#i've had enough misery in my life related to conflict and politics i'm writing this comic to be happy

[phoenix-clan]

🧍‍♀️ where the hell did u all come from

hi hello thank u for all the new followers i just got.

just letting y'all know right off the bat there will be absolutely no talk of anything besides my silly cats here, this is my isolated little kitty cat corner and i will not be flooding it with anything else besides my silly gay cats

[sol-the-builder]

Talk of Cruelty

(Her) why are people so Cruel?

(Him) cruelty begets more cruelty, I blame Religion and kings personally because it made the idea of intolerance and who is better than another, so it made conflict and then because they could do it to strangers of a different style of person they grew used to it and it spread everywhere.

(Her) Do you think there is a balance? Between good and bad in the world?Or do you think the scales are uneven?

(Him) Honestly:

No, there will never be balance.

Yet there is the idea of Yin and Yang, darkness is the light and light in the darkness. So there will always be both, but as humans we are imperfect creatures we don't know balance.

(Her) Yin Yang.

Ah.

If I believe in the no balance, I'd never have faith in anything anymore.

Everytime I see,read,witness,experience something really shitty and unfair happening I try to calm myself by thinking there's something equally good happening somewhere else and this is all a pattern I don't get.

(Him) I never said the balance was in favor of the bad. Nor did I ever mean to make it seem like there isn't a way they dance in fairness.

Think of a seesaw, you know the playground toy that tips one way or another on a fulcrum, it's a fulcrum right?

(Her) I do believe it is a fulcrum. And yes, the seesaw example makes a lot of sense.

You're 17. What ruined you?

(Him) Ruined? Elaborate please, I don't understand.

(Her) Maybe that is a strong word. But what I mean is for you to talk the way you do about the things you do, something has to have happened to you to make you this way at the age of 17.

(Him) I've lived, I've been raped, I've been burned by cigarettes, I've been beaten bloody, I just see life as it is, still the poet in me trusts that the world can heal. A lot of things have happened.

(Her) None of that has happened to me. How fucked up is it that I still feel fucked up?

It's refreshing to know that there are people who still believe irrespective of all the shit that has happened to them.

(Him) Irrespective? No, I just forgave, I can't forget it. And everyone has tortures they have lived and without walking in another's shoes, they don't know their pain isn't as much. My cousin has had it worse, I won't tell what because they don't do the sharing of their soul but I was there next to them as it happened, only some of it.

(Her) Forgiving takes time and courage. I'm still working on it.

I know pain can't and shouldn't be compared but sometimes it can be. I mean my pain and misery has been probably 14% of yours and I still feel like shit and knowing that makes me feel more like shit. And this reasoning is wrong and I know that but it's still fucked up.

(Him) Having been through what I have, I've learned to hate myself before I loved myself, I understand why you feel like crap, but once you learn what it is, and learn from it, there is no more reason to feel like that, you are no longer ignorant.

(Her) I'm not ignorant I think I live too much in the past and the pain keeps amplifying and the only solution to that is to have more relations and activities in the present but I can't step out of my house and make a single friend.

(Him) You made a friend right here, and that's why I write of the now, the here to escape my mind.

(Her) Do you mean you?

(Him) Yes I mean me, hahaha, don't worry, I mean when I open up and talk like this with someone, they're close, you don't talk feelings with just a random stranger, you talk about their views on politics. An acquaintance you'd talk about how they feel. Someone closer you'd ask about things that touch your soul.

(Her) That's so true. These aren't the normal conversation norms.

I only confirmed because if I'm being completely honest sometimes I feel like you don't really have a positive view of me? I don't know how to explain and I know it's probably irrational.

(Him) Oh I get it, yes, I seem a bit cold and negative sometimes, it's something that broke me up as I said before, but to show friends I'm still friends I try to make sexual jokes to A. Show we're relaxed enough to talk about that. B. Try to assure myself that those things are really okay. C. Because if I don't I come off a bit too cold.

(Her) I'm waiting for one.

(Him) Well I'm scared about doing it to you and they just slip in. *That's what she said* I guess that's an example.

(Her) Don't be scared. If you believe we are friends just be yourself and say random stuff and the most silly things and the most important ones?

I take that word and relation pretty seriously. Also most times I don't really get sexual jokes. Stupid stupid stupid me.

(Him) Well if you want I can drop an innuendo in ur endo. Goodness I just said that.

(Her) Haha, that wasn't too bad.

(Him) I do my best. But that wasn't it, there's a timing to it. Kinda like Nooky itself you know?

(Her) Haha, now I know, I had to look up the word 'nooky'

(Him) oh you get it?

(Her) I like talking to you but sometimes I feel like I don't know how far I can go? That's why I brought it up. Now I do.

(Him) Yeah? Well I say Nooky because I don't want to seem crass. But literally anything.