#i've missed my sweet butterfly prince <3

[phosphorus-noodles]

Thinking of someone...

i spent two hours shading it and decided i hated it haha anyway here's a still version <3

[the12thnightproject]

Game Review Part One: Lovebrush Chronicles

I've been meaning to review this for a while now, and given that we're on the eve of the next main story release, I figure now is a good time.

The short review - this game is fantastic.

The longer review ... is under the cut line.

The basic storyline is this - You (MC) are already an accomplished graphic novel creator, and are en route St. Shelter Academy, which is on an island. Your introduction to St. Shelter includes meeting four love interests as well s checking in with your guardian (who is not - yet - a love interest).

These are:

Alkaid - an astronomy student (whom you have met previously, on an expedition to see the Northern Lights):

Lars - A somewhat flirty businessman, who is a patron of the arts.

Ayn - pianist, music major, lover of sweets.

Clarence - Law student, president of the student council, cat rescuer.

Cael - your somewhat mysterious guardian, who has raised you since you were 14/15 and your mother died.

You also, within a few chapters of beginning the game, get your own cat, whom you can name. Your cat is pictured above, hanging out with Cael. To get stamina, you need to log in and feed your cat.

Unlike many other games, where you need to grind around the clock, there are only two login times (both windows of about 2-3 hours) where you can pick up your stamina (and if you miss these log in, you can make it up by buying stamina with in game currency. I don't know if it varies by time zone, but my stamina logins are between 11 am and 2pm, and between 430 pm and 7pm. There's other ways to pick up stamina, too, all by logging in after the daily refresh and performing a series of tasks across the UI. It generally takes about 20 minutes to sweep through all the tasks and get the rewards you need to smooth your gameplay. This is a pretty simple game to advance as free to play.

Anyway, back to the story...

Once you've settled into the academy, you begin having strange dreams of another world, and during an artistic performance a friend of yours is killed and you are suddenly pulled into a completely different world.

This is Godheim. It's the first world of a multiverse that you begin to explore. In Godheim, you encounter men who are multiverse versions of Alkaid, Ayn, Lars, and Clarence:

This is the first interactive story. Godheim is a medieval/renaissance world, and it's slowly freezing over due to an invasion of giant ice butterflies (just... go with it) who kill everything in their path. You will need to save the planet (and well, it turns out Earth too is in danger) from this creeping winter. The story follows a set route pattern, where you choose Ayn or Alkaid first/second, then Lars third, and Clarence last. You learn more about the cause of the ice butterflies in each route, following them through to a happy(ish) ending, but the first three route endings do not completely solve the problem of the danger, and so you choose to go back in time and keep trying. Clarence's route offers a solution to the crisis.

Your LIs in this world are not the same people as they were in the modern world. They have different ages, histories, memories, and relationships with you. While there are some personality traits that show up in every version of the LIs, but they're faint. In Godheim, Lars is the King (who insists that you are his fiancee), Clarence is the chief mage, Alkaid is an apprentice mage, and Ayn is a captain of the guards (as well as the rightful Prince).

I thought all four routes were great - well written, they kept my attention throughout, there was tension and romance (verrrry PG) in each one. After you get through all four, you can choose one for the epilogue, which contains a more complete ending to the romance with the character of your choice. I was pretty sure I was going to choose Lars, until I finished Clarence's route.

Clarence's route is beautiful. A++++ romance. Worth the time spent in the game right there.

Oh... Cael does appear in this story, but he is not romanceable, and by the time I finished Godheim, I was convinced that he was a quadruple red flag who had been grooming MC throughout her adolescence. (Er, this turns out not to be the case, but you have to read Cael's special story available after you finish Godheim to learn what exactly his deal is.... and it's fascinating, I can't wait for him to get a route now... but it's better to read the story unspoiled so that's all I will say).

After this, you return to St. Shelter, and while you do retain your memories of Godheim, no one on Earth (with two exceptions) has any idea what happened, or even is aware that you were gone.

Life goes on... and then Earth begins to experience a series of increasingly violent Earthquakes, and you begin to see a mysterious countdown in your head and dream of a small boy crying for help. And you realize that you need to travel to another world again.

This... is Eden. And now you are in a post-apocalyptic scorching desert of a planet, full of giant scorpion like monsters and rival raiding gangs. Once again, you encounter versions of Lars (a desert guide), Clarence (an independent mercenary), Ayn (a gang leader), and Alkaid (a mysterious gardener).

And once again, you need to figure out how to save Eden, and this time the danger to Earth is immediate and obvious. In Eden, you can at least choose your route order - with one exception. If you choose a specific route first, it basically leads to an immediate bad ending for you.

Note, yes, this game does have bad endings, however, you aren't forced to start over again, you can just rewind to the decision point where you went wrong, and make a different choice.

To be continued...

Part two here

[tryan-a-bex]

20 questions for fic writers!

Thank you @bazzybelle and @hardly-an-escape for the tags!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

32

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

38,639 (I started writing March 2023, so this is happy.)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Sandman primarily, lots of crossovers, and one for DND Honor Among Thieves which is not a crossover (The Ring Bear). I also have several done for Fuckboi Dream, but I'm waiting to post them until it is finished (if you ask nicely I might let you see them).

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

King of Night and Prince of Day (based on Nathanwonderwolf's amazing art)

Five Guesses Why Hob is Immortal and One Broken Plate (this is a Scooby Doo crossover; yes, you heard that right.)

Social Media (Delirium delivers a preteen to Dream to raise; it's his counterpart, the personification of the collective consciousness. This was supposed to be pure crack idk why people like it?)

Well... Why Not? (400 words of Hob and Crowley egging each other on to ever greater heights of recklessness.)

Heavenly Hijinks (Hob, Dream and Calliope are stuck in the elevator to Heaven, a Good Omens crossover.)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes! Because I don't get very many and I love them! Thank you to everyone who comments and gives kudos, it means so much! I write for myself, but it helps a lot to know I'm not shouting into the void.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I write sweetness and fluff -- there may be a little bit of angst in the beginning or middle, but certainly not in the end. Maybe you'd like the one that ends in consensual punishment (bdsm fade to black)? The Dragon's Tongue

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

May I bring to your attention The Dragon Rider? All my endings are happy, but this one makes me particularly happy because Dragon!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

No. I don't really write anything controversial I think? And I'm not well known. And Sandman fans are kind.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I have attempted but I end up fading to black mostly. My smuttiest ones... Fucking Helm Fucking (Hob and Dream discuss "protection"), The Dragon's Tongue (bdsm scene fade to black), Naga No-Go ("awkward sexual situations" tag), and that one chapter of A World where children won't cry (a Hob and Dream scene in a Spy x Family crossover).

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Apparently I love crossovers! Space Buns is the first one in my Sandman x Spy x Family crossover series. Five Guesses Why Hob is Immortal and One Broken Plate is the first of my Scooby Doo crossovers. Well... why not? is the most Good Omens of my Good Omens crossovers.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not that I know of!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Two of my fics came from a tumblr post discussion/based off someone's tags with permission -- Ring Bear with @witheringfears and Well... why not? with Avelera. Several of them are based on other people's art -- King of Night, Space Buns, Butterflies, Halloween, Well... why not? Comic/show character switch, Karaoke, and June 7th, 2389. A couple I commissioned art for: Sometimes when you fall, you fly and Fireflies and a Missing Person! Dinner and a Play I wrote so @carnelianmeluha could cook to it, including several of her requested favourite food items! I've also done art for other people's fics a few times!

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

I'm not sure I can answer all time, but I love Gaulcienne (Gault x Lucienne from The Sandman) a lot!

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I want to write a Sandman x InCryptids (Seanan McGuire) crossover, but I'm not sure it will happen. Just in the mulling ideas stage still.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I enjoy writing dialogue. Sometimes I do a good job making people laugh, or finding just the right words, or characterizing a blorbo just right.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I can't seem to get the smut to carry on (yet?) and I don't write much description. I'm not sure if I just don't like it, or if I don't do it because I can't/am bad at it? Anyway, I'm not going to worry about it, it will come eventually perhaps.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Go for it! Making it clear from context or including a translation is considerate, but really. Doesn't hurt us English speakers to realize there are other languages in the world.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

The Sandman: Pottery (a post-Wake Destruction and Dreamling fic)

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

I love all my children! How can I choose? No really. A Quiet Love with Wings is my Gaulcienne series, and I really love it. It gets less attention than the other fics, I think because people sort for Dreamling. Give it some love for me?

[neolovesneo]

CLAIR DE LUNE.

prince!jaehyun, gardener!reader | romance | secret lovers au, royalty au

note ; haha wow surprise im alive!! so sorry for my inactivity, im trying to balance my life out atm :') to the 3 ppl who requested, i'll finish up your requests asap!!!! tysm for waiting, i feel terrible T^T + requests are closed!

The architecture of the ballroom had always fascinated you – panel after panel of stained French glass rounded together into a translucent dome, allowing in ethereal beams of colored sunlight in the day while soft moonlight reflects off the polished floors in the dusk.

Pillars of marble stretched from the sky-high ceilings, gleaming against the white-and-gold walls in a circle, barely contrasting in color.

And nothing is as wondrous as the view of it all late in the nights of summer. Women of the royal family twirl about gracefully, moonlight bouncing off their dresses overflowing of lace and satin while their partners' mirror their steps, firm arms around their waists.

The orchestra played piece after piece with great emotion, each one so magical that it left you in awe while you secretly listened and watched from afar, harp and piano notes ringing in your ears.

Seeing the people dance was something you could never stop thinking about, envisioning yourself no longer in your dirty gardening uniform, but in the most lavish dress in the kingdom, dancing and laughing to your heart's content along with them.

Truly it was all you had dreamt of - but now that you had it, why did it feel so odd?

Everything started from a rush of events – the one time you finally mustered up the courage to sneak into the empty ballroom at midnight, you had bumped into the sleepless and wandering prince.

Surprised, you had jumped at his presence, fear flooding you as you quickly kneeled down and begged for forgiveness.

And yet to your utter surprise, Jaehyun, the prince, offered his hand to help you get up.

“Worry not.” he had assured you, with a smile so sweet and so lively, neither the thickest honey nor the fiercest flame could compare.

“May I have the pleasure of a dance?”

No song nor words needed to be exchanged that fateful night; it was as if you had found a missing part of yourself. You danced and you danced, your mind and soul naturally fitting with Jaehyun's like a puzzle piece while he kept his hand on the small of your back, the other intertwined with yours.

Since then, the prince and you got closer. Shy and discreet waves exchanged when the royal family had their lunches in the garden, and secret messages sent in paper airplanes led up to your daily midnight waltz with Jaehyun, the empty ballroom echoing the hushed laughter that left your lips from his silly stories.

It was a moment you looked forward to the most, absolute peace and comfort embodying you while Jaehyun held you close, slowly swaying the two of you back and forth to the orchestra pieces burned in your memory.

"What piece are you playing in your mind right now?" Jaehyun whispers, pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head, which lay across his chest while he swayed the two of you.

"Clair de Lune." you whispered back, the bittersweet melody floating in your mind.

The prince merely hums in reply, and the two of you fall back into comfortable silence. It was like your own little solace of solitude.

"But you know, I have been feeling a bit odd lately." you admit, slowly pulling away from Jaehyun's hold. "How so?" he questions, a furrowed frown on his face.

"I'm not sure. I just feel odd when I'm with you - I've never felt this way before." you mumble, looking up into his eyes.

The February moonlight casts a slight shadow on Jaehyun's cheekbones yet brings a mesmerizing glint into his dark brown orbs. The gaze is intense, but you don't look away.

There's something about his eyes that make you feel even more odd; you feel your heart race, and the blood runs up to your cheeks while you feel butterflies flutter to life in your stomach.

And like the fastest horse in the kingdom dragging the heaviest carriage, it all crashes on to you in a wondrous realization that makes you ponder why you haven't thought of it earlier.

It's not just his eyes that make you feel odd; it's the way they sparkle in delight when he catches sight of you in the gardens, the way they seem to be able to hold their own emotions, the way they look at you whenever you're with him.

It's not just Jaehyun himself that makes you feel odd; it's love.

"That's it." you murmur, a flustered expression of awe creeping onto your face as you look away. "What is it? Am I making you uncomfortable?" Jaehyun asks concernedly, rather worried at how red your face was turning.

"No, you're not making me uncomfortable." you quickly assured him, laughing as you took his hands into yours again.

"I just... really love you." you confess, smiling softly.

The few words bring the brightest smile onto Jaehyun's face, and the tip of his ears turn red from embarrassment.

With a swoop of his arm, he has it wrapped around your waist again, and Jaehyun starts to lead you to dance with him.

There were no guests nor orchestra present, and the chandelier was unlit, but Jaehyun didn't mind - for he loved the peace of being with you, your laughter as the loveliest song he's ever heard and your smile as the brightest star he's ever seen.

Most importantly, he loved you too.

© neolovesneo, 2022.

[evacado3]

His princess ❣︎

joongooxreader pt1 pt2 pt3/3

Word count: 1393

When the chairman asked to see you personally, the first thought was definitely, I'm getting promoted.

This is it, after working full-time with that dimwit, I'm getting promoted~ And I might finally get a chance to work with Gun! You squealed at the thought, skipping through the hallways in delight, faintly humming a song.

In front of his door, you smoothed out your suit, a brand new one just for this exact event. Taking a deep breath, you pushed open the door. But what awaited you was a little, no, a lot different to what you expected. A smug-looking man, manspreading on the couch, and the chairman sitting straightly.

"Princess, I missed you!" Goo exclaimed, not too surprised when you shot him a glare. Ngl, after working with him for nearly two weeks, it's shocking how much he grew onto you. Is this his manipulative side everyone talks about?

Maybe the gut feelings were mistaken, maybe the butterflies that erupted in your stomach when the nickname 'princess' was used, were simply all an illusion.

Oh, but he noticed, how that glare was far softer than before. How your eyes would linger on him a bit longer every time he treats you after work. How you wouldn't protest about his sickly sweet nicknames anymore, how you'd enjoy his company.

The chairman snapped you out of your trance, "Take a seat." You plopped down on the place besides Goo where his hands patted. Honestly a little confused as to why you complied without complaint. You might not catch it, but his smirk widened more seeing you so obedient.

"I don't think you've heard, but you've made quite a name for yourself, miss y/n."

You tilted your head in perplex, and why on earth was Goo gawking at you like that. Creep.

"Goo's princess."

"Pardon me?" your neck snapped towards the strict man. you couldn't find an ounce of insincerity on his emotionless face. Dead silence rang through the room till Goo's laughter burst out in amusement.

Oh lord how you were wrong, let's never underestimate your gut feeling. The butterflies are going insane upon his laughter, wait, why are my cheeks burning?

"Princess! This is unexpected, but what we're trying to say is ..."

The sentence echoed throughout the room.

"What did you say?"

"I said, what we're trying to say is, you'll stay working with me, sweet pea!"

Hold on, haha I'm so tired I'm hallucinating. Right?

Your face was blank, well more like restrained.

All you were thinking about was should you risk it by yelling in the chairman's face. Though in the end, you'd rather not lose your job. So you took a big breath, "What's the meaning of this?" you said exasperated.

Goo brushed his hair back, standing up with hands behind his back. "Well, I suggested to the chairman, since more people will be targeting you now, there's no need to change and put other people into danger! Right? Miss y/n." he announced proudly.

The first use of your name to ever fall out of his lips.

"Do you have a fever princess? You're a bit red." Goo mentioned. This man needs to stop examining you like that, with those tempting eyes. You didn't even notice he took off his glasses until you finally looked him in the eye.

"I-I'm fine, just recovering from the shock." you blurted out. "But president, does that mean I have to stick with this moro- I meant Goo, until the rumors are resolved? And without increasing my salary?" you sulked.

The man cut off Goo before he could speak, "If a raise is what you're looking for, that's already done. But about the rumors, they won't go out after a day."

To be honest, your face is more green than red. Hold on, didn't I come here just to work with my beloved jonggun, time out, what's going on.

"Please just tell me what's gonna happen." sighing loudly, you lean forwards, massaging your forehead with one hand.

"I'm going to make you collect debts with joongoo instead of jonggun."

Ok, that's it. You blew up. "Wait! Chairman please, you cannot be serious about this!" Man did your dreams just wash down the drain in front of you, yeah it did.

"Buttercup, you don't have to worry about working with me! I'm reliable you know?" Goo grinned, seeing you speechless gave him another level of refreshment.

A fly might have gotten into your mouth, but that's all nothing compared to the bullshit you've just heard. Your mouth wide open, trying to digest the info you were given.

"Hold on, so you're telling me, to work every day plus night, full-time, no rest while dealing with a fool AND putting my life on the line?"

"You're pay is increased by 50 percent."

"Deal."

----------------------------------------------⌫

"Hey boss, it's them! Goo and his woman!"

You rolled your eyes hearing those words, crossing your arms, "Gosh could people stop saying that?"

Goo turned around to smirk at you, "I could get used to this, in fact, I think this is fantastic!" He turned back only to meet the eyes of the gang's boss. Oh how he terrified him with his menacing smile, a signature one of course.

"Jackass," you muttered under your breath.

"Hey, you give me a new nickname every time don't ya. What about hubby, or even prince char-"

"No way! There's no charming thing about you, I'll stick with my nicknames thank you. But anyway, why is the leader quivering like that?"

Something's not right.

"You've got to be kidding me.” you groaned.

The head only chuckled tensely, “M-mister Goo, you certainly are early, would you like something to drink? Or..." he scratched the back of his head. I wish I could tell him to drop that fake ass smile.

Goo checks his watch with a grimaced face, "No, we're just on time. Now if you would kindly show us what you've prepared?" he leaned towards the boss.

The leader avoided eye contact with the towering man, mumbling a few words. "Huh? I can't hear you man, hold on, you do have the money right? My schedule was delayed and I've given you guys three extra days!" he made a pissed-off face, "I was gonna grab dinner after this, so let's clear up this misunderstanding. Fast."

This doesn't usually happen frequently, the sum isn't even that difficult to make. Unless if you're not good with money, but then why would you make a gang?

Do I just have bad luck, still I'm glad I'm not wearing anything too expensive. The crew didn't look too pleased with Goo's statement, one by one they begin taking out their weapons.

"Princess, behind you~"

You sighed while murmuring some curses, lifting your arm and slamming back your clenched fist, whacking the guy's nose. Why am I always the option for a hostage? Sighing even more, you asked, "You want help?"

"Yes please cutie, but if you keep sighing like that, you'll get shorter!" The audacity of this man to insult you while fighting off people like it's such a daily thing.

Upon his mockery, you decided to just not help, walking away from the scene and ignoring his whining apologies. Instead, approaching the boss on the side, flinching when he felt your firm grip on his shoulders. What a pussy, you thought, is he shorter than me?

"Don't come near me! Guards, hey!" he shrieks, earning a loud snicker from you. "You call yourself the boss? Hey, look at me. Your guards aren't coming ok? You'll have to deal with me."

You grinned, one that sends chills down his spine, making him back off into a corner. Goo should be done soon, even if he isn't, he's gonna rush. Just to see the daunting expression on your face when you finished your job.

Then at the end of the day, he'll award you for your hard work. Even taking a nice short stroll with you, treating you some ice cream. Things like this are what makes work tolerable, it's not far-fetched to even say enjoyable. Though you'd never admit.

And he won't stop spoiling you, not until he loses interest. But maybe, just maybe those little butterflies are also fluttering in his tummy. Somethings telling him this isn't just about interest, it's a lot more.

After all, you are his princess.

[wychive]

𝙮𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙤𝙬 — 𝙝. 𝙝𝙟

fic type // letter fic - 2.0k words

summary // hyunjin finds his pile of hidden letters for you and he decided to write one last time

pairing(s) // hyunjin x fem!reader, hyunjin x oc

genre(s) // PG16 & angst

warning(s) // mentions of food, cussing

author's note // hello hello the second part of unspoken words is here <3 im sorry you all had to wait such a long time! but here is hyunjin’s pov from the first part which is y/n’s pov. please listen to coldplay’s yellow while reading as it was the inspiration for this! this is slightly crappier than the first but its okay :’) i hope you all enjoy this! thank you for reading muah muah

general taglist // @omigogames, @crvgio, @luthenia

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[20/03/14, 10:30pm]

hey y/n/n,

im writing these to let out some things i've been holding in,, some of them i cant say in front of you because im so scared of what will happen, to you and more importantly to us. i'll write another one soon, goodbye.

- your jinnie

[19/04/14, 03:00am]

hi hello dumb dumb,

your smile was gorgeous, as always. i just wanted to say that because you seem like you've been in the dumps lately. i hope everything is okay at home. i'm glad we video called today, you seemed so alone. if i were you, I'd say thank you, haha,, i'm bringing you something tomorrow. i hope you like it since you always liked these sweets. i'm bringing some for our new friend too! i'll see you tomorrow, princess.

- your prince hyunjin

[19/05/15, 12:30am]

hi lovergirl :)

i hope you have a really good birthday, i can't wait to see you and yeon. were gonna have so much fun at the beach, with the sand in our feet and the salty wind from the sea. i'm bringing my disposable camera tomorrow and i hope we'll use it well. other than that, i hope to see you happy for the rest of our lives. promise me to stay strong? thats my best girl! thank you for being here since the start, i can't imagine how life would be without you. i love you so much, lovely.

- your lil berry jin

[09/06/15, 08:39pm]

hey y/n/n,

i hope you're doing well there at home. you're probably dying of hotness and boredness without me hehe,, but i'm sorry, it's called a family trip for a reason. germany is so pretty and it's wow… you would love it so much. maybe i'll take you here one day, just the two of us :) i mean, yeon can come too if she likes, it's no biggie. but,,, you, yknow? for old times sake. by the way, do you know why yeon keeps calling me? she says it's because she's bored but i'm not sure if i quite understand,,, as you're bored too. why don't you both be bored together? the trio will get back in the fall don't worry about it but for now you guys be lonely together :>

- your puppy, hyunjin

[15/06/15, 2:19pm]

hey y/n/n,

i bought you some local snacks. i can't wait to see you again. i love you, dork.

- your hyunnie

[30/06/15, 3:00am]

y/n,

i'm glad to see you still being.. you even after we stopped talking regularly. yeonnie tells me you've been trying to interact with others at your school? i'm so happy for you but don't forget me loser hehe. i'll see you soon, hopefully, alright?

- your dandelion, hyunjin

[18/07/15, 2:15am]

yo y/n/n,

i hope you're doing okay. i think i have feelings for yeon but i'm not sure,,, i just get butterflies when i'm around her and i think she has it too. what do you think? maybe i can confess to her soon? idk why i can't tell you this, directly i mean. am i scared? i don't know. im sorry we talk less than we already do. i really am. maybe i'll text you later, who knows. i'll see you soon.

- your starlight, hyunjin

[25/07/15, 5:00pm]

hi,

it's been a while. i guess you heard that yeonbin and i got together a few days ago. i dont know why i'm writing a fake letter to you when we don't talk anymore but i hope you're not too surprised over it. she's so incredible, y/n. she makes me so so happy, i don't even know how she does it,, and her little dimples. god, i may have just met the love of my life. she radiates such a blue-ish colour. i see a little bit of you in her everytime she smiles though, is that weird? no- i don't know-,, i think you'll say 'i think you're in love with me instead of her' and you'll put on a smirk. dumbass. well, i'll figure it out soon. see you around.

- hyunnie

[25/05/15, 04:30am]

y/n/n,

i think i still love you.

- your angel, hyunjin

[20/??/15, ??:??]

im sorry

y/n i'm so so sorry that she did that to you. i had no idea she was this cruel. i told her that y'know maybe i still love you. keyword maybe. she freaked out. this is all my fault. y/n im so sorry please forgive me, she went through my stuff without asking. i don't know what has gotten into her lately. please, please, forgive me. oh how i could just hug you right now if i weren't so selfish. again, i'm so so sorry.

- hyunjin

[15/12/15, 5:00am]

hello

i miss when we used to stay up and stare at the stars while they shine for us. i miss your stupid questions whenever everything was quiet. i miss the way you would kiss my forehead when everything was going numb. i miss you, so so much. please, come back. i don't care if you would be my best friend, please, just be in my life again.

- the one missing you

[01/01/20, 12:00am]

hey, you

happy new years! its been a while, hasn't it? i hope you're doing okay. i am, too, fortunately.

im writing you for the last time to tell you something i should have,, many many years ago.

i love you, sweet moonlight. i'm sorry i didn't say it sooner. i wish i did, i wish i was the one holding you through the night. i wish i was the one who makes you smile every day. i wish i was the one who made you breakfast in bed on our anniversaries. i wish, i wish, i wish i was yours, y/n. i don't know why i'm releasing so late that i should've asked you out after that failed attempt. im sorry, y/n, that i made your life such a burden. i'm so sorry that i loved you so much that i let you go too early. i'm so so sorry.

i would go back to you if you'd let me. i would be your best friend again if it made you happy. i would be your boyfriend if we fell in love. i would turn back time if i could, to go back to when i confessed to yeonbin. it should've been you, y/n. it was always you. please, i want to feel your touch and your soothing voice. come back to me, because i would go back to you. i love you, i love you, i love you.

i miss your smile that gives off yellow. i miss the yellow flowers you used to give my sister when she was down. i miss the yellow hat you used to use all the time. you're my favourite colour, y/n. you're my yellow.

- the one that made a mistake, hwang hyunjin.