#i've barely slept this week

[buglaur]

i'm so excited for the new packs features i had to build something from scratch for the first time ever. can't wait to play with row houses omfggg

[phantaloon]

i cant stop thinking about like apart from lore wise, what this means in a more mental / psychological interpretation

bc like the entirety of trench and the dema story, it's all been about learning to fight your demons, about learning how to overcome and how to stand up after falling and how to find a way to keep going

in trench it was fighting, finding purpose, finding that strength and that spark to cope in a way

sai was all about distractions, about faking it til you make it, about well if i tell myself everythings okay everything is going to be okay, only for it to end in the same themes blurryface had going on kinda, with fear and anxiety and grief for the things you've lost, of losing more, of losing yourself

and with clancy, those themes about anxiety and fear and depression are stronger than they were in trench even, clancy is about falling back into patterns you thought you left behind and struggling to get back on track, but ultimately knowing that you had a support network, that you weren't alone, that you can start fresh and push on through and that you have people who love you on the other side

and then the end of paladin strait happened

you're back in the hands of fear, of insecurity, of anxiety, but this time you're going to take those feelings and claim them back and you're not going to bend for them anymore

but then

putting things into real world words, what does the line and the theories of clancy becoming a bishop truly mean?

it can't be that you are now the one who causes insecurity and fear and anxiety, can it? bc then what would be the point

i dont really participate much in dema lore talks bc honestly im quite behind on it, but still, it doesn't really make sense, for the end of it to mean that it's now us who are in the place of the bishops, that its now us who will inflict these feelings

and really, with the theories of clancy becoming a bishop booming lately, i genuinely thought oh this is going to be a situation where clancy is in power, and he's going to change things, he's going to preach about better things, essentially doing tylers role irl

so like, for me it symbolizes getting to a point where you're replacing old people of power with bigoted and old fashioned and hurtful ways of thinking and doing and speaking, with these ideals of respect and resilience and self love and just you know, everything twenty one pilots stand for

but with the line, it feels as if whatever clancy is becoming, it's not something the object of the song is particularly proud of

its not something about winning and persevering

its about giving in, about apologizing for not being able to make it, about settling for the path of least resistance

its regretful and sorrowful and grieving

so what does that mean for clancy? what does that mean for us?

[aquareegia]

putting on sleep token to fall asleep to. sing to me beautiful music man. vessel my beautiful cryptid man with the voice of an angel, pls help me sleep. 🙏😭

[mariyekos]

Thoughts on the new DMC trailer?

Going to be honest I haven't watched any trailers since the trailer at the Game Awards (or whichever one I have those 2 breakdown posts for) 😅 I keep seeing the trailer announcements when I don't have my headphones on me, and I've been behind on watching them once I have the time... maybe tomorrow I'll finally get to watching them! Tonight I'm dead tired so I don't think I'd be in much of a good mood and I don't want to start off on the wrong foot, so to speak. When I watch them I can make a write up on it though! Would probably be fun.

[majoris]

hi hello im just gonna complain in the tags so don't worry about that hope you're having a nice time a good day cozy soft day to you my friend ✨

[pandaemoanium]

i have a day off and was really looking forward to finally getting some proper rest, guess whose next door neighbors started drilling and doing construction at 8am :)

[dbphantom]

How its been going if I'm being quite honest

[the-casbah-way]

part of me wishes i could go home and rest and eat something and then start up writing again after but i know that this will in fact completely break whatever is left of my resolve and i will not get out of bed again until monday

[meatmatician]

i'm just a totally normal guy (currently spiralling because i haven't gotten a shift for work yet for the second day in a row and it's making me feel sick)

[third-doctor]

Me, talking about myself: I love it when men are pathetic

[cosmicstarlatte]

bleh, exhausted as hell but I had fun last night, went bowling with friends to celebrate a birthday.♡

anyway I hope to post my kinktober/flufftober plans this weekend. Probably tomorrow evening or sunday. 😵‍💫

I might've (did) strayed from the original plan but I hope my lil stuff is something to look forward to ^^'

[youremyonlyhope]

Me last night at 3am: I'm gonna wake up early tomorrow. Or at least earlier. I'm gonna get this sleep schedule somewhat under control!

Me at 10am: *Wakes up. Snoozes my alarm for 2 hours*

Me at 12pm: Well. Getting out of bed at 12 is better than 2 like yesterday.

Me from 5pm to about 7pm: *takes a nap in an armchair*

Me right now at 4am: God why am I not sleepy yet?

[frogdadskeleton]

Horny and self-destructive

[rainybraindays]

Lol!! Lmao even!!

[franchufeuillassier]

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[meatmatician]

see the thing is. the problem is.......... that if you have any sort of mental or physical disability that makes having a job difficult and yet you still HAVE A JOB. is that no matter how great that is for you in however way you want to see it as Great....... there will always be people who look at it and go "you're not working hard enough" "you need to work more hours/more days a week" "you're just being lazy" because their version of Great and Something to Be Proud Of is not the same as yours

and what also sucks is that very very often that person saying all those things is also yourself