#i've been talking abt this w/ two lovely ppl on here already

[stealingpotatoes]

POTES SEMI-LIVEBLOGS KOTOR!

ive been writing my thoughts in the notes app but due to popular demand (one person asked for it) i'm posting my liveblogging DO NOT SAY/TAG/COMMENT SPOILERS PLEASE i read tags

warning im a yapper, im 10 hours in and theres a lot already (separated into sessions):

SESSION 1

whos this clown i thought i would be playing as revan

ive been too spoiled by dragon age origins this character creator sucks ass

only human???? ): fr?? ill just imagine her different in my brain or some shit

my life is being mansplained to me. is this bad writing or do i have amnesiacs

hes meta now??? hes talking abt the screen controls?????

omg a jedi and an evil jediii

omg their asses suckedddd they both died immediately

i <3 bringing a sword to a gun fight

WHY R THERE SO MANY SITH WHERE IS TJE RULE OF TWO

i clicked a workbench and it said lightsaber so either i get a lightsaber or i get a jedi friend whose lightsaber i can steal if im careful

I assume u play as revan in kotor2 so im gonna buy that now so i can play it when im done playing w this clown

i got light side points im getting a good grade in game morality which is something both normal to want and possible to achieve

everyone keeps saying revan is dead but thats my friend revan from tumblr hes clearly alive. or they???

my characters ass is distractingly present onscreen

huge fan of the way everyone collapsed drunk what the FUCK was in that wine

ok these sith ppl might be the bad guys but their armour is DRIPPY AS FUCK

ideologically i dont agree w the sith but they kinda went off w the fits

googling how to become a sith without being evil cause they have Drip

SESSION 2

i paid £1.19 to see revan he better show up in this game at some point

all these sith n i still cant find one revan….. stop faking ur death rn come out n talk to me babygirl this isnt like u….

why can i be light/dark side if im not a jedi. give me a laser sword

maybe this jedi gyal will know where revan is faking his death. or give me a fuckin lightsaber PLEASEEE

was just thinking 'does this game have romance' and then carth called me beautiful. i dont think im gonna romance anyone until i get this amnesia sorted

why is carth questioning me so much abt the crash im pretty sure i have amnesia

why tf did the jedi lady have me transferred to this ship are we in lesbians with each other???

carth's not wrong it is suspicious but i lowkey have amnesia so i coulda done that i coulda not

a lot of clone wars voice actors in this. was lucasfilm so broke in the 2000s that they could only afford the same 3 VAs for every project

mission is 14??????? we need to get my girl back in school

SESH 3

tale as old as time i fucking suck at racing games

ok i didnt realise you had to mash click i won

REVAN!!! REVAN!!!!!!!!!

why am i dreaming abt revan tho. real as hell but ?????

lmao cringe revan getting blown up. i thought the jedi beat rev-meister in a fight but no. accident

"such visions are often a sign of force sensitivity" COOL YAY GIVE ME A LIGHTSABER

BASTILLE LOST HER FUCKING LIGHTSABER??

CARTH IS RIGHT THATS LIKE DAY ONE JEDI SHIT. ok i still love her even tho shes a bit of a bitch and also doesnt have a saber

if we find a lightsaber im taking it first tho

whys carth getting weird abt me being weird that he doesnt trust me. i just wanna be friends mate

SESH IV: A NEW HOPE

'i mean no disrespect, but perhaps one of the male slaves could serve you better' i went in here to start a slave revolution and instead got called a lesbo

LMAO THERES A SPICE LAB???? WALTER WHITE WHERE ARE YOU

thats insaneee they blew up BILLIONS of people to get to one jedi?????? these sith arent fucking around theyre scary

UM THIS IS CRAZY GRAPHICS THE LIGHTING IS CLEARER/DARKER WHEN I COVER THE SUN W THE SHIP EDGE?? 2003 IS THE YEAR OF THE FUTURE

someone just called me padawan i kinda assumed i was in my late 20s do i just have baby vibes

all the jedi in the movies are so chill but every kotor jedi i've met so far has been a bit of a bitch

YO THEY HAVE A YODA!!! its not THE yoda but

cool so these guys are just the regional managers at best. your asses are not the council

why can everyone smell my force juju so strong

THATS STRAIGHT UP YODA'S CLONE WARS VA

why does fake yoda not blink both eyes at the same time. im calling him master tortimer he reminds me of the animal crossing mayor

bastila there was no need for such a fancy bow

malak is like evil aang

revan is so much shorter than malak omg

are me and bastila sharing dreams. are we both obsessed w revan

poor mission ):

WHAT WAS MASTER TORTIMER ABT TO SAY????????? EVER SINCE WHEN??? DID WE KNOW EACH OTHER BEFORE MY AMNESIACS????? DID BASTILA TELL U SMTHN MORE WHEN I WASNT IN THE ROOM???

im intrigued i like this whole hidden jedi shtick its very compelling. so is whatever theyre hiding from me

kinda surprising no jedi found me before tho given my force juju is so strong

IM A LEGIT JEDI NOW??? SICK!!!

does revan rlly not have pronouns i thought that was a tumblr thing but they straight up are a nonbinary icon ive never heard a single pronoun used. revan's pronouns are revan/revan's

damn revan seems so cool in these stories (charismatic war hero that convinced their troops to join them as conqueror?? julius caesar) and yet all we've seen them do onscreen is get blown up and die by accident

A YEAR AGO? the way they were talking i assumed revan died like. a week before the game started

master uh i forgot his name he has martin scorcese vibes said revan was a paragon of the jedi so what im getting is that all jedi gifted kids turn evil

even if i didnt know revan as a tumblr darling id KNOW revan has to be alive somewhere they way everyone talks abt them is too cool for a character who exploded and died. i think. i hope. I PAID £1.19 TO MEET REVAN

'only you and bastila can stop malak' seriously????? just us two?? ive been a jedi for like, 6 minutes and you guys keep calling bastila young???? do you guys not wanna help??

omg im getting carth to traumadump! <3

HE WAS ON REVAN'S ARMY>??

i totally knew the jedi code and did not have to google it whatsoever

they rlly said fuck going to illum heres a crystal from the bin

he told me id be a great sentinel and i was like i know but i want blue cause i dont wanna be matchies with bastila

OGH!!! I HAVE A LIGHTSABER!!!! THIS IS GAME OF THE YEAR!!!!

omg i made my lightsaber perfectlyyy which is rare <3 getting a good grade in jedi

maybe i was a travelling lightsaber salesman before my amnesia

seriously though WHO was i everyone's kinda stopped acting like i have amnesia since the first mission BUT IVE PLAYED DRAGON AGE THAT GIVES YOU OPPORTUNITIES TO RP UR PAST. THIS DOESNT. EITHER THIS GAME IS BAD (but i love it so its not) OR I HAVE RETROGRADE AMNESIA

also everyone keeps being like "Oh ur force juju is so strong" AND NOBODY FOUND ME TIL NOW??? suspicious. did getting a really bad concussion activate the force in me

im too confused and amnesiac'd to think abt anything except the fact i have a glowing stick now

FSESH FIVE:

big fan of using aliens to avoid having to get VAs to read every line

oh so carth's boyfriend saul betrayed him and became leader of the sith fleet so he has trust issues

well he needs to calm down. i can't betray him cause i dont know what the fuck is happening

yooo i love the design differences on the mandalorians

oh my god this lady wanted to fuck her droid cause it was her husband's. and then it killed itself. wtf. game of the year tho

wtf they jebaited this juhani person into going dark side but then i talked her out of it. that seems a bit mean of them

i hope she can join my party she looks too unique to be a random npc

ive been thinking and I might be going crazy but there was a loading screen tip ages ago that said jedis could wipe ppl's mind and all i thought at the time was 'fuck the shitshow acolyte didnt make that up'. but what if one of them wiped MY memory and i used to be a jedi or smthn ????????

cause they keep being like ur weirdly good at this??? did bastila steal my memories??????????

I KNOW I HAVE AMNESIA!! EVEN IF EVERYONE DOESN'T BRING IT UP BC THEYRE PROBABLY TRYING TO SAVE MY FEELINGS

if i dont have amnesia and im just deeping the fact the opening had my life being mansplained then im gonna look real stupid

anyway time 2 go to the fuckshit ruins cave where r-dog and malak went to

"it must be referring to revan. the dark lord and malak--" revan's pronouns are revan/thedarklord

bastila said theres no mention of the Builders in the archives. does she just know every text off by heart

THIS DROID IS 20K YEARS OLD ???

omg i can equip 2 lightsabers at once. game of the year

OK I TAKE BACK EVERYTHING I SAID ABOUT THE AMNESIA BASTILA IS ASKING ME QUESTIONS ABOUT MY BACKGROUND THAT I CAN ANSWER. I REPEAT I DO NOT HAVE AMNESIA

ok i didnt get choices and i didnt really uh… say anything that i didnt already get told im still not ruling out amnesia

also booo i didnt get to find out how old i was

master tortimer rlly looks like the ultimate ketamine yoda

LMAO THERE WAS A DIALOGUE OPTION 2 CALL JUHANI A CATGIRL

omg kashyyk from jedi fallen order!!!

I CAN UPGRADE MY LIGHTSABER THIS IS JUST LIKE JFO

omg this ship is fun i wish everyone had personalised bunk spaces like hfw… a game which came out 19 years after this i should probably just take what we have

im gonna start w manaan cause im p sure thats what B-dog said n its the same language the droid was speakin

omg hyperspace from star wars

THE GUY THE BUILDING FELL ON???

am i having dreams abt revan bc bastila killed revan and im connected to her this is so roundabout

maybe i'd sleep better if my ponytail wasnt clipping into the pillow

[kiwi accent] six

carth needs a xanax every time i think we're friends he stops trusting me

also lmao he actually pointed out how wild it was that a day one padawan is being sent on this uber important mission and HES RIGHT IT IS WEIRD!! i thought it was main character logic but he's calling it out

i really really like the sense of unease that's setting in like at first i thought it was just cause im not used to 2003 games but no this is on purpose bc carth my friend carth keeps calling it out

THERE IS A CHILD ON MY SHIP ??????????????????

lmao the representative for menaan is roland wann. its like poetry it rhymes

there are no cameras in the sith hangar <3 rookie error i can commit crimes now

bastila's favourite hobby is getting shot and walking into my grenades

this isnt a combat system this is a missing system

I GOT ARRESTED???? IM JUST A GIRL

nvm i had a datapad that said the sith were evil so theyve let me go free and we're besties

why do i feel like ive just walked into an underwater horror mission

this suit waddles at the speed of a penguin on fentanyl

i tamed the beastie this is like how to train your dragon

MALAK FIRED ON REVAN?????? WERENT THEY BEST FRIENDS???????

but maybe revan escaped when bastila wasnt looking THEYRE FINE THEYRE OUT THERE SOMEWHERE. I BELIEVE

so hopefully when we run into revan they'll be like agh i changed my ways cause of the being shot thing and they'll be my bestie

great news i successfully communicated w the ship child and gave her back to dantooine. my girl has shockingly good linguisitics skills

bastila is so dour "oh watch out for the dark side" GIRL I AM. I NEED TO GET THE BEST GRADE IN GAME MORALITY

ok OFF TO KASHYYK i hope cal kestis is there… thru the force i guess… bc he wont be born for another 4000 years but its whatever

omg you'll never guess what. another vision. wow its one of the thangs. cool this is a tomorrow me problem

[gravesung-moving]

moon wood red leaf hi ily

positivity meme! send 🌙 and i'll recommend a blog for my favorite character

... well if we're talking abt hyperfixation characters bc bioshock fandom is dead so idk any other elizabeths.

@cursesavior writes a kickass geto!!! eddie is also just such a chill person and has been very fun to talk to so far! but like. i wanna highlight the dialogue in particular, because as a geto writer, the dialogue is probably the thing i've struggled with the most since starting to write him. i feel like a lot of the time i slip up and he doesn't sound like himself, but eddie's geto sounds SO DEEPLY IN-CHARACTER like i can actually hear the VA in his lines, which i always strive for but i feel like not a lot of ppl can really achieve as consistently. so im just very impressed omg i feel so honored to write with u tbh <3

send 🪵 and i'll say a positive thing about my own blog

OUGH DONT DO THIS TO MEEEEE— hgbbhgg uhhhhhh. god. i like my icon style i think it's very versatile and works well for the diff styles of characters on here. the color coding helps too!

send 🍁 and i'll recommend my favorite blog duo

WAIT THIS IS SUCH A CUTE QUESTION????? FUCK????? okay i am OBLIGATED to say @crowshoots and @crowgreeds here. rio and siri are such good friends to me even outside of rp, but on top of that, both of them are amazing writers AND their ship dynamics are swoon-worthy. both of them exist outside the sphere of my horrible brainrot rn so we haven't written in a while but i can't wait till it lets go of me enough that i can bite their muses more regularly again. <333 (it's already started to let go of me enough that anah and rusa are crawling out of the woodwork for rio's ships so i have faith KAUSDFHKSDHFIHUSDFSD) LOVE YOU TWO YOU'RE THE BESTTTT. also two of our first shelter island supporters ;w;

[xstarlightxstarbrightx]

Kaeya headcanons

i'm speedrunning this before work while my breakfast is cooking so BEAR WITH ME, i have SO MANY thoughts on my bbgrl

current list of h/c's: - ice skater kaeya, i will die on this hill. will have a post abt that one day b/c there's so much to it that i want to scream abt and Thoughts (tm) to be had (like him getting flustered??? OUGH i need to restrain myself) - speaking of flustered, he's really good at keeping his cool (pun fully intended, fight me) and he typically is the one who CAUSES the flustering. smooth af and KNOWS it - he likes to cause chaos and mayhem. a bit of a gremlin. mischievous man. perhaps a tad prankster in his bones. playful teasing bastard and has a lot of fun w/ it.

- cold hands. nothing more. - when push comes to shove, Kaeya's the guy w/ the plan. like genuinely he's incredibly strategic and has the main plan, and like two or three back up plans. it's not even like an anxiety thing he just wants to be prepared, and he makes them up pretty last minute. - he's kind of an assassin-style character, y'know? not as much of a main fighter as he is a sneaky backstabber. roguish and charming but can and will yeet u type deal right??? - LOYAL to a GODDAMN FAULT. i TRULY believe this man's loyalty is unshakeable. like he'd do anything for the people he cherishes the most. and if he perceives u as a threat??? a threat to the things he cares about?????? ur on the list now and there's no escape. - incredibly perceptive! like he's really good at getting information from people already, but i feel like that just makes it a lot easier for him to notice when Something Is Up. it's hard to catch him unawares. - kaeya's great and i love him but he doesn't love himself and i'm sorry this man definitely feels like he's got really bad self esteem. Like he KNOWS he can get shit done, but he has a hard time believing that anyone likes him and probably has trust issues b/c of it. - i also feel like he doesn't like the spotlight? like specifically Kaeya; if he needs to put on a persona for the spotlight, it doesn't phase him bc he's good at hiding behind a persona. but the moment Actual Kaeya gets spotlight he's like a bit of a mess and nervous and would just rather people enjoy themselves. essentially just doesn't want the spotlight. - abandonment issues. i don't need to explain this one. - kaeya puts on the air of an anti-hero but he's a quiet paragon himself. literally helps people out of habit and while he jokes abt it he doesn't actually expect anything in return and literally forgets he helped ppl bc it's just so engrained in his brain. - epitome of "sorry i had feelings, i'll replace em w/ jokes right away" - not the best cook tbh? like he can make some GOOD snacks (chicken mushroom skewers, a fried egg, simple stuff like that) but ask him to cook actual meals and he's at a loss for food prep and has no idea how to time everything in the dish. - emotionally available but only for other ppl. cannot and will not express his own emotions bc of aforementioned anxieties; but u wanna talk to him abt shit? he's all ears and will comfort u like a bbgrl. - this is less of a h/c but actually canon, and that's just that Kaeya's lonely. i genuinely think he wants to be around ppl but he feels like they wouldn't like the real him :(( - on that note, i WILL say that, despite his playfulness, this man is a romantic at heart??? like he probably LOVES poetry and writing and music, and the only reason he makes light of it is b/c he thinks it's funny and also to make people underestimate him. he would probably die for the opera performances in Fontaine tbh. OKAY,,, i've gotta hurry up and wrap this post bc i have work soon but please here thank u this is my bbgrl kaeya i love him so much. he has been in my main party since day one and like i'm beyond attached to this lil shit, like PLEASE HIS VOICELINES ARE SO GOOD. i will talk more abt my kaelumi h/c's and explain how things go in my "canon", b/c i'm trying to go in order of how all the poly met each other. WHICH means that Zhongli's next!!! b/c ofc i'm going to scream abt him, my friend's playing his archon quest and letting me watch it again and i'm taking so many notes its not even FUNNY.

[juyomiao]

NAURRR I FORGOT TO SCREENSHOT THE NOTIFICATION💔 but tumblr was being saur cute sisbissnks it was like

juyomiao has posted

we noticed they're one if your favorites❤️

or smthn along the lines of that and ACK IT WAS SAUR CUTE PLS JSBKSNSKSKA-

anyways idk if u can answer the first one but it's still cool hshshshs

✩ do you have/ can you give some not-so-spoiler spoilers for o.o? (hahajahs u made me obsessed w this and im not complaining)

★ your mtl biased member in cravity? (just ur preferences, u may put reasoning if u want :] )

✩ fav/recommended tbz songs? (im really planning on stanning they seem fun ajajasjs)

★ *IF* w1 is really pursuing with the greek mythology shit, which god/goddess (there's a possibility) do you think bin is going to be? (and state ur reasons hshs)

omg tumblr being cute (unexpected)

☆ uhhhh idk how to give spoilers without spoiling everything so all i can say is what i alr said : its getting more angsty bc i like being cruel n ruining things 🤭 BUT dw it will have a happy ending and the funny elements of the fic r not going anywhere bc thats still the most important part to me

★ okay omg this is hard wait

disclaimer ofc i love all the members

minhee : he was my bias in x1 too so even when i didnt rlly stan cravity i still considered him my cravity bias lmao hes also the proof i have a 'type' when biasing idols bc . the minhee - younghoon - sunghoon trinity explains a lot abt it

serim : he was the reason i got more interested in cravity bc i was watching a cravity park episode n realized how fine he was so ,, yeah . kind of surprising bc he was one of the two members i didnt rlly know abt before stanning (i knew minhee hyeongjun wonjin n jungmo bc of produce n knew seongmin taeyoung n allen bc ppl talk abt them a lot) but im so insane abt him to the point something i said after seeing one of his pics became an inside joke in my friend group

seongmin : my bbg hes so cute n pretty n soft n i love his voice so much . n lately i've been wanting to eat him too .

hyeongjun : ofc knew him bc of x1/pdx n already loved him back then but now even more . in the nicest way possible hes insane hes not normal but thats exactly why i love him

this is where it gets more complicated bc i cant rlly rank them ? like probably woobin n then jungmo wonjin n allen more or less on the same level ?? like even i would expect jungmo n wonjin to be higher but . heres a fun fact‼️i watched produce without subtitles ! so i remember little to nothing abt it n had no idea what was going on ⅔ of the time !! bc i used to watch it when they livestreamed it on youtube n then was too lazy to go look for the subbed ep ,, then i got more attached to minhee n hyeongjun bc they were in x1 obviously

that was so long im sorry but u cant give me a perfect opportunity to infodump abt my special interest / hyperfixation n . expect me not to do it

☆ OHHHH OKAY so idk what music u like more so this list might be a bit questionable bc i like everything even noise music . but i'll focus on b-sides !!

walkin in time , only one (obviously , the queen who inspired my fic title) , melting heart , l.o.u , text me back , daydream , espionage , shake you down , scar , salty , goodbye , checkmate , shine shine , insanity , prism , kiss me if you can , hush , kingdom come (i'll never get tired of saying it , tbz were robbed on that bitchass show FUCK MNET) drink it , out of control , nightmares , merry bad ending , hypnotized , russian roulette , one dance , sweet , c.o.d.e , survive the night , levitating , awake , savior

tbz's entire discography is honestly perfect have fun stanning them u wont regret it‼️‼️

★ honestly idk😭😭 when i was younger (n we r talking abt 5yo until 14yo so it was . a while) i was sooo obsessed with greek mythology but my brain just . wiped all that information away😭 so i genuinely dont know

[nyxityidv]

Survivors I play and like a single sentence on why

bcuz i kinda exhausted myself talking about rescues and rescuing so mewch with a post abt rescues [that,, deffo needs revision >w>] into a post abt first officer vwv [going in order of percieved usage which is inaccurate to actual usage due to having usage from bfore hiatusing]

mechanic so anyways i might cut that whole tangent out but i love mechanic because shes like playing two survivors at once :3 and becuase her stacking decoding penalty and ability to be decoding while chaired justifies really self destructive bodyblocking and rescueing :3 i play her as: all rounder/decoder? she can give heals, or body block with one body while using the other to decode, she can be a first rescuer w/ tide bodyblocking while using bot to decode, when she is downed / chaired, she can decode, and in non-camping hunter situations she can self-rescue, she can self heal, she can decode with both bodies (tbh i only start decoding with bot when someone is injured >w>), having a sub-par fifth survivor is just really useful in alot of ways and it happens most are to keep someone decoding

explorer explorer has the best stealth of any survivor, reliable hunter detection [though lower range w/ no aura reading or secondary benefits], and flexibity with ciphers which gives resistance to alot of cipher delaying effects / tactics i play him as: decoder, he has no ability to assist kiters and the only benefit he has when rescuing is "probably uninjured", he can contain for some time as a kiter in some areas on some maps but he doesn't have Any reliability if he isn't in those areas or able to getaway

first officer hes a rescuer he has lower drawbacks than mercenary i like the pseudo invicibility i use him as a rescuer please don't make me talk mewre abt him im already in the middle of writing something abt himmmm ;w;

thief flashlight silencing is good against the characters that are otherwise good against most of my played characters, and flashlight's stun is fun to use running backwards and flexibility is a little nice benefit that makes me get terrorshocked when not thief sometimes, painfully :3 and he has two time-saving for whole team passives and he's standard decoding speed with minimal timesinks i play him as: kiter, though he definately has pretty notable assist kiting capabilities i just haven't captured how to use yet he is notably teammate dependent w/ his lockpicks

batter batter has an ranged aimed semi-reusable knockback, which if used without immediately regrabbing ball gives the hunter the "female dancer break box for future viability but let transistion" choice, With the choice for batter of making it stun and/or reseting cooldown but beaking ball on contact, 20% vaulting speed which under rampage becomes 40% and,,,, altruism is,, altruism is so much fucking movement, using altruism is so exhilirating, and so useful for getting into assist kiting positioning and is also incredible for escaping i play him as: an assist kiter, or rescue, hes also Good at kiting should he be first chase against some hunters when you don't fuck up massively ;w;

gardener im not remotely good at her but breaking rocket chair makes it waste hunter time repairing And makes it last longer without having to be near that area when it happens, vaulting speed + veterancy's boost + the shield i hnstly haven't learned are all nyice for extending chase, and i also just find movement speed boosts like veterancy really nyice i play her as: kiter with passive assist, she Really does not function as a "balloon rescue" (harrasser is a word i've seen but idk the extact definiton ppl r using for it so i've been avoiding it here >w>), atleast without assistance and she probably Is the only character with any business playing secondary "harrasser" which is maybe interesting to try actually :3

doctor doctor is kinda like, a pressure release valve, somewhat soft counters every chip damage hunter, is very effective in games where resetting/healing occurs, and is also just really useful for slamming yourself between the kiter and the hunter to bodyblock and then leaving with veterancy to heal up :3 [her vaulting speed down is painful sometimes though ;w;] i play her as: healer / assist kiter, and secondary rescue, i'm not really a fan of being the focused kiter with her but she Can heal up for that anyways

lawyer i honestly like never play lawyer but he fits between these two and as a fan of itemless/light kiting and veternacy and decoding quickly he fits in here but even though hes the best itemless kiter late game and able to hide i just will usually pick explorer over him if the decoding looks neccesary i play him as: decoder, though he IS much better than explorer for rescueing

postman being a mapwide assist is just helpful and being able to give a permanent 10% vault up is just useful, alongisde being able to boost decoding, and dogs are useful :3, but i don't play him enough to honestly say "how" i play him past "trying to give decoding to someone not being chased or give letters to help the main kiter and then help the rescue with bravery and if being chased or near the main kiter dogging the hunter" but thats just the character

antiquarian the survivor i don't play at all who i think i shld pick up the most since shes very handily able to kite + assist kite, has normal decoding, and has part of explorer's stealth (less trail + using jump to vault) , but i've just never play her but think i shld enough to mention

also lucky guy hes a veterancy user and his options allow for alot of different styles and reactive play but the main thing that makes me think about using him is that he can do "doll stuff" that mechanic isn't really able to afford to do but i feel like i need to learn him more to use him in any regard

since i mentioned little girl in the much better tl/dr shes map wide teleport which is good for healing and pages that is useful for assisting kite and connection that is obvsly useful for assisting kite and lets you bodyblock + speedboost and lets you Only think about pages and shes also like half the size of other survivors making some loops function kinda like tall walls that otherwise don't :3

[ladyjaneasher-blog]

I sometimes wondered what the Beatles did on the nights when they weren’t working. Did they go around to one another’s houses? Did they feel lost without one another? After all, they had gotten so used to being together while working in the studio every night during the long months of Pepper. It was likely that Paul was the one who missed the camaraderie the most, because he was always the workaholic in the group; it came as no surprise that he was the main motivator behind Magical Mystery Tour.

here, there and everywhere: my life recording the music of the beatles, geoff emerick

[bluewinnerangel]

whenever I think about louis and zayn's friendship I always remember my own friend (obvs idk too many details abt their friendship but from what I do know yk?) we were friends for 8years before everything fell apart, it was really complicated the way things went down and the worst thing was that it wasn't exactly our faults that everything happened the way it did, altho it was our faults that the giant ocean between us remained if not increased in size

we were so prideful, im confident it was one of the reasons that made it so hard for us to even speak abt it and even now 3 years later, we've only talked a couple times bc of work and running into each other thru other mutual friends

looking back on it there are some things I wish we didnt say to each other, I miss her deeply and she was always such a dear friend but the chasm between us feels so very big and so very deep and whilst I dont regret how everything went down I do still miss her and talking to her sometimes - its like these two very conflicting parts of me

i started thinking abt all this because shes getting married nxt yr and i (surprisingly) got an invite and im so incredibly grateful to have but i always imagined that i'd be her maid of honour yk? that I'd be one of the ppl designing these invites with her and panicking abt which flowers to get and telling her she looked beautiful in every dress she tired on, it feels so weird right now to be sitting here with her invite to the left of me as I type this, because we were that close and my throat is already closing up just thinking abt being there - it also reminds me of that one moment when an interviewer asked louis and zayn who their best man was gonna be and louis immediately looked at zayn - like that used to be me and her

i will say tho these invites make me very emotional because 5years ago when she had been with her now fiancee, less than half year we joked abt a wedding and we lowkey planned a half assed one, and the invites match the colour scheme (lavender and white and yellow I swear it looks nice i'd send a photo but it wont let me send the ask w/ one) and that could just be bc she liked it like we choose that together but im scared that there are gonna be sunflowers and gardenia's at the wedding I think i'll actually burst into tears if there are bc those were my idea and like i think it would look lovely!! and im defs not one of those 'i was saving that for my wedding!' or whatever it'd be lovely it'd just make me very emotional bc I literally remember the moment i suggested them and the way she looked so suspicious of it and I had to show her and its ingrained in my mind that memory - this is one of the friendships that quite literally shaped me, i've know her since i was 16 (so literally same as louis and zayn)

it just made me wonder if zayn will be invited to louis's wedding yk? and if he'll go thru the same emotions im going thru rn bc it feels like part of my heart is gone yet I feel this insane and deep happiness for her and how far shes come and whilst I've been watching from afar for so long i probably dont even know her anymore it still feels so weird to be going as smth other than next to her and i'll probably be sat at that table of old friends/ppl she hasnt seen in a while and it feels weird, very weird

im sorry for sending u this so randomly, u can defs 100 ignore it, bc its sooo damn long but i remembered ur zayn/louis post that nearly was and just had some thoughts - not that u ever hv to drop it or anything!! no pressure darling

Hey sorry I missed this ask when you sent this but I've read and digested it this morning and I just wanna say thanks for sharing, this is actually very relatable and made me tear up a little. I'm thinking of my 16yo self with my highschool BFF at the time with a friendship that didn't make it out of hs, my ex, very good friends for years that just drifted off once they got a partner, people I talked to every day for years and then not at all, people that moved away, the one that got away, or even people that just were completely toxic. It's different when they're still kinda in your life a little bit but at a distance because you can't really let it be the way it was I guess, dealing with that dynamic shift can really just fuck with your perception of those memories you have with them, but my mindset (in the end) is always that I'm grateful for the time we had, even if it ended horribly or they hurt me or I hurt them or just stopped caring about them for whatever reason, and you know still I'm just fond of the way they "enriched" my life? Idk how else to put it. And even when our relationship was nothing but positive but we still drifted apart for whatever reason I almost never have a need to try and pull them back into it either like I'm just.. grateful they were there at some point. And I'm content with that. For the time we had. Whatever happened, those good (or not even but.. granting life experience I guess let's put it that way) memories are still there. Same for people that are currently in my life, I want them here and I'm so so grateful that they wanna be here that they wanna share a bit of them with me but that's just.. it. Like I don't expect them to stay and this sounds horrible I'm also just not trying to make em stay? I'm just kinda like if you're along for my ride and I'm along for yours, good, if this choochoo mess uncouples detaches goes off to different stations then it was fun while it lasted. I'm not saying it's not a terrifying thought to part ways with for instance my partner for a decade that I still very much want in my life but these 10 years worth of memories and growing together no horrible conscious decoupling for whatever reason is gonna take that away from me, idk if this was an appropriate response but it's where my mind went hah

Another absolutely random thought but this made me think of me and my friend when we were maybe 14, and we told each other that if we were still single by 30 we'd marry each other. He got together with one of our other friends not long after and they married eventually (I'm talking a decade later). I don't talk to them anymore, it would be strange to go "hey congrats on getting married remember we said we'd marry each other hehe!" Ajakskskaka and yet still it's nothing but great looking that that was our friendship once.

Then for our dear zouis, its very hard to figure that out from a couple of interview moments and lyrics that might or might not be about something or not, the idea I have of them is thanks to some links in some of their songs that could be intentional, and it's pretty sad? But then again a song isn't an accurate reflection of every and all sides of a situation/relationship whatever. Will I ever post that leeeeeellll nobody knoowsss.

Oh the rambles.

[sayorithot]

So, I've been meaning to ask. How are you holding up not being able to cum? I know I get pretty randy after just two or three days with no orgasms, meanwhile you've been at it for almost two weeks now! I wonder how you're doing... Is it maybe easier than you thought it would be? Or do you struggle to keep your mind off of your aching, needy pussy? Do your thoughts always drift to all the different ways you want to be touched, used, fucked, satisfied? Why don't you go ahead and tell us in detail all about how it's affecting you, hmm? I'm sure plenty of your followers would love to see you squirm~ 💖 - 🐝

hfkdnfhd .//w//.

im,, definitely having SOME trouble

usually I like to cum to destress and enjoy myself... the main reason I started this is bc I realized I was spending HOURS at a time just not enjoying myself and rushing for orgasm, cumming at least twice a day when I was REALLY horny

now... it feels like a constant ache in my cunt and bit deeper when I remember it... and my clit has started occasionally twitching when I think about horny stuff... plus I've been seeking "release" in other things, like holds and such...

hhh I've definitely gotten more open and willing to certain ideas and posting here more often as I've done this challenge =///= granted I'm ALREADY horny normally which is why I started this challenge in the first place, like I said... but I've actually been DMing a lot more and wanting more extended touch, not just thinkin abt one heavy fantasy and getting myself off as fast as I can 🥴🥴🥴

but 🥺🥺🥺 sometimes when I get talked to like this... oh gosh it makes everything SO MUCH HARDER. not as hard as within the first few days bc once I get past those it's a lot easier but oh my gosh... I just wanna keep getting teased... mm 😣

I also... want to hear more from ppl who are getting horny/off about me... that wasn't a big thing for me before, but now... reading edgeslut posts about not cumming but making others cum definitely helped that fantasy 🥴💕 like!! it just feels SO GOOD I wanna thank em and make em feel even more good...

also I've been wondering why I've been so out of it during certain stuff... maybe it's this 😳 😳 😳 lol, I'm really bimbofying myself~ being so horny all the time with no release...

thank you for the ask ☺️

[aresrl]

I hihi I am!!! A little nervous w/ doing this bc I've never done this b4 so please bear🐻 w// me💦 May I request a match up? A vision, a romantic partner and maybe a friend and/or enemy? If that's too much feel free to just assign me a vision + partner, ehe/// Preferably male for a romantic match-up, but either gender is fine with a friend and enemy match-up^^ I tried to be as detailed as possible but I think I ended up just ranting, so im v v sorry if it's long! I sort of fluctuate when it comes to being an introvert/extroverted. W// strangers and irl, I'm very introverted and shy!! Rarely speak and if I do it's just the usual "Hi how are you? That's good. I'm good too, thank you for asking:)" yeayea I'm not too. Keen on social interaction irl. But I always do my best to be very nice!! I never wanna come off as mean bc wow what a bad first impression that would be. But with friends / ppl ik online?? Whew I am very very friendly n chatty ^^ Either very high energy or very chill, there's rarely any inbetween. Sometimes I like to jokingly tease my friends but I'd never go too far / make them uncomfortable!! And if I do I always apologize right away!! I like to say that I'm affectionate?? My strongest love language is def physical affection, if not quality time. Idk man there's just something about vibing with someone or hugging them that just aaaaa/// Although I usually display affection w// words of affection bc. Literally most of my friends are online friends so I can't actually hug them, sad times. Idk if this is needed/important info but I just remembered: I'm 5'6 around??? Need glasses bc. Whew i am blind (near sighted), I'm poc (specifically black) anndd, hm. Actually I think thats it for this section, aha. As you can see I'm, not really all that organized. Also I don't have the best attention span - while writing this I'm circling between 4 different apps - and I'm a bit of a mess. And also a little stupid. Just a smidge dumb. But I have my moments - I solved like. 2 puzzles in Inazuma by myself so I think that counts for something. I also find that I tend to talk a whole lot when I have an idea or smthn to say abt a thing I'm super interested in!! That's info-dumping. I info dump. Yes. I also really like to listen to other people talk abt things they like!!!! Its so nice :) I'm protective over people I care about!! I've never done it but 100% would bark at someone who messed with someone close to be. Arf arf yaknow. I tend to he impulsive. I'll do something, and be all "YEAH>:D" and then regret it later. And then I'll do it all over again in a fun little cycle :) I consider myself an optimist, but quickly turn into a pessimist whenever it concerns myself. Fun funfun. Should probably mention that I am. A very insecure person w/ dangerously low self esteem, which is super fun esp when you mix that with the fact that I'm rarely ever motivated to improve. Yayayay Also sort of a pushover?? Like most often than not I'll be convinced to do something, even if I'm not too keen on doing it. Also afraid of confrontation when it comes to my friends and strangers (that is, if it's concerning me!! I'll order smthn for my friend but if I need to order for myself?? uhh stutter time aha). I'm also a mega simp ahah! Srsly though if I fall for someone/get infatuated with someone I. Will be so obvious abt it even though I try very hard not to be. Would gush over that person probably. I don't really like mean people tbh. Like yes I'll be nice and civil with them but!!! I cannot stand!!! Rude people!!! Esp when they're mean for no reason like sir??? maam??? homie??? chill pls ty<3 People who aren't necessarily mean, but moreso have bastard energy and are just really "hehe>:D" but playfully are p poggers tho!!! I think I get along with kids!! I have a little sister,, around like. Nine? And we get along really well!! I also try and match a kid's energy whenever I'm tasked with looking after them. I take pride in the fact that kids like me >:].... even if they sometimes scare me-- Ok, interest time!!

I like art!! Quite a bit!! Less of a realistic artist and more of a cartoonist!! Idk there's just something fun abt drawing cartoons, hehe. I also like self ships - I have quite a bit of them, actually ! Idk its comforting drawings your fictional crushes loving you idkidk. I like writing too! Both original stories, and one-shots or personal fics that are associated with already created media!! Writing character backstories and personalities and stuff is also fun too! I've even made my own fictional world with a full fledged backstory n everything! It's very fun to think about. I'm a day dreamer!!! Yea remember when I said I write stories? I day dream abt potential stories even more. Mmm daydream world so nice so warm so fun I read aswell!! Mostly fantasy books, or stories where animals are the protagonists. Think Warrior Cats. But my favorite book series has got to be Guardians of Ga'Hoole. Fantasy owl books, anyway! X Readers are also things I enjoy reading :) Again, s I m p Also gaming!!! Is something fun I do sometimes!!! Although it's usually Genshin Impact, or Wii Sports/Resort w// my little sister. Oh, also pokemon! I rlly like Primarina, Vaporeon, Sylveon and Vulpix/Ninetails! I absolutely adore sweet foods, and baking is smthn I'm def interested in! Don't like foods w// weird textures though, like beans or mashed potatoes. Also I. Love spice so much. Mmm love it when my mouth burns so bad. Don't have a favorite animal but I've had three cats in my lifetime (btw not important but my current cat is named Sylvester and. He's my baby boy) so I am. A very big cat fan. Probably not needed but I really like sword and claymore characters. Literally all of the characters I main are either sword or claymore users. Although I did get Diona, so I miiight start forcing myself to learn how to aimmm. I see that I tend to like people/characters that are a little more extroverted than me. Upbeat, happy type beat!!! Nice sunshine babies, :) I think thats it! I hope this was good enough? Again, first time doing this (at 2am nonetheless) so forgive me if I got too rambly or did anything wrong ^^ Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read this! And I hope your day is good / you had a good day, depending on when you read this, ehe!

Hey! Sorry if the wait has been long! I also love Warrior Cats (I promise myself, one day I'll finish it.)

You received... A Pyro vision! Optimistic, enthusiastic, impulsive, reckless, and a lot of energy are the general characteristics held by the Pyro vision. • I hesitated between the Pyro and Hydro vision, but your energy distinguishes you from the Hydro vision. • You said you were impulsive, always doing something you might regret later but still doing it. • You react quickly: as you said, if somebody hurt someone you love, you won't think twice before barking. Your partner would be... Xingqiu! “This feeling was unexpected.” • At first, you were just friends, and Xingqiu really loved to tease you. Actually, you both teased each other. But eventually, a feeling of love towards you grew into Xingqiu. And that was reciprocated. • Your relationship is filled with teases, jokes, and good/funny moments where you mostly share what you commonly appreciate. • He also knows when to get serious: for example, he does everything to support you during your moments of struggle concerning your self-esteem. Your friend would be... Childe! “Luckily, I'm here!” • You two also share funny moments, especially during situations where your “stupidity” is overtaken by his insight. • Sometimes, he finds you cute. • He likes the fact that you get along well with kids. It leads you to great moments with him and his siblings. • You're quite the opposite in terms of self-esteem. I think it's a good thing because it makes you complementary. Your enemy would be... Albedo! A misunderstanding. • You wouldn't hate each other, but I think Albedo wouldn't like the way you use your energy, and when you're more in a chill mood (meaning you're more available for him to talk), he could get pissed at how much times he'd have to repeat himself for you to understand something. • He's very patient, but he understood quickly that his interests would maybe not be within your reach. • You would just be too different. Worth to mention • You and Venti are like drama queens in Mondstadt. You are good friends. But you both know that you can't be more, as it would eventually both drag you down (because of similar problems). • Klee is also your best friend: both of you share decisions that you definitely will regret later. Or maybe not. • Hu tao and you are kinds of silently competing over who's the best tease, and she beats you. My goal is definitely not achieved. I hope I can catch up tomorrow. And don't worry, it was surprisingly good for a first description!

[rainstormfes]

Attack on Titan: The Final Season Ep13

didn't think i'd do another one of these but here i am. y'all know the drill, spoilers for everything aot are under the cut and i highly, highly recommend getting into aot if you haven't already. it's frickin amazing.

btw manga peeps pls pls pls no spoilers in any interactions to this post, pls and thanks :)

AIGHT I'M FRESH OFF OF WATCHING EP 13 AND OMG I AM ABOUT TO GO ABSOLUTELY INSANE. side note: right after i finished the ep i saw this pic on onoken's twt

AND LIKE I STILL LOVE THESE TWO SO MUCH AND THEIR PERFORMANCE THIS EP WAS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING BUT MY GOSH I FRICKIN LOST IT. I absolutely despise floch and eren right now solely bc theyre essentially imprisoning their friends and coworkers. i'm more angry at eren than floch cause i care more about him noT TO MENTION HE THREATENED HIS BEST FRIENDS OF MF ~12 YEARS LIKE ??? seeing mikasa look so... defeated, I felt so bad for her. all she's been doing is trying to get eren back home and keep him safe while he's still on his 13 years as a titan shifter

AND CAN WE JUST-

this whole scene was amazing in the sense that it showed just how messed up this whole scenario is. Levi had protected eren at all costs for years. There were so many sacrifices made in the name of protecting eren. and now the boy himself was essentially making all these sacrifices into a joke. they don't have to attack the military for this. like hanji had said, there's no time to be fighting amongst each other.

Ok but now for the better half of the ep, hehe.

GOSH, i've been wanting gabi to meet so many ppl including sasha's family and nicolo. and she's managed to meet everyone and then some, including the girl that sasha had saved from a titan, kaya, and now eren too (i can only imagine, until next sunday ofc, how the convo/realizations between gabi and eren are gonna go IM SO EXCITED)

i absolutely love the situation we got to see: a marleyan captive (specifically the one who was very attached to sasha) and an eldian 'honorary marleyan' (specfically the one who killed sasha). like w ep11, we got to see gabi's eyes being opened again, just a little bit. she's seen again and again how the 'island demons' are nothing but ordinary ppl, just like her. and that also includes some that have shown them hospitality and sheltered them. AND that passing comment that gabi made abt mr. braus' dialect and how it was from marley... GOSH the day she fully opens her eyes and realizes that she and the ppl on the island are one and the same... PHEW thatll be one of the best moments ever. falco's already been pretty neutral to the island ppl so i am just WAITING for him to talk to eren again.

one last thing: WHAT MAKE'S ZEKE SPINAL FLUID SO MF SPECIAL. LIKE ???? ik that what he said abt it making eldians freeze up is prob a lie bUT NOW WE SOMEWHAT KNOW HOW CONNIE'S VILLAGE GOT TURNED. i just ... "i send the Power of the Titans to the coordinate via Paths" AND THAT IS THE ONLY EXPLANATION WE GET FOR THAT. like does royal blood just surpass EVERYTHING we know abt the titan power ??? and if so then like... d a n g. mf is op asf.

anywayyy, all in all, i am LOVING attack on titan more and more every week. everything that's been happening is absolutely insane and i can't wait for everything else to be animated. i rly rly RLY hope an ova is made in the future bc WE N E E D to see the final chapter animated. i will ofc pick up the manga once ep16 airs but i still wanna see that final chapter animated and released to the public in the future.

also also congrats to Ishikawa Yui-san (voices mikasa) for winning 'Best Voice Actress' at the 15th Seiyuu Awards!! she deserves it :3

and also Koyasu Takehito-san (voices zeke) for winning 'Supporting Voice Actor' !! his voice is absolutely amazing, he definitely deserves it

[angelblumes]

(food ment) Hello you!! Yeah there's too much abt will graham that makes mentally ills go crazy, I can relate to the empath thing so much, i think you should be able to talk abt it on here I really think the hate on here was from white cishets who will go 'im such an empath 🤪' and then be massively racist and homophobic/transphobic, just a generally bad person and ofc not all of them would be white cishets . It is genuinely a problem for me also! I feed off of everyone's emotions which helps me be a better person I think but also I live in a very dysfunctional household/ have a very dysfunctional family lol which makes it .... very hard to deal with. Ok! Um I've went to the beach, it was so lovely, I love going when falls beginning but its still warm enough to swim😌 its gotten cold very fast tho this fall, im already in a hoodie. I've been waking up b4 12 pm which im really proud of myself for but ofc once or twice I gave myself a lil break but! it didn't really set me back much😁 I've found my perfect coffee recipe 😋 we are going back to homemade meals since its starting to cool down 😌(we don't have ac and the oven will heat up the entire house if its on) my therapy has been going well and I've been trying not to self sabotage. I really haven't been deadnamed either which is surprising but whats even more surprising, I haven't really cared when I did get d-named 🤟 you are one of the people I check on when I come on here just to see how your doing 😊 one of my favorite online ppl . And... one more thing um I also got two vape pens as a gift, very exciting and it'll help me alot, its more cost efficient and honestly alot easier in most ways. I hope you've been doing well!!!❤❤❤ and if you haven't been, I hope it gets better for you. Im sending good vibes out to the world to you 😗

hi!!! missed u!!! ive been doing ok!! better mentally but the physical 😳😐😑😐.... but no literally tho like my empathy is either super high or super low and a lot of its bc my family is emotionally insane like i cannot empathize w them w/o losing my marbles LOL. i had another appt w my psychiatrist! new adhd meds wahoo! tell me ur username comeonn pls i'll feel bad if i'm not checking ur blog too😭💔. im jealous its still hot as fuck for me. in the 80s. im having these awful cramps not even period ones its.... so much worse. idk what's happening 🤣 itis a little frightening. i worry my kidney exploded or something. planning a trip to baltimore!!! its not my idea at all btw but im excited bc its where hannibal lives in the tv show HELP... and we're goin to these fancy restaurant w three course meals and guess what im getting..... the chesapeake chicken.... hahahaha.... like the ripper..? get it? get it? :) and lastly umm... i forced my friend to use her tumblr and follow me on here muahaha. wishing i culd force everyone in my life to watch hannibal🙄🖕