#idc that they never canonically say he's autistic he is just like me fr so i'm claiming him

[piastrinorris]

JOSEPH QUINN as LUKE MARBEY | MOSQUITOES (2017)

[buysomecheese]

Hello I have very few thoughts as of rn, mainly just a little tiny collection with no direction but.

I am Big Link kin, I love him he is so like me if I were a bit more autistic. I value honesty so much, I want a close relationship with my family but I keep feeling my trust in them slip for reasons out of their control, I’m growing from being incredibly sheltered to being thrust into adulthood way faster than my change-resistant mind can handle properly

I have had many friends who pull a Scary- looking for the trauma that validates their angst, having repressed what already does that so just Feeling without Remembering (her bio dad is definitely going to keep coming up I’m sure), friends who jump into manipulative relationships with less than a second thought because at least they’re getting attention (completely ignoring the attention coming from friends, people their age, people who actually fr care)

It’s exhausting to have that keep happening, over and over again, and keep trying to act supportive (like Norm). At some point you need to put yourself first- at some point, you need to kick them out of your house. I’ve had to do that, much more quietly than Link does but there aren’t world-ending consequences to our friendship so y’know no dead people.

But the idea of being able to come back from that, to find that person again when they’re on a path of healing and they’re trying to get/be better, and being able to support them through that, is really just a great little fantasy. To meet these people I’ve cut off and have a conversation, to see the changes they’ve made, and then getting to talking more and stumbling our way into a relationship I think would be great. We’ve already seen the worsts of each other, but we’ve both healed so much from that point

Because of the nature of this podcast and the fact that they won’t go That long with a timeskip, the ideal gothcleats (in my eyes) lives in a ‘everything is fine and normal’ au. How I like the idea of gothcleats in canon though would probably be different? Uh more like. Scary keeps up the energy she had in the more beginning of the episode, during the zone of truth, complimenting Norm (even though it sounded fake y’know) and trying to gain trust back slowly and genuinely trying to be good. She’ll have setbacks, because she’s a teen and she’s a child and she’s hurt and she’s not getting therapy, but this time around she’ll try and be receptive to her friends’ help. And she’ll try to apologize and mean it, and they’ll be able to give her the space she needs to grow. And Link will give her the Most space, because his trust cannot be regained that quickly

Those two get into a little arguement one day, Link is still untrusting of Scary and it’s been a while so she feels a bit patronized, a bit like Link doesn’t even think she’s capable of change. And Link is a little more traumatized (circa the Whole World they live in), he’s gotten a little better at lying (mainly at just hiding the truth sometimes tbh), and he casts Zone of Truth right as he feels things are getting heated. So they both say some things, and Scary just keeps being apologetic. And kind. And says words in levels of sincerity Link never thought he’d hear, and he feels bad and tells her about the Zone and she’s mad at that because she said what she was going to say anyways, she knows h doesn’t trust her, but jeez does she get no respect?

(Idk how spells work and I don’t Want to know, idc if that’s not how it works)

And yea after that Link makes brownies and invites her over and sincerely apologizes and then he gets his own space to reflect and grow and whatever and then they both end up making each other better, with the support of their friends, and then they fall in love <3

And it’s nothing like their ‘ideal’ lives, nothing like the simulation lives they both lived- for Link, him and Scary are chaotic. They’re fun, but they still have roller coasters and fights and she’s nothing like Kris. Well, both Kris and Scary are incredibly headstrong, but that’s about where the similarities end. For Scary, her and Link are the opposite. They’re domestic; yes, they fight sometimes, but they talk about it afterwards over a cup of tea (or hot chocolate). She picked up smoking or drinking or some other bad habit in order to block out traumas and guilt, and dropped it immediately when she saw how sad Link got about it. Her life is nothing like the rockstar one she could’ve led, but she’s surprised to say she wouldn’t want it any other way

(I am also on a base level just. Really into goth girls so that’s part of Why I ship it. I just think they’re an interesting dynamic and I wrote wayy more than I thought I would. It’s the cafe ambiance)

Thinking about gothcleats and why I Love it but am also Silent about it (very vague thoughts rn but something something projection idk!)