs a little competition and/or conflict in his life for to him to feel 'stable' and fulfilled. he kinda gets... aimless, bored, anxious, lethargic, and de-motivated when life is too easy, carefree, or relaxed. he always feels like he has to be useful to matter to other people; he fears deep down that if he's not being of use, they will forget about or leave him and he's most useful when solving or working on a problem. this is likely the result of constant chaos in his life and struggling for most of his life, and something he should work on healing from so he doesn't have to live that way, yes . . . but it is what it is and it's not changing anytime soon asjjaj

i suppose he's 'lucky' because in most of his verses, those things are just a given; even when his life is otherwise going well, there is always going to be some element of conflict, fights and resolutions, to be had, and so he rarely if ever has to face this issue ??? but it's an interesting facet of his personality...

A USELESS HEADCANON

he's not officially a vegetarian, but he doesn't eat a lot of meat. he really likes the flavor of most meats: he just doesn't ( ideologically ) love eating animals, and felt that way since childhood. that realization kids eventually have of 'wait... I'M EATING A DEAD BABY COW???' was something he never really got over . . . . . . plus it's better for the environment & stuff not to eat too much meat, and even in verses like crime verse where he's a bastard who sets things on fire -- ironically, he'll still be like 'HEY! BUT DON'T LITTER!' LOL. but he's still gonna eat it sometimes, 'cause he isn't bothered ENOUGH to completely give up the tasty flavors. asjjaj so he will eat meat sometimes -- especially if he's out, like at a restaurant. but it's a relatively uncommon meal for him, especially if he's just cooking for himself at home. . . . he LOVES fish, though. i mean, he still feels a little bad about eating it, but sashimi and chirashi are his alltime favorite entrées, and fish in general is one of his most favoritest meals. so he can't give up fish; he just can't do it asjjaj.

POTENTIAL TRIGGERS

su/c*de can, potentially, be a triggering topic for him: depending on the manner in which it's brought up & discussed. his mother took her own life, and this tragedy had a very, very profound effect on him. so much of who he is and what he believes in relates back to trauma related to his family, this being a huge one of those traumas. (he also had a close friend die in the same manner.) it's not a topic that can't be breached, but there are certain things that will trigger distress, anger, or another uncharacteristically strong wave emotion from him: for example, a lack of empathy towards s- victims, or making jokes at their expense. he also really doesn't like talking about his mom's death, not with anyone-- and if pushed to 'open up', he will become very disturbed that the topic isn't being dropped. so far in his life, the only person he's really talked about it with is his father . . . and even then, the conversation is strained and difficult. the only other person i can imagine he would have spoken with it about is Ara, in the crime verse, because they are so close, and her own difficult upbringing & struggles with her mothers mental health would have enabled him to open up to her... and her alone. otherwise, his mother's death is a door that stays very firmly locked and shut off from people. it takes a really extraordinary amount of trust and comfort with another person for him to open it.

SOMETHING YOU ENJOY ABOUT (WRITING) THEM

everything tbh, if you haven't noticed he i s my little meow meow. my blorbo. my silly rabbit-- no but asjajja i haVE SO MUCH FUN writing him because he's such a complex characters, and there is a motivation behind everything he does: i write him with a LOT of intention. nothing i type for taiyang is without reason or explanation. you can ask the most basic question like 'what is his favorite color' and i can write a novella about it. i can write a novella about anything and everything when it comes to tai which is kind of... nice i guess asjaj although it can be tiring!! but knowing him inside and out makes writing him super easy. and that just comes from the fact he's one of my oldest OC's, so there's pretty much no stone unturned when it comes to him... i've been roating this blorbo in my mind so long, i've thought about nearly everything before!! other muses of mine, i tend to have to do deep digging & thinking to figure them out sometimes. which isn't bad at all!! ... it just takes more work LOL. but tai is so easy now!!

SOMETHING YOU WANT OTHERS TO KNOW BEFORE WRITING WITH THEM

this goes for all my muses but it's so important that i HAVE to repeat it often: my muse is not me!! his opinons are not mine!! his actions are not mine!! his opinions of your character aren't mine!! he is a CHARACTER with his own self-sustained motivations, likes, and dislikes. of course, it all comes from my brain, but in the same way that i can relay what someone else said, but that doesn't mean i'm describing myself or co-signing it: i'm just repeating their words. in fact, there are times where i strongly disagree with what he says or does. because of the fact that he can at times be confrontational, or blunt, and he expresses his 'own' opinions, i cannot rp with anyone who isn't completely understanding of that fact !!

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[onlyswan]

I’ll be honest I was expecting oc and jk’s first time to be a bit more emotional and profound… and it still was but not in the way I would’ve expected at all lol. Not saying it was bad, I actually enjoyed the fact that it wasn’t like what I expected. The pacing of it was a bit fast and I was like woah wait they’re just gonna go for it like that? but I think it showed how much they truly desired each other. Shameless oc is a heart stopper and it’s very intriguing and endearing how playful and blunt oc is as well. I know oc can be emotional but I forgot how much of a firecracker they can be and this drabble showcased it perfectly… you just don’t know what to expect with them and it makes sense why they have jk’s heart beating out of his chest😂 and jk just being willing to do whatever it is they want? Sigh they really don’t make men like that these days haha. Either way just wanted to share my thoughts hope that’s okay. I really enjoy your writing and I know you worked hard on this chapter so thank you so much for sharing it with us🙌🏽

omg yeah i predicted it to be a different type of emotional from how y’all might expect it to be 🫣 this was still early in their relationship and oc was emotionally constipated and frisky haha but also trying to learn how to love and be loved? especially with their past experiences that were always solely lust-fueled, while jk was so :((( that’s why i chose that part to be in oc’s pov. idk if that makes sense but yeah </3

I know oc can be emotional but I forgot how much of a firecracker they can be and this drabble showcased it perfectly… you just don’t know what to expect with them and it makes sense why they have jk’s heart beating out of his chest😂

lmaooo exactly it’s like their life mission to make him flustered and in love 😭 it’s so much fun to write hehehe i’m so glad you guys enjoy their dynamic as well :")

thank youuuu so much for sharing your thoughts beloved ofc it’s okay!!! and for reading the whole thing as well hehe i was worried of the length bc idk if i’d be able to hold people’s attention for that long 🙇 i really appreciate you taking the time to do so and it helps me a lot to be better🥺🩵 i hope you have a wonderful day!!! <3 :*

[noelevangilinecarson]

Rewatched ep2 of The Gilded Age last night, and when they get to the Russells', Anne says "so this is what Dido felt when she was about to throw herself onto the flaming pyre."

Either Anne (or Fellowes) isn't that clever, or I'm not understanding Dido's story.

Dido, first of all, stabs herself (idk if the pyre's already burning by then or not). So that's one thing. Secondly, she's doing so because she has been abandoned. Who has abandoned Anne? Patrick? (Babe, he's holding your hand.)

The only way I can figure it is that Anne is basically saying she's only doing this because she loves him. But also, that's an imperfect metaphor.

I assume it's meant to be foreshadowing, but it's sloppy, right? Patrick's the one who kills himself, and sure, he abandons Anne to pick up the pieces. But does that suggest that she, too, will commit (more suicidey) suicide in s2 (which I expect not bc she's too tenacious for that)?

The most it tells us is that Anne is a literature/mythology/opera girlie. And that this dinner is gonna kill somebody.

Or, if we're gonna put the queer reading on it, it possibly foreshadows, not Patrick's death, but Aurora's betrayal. Aurora agrees to bring Bertha into society, and abandons Anne ("you'll deny it but you will"). Does Anne then fulfill the story of Dido and destroy herself? Or does she live to see the vision at the end of Berlioz' Les Troyens come to pass? That the old city will be defeated by the immortal new.

Again, I can see similarities, but I think the line is wasted. Because again, Anne is referring to committing social suicide, but without having first been abandoned. It doesn't follow.

Because I don't think Anne is dumb. I think she is incredibly adept at operating within the rules of NY society. I mean, she sits next to Mrs. Astor at luncheon. It's just that the Russells have so much money, they are capable of breaking the game. There's no playbook for her here, and Patrick never tells her why he needs her to get cozy with Bertha.

So why would she make a reference that makes no sense?

She should be referencing Joan of Arc. Being burned for the crime of defending her homeland from the invaders (she def called the Russells invaders). The profound injustice, the political overtones, her firm conviction that she is correct. It fits much better.

[waltwhitmansbeard]

I had an idea that's unlikely to happen, but I'm curious to know what you think.

In the VM painting at the beginning of the last episode, almost everyone looks a bit more aged up (especially Percy with the beard), right? And Vax is still there, still wearing the Deathwalker's Ward...

Well... what if the end of TLOVM was different? What if Vax stayed and did his work for the Raven Queen in the material plane? Some things in the show have changed, compared to the streams, so... what if?

I'm probably grasping at straws 😅

ok so it's so interesting that you bring this up

bc i am loath to make any criticisms toward the choices matt or the players made, bc it is their game and not mine and they know what they're doing a hell of a lot better than i do

and obviously the way vax's storyline progresses and ends is deeply profound and poetic and gorgeous and every day i want to die thinking about it

but

like

if i'm the raven queen, and i've just picked this dude to be my champion, like, among the mortals

wouldn't i want him

idk

among the mortals????

like i feel like he's gonna have an easier time doing her bidding if he's...around. like she didn't take purvan into her realm bc he was like doing shit for her. and i'm sorry but are we to believe that delilah and vecna are the only two chucklefucks out here tryna be immortal??? when the cerberus assembly is just across the pond doing shenanigans at literally every single moment of every single day??? you telling me there's about to be a GOD KILLER on the loose and she's not like mmmmm lemme send my pit bull at this problem right quick

and yes obviously vax became her champion in an act of defying death itself, but...idk. she's the goddess of death. she literally makes the rules.

anyway, apropos of nothing, hope you enjoy today's chapter that definitely did not post this morning at 3:30 am no siree

[umm0lly]

my personal opinion on the nico vs zuko blorbo poll

i can understand if nico loses. he just probably isnt as nostalgic to a lot of people. but you need to understand. for queer kids who grew up reading those books like me?

reading HoO with nico already being my favorite character and then seeing that "oh. a boy can like a boy? that happens?" SAVED me. reading ToA with nico openly dating a boy and everyone being accepting of it? that shit was INSANE to me. little queer girl who didn't know what queer was but my first ever interaction was telling me that it was okay. and this isn't the case for just me.

nico already being my favorite character, now the only queer character, exposing me to solangelo and fandom and even tumblr. i wouldn't be here if not for that kid. i wouldn't even fucking know i was queer if not for that kid. do you realize this? i probably would've still liked harry fucking potter if not for that kid because i didn't know what 'transgender' was before nico.

that little shit who literally owns my soul made me be okay with queerness and be okay with myself being queer. i never hated myself for the sole reason i liked girls BECAUSE OF NICO. DO YOU REALIZE THIS. HOW MANY KIDS NICO SAVED.

nico can lose. but this is the queer website and if he's gonna lose, it better be by fucking 1% because no way is this icon getting beaten THAT badly.

just. i need you to understand what nico did. and understand what nico is GOING to do for SO MANY OTHER QUEER KIDS. his book comes out in less than 3 months. he's going to be in a disney show in a few years. as pjo becomes more mainstream than it already is, nico will save more and more queer kids who will accept themselves because, hey, my favorite character likes boys! why can't i?

you cannot fathom how insane it was to see queer people be so normalized when i first read the books. how insane it was to me that it was possible and okay and normal. it was normal. that was the big one. it wasn't just okay, it was normal. normal for me to like girls. that's why i accepted it so quick. so early. where so many people don't get that chance to accept it when they're still young and a teen, i got that chance because of this little gay son of hades.

i found real friends because of nico. found myself because of nico. found my mutuals and fandom and my identity because of this kid.

this may discount all that i just said but idek who zuko is. i've heard the name through friends but. never saw atla. never cared. guess it did some queer stuff towards the end? idk.

all i'm saying is that nico saved me, saved other queer kids, will continue to do so, and has had such a profound impact on my life personally that if he loses it better be so fucking close that one vote would tie it.

[astromechs]

@tiny-increments replied to your post (and @mari--lace asked too so i'm gonna do this format) “ok but i have another one for the "ship i totally...”:

… I’m listening.

​OKAY, so. i have a few thoughts about matt and gamora that i knew were going to break the character limit on tumblr replies.

before i get into anything too deep, matt absolutely 1000% loves women who could kill him so of course gamora is precisely his type. gamora also tends to love headstrong idiots with a sense of justice/commitment to doing the right thing. they totally vibe.

but now for deeper character stuff:

these two characters, in essence, want the same thing: they want to leave the world/universe better than they found it. they both feel like they have to fight to achieve that (and each have some ingrained violent tendencies). they both have lost, experienced profound trauma in childhood, and have an anger that they harbor

speaking of that last point, it would be interesting to see how that meshed. their anger. how would they clash? etc

but, like... gamora's making this really concerted effort to Do Good, and matt would be able to know that. she also can't hide from him, because he can, you know, hear heartbeats and stuff

on the flipside, gamora is really good at seeing through other people's bullshit and calling them on it, so matt would not be able to last two seconds with his bullshit around her.

i think this isn't something people consider about gamora a lot, but she's actually a person with a lot of faith. it was actually a plot point in the 2019 gotg run that gamora was susceptible to being manipulated by the universal church of truth because she had that faith to be manipulated, but it's... how she's coped with her life. how she sees things. it's the opposite of what you might expect from gamora and the horrific trauma she's been through — but she's always holding on to something More beyond herself. i think there are a lot of interesting and unexpected ways for her and matt to connect on that level

idk i'm kind of obsessed now

[emilyrox]

“Frankenstein” by Mary Shelley Liveblog (Chapters 1-8)

Hey so I never read the original Frankenstein before. My only contact with it up to this point was the OUAT version so...yeah.

I’m required to read this for a class, so I figured instead of taking notes the usual way, I would instead liveblog my thoughts.

Idk if I need to warn about this but, spoilers for Frankenstein I guess?

Enjoy.

~

Introductory Stuff

- Ok reading the back I can tell why my professors picked this book. “Frankenstein not only tells a terrifying story, but also raises profound, disturbing questions about the very nature of life and the place of humankind within the cosmos: What does it mean to be human? What responsibilities do we have to each other? How far can we go in tampering with Nature?”

- If my professors ask one of those as the quiz question on Tuesday I’m going to combust.

- There was a little bio about Mary Shelley’s life. Her life could be it’s own book god damn.

- Apparently Frankenstein was inspired by a dream she had after a friend suggested a ghost story competition.

- Ok I mentioned how one of the questions is “How far can we go in tampering with Nature?” So there was a timeline of events around Mary Shelley’s life. More than 100 years after her death, the sheep Dolly, the first successfully cloned animal, was born. Bro.

The Actual Story

- At first I was like “Oh Victor’s dad adopts Caroline that’s cute! That means she will be his older sister when he’s born :D”

- Then I get hit with “Two years after this event Caroline became his wife.”...hello 9-1-1?

- “There was a considerable difference between the ages of my parents” YEAH, YA THINK???”

- “I was their plaything and their idol, and something better - their child, the innocent and helpless creature bestowed on them from Heaven, whom to bring up to good, and whose future lot was it was in their hands to direct to happiness or misery, according as they fulfilled their duties towards me.” This feels important to me. I know that he later goes on to create the monster, making him Victor’s child in a way. Family is gonna be a theme in this story, isn’t it?

- Alright, protective brother Victor! I’m down for it.

- Victor dropping “””””subtle””””” hints that he has a tragic backstory

- Victor’s Dad: Don’t read Cornelius Agrippa! It’s trash!

- Victor: Well guess what, I’m gonna read it even harder.

- “Wealth was an inferior object; but what glory would attend the discovery, if I could banish disease from the human frame, and render man invulnerable to any but a violent death!” - Frankenstein, 1818.

- Me, in 2022, in the middle/aftermath of a pandemic: Yeah I’ve got some bad news for you-

- Victor’s tragic backstory part 1. I knew it would have something to do with Elizabeth, his adoptive sister. I was expecting her to die (though I don’t want her to) but didn’t expect the mother to die instead. At least her death was described as calm, and not painful.

- Professor M. Krempe really just roasted this 17 year old jesus christ

- “I had a contempt for the uses of modern natural philosophy. It was very different when the masters of the science sought immortality and power; such ambition of the inquirer seemed to limit itself to the annihilation of those visions on which my interest in science was chiefly founded.”

- “Such were the professor’s [M. Waldman’s] words - rather let me say such the words of fate, enounced to destroy me...soon my mind was filled with one thought, one conception, one purpose. So much has been done, exclaimed the soul of Frankenstein - more, far more, will I achieve” One school lecture changed his whole world view goddamn.

- “his lecture had removed my prejudices against modern chemists” character development babyyyyyyyyy

- “In other studies you go as far as others have gone before you, and there is nothing more to know; but in a scientific pursuit there is continual food for discovery and wonder.”

- So the secret to animating lifeless matter had bad consequences he’s alluding to (kinda obvious given the story we’re reading but aight). But also he tells us he found out the secret to doing this, but is not gonna tell us until later. Boi why you gotta lead us on like that?

- Should’ve started with a smaller creature, my dude. You’re aiming too high.

- He considers if it would be possible to bring the dead back to life, along with animating lifeless matter. I think he wondered this, not just because it’s a somewhat logical question to ask concerning this, but because he may have hoped he could bring his mother back to life. l i s t e n

- Bro you made that shit. That’s your responsibility now my guy.

- Clerval is either gonna die at the hands of the monster, or will be able to help stop it. Idk which, so I’m saying both so I can say I called it.

- Victor stop ignoring your family challenge. I think you’ll pass in this chapter but idk.

- Elizabeth is best adoptive sister/cousin and best girl. You can’t change my mind.

- If this wasn’t a book from the 1800s I would think that Clerval and Victor were gay for each other.

-  Ok idk if I’m reading this wrong but I don’t understand how William died. They explain it but I don’t get it.

- Ok William was murdered. But the muderer is unknown.

- Victor thinks the monster is the murderer. Idk if that’s true. If it is, it’s probably because it’s getting revenge on Victor for ignoring him and running away. If it isn’t, he’s just assuming it is because of how terrifying the monster looks and his bias.

- Hol up. So the monster has been around for two years, and nothing was done about it??? I get Victor was terrified of what he created, but he didn’t think of maybe hunting it down after he recovered from illness? Or telling Clerval of its existence and he could hunt it down? Did he think it would just die if he ignored it??

- Listen gang I didn’t expect this to turn into a murder mystery.

- Rn I’m thinking Justine is innocent, but that doesn’t mean the monster is the one who killed William.

- Ok why did Justine confess? Is she actually guilty, was she bribed, what’s going on?

- Update: her confession was a lie. She was pressured by her confessor into thinking she was guilty. I guess police tactics haven’t changed in the past 200 years.

- “he threatened and menaced, until I almost began to think that I was the monster that he said I was. He threatened excommunication and hell fire in my last moments, if I continued obdurate. Dear lady, I had none to support me; all looked on me as a wretch doomed to ignominy and perdition. What could I do?”

- Parallel between Justine and Frankenstein’s Monster. Victor had abandoned his creation, and had no support, just like Justine. Victor constantly refers to the monster as a “wretch,” which is what everyone now viewed Justine as. The confessor almost convinced Justine she was a monster/murderer, even though she is innocent. This is what makes her confess to being guilty. Everyone thinks she’s a monster, so she acts like she is. The monster Victor created was only deemed a monster based on how it looked. It had not done anything heinous up to that point other than look hideous. Victor treated him like a monster, so, assuming he did kill William, he acted like one.

- “William and Justine, the first hapless victims of my unhallowed arts.” So there are more...(no duh there’s more, there’s like 16 chapters left).

- This seems like a good place to stop for the night.