#i've binge read this wip about five times already

[angeryyaz]

The fanfic reader experience of thinking you're over a fandom and then being sucked back in by a single incredible fanwork

[evilminji]

OKAY. *slams open door in manic about to have opinions*

MAYBE i am binging so, SO much unhinged bnha fics? Have already sent this to all my mutual and is not ENOUGH? But everyone is focused on these BABIES and not the MOST unhinged of them all? You COWARDS!!!

That's RIGHT! Ya girl has been hitting the "yandere/obsessive/possessive" behavior tag on Ao3 and is REFUSING TO BE NORMAL ABOUT IT! I have THOUGHTS DAMN IT! AaaaaaaaaaAAAAAA-!!! *Flips table*

Why the FUCK everyone focusing on BABIES?

I get it, don't yuck someone else's yum. To each their own. I respect that. But ALSO? What lvl of unhinged could they POSSIBLY HAVE? They are FIVE. SMOOTH FACED TODDLER BABY BOYS! A CHILD!

Like? Listen...

You know how Quirks are basicly evolutionary advantages? Random protections that are hit or miss? I have touched on this before in my naruto WIP (that i never posted but shush), but there must exsist a theoretical opposite of killing intent.

A sort of loving/peaceful intent if you will. A SAFETY intent. Or, for the purposes of THIS scenario and slightly to the left of that, a "love me" field. Which? Unlike what the perverse might believe or suggest? Just makes the target... love you.

Not sexually desire.

Love. Care about. Emotional connection.

And, yeah, maybe i've just been reading too many fics where shigiraki do what shigiraki does, and he is his unhinged obsessed lil self. Too many unhinged yandere fics where i darkly mutter "you are forgetting their Core Character Motivatioooooons! Just write an OC!"

Because you can twist a characters personality WITHOUT forgetting who they ARE. Thats what makes it INTERESTING, after all. Seeing how it could go so very, very wrong. How a good emotion, taken too extreme, can corrupt! N it's not just "oh that means violence n cursing right? Immediately jumping to cruelty?"

Its the obsession. The need to consume. The manipulation and care in which they try and maintain the illusion. It isn't one crack and "whelp, fuck it I guess!". Every character is different! Breaks under the strain of 1000% loving someone, DIFFERENT. And it brings up FASCINATING dynamics n potential quirk reactions?

Cause a emotional quirk WILL work. Even on people who supposed "dont have any" emotions? Because thats not how the human body FUNCTIONS. They HAVE all the necessary components. They just have a disorder. The Quirk would be forcing their body to MIMIC "feel-Y.exe" and their body would go with that. How THEY would process that data? What would it FEEL like to THEM? Whole different story.

But they WOULD feel "love" in what ever capacity THEY understand it.

You don't want to hurt your BEST FRIEND do you? You love them. Your BELOVED SISTER? This CUTE CHILD? She seems so NICE. Or maybe it's a precious and to be protected PET? She doesn't know what she'll get, "love" is nebulous and multifaceted. Could be platonic, familial, romantic. The love of a comrade. But it's never failed BEFORE. (Not, that I imagine, she being a well adjusted young lady, would feel morally comfortable USING said quirk in such times of peace. On anybody.)

We're all friend here, right? No need to be aggressive! Hurt anybody! Let's all put our weapons down, yeah?

But! This runs into a PROBLEM. The fuckin Yandere. Your bog standard sociopath. Those to whom this love field/targeting/ray/what-have-you is either so completely foreign too or NOTICEABLE as to be ineffective. Or to whom "love" is AGGRESSIVE.

Who's concept of "love" would actually make the problem WORSE.

I bring this up? Because I am FACINATED by the concept of AfO falling in love.

He... he would be COMPLETELY unhinged about it. The very act would unlock LAYERS to his deeply fucked up, highly obsessive, mind games and bank vaults, squirrel brain.

But I don't think he'd ever WILLINGLY fall in love. Or even be capable. Might be a brain chemistry thing, honesty. But the very reason his CLINGS to his his brothers quirk? Is because his brother was HIS. They were connected. It was... the closest thing he understood to love. And he is unhinged even to this day about it.

EIGHT GENERATIONS OF USERS LATER.

So like? If he spooked some poor soul? With a "love me" quirk? And she, in terror, tried to blast this Scary Supervillian into Not Hurting Her? She would have NO WAY of knowing that she just made a HUGE fucking mistake. Like... conceivably, the WORST mistake.

Because all it would take? Is her NOT instantly dying. No reflexive "how dare you use your Quirk on me". And? The altered brain chemistry starts to kick in. He's suddenly getting?? All these NICE happy brain chemicals that his body has been fuckin STARVED off? Fascinating new sensations? Elevated mood?

It's fake. He KNOWS it's fake. :) But that doesn't mean he won't murder her if she STOPS :)

Looooove yoooou~♡

Does it shift in to real, deeply deranged, love? Impossible to tell. Someone for the LOVE OF GOD call All Might. But?? He's just such an unhinged MESS it's fascinating to explore how emotional quirks would even react to him? Fascinating to think about how he would REACT if he had a SECOND "little brother" scenario. A person he CARED about. But this time... WORSE because it was in a way he could somewhat comprehend AND he had FAR more power then before.

Would it derail everything? Would he be able to focus on his Machiavellian plans while being able to fold them into them? Would he fuckin CONSUME THEM like he did Tomura? Ultimate form of love, after all, to become HIM.

How long could she, the hypothetical Quirk holder, keep that Quirk ACTIVE? Fear is a powerful motivator.

Just?? Why are there not more fics about the Ultimate Creep, BEING CREEPY AND UNHINGED??? He's VERY GOOD AT IT. Has had a LOT OF PRACTICE. LET AfO be deeply insane, 2XXX!

[myheartalivewrites]

20 questions for fic writers

Hey @cha-melodius thanks for tagging me in this!

How many works do you have on ao3?

23

What's your total ao3 word count?

329,905

What fandoms do you write for?

RWRB and A Marvellous Light (The Last Binding trilogy). I've been thinking about writing for We Could be So Good by Cat Sebastian since I read it last week. I loved it so much I binge read 3 other books by the same author straight after, and then turned right back to WCBSG. Book rec for everyone who's not read it!

Top five fics by kudos:

Deep Blue

Just Like That.

Oxford Days

In His Wildest Dreams

A tie for fifth! Have One (On Me) and Tumbled Down and Tangled Up

Do you respond to comments?

Yes! Unless they're a bit dodge lol

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

This is the question that reminds me I've done this game before hehe. I'm only interested in happy endings so this is hard to choose, but Don't Wanna Be A Fool For You is quite angsty and ends just as they're getting over the angst, so I have to go with that.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I always write happy endings, BUT, if I must choose, I'm gonna go with a non-RWRB fic here. in your room, like a temple is an epilogue of sorts to A Marvellous Light, and it makes me SO HAPPY to have written this settled future for Robin and Edwin.

Do you get hate on fics?

Not usually, though I did get a couple of annoying comments on my first threesome fic from people who thought their own vision of monogamy for Alex and Henry was something they had to come and tell me about 🙄

Do you write smut?

hahahahhaaaaaaaa yes

Craziest crossover:

Never done one

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not as far as I know

Have you ever had a fic translated?

No! Someone did ask me about translating Deep Blue but I don't think they've followed through with it. I'd love it though

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No

All time favorite ship?

Alex and Henry

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Oooh, I don't have any WIPs on ao3 to feel guilty about. What sits on my hard drive is between me and my atheist god (also me)

What are your writing strengths?

Yikes, ok! Here are things I like about my writing: I like the way I write smut that's super emotional AND super hot, and all the different ways I've come up to make smut scenes different from each other (because writing them can sometimes feel repetitive from my perspective). I like the way I play with rhythm in sentences and build tension in scenes. I like the way I build emotional and sexual tension in a piece overall. Please no one drop into the notes to tell me they disagree 😂

What are your writing weaknesses?

I CANNOT come up with external obstacles! Whenever I'm trying to plot something out and I'm trying to come up with BIG PLOT REASONS to keep people apart, my brain just freezes. I love internal obstacles, the emotional reasons why people choose to do the things they do, but as for external things to move the plot along (think Jeffrey Richard leaking emails, Queen Mary telling Henry how to live his life) I'm just... ultimately uninterested in them. Which is fine if it's a choice, and I love a lot of writing just like that, but I wish my brain could at least TRY.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

Like it.

First fandom you wrote in?

RWRB

Favorite fic you've written?

Haha good one. Changes all the time. Current fave: Paper Chains, I think (a personal stab to my heart how much it's underrated). I tried something new for me with the structure, and I think the emotional punches hit so hard, I'm so proud of it. Or maybe the new one for RBB, called Foxden Park. Coming soon!

No pressure tags (and sorry if you've already done this and I've missed it!): @thesleepyskipper @firenati0n @welcometololaland @inexplicablymine @sparklepocalypse

@onetwistedmiracle @tintagel-or-cockleshells @historicallysam @cultofsappho @14carrotghoul

@suseagull04 @magicandarchery @itsmaybitheway @porcelainmortal @anincompletelist and anyone who fancies joining in! 😘

[touyasdoll]

hii ash!!! this is my first time interacting with you, I've come across your blog recently. I regret not coming across your blog sooner, I'm gonna binge read your masterlist.

I've only just completed reading your natsuo x reader x Shoto series. Why are we such an idiot in this fic??? Like we cheated on poor natsuo for the dude who abandoned five years of relationship without a second thought. Shoto is such a coward in this fic. natsuo is so hot and wholesome and loving. This is my first time reading a natsuo fic. All thanks to you, I've become a natsuo simp now. I love the way you portrayed him in this fic. I loved loved this series especially the third part where natsuo made us fuck shoto infront of him. And when he fucked us infront of shoto, and that was so hot and he had me the entire time in a chokehold.

I've a few questions regarding this fic, ignore this if you don't wanna answer, but why didn't shoto even try to avoid the quirk marriage, like y/n is gonna be in the top ten heros right, we have a good quirk too and his family already loves us. I think tbh if he had tried a little harder he would've been together with us. Also, why did we cheat on natsuo with shoto continuously, it wasn't even a one time thingy, that too after five years of marriage. And we weren't even gonna leave with shoto. Why did we even cheat, are there any lingering feelings for him still, like are we still in love with him or is that a haze of the moment thing?

Sorry for the long rant, I'm really intrigued by this fic. The way you write your fics is just amazing 😍. Also, ignore me if i spam your inbox with reblogs and my dumbass tags. I just fell in love with your writing and I'm gonna go read the rest of your fics.

AHHHHS DIDYSHSEHHS PLANS CAN CHANGE IS MY FUCKING BABY & you wanna talk about it??? Sjxhshshs my brains malfunctioning this literally made me so happy ty omg <33 hi!!!

first of all, I do wanna say that Plans Gone Awry is an alternate ending! I just really wanted to write some darker content with Natsuo, so I wrote that to explore the more vindictive side of him, because I don’t think that the Natsuo who we fell in love with would actually wanna put the us through that. Shouto, maybe, but not us. he’s too good for that.

that being said, the actual ending I have planned is still a wip & I’m obviously not churning out a whole lotta work rn lmao but it is fully plotted. I just gotta like..write it, which is easier said than done. but! it explores how and why we/the reader end up having an affair with Shouto and why he basically just let us go. it’s going to be a while still until I write it, I know, so I’ll say that it’s an evolution of events that leads to them hooking up again. and then of course Shouto’s issues all revolve around everyone’s favorite fuckface, Endeavor.

I know that a lot of people do not identify/do not want to identify with a character who would cheat, but the reality of cheating is that most people do not set out to do it. most people don’t set out to hurt someone else like that. I wanna make it VERY clear that I’m not condoning cheating, but I do recognize that we all will make a few absolutely terrible decisions in our lives. We’ll do bad things, we’ll hurt people that we love, but I don’t think that our mistakes make us bad people.

Infidelity is a very painful thing, but I think it’s also a very subjective and nuanced subject that people avoid talking about that I feel should be explored more often. people aren’t perfect. I, personally, don’t resonate with self-insert characters who have never done anything wrong in their life. I connect more with readers who have flaws, who fuck up, who are human. anyone can write what they want, obviously, but that’s my preference. It can’t always be our love interest making all the mistakes lmao and in this fic, it isn’t. It’s us and poor Natsuo doesn’t deserve it one bit, but it happens nonetheless. predictably, the final part delves into themes of forgiveness and the past catching up with us, etc. all that jazz. I’m gonna write eventually, I swear lol.

but I’m so glad I could make a Natsuo simp out of you! 😭 that’s the highest praise. I honestly, truly fell heads over heels in love with him when I wrote that fic & it’s probably my favorite thing that I’ve ever written. I wanted him to be just a really genuine, good guy and I think I managed that. he’s a ideal husband and I’m so sorry for what we did to him skdhdhsbs I wasn’t planning on making it a series initially. Plan B was like a one shot and then I thought, “ooh, I’ll write a sequel where she leaves natsuo for shouto” & then I was nahhh lemme write a prequel first and I just got myself in wayyyy too deep with Natsu.

but anyway this was so SO nice sjdhshs I’m like giddy over getting to talk about these fics. I put so much into them and I’m just glad that you liked them! minus us being an idiot lmao ty <33