#idk I do think people latch on to harry potter because it's easy

[conspiracydawg]

idk. I understand why people get very up in arms about harry potter (even though I do think that the pendulum has swung too far toward "these books are pure evil"), but it does bother me when folks say "don't pirate it it's just as bad." I could vaguely understand that if it were about, like, not blogging about it, because I can see that that might be "providing engagement" (I loosely disagree with this not only because tumblr is largely unmonetizable but because the average tumblr doesn't have many followers and is unlikely to make a dent in the prevailing anti-harry potter mindset), but it seems to me that this is becoming less "don't financially support jkr because she uses those funds to campaign against trans people," which is an extremely valid and important approach, and more "don't consume jkr content because it is capable of corrupting you and turning you into a jkr minion," which I oppose on principle

[shitty-check-please-aus]

I Get Emotional About Check, Please For A Minute

this isn’t super well-written because I’m tired and emotional but here we go

I’m reading the digital chirp book (it was on kickstarter a while ago, idk if you can still get it) and it’s kind of amazing. I’m gonna get personal and emotional so just skip on past if you don’t want that (I will not give spoilers). 

The book is all of the tweets and also some pictures, and I’m looking at it and seeing what the fandom has latched onto:

 a tweet about Dex and Chowder taking a computer class and Nursey saying he’d prefer to take a poetry class

AHA! A tweet where Holster sings Le Mis, Officially A Broadway Song

 and what hasn’t made the cut 

Ransom has canonically never read Harry Potter, if we count the tweets as canon

Holster sings Wuthering Heights by Kate Bush so much Ransom has to study in the kitchen [I personally hope he was also doing one of the dances]

and also the date stamps are getting to me emotionally in a way I didn’t expect because I’m reading them and they start about three weeks after I graduated from high school, and it’s just going over such a formative part of my life.

And I wasn’t in the fandom then, I came into it after The Kiss, but I’ve just gotten to January 2015 / my second semester of college and I’m thinking about how I was just starting to make some friends at that point, and how I was such a scared and lonely 19 year old (I was still wearing wire-frame glasses! an eon ago!). 

this is getting longer than I thought it would be so readmore time

It was a rough year- I’m good at introductions but I struggle a lot with developing friendships past that, so going from a close-knit, tiny high school to a university with 40,000 undergraduate students made it really easy to feel lost and alone. I was also starting to feel comfortable identifying as bi, though maybe not comfortable enough to tell other people. I’m looking through my camera roll of that time and I can see some foreshadowings- I got the DSLR camera that would let me get most of my college jobs; there are pictures from the café where I worked with my best friend; me volunteering with the student group where I’d eventually find the friends I forced to follow this blog at the start. 

(Samwell graduation was a week after my freshman year ended)

(The Kiss was a week after my freshman year ended!)

And now I’m going through the 2015-2016 tweets and my 2015-2016 life and it got so much better for me and also for Bitty as time went on here. 

On the one hand I can’t believe Bitty didn’t turn 21 until 2016. On the other hand that was also the year I turned 21 so maybe it shouldn’t seem so long ago. 

I just feel so many emotions about this comic. And it’s genuinely been such a good part of my life, and brought me real-world friends (hey @ivecarvedawoodenheart, never thought I’d end up with such a great friend when I got so bored of the same one guy talking in class that I mentioned my fanfiction in a discussion of fandoms. or was it when I posted an au complaining about the new loud frat? which is officially the friendship instigation?). And everything is uncertain and scary right now, and I don’t have friends in Chicago yet (or any way to really make them now that I’m in quarantine) so I’m really feeling like I’m stuck in that same space of transitionality for the time being. 

But I get to see Bitty have a happy, well-deserved ending, and get this certainty of hope. And that’s making me so joyful and tearful, and I just love this comic so much. 

[outsidercade]

You gonna hate me but,,, 1-102? *devil grin* love you ❤

Oh my god OKAY HERE WE GO, 1-102 IN RESPONSE TO THIS 
(Putting it under a cut because this is gonna be LONG oh boy)

1. Favorite season?Definitely fall! It’s got my birthday and perfect temperatures!

2. Prettiest thing you own?Probably my cats lmao

3. Do you prefer to be outside or inside?Honestly it really depends on my mood and the weather and such, but probably inside on average? I’m not sure

4. Furthest ever traveled?I live in Michigan and I’ve been so Japan so I’d say that’s p far

5. What’s your aesthetic in 3 words?It really varies

6. Favorite gemstone?Ooooh uhh… probably bloodstone? It’s hella pretty look it up !

7. Best thing about yourself, in your opinionMy drawing skills

8. Best thing about yourself, in other’s opinionNothing lmao uhh hHHHHH I’ve been told that I’m very empathetic, understanding, and easy/fun to talk to?? 

9. What’s your weirdest fear?Idk if this counts as a fear, but I’m p paranoid about doors and people entering rooms I guess? Like I can’t sleep unless I face the door and I feel really uncomfortable sitting in places where I can’t see every entrance to the room at a time

10. Weirdest dream you’ve ever had?OH MAN well okay uh when I started reading the Harry Potter series in like 7th grade I had this dream where I was like Harry but with wings instead of arms and bird legs? And the dream had the perspective of an RPG or something with a health bar and everything and I had to fight Voldemort in my backyard under my trampoline. Also at some point I ran into my teacher at the time in a hospital in said dream so that was p damn weird

11. Go-to hiding placeAnywhere small, but not too small, where i can be completely hidden without somebody opening a door or latch or something12. Favorite place in your houseLmao my room13. Earliest memoryMy earliest memory is from being on a cruise when I was four and getting really mad at my parents because they saw some dolphins outside and I wasn’t there to see them xD14. Do you believe in ghosts?I’m honestly not sure15. Favorite sea creature?I have no idea so I’m just gonna say sea cucumber or cuttlefish because both are sea creatures that I adore !!16. Cold showers or hot baths?HOT BATHS ALL THE WAY17. Satin or lace?I adore lace so like,,,, definitely that18. Gold or silver?I personally like the way silver looks MUCH better but at the same time there’s The Outsiders and it’s whole kink with the color gold so likeeee,,,,,, idk man19. Hoops or pearl earrings?Pearl20. Aesthetic songShelter by Porter Robinson and Madeon

21. Top 5 songsUHHHH DONT MAKE ME CHOOSE BRUHBut uhh at the moment I guess it would be, in no particular order,1- Another Day from Rent2- Michael in the Bathroom from Be More Chill3- Grease (Is The Word) from Grease Live!4- Beautiful from Heathers5- Nandemonaiya from Your Name

22. Favorite time of the day?Early morning and/or late night

23. Favorite part of your body?Again nothing lmao but I guessss my eyes????

24. Do you drink alcohol?I’m fourteen years old and also allergic to beer so I mean

25. Dream job from when you were a kidI don’t want to do this anymore, but when I was a Smol I really wanted to start a pet-sitting business in my town xD

26. Messy or clean?It depends tbh. Likkkkke my room is messy af but I’m super overprotective of some things and will like stab somebody if they get a book of mine dirty

27. Tea or coffee?I don’t really like either but I guess tea?

28. Favorite bookTHE OUTSIDERS THE OUTSIDERS THE OUTSIDERS TH 

29. Zodiac sign?Libra all the way B)

30. Extrovert or introvert?I think I’m more of an extrovert, but it’s hard to tell

31. Celebrity crush?I mean there are a LOT of celebrities I could look at and be like “oh yeah that person’s hella cute!!” but I don’t think I’ve ever had a real celebrity crush

32.  Early bird or night owl?Both lmao

33. Do you believe in love at first sight?I want to but ehHHHHH not really

34. Favorite book quote Honestly I,,,,, don’t have one. I’m super bad at remembering quotes and things like that so I don’t have a favorite book quote ;;

35. Three wishes you haveI’m gonna sound like a greedy bitch but1- To have better grades/be better at life in general2- To be more wealthy3- To get my dream job

36. Do you believe in magic?I have No Idea

37. Do you believe in soulmates?Not really, but I do believe that there are certain people who will definitely be more compatible by nature

38. Zoo or aquarium?I LOVE ZOOS

39. Cats or dogs?I love both but I’ve never owned a dog and I grew up with cats sOOO I’d probably have to say those

40. How many languages do you speak?English is my first language so there’s that but I also know a tiny bit of Japanese?? Not really enough to count it as knowing another language tho

41. How has your life changed from last year?I’ve developed a p bad social anxiety disorder this year so there’s that?

42. Why do you have your name/url?I’ve got my name just because my parents like it, and I have my url because if you couldn’t tell I’m obsessed with The Outsiders, and ESPECIALLY Johnny Cade xD

43.  Do you keep secrets? How well?I definitely try my best to, but I tend to accidentally let things slip without meaning to on occasion,,,

44. Favorite animal?I HAVE A LOT SO, AGAIN IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER,1- Caribou2- Kangaroos3- River otters4- Birds in general lmao

45. What is love to you?UhhHHHHHHHHH I have no idea how to interpret this question but,,,I don’t know, I guess love, platonic or romantic, is when there’s somebody who you trust and feel really comfortable with, and who you enjoy spending time together with and uhh. I guess that? I don’t know, I apologize 

46. Future children name?I don’t really want kids and if I did I’d adopt, so idk

47. Favorite colorPurple! ^^

48. Favorite movieTHE OUTSIDERS THE OUTSIDERS THE OUTSIDERS TH

49. Cuddles or kisses?I’m a slut for cuddles tbh so definitely that

50. If you could have any person in the world over for dinner, who would it be?I have. No Idea

51. Someone to bring back from the deadMy cat Persion who died last fall ;;

52. Lipstick or lipgloss?I don’t really like either very much tbh

53. Are you street smart or book smart?I’m just not smart lmao

54. Your biggest strengthI’m super nice and friendly, so I guess there’s that

55. Favorite sportVolleyball!!

56. Favorite drink?Just plain ice water lmao

57. Favorite winter activity?I LOVE sledding like oh man I get super sad if I miss the chance to go

58. Last time you went abroadWhen I went to Japan in November!

59. Favorite dessert?OKAY I FUCKING LOVE THOSE DOUGHNUTS WITH THE CUSTARD INSIDE AND THE CHOCOLATE ON TOP THOSE ARE THE FUCKING BEST

60. Favorite artistI don’t necessarily have one but I guess I really love @ikimaru because her art style was a HUGE influence on me while I was developing mine and also her art is just Super Gorgest

61. Favorite singer/bandI don’t really have one, I’m kinda just obsessed with Broadway music in general

62. Favorite dancing songI don’t think I have one?

63. Favorite crying songFinale A, Your Eyes, and Finale B from Rent (I can’t find any good videos of the original Broadway cast recording of this and I don’t like the movie version so oops ;;)

64. Do you wear glasses?Yep, have since first grade!

65. First thing you do when you wake upCheck my phone lmao

66. How long do you usually sleep for?It varies a lot but probably about six-seven hours on average

67. One thing you lost and you want backI can’t think of anything off the top of my head I’m Afraid

68. Biggest fearBeing unsuccessful in life and/or being hated/alone/forgotten 

69. Favorite carnival rideI’ve only been to one carnival ever but there was this thing that flipped you around a lot in a lil cage-like thing and I LOVED that !

70. Do you have birthmarks or scars?I get injured a lot and have a bad habit of picking at scabs, so I have a lot of little scars everywhere

71. Favorite childhood memory?Probably when I first got my kitten Kivu in fourth grade, he’s a Good Boy

72. What do you think about during a storm?“wow that sure is one cool storm”

73. One word to describe your life?What

74. Craziest thing ever doneOnce when I was little I tried to wake up my Dad by throwing a hamster at him xD

75. Do you have piercings or tattoos?I don’t have either currently, but I might be getting my ears pierced later today!

76. Favorite flowerI don’t think I have one 

77. Do you have any pets?Yep! I’ve got my rabbit Tamaki, and my cats Ginger and Kivuli ^^

78. Describe your style??????

79. Choose one thing to change about yourselfThe way I look prolly

80. Do you play any musical instruments?I used to play cello, but I don’t anymore 

81. If your life was a movie would it be a comedy, a rom-com, action film or drama?Probably a comedy or a drama? ?? ?

82. Do you prefer dark, dramatic makeup or natural makeup?I like both a lot, it really depends on my mood or the person !

83. Favorite perfumeEw No Thanks

84. Biggest fandomCurrently probably The Outsiders? I’m not sure tbh

85. Favorite Youtuber(s)No particular order again lmao1- Game Grumps2- Markiplier3- Nostalgia Critic4- PeanutButterGamer5- SpaceHamster

86. OTPOH BOY UHH UHHonestly I love so many ships in so many different ways that I don’t think I could choose !!

87. Country, state where you were bornMichigan in the US ^^

88. Your parents’ namesCarol and David

89. Favorite snackI love waaayyy too many snack foods to choose!

90. Pasta or pizzaPASTA ALL THE FUCKING WAY

91. Pen or pencilI definitely like pencils a Lot more

92. Blue or black inkBlack !

93. Paper books or electronic books?I am a slut for paper books tbh lmao

94. History or geography?History is WAY more interesting to me 

95. Pastel or neonP A S T E L !!!!!

97. Soap or body wash Uhhhhhhh…. Shrug?

98. Conditioner, no conditioner, or 2 in 1 shampoo & conditionerI honestly haven’t used any conditioner in years,,, ;;

99. Singing in the shower or notSometimes !

100. Listen to music while bathing or silenceBoth, it depends on what I’m in the mood for xD

101. Blow dry, towel dry, or air dry your hairA combo of towel and air unless I’m in a rush or something

102. Morning or night showers?DEFINITELY night 

THERE YOU GO, ANON, 1-102 

FUCKIN ENJOY 

[outofthe-underwoods]

I was tagged by  @bethgreenewarriorprincess to do the fave 10 characters for 10 fandoms challenge.  Tag 10 people when you’re done.  

I’m also copying @bethgreenewarriorprincess because I’m only a part of like, four fandoms lol (I’ll just list 10 favorite characters)

Also, I’m forcing myself to make this super short because I could write a novel about my love for all of these babies <3

1-2. Anna  & John Bates -  Downton Abbey; Anna- Actual love of my life. Stood her ground and insisted that they would be married so that she could stand by his side no matter the cost, spent a year doing her own investigation so that her husband would be freed from prison. Kind, caring, tells it like it is, witty, selfless, stands up for herself and others, loves with all her heart, strong, and so incredibly brave. Mr. Bates -  My quiet, brooding bby who walks with a cane but could probably kill you with it. Willing to leave the love of his life so that her good name, as well as the Crawleys’, wouldn’t get slandered?? And then, years later, he confesses to a crime he didn’t commit and goes into hiding in Ireland for months so that his wife would be freed from prison??? Honestly I’ve never seen two characters more selfless and self-sacrificing, nor more fiercely loyal, loving, protective, and absolutely devoted to another person than Anna and Mr. Bates.

3. Alex Romero - Bates Motel; My cinnamon roll. He doesn’t love easily or often, but when he does, it’s forever. Agreed to marry Norma because he was definitely 178% already in love with her and have her his mother’s ring ARE YOU KIDDING ME Also, he and Mr. Bates share the whole would-commit-murder-for-my-wife thing :’)

4. Beth Greene - The Walking Dead; I think I first became attached to Anna because she reminds me so much of Beth. Like Anna, Beth is brave. So incredibly brave. She stood up to Daryl when he went off on her, and to Dawn when she said she wasn’t strong enough. She is strong. She made it. She still sings. 

5. Severus Snape - Harry Potter; Snape wasn’t a nice man, but that will never take away from my belief in him being one of my favorite characters of all time. I mean, we all know how hateful and snarky he was. and how immature he was in the fact that he could never bring himself to let go of something that happened when he was a teenager, but his ability to devote every minute of his life for twenty-odd years in repentance for the death of his only and dearest friend is unparalleled. To me, Snape will always be brave. 

6. Norma Bates - Bates Motel; I can’t properly express all the love, frustration, exasperation, empathy, and adoration I feel for Norma without going into a super duper long rant, so I’ll just say this: she went through too much and she deserved so much more.

7. Daryl Dixon - The Walking Dead; My lil baby. One of the first characters I fell in love with almost seven years ago <3. His loyalty is unrivaled. I’ve loved watching him grow and mature as a character over the seasons, as well as his jump from outsider to the heart of the group. Also the Ear Necklace™  

8. Mary Crawley - Downton Abbey;  Oh, my lovely Lady Mary. Tbh it took a little while for her to grow on me, but now that she has, she’s latched onto my heart and isn’t letting go :’) Even though she doesn’t let just anyone see it, she’s truly a good person, and she’s fiercely loyal to those she’s deemed worthy of it (her family, Anna, Carson, etc.) She’s an absolute brat to Edith at times (though Edith is to her as well), but for whatever reason I find it really easy to forgive her lol She doesn’t let life break her, and somehow she always finds a way to dig herself back up to the top.

9. Sybil Crawley-Branson -  I loved Sybil from the very beginning. She was such a kind soul, and it showed in the way she never failed to treat people kindly. I admire the way she stood up for her beliefs no matter what her family or others thought, and wanted to make her own way in life. She chose Tom, even though it could’ve meant giving up her family’s wealth and name. Idk man, Sybil is just a magical sugarplum who ended up being the only character from DA that made me cry.

10. Eddie Janko - Blue Bloods; MY DAUGHER. 10/10 would put on my zombie apocalypse team. Captain of the Jamie Reagan Defense Squad.

I tag anyone who shares my unhealthy love for fictional characters lol

<3