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lae-zels Ā· 6 months ago
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ai art on my dash again, with op's blog deleted i cant block it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck offf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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cogaytes Ā· 3 months ago
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i know it's not directed at me, but my conversation starter is that i personally find fandom as a place for anyone and everyone. i think my genuine confusion for the discourse is that the age limit to use ao3 is 13, and that most of these works in question are properly tagged as well. (if they aren't then that's an entirely different conversation.)
oh and also that teenagers have sex?
if you don't wanna see it that's never a huge problem! of course you should stay within your comfort zone and avoid things that make you feel uncomfortable (especially if you're on the younger age of the spectrum of minors on these websites!)
but arguing that smut shouldn't exist is something i've never truly understood. Sexuality is something that people (yes that includes young people) can and should explore if they want to. Writing and consuming it in fandom is a way for many older teenagers and young adults to do that in a safe and healthy way.
Especially when it is those things like rape and non-con stuff--shouldn't we be relieved that instead of causing harm to others, people are just using their creativity to write about it?
Tumblr has always been the Gay People Siteā„¢, and to me and my expression of both my gender and sexuality, sex is a huge part of that. People have sex! Teenagers have sex! Some people even like to read and write about it!
Unfortunately for a lot of people, their self expression is not socially accepted as the norm, and they can--and may already have--faced disgust and discrimination for their private interests. Sites like Archive of our Own and Tumblr were made for the freedom of self expression and exploring personal interests in an anonymous way, especially those that may be considered taboo.
Will you find me reading incest fics? Probably not, that's not my cup of tea. But I won't complain either, because I know that it may be that for the author and some other people. As long as a fic is properly tagged, I personally do not have issue with content as long as it does not cause mental or physical harm to other (real world) people.
These are fictional characters, and I truly believe that censoring authors and artists just because what they're creating is considered problematic or even just openly disobeys what is widely accepted as the norm is silly and reductive of what we've been fighting for for decades. Humans are sexual beings with sexual minds, and in our modern age we use our thoughts to write whatever we feel like. Sometimes that happens to be sex!
It may be uncomfortable, and may not be for you, but the existence of fanfiction as a whole can open up more understanding for people who are looking for connection, not just connection that you yourself deem "acceptable."
Sex is not something that's impure nor dirty, it is inherently human. It's personal and intimate, but it is not wrong.
this ask is mostly applied to what i've found in kotlc as a fandom, but my inbox is open anytime if you (or anyone who may read this) wants me to expand more on fandom spaces as a whole. i have more thoughts on real world people and a lot of other topics, but i tried to keep it to just what applied to keeper. (trying not to write an entire essay in yours haha.)
i'm aware that i may have a more lenient view on this than most as well, so i'd love to hear your thoughts <3
yeah no i agree basically with all of this! it's something i've been really grappling with over the last few years (especially recently as a ship i really find uncomfortable has become big in some of my circles of mutuals, which has been interesting to see how i thought about it when it was first a thing 3ish years ago and how my reactions have changed now). i think as i grew up i just stopped almost. caring about what other people make? like i just. filter shit out on ao3 and on tumblr and scroll past shit i don't want to see. i unfollow or block if it really becomes an issue.
but personally i just really don't like the idea of any art being given a moral value, even when it portrays topics we really don't want to think about or might feel uncomfortable with. like, my parents wouldn't let me read the hunger games until i was a certain age because the mass child death etc were just so fucking horrifying that they didn't want me exposed to it. and even reading it as an adult i'm like. okay. holy fuck. but that doesn't mean it's immoral or gross or disgusting just because it portrays fucked up things as fiction. and it definitely doesn't say anything about the author that she wrote it.
you don't have to read smut if you're not comfortable with it! you're allowed to be made uncomfortable by sex! but as long as it's properly warned for so you can avoid it, that doesn't mean it shouldn't be allowed to exist.
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molsno Ā· 1 year ago
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this is kind of random but do you ever feel like people treat transmisogyny as a lesbian-specific problem, and if so, does it bother you as a trans lesbian? i donā€™t really mean general criticisms of transmisogyny within lesbian spaces, but rather people who seem to talk about transmisogyny like lesbians *specifically* perpetrate it the most, or are more capable of perpetrating it than anyone. i feel like this has become a popular trend in queer discourse (usually from tme non-lesbian ppl) to demonize or ā€˜otherā€™ lesbians, & i think it extends from contempt toward ā€œman-hating lesbiansā€ but lumping trans girls under ā€œmenā€ to legitimize it, but i donā€™t know if i just notice it more because iā€™m tme, and i donā€™t want to overstep or make anyone feel like Iā€™m discouraging discussions of transmisogyny by saying this isnā€™t a lesbian-exclusive issue. i know the ā€˜political lesbianā€™ movement was predominantly driven by straight cis women (and a smaller but non-zero number of cis bi and lesbian women) who laid a lot of groundwork for associating bioessentialism with lesbianism but is it unfair to say ā€œlesbians arenā€™t an essentialist hate group and shouldnā€™t be generalized/singled outā€? like is this a trend youā€™ve noticed as a tma lesbian, or am i looking at this through a misguided lens? sorry for rambling on, feel free to ignore and i hope your night/day is going well <3
I think that definitely happens to an extent, but that's mostly because tme non-lesbians believe in lesbophobic stereotypes that lesbians are more likely to be terfs and that most terfs are lesbians. it definitely bothers me as a lesbian, because not even being trans exempts me from these stereotypes. I've literally had one of my former best friends tell me they didn't trust lesbians, including me, because terfs invalidated their gender as a nonbinary person. like. it's vile.
so yeah, I think it's fair to ask people not to generalize about lesbians, but at the same time, I've also seen firsthand, many times, that transmisogyny is still prevalent among tme lesbians. the critiques tme non-lesbians make are mostly just blatant lesbophobia (and transmisogyny by assuming lesbians are talking about trans women when they say men), but over time I've become increasingly disillusioned by tme lesbians after seeing just how willing they are to throw tma lesbians under the bus. as just one example, a few months ago, there was this bi lesbian blocklist that was going around on here, and regardless of your feelings on that particular topic, the fact of the matter is that almost every single person on that list was transfem. trans women who have never identified as bi lesbians or even said anything publicly about bi lesbians (including several of my close friends) wound up on that list for seemingly no reason, and found themselves blocked by most of the tme lesbians on this website. you would think that people who put "tme" in their bios and reblog posts about transmisogyny would at least make an effort to stop and think about the implications of this, but it turns out that a sizable number of tme lesbians will exile a bunch of trans women from their community based on blind accusations of them being predatory men invading the lesbian community without a second thought.
that being said, the behaviors I just described aren't really unique to tme lesbians either. tme people of all genders and orientations have been doing the exact same things for decades. so what I'm saying is, although I don't think it's fair to generalize or single out lesbians as being particularly transmisogynistic, that doesn't mean tme lesbians should be pretending that they're incapable of transmisogyny and insisting they don't need to hold each other accountable for perpetrating it.
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thechembow Ā· 2 months ago
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Hey Sharon, I noticed a lack of rain these past three weeks we have been dry besides a few spits of rain. This is our usual hurricane / tropical storm time of year and I noticed no such thing has occurred. Beautiful fall weather, not saying there has been abundance of DOR weather, about 80 percent is perfect weather but with no rain. My plants are dying if I donā€™t water them, I follow a girl in Pennsylvania and the farmland she usually walks is also all dried up from the drought and she fears no color this fall since most leaves are dropping off from the drought. My question though is off shore. Wind farms. That is the only thing which has changed since I started to gift. Over the last year, there has been a wind farm being developed in the sound offshore of Montauk and block island and Rhode Island. Could those farms have harmful effects on weather? I never noticed the impact living in southern California and seeing the wind farms near Palm Springs but it still comes to mindā€¦ thanks! Have a good week forward!
Hello! The reduction in hurricanes is because of orgonite gifting by gifters in the northeast like yourself! When the cell towers are neutralized they can no longer be used to create unnatural destructive weather. You're seeing the restoration of the natural climate, so it makes sense that there will be a little dry period in late summer, like in the northwest (although in this restoration process, they have been getting more rain than usual!). We're all supposed to experience periods of rain and periods of sun, without the great variation we now see between the two coasts, and without destructive storms. The fact that you're experiencing high OR means your atmosphere is healthy, and your late summer weather is more similar to the west coast, showing a balancing of environmental conditions, which happens gradually over time with worldwide orgonite gifting.
In the past few years, I've been learning to grow plants for food, and I've seen that they really need constant care, no matter what the weather is. Nature seldom will yield the abundance on its own without us cultivating it and poring over our plants. So don't be discouraged because irrigation will always be necessary to some degree, even with a restored climate. This is a good time to learn rain collection, so where there are a few weeks without, we still have water for our plants. I also should add that the media for the past two decades has used the word "drought" to mean any period without rain, when it really means an unnaturally prolonged period (three weeks in summer with a few drizzles would not be considered a drought before this mind control agenda was in place), so please don't be discouraged by their hyperbole. You can see for yourself the abundance of rain in and around New York very recently and they want to psyche you out and use others who have been convinced of their false reality to psyche you out as well. You're doing the right thing as a gifter and nature is sorting itself out.
Don't worry about the wind farms, since they are not DOR emitters and don't affect the weather. Just keep on busting the cell towers. You've made a huge difference! Please also share our website with anyone who is concerned about the weather and climate. I hope you enjoy the process of gifting and experience all the different weather changes as just part of the process. The weather is a worldwide system, so taking down the weather control grid piece by piece will be necessary, and the changes will happen little by little.
Thanks for your question, for gifting, and for following and supporting our work!
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ir0nmoon Ā· 4 months ago
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Two blogs - who I'm convinced are the same person, though I could be wrong - have been ignoring my repeated requests that they leave me alone to send me harassment. I've clicked block more in two days than I have in over a decade on this website. I've been sent misogynistic slurs, insults about my presumed appearance, and even what seem like thinly veiled threats.
I thought they'd get bored if I didn't respond, but they seem to really like me judging from their non-stop messaging for two days straight! I've experienced online stalking once before, but I've never experienced such a disproportionate response from a total stranger. And over a disagreement about geographical terminology of all things!
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celisibeth Ā· 1 year ago
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I've been doing NaNoWriMo for over a decade (long before I ever got my ADHD diagnosis!) and I've picked a few tricks up along the way that I wanted to share! ā™„ These might not work for everybody, but they work for me, so I hope they can help some other people too ā™”āøœ(Ėƒ įµ• Ė‚ )āø Word Sprints/Wars Word wars and sprints are kinda the same these days, but I'm specifically talking about warring/sprinting with other people! Competition is a good motivator for me so I really only write in wars 99% of the time.
There are Discord bots (sprint-bot etc) to make sprints easier w/ other people. I like to do them for 10 mins, so I can take a break to reset my focus and then go back, but you might like longer!
If you have Scrivener, I like to use the Session Targets goal to set a realistic goal for myself in a sprint, and use that as motivation to write quicker. Fifty Headed Hydra
500 words. 5 minutes. That's all it is. You can do them alone or with other people (competition makes my brain go brrrrr) and if you don't hit the 500, who cares? Words are words!
Five minutes of focus is super easy, and if writing feels like pulling teeth, it's only five minutes - you can go back to whatever is pulling your attention afterwards. Much more palatable than an hour long writing marathon!
Word Crawls
Word crawls are like lots of little writing challenges all packaged up in story format. Longer ones can be helpful and provide enough variation to help you reach higher word counts without feeling like you've been doing it for ages, but shorter ones can help me get tons of words in a shorter timeframe.
There's also self-care crawls if you wind up with bad posture etc, and tons of crawls themed around shows/games/films/etc. The variation in WHY you're writing might be enough to keep your attention! :D
Do writing in tiny chunks
I've never been able to sit down and write for a solid hour. Ever. Too much focus needed, too many distractions available. Pomodoro is a technique for doing X for Y minutes, and then getting a break. Personally I find Pomodoro doesn't work for me, but if I do 5 minutes here, 10 minutes there, another 5... it adds up and I can hit my wordcount goals! āøœ(ļ½”Ėƒ įµ• Ė‚ )āøā™”
There are marathons for 3/5/10 hours that people do, but I always find myself struggling after 10 or so minutes. So, if you want to do a marathon, break it up into chunks if you need to. Allocating a chunk of time and cutting it into 5/10/20 minute blocks can be useful!
ColdTurkey/Distraction blockers
If you could focus for a longer space of time, but get endlessly distracted by social media, Discord, Steam... use software like ColdTurkey to block your access to the distractions!
Many of them can be set up to block access at specific times of day, too, so if habits are something you can build, you can block out an hour each day at the same time to build a habit! ā™„
Body-doubling
Body-doubling is the practice of having someone 'in the trenches' with you, or just... there. You can do them virtually in a Discord call or similar if you don't want to or can't go out in person. This is something I find useful for all aspects of my life, not just writing - having someone working on similar goals as me, at the same time, SUPER USEFUL!
Last but not least...
Leave the inner editor at the door
Don't bother with backspacing. For NaNoWriMo, if you just want the 50k, ignore anything 'wrong'. Add in highlights or big bolded notes to tell yourself it needs redoing after November.
If you find that you absolutely cannot silence the inner editor, there's ways around that! Ilys is a (paid) website that only lets you see the last letter you types. Scrivener (on Mac) apparently has a similar setting to see only the last line etc. You could always set your font size really big, too.
Obviously if you're looking to have a polished manuscript at the end of the month, this might not work for you - but first drafts are meant to just exist, not be perfect, so do whatever works!
I think that's everything for now!! Some of these definitely won't work for everybody but they work for me :> I hope they're useful!
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somedamnfinecoffee Ā· 1 year ago
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a wild sofa appears
more projects in progress I've failed to document, but:
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cat orb approves.
My family are chair people. I've had this dumb IKEA Pƶang chair for decades now, and a rotating supporting cast of others that keep breaking. (Another story there.) So for the last year I've had just a single chair in the middle of the room (the only room), and the bed in the far corner acting as an ertsatz couch.
In retrospect it's a little ridiculous to think I've gone this long with a single armchair and a twin bed as my only furniture, but I think I've got two justifications. First is that I've still been moving around things and unpacking/repacking as I work on projects, and it was hard to visualize what the space deserves. Second is that I'm exceedingly picky, and once you drop a couple grand on a piece, pay to have it delivered, and cajole a family member into dragging it up a flight of stairs, you better damn like it. Not like returning an Amazon order.
Back in February I pilgrimaged to Palm Springs for Modernism Week, and poked around the monthly Vintage Market. One vendor was selling a beautiful Adrian Pearsall style platform sofa, along with a Poul Jensen-style Z-sofa.
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And the price was unbeatable. Until I saw the shipping cost to up here, which came to an additional almost 50%.
And realistically, both are a bit small. A slightly generous loveseat, or a very cozy three-seater. Perfect for my old 500SF apartment (if I didn't have all those chairs). I don't like sitting close to people. I have plenty of room, but not for a sectional.
Locally and online I wasn't seeing anything I was jazzed about for how much things were. Lots of tufts and skirts, bollard arms, pale cream upholstery. Truthfully cleanability is a major priority in, well, all of my decisions. I wanted something on legs I could vacuum under, and cushions I can remove and clean. Not really a fan of leather, being vegetarian. And vinyl is just horrible.
Oh, and I don't like sinking in to a couch. It's all about back angle and height. I like things low and upright. Hence my affinity for the platform sofas.
A few weeks ago we stopped in Kasala, a store that has the distinction of being the only furniture store in Pike Place Market, and additionally the only one I know of with a real local warehouse in-city, partly to poke around, partly to rest after a long day at the market. It was perfect. The color, the wood accent, the steel legs! A little bulky for my tasteā€”I don't care for armrestsā€”but could easily work with a mid-mod or min-mod style.
As I promised the salesperson, I'd go home, have a glass of wine or three, and make a decision. And I accidentally bought three. It wasn't the wine, it was the website freezing up repeatedly, I swear.
The next day I somehow convinced my mother to help, as we frantically rented a van from Home Depot, ran over to the warehouse about a block away, dropped it off across town, and returned the vehicle in the 90-minute window before extra charges kicked in. $15 for DIY delivery was a heck of a deal compared to $200 to have to dumped in the driveway.
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I bought that light years ago and never found a good place for it
As for the bed: I finally ditched my deflated twin I've had since college for a full-size memory foam, selected after literally 4 hours of flopping around the IKEA showroom models. By that point my brain had turned to mush, and rather than choosing my dream danish modern bed frame, I just grabbed a basic steel platform. At least its not going to collapse on me in the middle of the night again. Despite the extra room, the cat still sleeps draped across my neck.
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waynedunlaptheorgandonor Ā· 4 years ago
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can i say a sort of pointless rambly thing i was thinking about that i can't put under the cut bc i'm on mobile?
jk, i'm not actually asking. ramble below, not edited for clarity. the following is completely unclear and i will not fix it:
i've been thinking about how part of the reason i'm so chill about caryl is bc growing up as a queer woc 99% of my main ships were like, never gonna fucking happen bc they literally couldn't. it was like, "omg, they gazed at each other from across the room, let's analyze the homosexual subtext of this one scene for the next fifty years, that's not necessarily hyperbole." i've watched all my ships fuck other ppl/have other love interests, and i knew that my thing was never gonna be canon, so to see like, one thing being like, "one half of my ship fucked another person several years ago while pining for the other half of my ship," i'm like...#nice, bc that can and likely will be used as a plot point to get them together later on, whereas in other situations i've been in i just kinda had to deal with it. so my impulse when i see ppl losing their shit is to be like
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and to be slightly annoyed, tbh, bc the ship is still on track to be canon, and it's like, literally two white heterosexuals, they're prime candidates for juicy angsty pining that actually gets a resolution.
but!
that being said, i recognize that that attitude isn't necessarily fair. for one thing, i'm not the only queer woc (or some variation thereof) in this fandom, and some ppl's impulse might be exasperation instead, bc like, "wtf, even my mayohet ship has dumb fucking drama," and that's valid as hell, and i get it.
and also, i get that, even if you didn't grow up shipping impossible ships (or mulder/scully, bc that's a brand of bullshit all its own), this has been a suuuuper drawn out process where sometimes it feels like they're legit sprinkling crumbs to keep you hooked, just to play you again, and when you are invested in something, like /rly/ invested, especially if it's a form of escapism or hyperfixation or whatever, that can be e x h a u s t i n g. and i get that. i truly do, and while i make a lot of snide comments about the fandom being bonkers, i do get where the bulk of you are coming from (unless you're one of those ppl who hate on actors and esp actresses for just doing their jobs, and attack them on social media, in which case i am very much judging you and you need to get your life together).
i also realize that in the scheme of things i'm still a newbie. i've been here, what, twoish/threeish years, whereas some of you have been here since the beginning, so i'm not as worn out as y'all. but i also think that gives me a bit of objectivity that some of y'all have (understandably) lost.
my positivity is not meant as a sleight against those of you who are feeling negative, but is more of a semi-objective viewpoint (i say semi, bc lbr, i'm invested af in this, so i definitely have bias), and to me the threads of the storyline they're crafting seem sort of obvious.
like, let's look at it, yeah? they have one season left of this show that has been on for over a decade. they need to cater to everyone to give them a satisfying ending, while still hanging on to carylers bc of the spin-off. darylrreah seems like a very calculated move, bc it gives them both something to make abcers happy, while also creating tension and suspense and pining for carylers (i think they might underestimate just how fed up some carylers are tbh, and are banking on us to hang on for one last ride, which, honestly? if they play it right will probably work.)
if they end up doing a dumb love triangle thing, which, without seeing the episode and gauging the subtext i can't confidently say if i think they will or won't, it will ultimately end in our favor. it has to, bc leah isn't going to third wheel them on the bike in the spin-off. we can say with good authority that whatever that relationship ends up being (again, idk if they'll drag it out or not) it will be temporary. which leaves caryl open to ride off into the sunset and then bone down in every state in the united states and in puerto rico for good measure.
it's a lot of cheap drama, but i really and truly do not think it's anything to worry about, and i still really and truly trust kang to not make it out of character. ik ppl still don't agree with me on that point, and i'm not gonna argue, but to me it really does make perfect sense.
and i also predict that they are gonna play it up hardcore in the promotional shit and talking dead, but when that happens, remember it's bc it gets attention. regardless of where the story is ultimately going, relationship drama gets attention, which gets viewers, which gets amc and twd producers nice and comfy with full pockets
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idk. to sum up ig i just wanted to clarify that i don't mean any harm with my relentless positivity. my history in fandom has just made this seem like nothing in comparison, bc while ppl are freaking out, i'm like, "oh damn, they're actually gonna get together by the end of this, aren't they? i didn't know that could happen!" and that makes me excited instead of upset
and you definitely don't have to listen to me. maybe i'm actually wrong. maybe i'm completely full of bullshit and am just good at making things sound confident. i got a lot of As on papers in college over books i never read, i know how to bs. but i also know how to analyze, and i while i will be the first to tell you i am not the best at a great many things, i do know that i am good at critically analyzing text while taking into account the context it was written in, and imho all signs point to canon caryl. when, i'm not entirely sure, but i see it happening. if it doesn't then they severely fucked up their storytelling, and that'd just be bad writing on their part.
(if you want proof that i'm good at reading writers'/producers' intentions, consider that i watched like, 8 seasons of supernatural before giving up, and said to myself, "i think they're gonna make destiel canon, but not until the very last second bc they are rly into catering to their fans but also have to consider their dumb fanboy audience so they can't do anything crazy overtly gay," and guess who hit the nail on the fucking head on that one)
none of this is important, but it was rattling around my mind grapes and i wanted to write it down into something vaguely coherent, and where else better to do it than here. i can word vomit and then send it into the ether and pretend i never said a thing. i love this horrible website, nothing can compare
i have no real conclusion to this, it was mostly stream of consciousness, but i hope it sort of helps y'all understand where i'm coming from, and why i am as chill as i am about things. not about y'all. y'all cause me so much anxiety i get physically sick and have to legit block tags, but with the actual show content i'm zen as hell
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the end ig?
it feels weird even signing off on this, but w/e
-diz
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anxiety-and-fandoms Ā· 2 years ago
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okay, now it's time to get deep on a post about fanfiction
I think, small things like this, really show how much life actually is.
I'm reminded of that post, the one mentioning how if you struggle with saying "I'm beautiful," you can say "I'm the one who feeds my pets" instead.
Because, in truth, simple things like that are really why we continue living. I don't think I would be a good parent because I'm easily stressed and sometimes I'll lash out at others when I'm tired or overwhelmed, but I also am the one who waters the plant by my window, even if I can barely remember what that plant is. I'm the one who soothes my dogs when they're in the car, and I let people borrow my books when they ask, and I write comments on fanfiction I enjoy because I myself struggle with motivation to do something without people, you know, motivating me.
When I used to write on Wattpad, I mentioned that I was a minor on the asexual spectrum. I got a comment from another ace minor, who was excited to know they weren't a freak for being an ace under 18. Earlier on someone asked me if I could write a oneshot for an au they had in mind, and I did, and they loved it. I improved at least two people's lives, even if for less than a minute, by spilling my brainrot about an anime online in the form of a Wattpad fanfiction.
My form of battling my self-hatred and personal anxiety was acting like I was confident. Since I always felt like I was being laughed at, I made myself a jester. Played into the class clown role and was quick to laugh at myself, and never laughed at others. Then, I moved to being someone to complain to, to vent about how stressed you or to rant about people you hate. I turned to probably tons of different masks, different people, and then I turned those masks upside down and fused them with another mask. I started a school year with three friends and ended it with more than I could ever possibly remember.
I was the one who comforted my friends when they were nervous before a play we were putting on. I'm the one who submitted an ask to a complete stranger to ramble about a topic I've never heard of, just because I know they wanted to. I'm the one who listened to an eighth grader complain about their unfair spanish teacher. I'm the one who had a polite conversation with a pro-shipper and reached an agreement that we should just block eachother and move on with our lives, and I'm a person who's main form of intrusive thoughts is anxiety that I'm being a bad person, which everybody says proves how good of a person I really am- or, at least, want to be.
I guess I don't really have a point for this. I never do. But somehow, rambling on and on for no reason has got me over 100 followers on a social media website everybody thinks is dead, an inbox full of fanfiction authors thanking me for commenting, friends in real life who don't find me annoying, and amazingly talented mutuals who submit poetry and bananagrams and art prompts, who have spent at least a second of their lives thinking about me- something I still, to this day, cannot comprehend.
So yes, life sucks, but it's also beautiful. The world is stupid but so are my best friends, and I love them still. All of us will be forgotten someday but right here, right now, we are remembered and cherished and loved by so many people, and maybe, just maybe, the Earth is one of them. Maybe the Earth doesn't want us to die, to hurt, to have to protest in the streets. And maybe the only reason we don't feel loved is because we haven't been able to sit back and realise that all the love we give into this world makes its way back to us somehow.
I don't know if I'll survive this decade, this year, or even tonight: for all I know, I could have a heart attack in my sleep. When I say 'see you next time,' I have no clue if that next time is tomorrow, in months, or in another life. But I want you all to know that I love you, no matter what, and I want you all to love yourselves as well. You all are just as amazing as the fanfiction I've read, and if your lives are simply unfinished stories, I can't wait to see them progress- and even if I'm barely mentioned in the story, I promise I'll follow yours until the very end.
I swore an oath to always leave at least one (1) comment saying what I enjoyed on every fic I like, and recently I added to it so that when that fic is unfinished or part of a series I'll add an extra nice comment and add a little 'can't wait to see the next chapter/part/etc.!' to encourage the writer because I know how it feels to lose motivation for a fic in the middle (or even beginning or end) of writing it and I want to make sure these writers don't follow in my footsteps.
My notifications on ao3 are full of authors thanking me for my comments, and some have even outright said how they may pick up their fic again for me, so I know I'm doing something right.
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