#idk if i'd be stretching myself too thin to do both...

[marshmallowprotection]

So I've been thinking of asking you for a match-up for a while now, but I never got the nerve 😭 I am really curious what characters you'd pick for me though. Idk if you do boto romantic and platonic in one ask, or only one or the other, I'm curious about both, but if you only do one, then I'd go for romantic, first!

I'm aroace, but in fiction/daydream land it's different, so for imagine purposes, I'd say pan? 🤔 Yeah, I think that works(???) 😭 sexuality is weird, man.

I tend to feel really strongly, for better or worse, but it's what makes me strongly invested in anything I care about. Stories, or people, too. I can't stand knowing someone I care about is struggling. I like that I feel a lot and care a lot, but it does tend to make me stretch myself too thin, and tunnel vision a lot at times 😞

I like reading, and writing, and taking pictures of flowers. Too much coffee and too little sleep, though I'm working on that second part for now. Or trying to 😔

Though what I love the most is music, both listening and singing. It's the one thing that always brought me both joy and excitement and peace and love and satisfaction. It's hard to describe, but sometimes you just know this one thing is right for you, you know? It clicks into place, like a piece of yourself. That's music, for me.

What fewer people might guess about me, considering how hard it is to leave home most days, is I do actually love different sports—not as an organized contest or whatever, but the physical sensation of doing them. Even though I have a hard time getting out of the house, and about, and don't do them much anymore, I used to love doing any physical activity I could, as a kid, and still do on the rare occasion. I miss it, sometimes.

Swimming's always been my favorite, though. The weightless feeling of floating, and turning, and moving in that way that's completely foreign to being in dry land, almost like you're flying. Love the sea most of all, but I'll swim anywhere I have the chance, honestly.

I miss a lot of stuff, tbh. Trying to slowly let myself remember and do things I enjoy again, at least, even if it's hard some days.

Idk. I kinda started rambling but I'm not sure what things are useful for a match-up 😭😔 don't wanna trauma dump too much in here either, though I'm pretty sure you have me pegged by now, even though I'm anon, so I'm not too worried 😅 still thought it would be interesting to see who you'd match me up with, with what you know.

I (romantically) match you with...

SE Saeran.

I say him because it feels like the two of you need to learn how to make sense of life together after you've gone through something difficult. It's not always easy to figure out how to live again, but it's a little bit easier when you're with somebody you care about.

Saeran doesn’t know how to live, much less how to figure it out. So, he might not feel like he's helping you, but that's where he's wrong about that. If you're trying to reclaim everything you feel like you lost to depression, picking it up for the first time and showing him how to do it might just rejuvenate that spark. When you see his eyes light up for the first time, it might take you back to what it felt like for you. 

That's the beautiful thing about a relationship with him, you learn how to appreciate the little things all over again. Saeran knows what it feels like to suffer, and maybe you need someone who won’t mince words with you when you say it sucks and you wish things had been different. You might just need a partner who's willing to tell you like it is, but still pull you out of the darkness just as you do for him. 

I (platonically) match you with...

Jumin.

When you are somebody who values communication with another person deep within your heart, this is the man for you. If what you look for in a friendship is someone who can talk to you about anything and everything even if they don't know what you're talking about, Jumin is the friend you need. He wants to understand other people, he wants to know what makes other people tick, and if you present something to him that he's never heard of before, he wants to know why you're passionate about it.

He has hobbies like that that he never gets the chance to talk about and you could be the first friend to push his buttons to talk about magic. 

He will listen for hours and nothing will get in his way, and it must be the same for you if you share similar values. To have him listen to you is a gift because he's that friend who never forgets what you brought up. If you do the same for him, that's one way to make him smile. Validation like that is hard to come by and he's certainly not going to turn it down. 

[gorgugsweater]

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