#idk if this makes sense at all but if you're queer latinx and were raised catholic you just KNOW

[gayhotpriests]

I'm having so many feelings about eddie&linda's conversation regarding god tonight and I can't really put it in words but there's something so familiar about casually talking about god as a queer person raised in faith but who has abandoned/felt abandoned by it because of who they fundamentally are and their trauma and how falling back into things like I prayed a lot and well I hope He gives me a shout soon and a saint's medal as ways to comfort himself during difficult times are just so deeply catholic of him even if he's not all that religious now, even when he doubts, even when he's still struggling and when he doesn't understand why he's still here when the others aren't. having Eddie be so casually not-religious day-to-day but deep down having it ingrained in the core of his being, he's bringing it out when he doesn't have the answers. Eddie doesn't believe in the universe, doesn't believe in luck, but maybe- maybe a small part of him still believes in Him and he's been waiting for this- for some sort of sign, that he hasn't been abandoned, that he's still worth it and that maybe there's a fucking divine reason and that he can be saved, after all.

the universe has been screaming at him, but God has spoken, and now he will listen.