#i'm well aware most of this won't happen especially the FA stuff

[shinylitwick94]

The Rings of Power wishlist

I feel like I should get my thoughts on this out here before the marketing campagin really kicks up, so I can be proven wrong almost immediately.

This is just my list of moments and events from the First and Second Ages that I’d like to see in the Rings of Power show.

I’m assuming the FA stuff will be in flashback form and therefore quite limited.

First Age

1. The Darkening of Valinor

2. The Flight of the Noldor (Oath of Fëanor, Alqualondë, the Prophecy of the North)

3. Fingon rescuing Maedhros

4. Finrod meeting Men for the first time

6. Fingolfin vs Morgoth

6. Nirnaeth Arnoediad

7. Beren and Luthien (the meeting, the Finrod v Sauron rap battle, Lúthien’s songs before Morgoth and before Mandos, all of it really)

8. Túrin’s first meeting with Glaurung

9. The Sack of Doriath (both rounds)

10. The Fall of Gondolin (Tuor’s arrival, Glorfindel v Balrog, Idril’s escape, Turgon’s death!)

11. Ëarendil’s journey to Valinor

12. Snapshots of the War of Wrath (Ëarendil v Ancalagon, the arrival of the Host of Valinor, Morgoth getting chained, Sauron’s fake repentance)

Second Age

1. Elros Tar-Minyatur!

2. Annatar in Eregion and the forging of the rings

3. Aldarion and Erendis

4. The Fall of Eregion (Celebrimbanner, the fall of Khazad-dum)

5. Sauron’s surrender to Ar-Pharazon 

6. Sauron’s corruption of Númenor

7. The Numenorean armada setting sail towards Valinor

8. The Downfall of Númenor (again all of it, the clouds and thunder, Sauron on the pinnacle of the temple, Miriel desperately trying to climb up Meneltarma, etc)

9. Isildur stealing a sapling of the tree

10. Gil-Galad and Elendil v Sauron

11. Galadriel and Celeborn (whichever version, so long as we get one!)

[symptoms-syndrome]

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LMFAO this combo is so reminiscent of emo DeviantArt LOL

Anyway putting this one under a spoiler just bc I feel weird abt parts info being Out in the Open IDK

🖤 - How many alters do you have? Can you tell me about them?

If I knew for sure the number I think I'd be happier. Around 5-6 "frequent fronters," 3-4 frequently around younger parts, and around 2-3 parts that solely exist in a very sad sort of fashion are the parts around the most/I have the most knowledge about.

I often find it difficult to talk about parts especially when they're not around and I'm worried about offending, so I'll do what I can about the parts I'm familiar with enough to know I won't anger/upset them with what I say.

Seba is the "resident cool guy," or so he's been called/has taken as a moniker. He used to be very antagonistic, but he also used to see himself as a separate entity from like, the Us. Now he's mostly mellow but can still have a sort of biting attitude. I associate him with black cats a lot, and leather. Random fact is that he's the only one I know of in-sys who uses a lot of shorthand (u instead of you, etc) and sometimes I can tell who he's been fronting with based on how much resistance there seems to be against it haha. Like "this is for u" is evidence of more resistance than "this 4 u." Some parts when around with him don't take issue with shorthand but some do. I don't think anyone but Seba on his own would type something like "this 4 u."

Tomas is generally also laid back but friendlier than Seba. But he can get stressed out a lot easier. He and I (S) co-con semi often? Seba and I too. He can be hard to describe, but maybe that's because he's here with me and likes to be humble :/ He's very hard-working, I can say that, he gets a lot of stuff done. I associate him with wolves, forests, and "knight" sorts of things, but I don't think any outsider would. Those are things I just know he likes. He and Hess both are "clean for stress relief" people haha. I also didn't know until an "inner-world" focused therapy session a few months (?) ago, but he seems to be very good with kids.

Hess (formerly referred to as H here, Hess is a new nickname Seba came up with that feels more comfortable than her full name) is very nurturing, caring, loving and motherly. She's generally very collected and is very good at calming us down if we get to spiraling. She's very encouraging which is nice. She's the only part I know of in my sys that can "manifest" by way of physical sensation? Like sometimes I can feel her hand on my shoulder or something like that. She rarely fronts alone for some reason. It's happened before, just not very often.

Mimi has been sort of loud on this blog and in spaces where I/we feel okay being "open," she's possibly the most okay with that sort of thing and enjoys announcing herself the most. So I feel if one is familiar with any part on this blog it's probably her. She's very excitable and supportive, very girly, and loves having fun and spending time with people. She can be a little impulsive but usually with good intent. She really cares about others, which is very sweet of her. Not to say that the rest of us don't, she just seems to go above and beyond with it compared to most of us.

Jay is very serious and I honestly don't know as much about him as I wish I did. He's mostly the one who journals, he holds a lot of parts information, and seems very...serious? He's far less social than any of us, even though a lot of us tend to be "parallel play" types anyway.

Aslan is the primary "kid" part that's around the most, as well as the only one I'm aware of not directly tied to trauma stuff which is nice. He can be really refreshing to be around because he's generally very upbeat and very curious about the world around him.

I (S) like to think of myself as pretty outgoing, and friendly. It can be really hard to talk about yourself. Maybe someone else will talk about me later. I like playing games and stuff but that's far from unique of me among the sys.

I feel like in general, only a few parts (Seba, Tomas and Mimi) front alone for longer than a little while. Most of the time there's more than one person around and I think that meshing can sometimes trick my brain into thinking there's more parts than there are. Like I might mistake Mimi + Aslan both being around for a whole diff part because it won't be fully Mimi or fully Aslan. But IDK. In general our amnesia can be prettyyy high. It's not unusual for me to have stuff happen and have absolutely no idea who did it.

Also for obvious reasons I didn't list parts I feel are heavily connected to Bad Things/Feelings. Or parts who like, I wouldn't know what they would think of me writing about them.

Whew that got long LOL

💔 - How does your system get along?

Hmm. Generally, I feel for the most part a lot of us have come to terms with the "we're all in this together" sort of thing, but aren't always on the same page about it. I don't think there's a lot of open antagonism, but there's definitely frustration with each other sometimes. Like, if you've ever tried to build furniture with someone, you both have the same goal but can frustrate each other and get in each other's ways unintentionally. Like some parts really need their alone time and some really need social time, so there can be frustration when a part either agrees to or cancels a social event and ends up not being around for whatever it was they agreed to or cancelled.

If I had to point out the "worst" vibe, I would say there's a fair amount of anger and sadness, but I feel a lot of it is generally towards the idea of being dissociative than it is towards each other. Like how someone might get really frustrated or upset about living in an apartment with neighbors who vacuum while you're trying to nap. You're not angry at the neighbors, you just don't like living in an apartment. That's kinda how I feel a lot honestly, and I would venture to say many in my sys feel the same.

There are definitely parts that are still openly antagonistic or hateful, but they're generally very trauma-stuck parts and I think they're more just lashing out at whatever feels within reach than they actually have beef with anyone in particular. That's perhaps me just self-therapy-ing though. Maybe some of them aren't trauma-stuck. I probably would've said the same about Seba 5-10 years ago, when he was very mean. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

TLDR would be. I think that the majority of my struggles with DID are more related to being dissociative and having a system than they are the parts themselves/ourselves. For the most part.