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faunabella · 2 months ago

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hmmmm. i think i understand... i was always shamed for being weak and pathetic and helpless and needy and a crybaby and so on.

so... the idea of someone wanting me to be weak and pathetic and helpless and needy for them,,,, for someone to want me to be vulnerable and not shame me for it (at least not in a genuine way),,,, is very nice 😳 to submit to someone in such a way would feel like being allowed to be human,,,,, to be wanted and not feel utterly useless if i don't pretend to be someone i'm not,,,, to be degraded and belittled in a way where it's actually kind of a compliment,,,,

#🍋.txt #irl.txt #trauma turning into kinks... neat #i think i understand why i like being bullied sexually now ahaha...#to be shamed for being vulnerable because someone Likes it and gets off on it rather than because theyre trying to shame me out of it...#to be wanted because of my patheticness instead of left behind or ridiculed.... 😳 agh #i've never got to explore this until very recently because i was so ashamed nobody look at me ahhhh

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