#i've consistently expressed my obsession with post-crash anya and curly's dynamic because she's basically his sole caretaker

[noperopesaredope]

#also like it would be horrifying post crash cause like the implications and themes in the game I won’t get into rn #but this was inspired but a cute ish fic where Anya gave Curly his T shot cause like that’s just cute #and then it’s sad cause maybe I’m thinking Curly didn’t want to think or accept Jimmy would do such a thing because it means he could’ve #done something like that to him and the underlying fears that trans men and masc can have in male spaces of being found out and punished for #it and it’s an interesting thing to think about if it were canon or not cause like what if yknow? like trusting someone with a fact like #that about yourself only to see them torment and dehumanize someone in a way you easily could’ve been and still could be but this ain’t bout #that like Jimmy would have envy and resentment about Curly no matter if Curly was or wasn’t trans or if he disabled before the crash or #whatever cause he just resented Curly for being what he couldn’t be genuinely #mouthwashing #but back to Anya doing his T shot it’s like sad and cute cause it’s like useless now but it’s also so important to him and she’s such a good #friend and nurse to still do it and he has to think about despite all he didn’t do for her she still is doing this little thing for him and #I’ll see myself out on my sadness

Hey OP why did you put me through an amazing thematic roller coaster in the tags that made me obsessed with this AU potential?

Trans Curly headcanons are fascinating to me cause like… Jimmy would resent him more for it.

Masculinity is a weird underlying thing in their dynamic where Jimmy feels inferior to Curly about not only their job positions but roles in life. The idea that Curly is the better man who also made himself such would be such a blow to Jimmy’s already fragile and unstable ego. Like it’s not just that he’s just transphobic, he hates Curly’s ability to craft himself into what he wants to be successfully, it not about Curly being afab but Curly still being the better man.

But then he wouldn’t get the self image issues one can face, feeling like an imposter in a space you wanted to be in or even scared to be there. He’d just think Curly always gets what he desires and thinks nothing of it like he always has.

[juatanothersideblog]

#mouthwashing #also that part about anya helping him with his t shots? #i've consistently expressed my obsession with post-crash anya and curly's dynamic because she's basically his sole caretaker #despite all the ways he's failed her she still does it because she's a nurse and that's her job #also maybe while it might be “cathartic” for some to see him go what she went through and finally understand her pain #she still sees herself in him while he's at his most vulnerable and wants to prevent him from going through that same suffering #even if he was complacent in it #i don't have concrete proof of the latter but i think her not wanting to give him the pills because it reminds her of what j*mmy did #says a lot about her and how she treats curly

Trans Curly headcanons are fascinating to me cause like… Jimmy would resent him more for it.

Masculinity is a weird underlying thing in their dynamic where Jimmy feels inferior to Curly about not only their job positions but roles in life. The idea that Curly is the better man who also made himself such would be such a blow to Jimmy’s already fragile and unstable ego. Like it’s not just that he’s just transphobic, he hates Curly’s ability to craft himself into what he wants to be successfully, it not about Curly being afab but Curly still being the better man.

But then he wouldn’t get the self image issues one can face, feeling like an imposter in a space you wanted to be in or even scared to be there. He’d just think Curly always gets what he desires and thinks nothing of it like he always has.