#i've been in agony for like 300 days straight btw

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VRAINS s3 spoilers talk (read more cuz i'm talking to myself at length)

i've really been thinking lately that i put myself in extreme turmoil by watching all of season 3 of VRAINS in one 6 hour sitting

of course, i didn't KNOW it was going to go the route it did. i honestly assumed it was going to be more like a catastrophe (similar to the Tower of Hanoi? or Bohman?) major event threatening LINK VRAINS type of thing. i don't know, i was always seeing vague spoiler fanart that i couldn't understand that led me to think it may be in some kind of ruin, or about Cyberse World. why would i always see so much sadness in the fan works? i was just confused about what simulations were ever mentioned, too.

i couldn't have even come close to predicting about Ai's suffering. or, even that he would be an enemy at all. seeing Yusaku selfishly believe in Ai even when everyone else was quick to be his enemy in return, it's just painful. the first time Yusaku gets to see Ai smile is when he's so far away. why... and the reasons why are too much to bear all the time. it's way to heavy

i went through every emotion possible, the highs and the lows, and haven't recovered even 10 months later. i'm a mess— though, having Duel Links to ease my pain with reunion trailer right away really did help. except some people really waited 3 YEARS for any closure. you are too strong

that being said, i want to redraw my first VRAINS aiyusa picture in October when it's been 1 year for me since episode 120 lol. this love story really got me bad for a whole 10 months straight and every day i am thinking About Those Characters...