#i've never been one to stick with petsites for long
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ferberus-skull · 7 months ago
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pixel cat's end i love you.
flight rising.... you're okay (joking, i love you too)
#gremlin blabs#i do love pce a little bit more tho#fr is... more stressful than pce#there's a lot of things you pretty much HAVE to do#where pce.... you don't really HAVE to do anything#you could go two weeks doing literally nothing at All on there and it'd be Fine.#no penalties. nothing you'd really miss unless snowmelt or leaf day was going on#you can take everything at your own pace and there is no punishment for taking as long as you need#but fr... you have to feed your dragons (i mean you don't HAVE to but. y'know.)#you have to refill your food stocks when they get low/run out#you have to gather so that you don't run out of food#if you don't feed your dragons... you lose out on the bonuses. which ultimately feels like a punishment#but at the end of the day i still love fr#i wouldn't still be here if i didn't/if it was too much#i've never been one to stick with petsites for long#before i joined fr i'd last... maybe a year or so on a petsite#then i'd always end up abandoning it#bc it'd be too much or i'd get too bored#i've been on fr for 7 and a half years.#and pce has been the only other one i've been able to stick with#especially since i have fr to worry about#i kept trying to add another one on but i would end up getting so overwhelmed and stressed#mostly because of the other petsite and not fr#because so many petsites are just.... so stressful tbh. even fr is pretty lax all things considered#compared to like. wolvden or wolfplay... it's so much easier.#with those petsites i never even made it to a year.#but pce is SO chill that i was able to add it no problem#and i have yet to drop it and i don't think i will#ofc it's only been like a year and a half#but still. that's generally longer than most petsites last
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spursdontplaybasketball · 3 years ago
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What is the hardest thing you’ve ever done?
This might go long, and I'm sorry if it does.
I won't get into the entire backstory, but I was about 19 or 20, living with my parents, and very unhappy. My relationship with my father was breaking down to the point where I sometimes felt dehumanized by the way he treated me, and my parents were being very controlling of what I tried to do. I wanted to figure out a way to leave, but they kept telling me I wouldn't be able to handle it.
Then my friend told me I should move to San Francisco. He knew of some organizations that could help me get on my feet in the city. It had honestly gotten to the point where I was either going to go through with this or just kill myself. Unfortunately, I was living in rural Pennsylvania at the time, so it was going to be hard to get myself there. I hadn't been able to get a job, but I saved up money from petsitting and bought a one-way plane ticket to California. (I had more money saved up, but not a lot.) I tried to keep my plans a secret from my parents, but they found out anyway, so I had to stick to my guns and go through with it, despite their reaction.
Even just getting to the airport was a difficult thing. I had to leave late at night, on a night that had been proclaimed dangerously cold, with windchills in the range of -5F (-20C). I had to walk in the cold to a bus stop about 8 miles from my house and take a bus and several trains to the airport in Philadelphia. On the walk over, I thought it was possible I would die.
Getting out to California went okay though, and my friend who had helped me with my plans picked me up at the airport, even though I had never met him in real life before. The next day, he brought me over to the youth shelter in San Francisco. I was terrified for him to leave me there, but he was too old to stay with me. I lived in the homeless shelter for several months, until I was able to find stable housing and get myself safe.
That was nearly 8 years ago now, and the whole process remains the most difficult thing I've ever done. Even just making the decision to live and do what I needed to do for myself was really hard.
[I should also add a postscript that things are much better now. I was able to restart my life in the way that I wanted. Out in California, I attended community college and have now gone as far as getting a master's degree. I am living for myself, seeking a job in a fulfilling field, and have even salvaged a relationship with my mom.]
Thank you so much for the ask, and I'm sorry if this is too much 😅
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