#i'm weirdly embarrassed to be sharing a link to this

[multi-lefaiye]

Chapters: 1/3 Fandom: Tales From the Gas Station - Jack Townsend Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Antonio | Carlos/Jack Townsend Characters: Antonio | Carlos (Tales From the Gas Station), Jack Townsend, Jeremy "Jerry" Pascal, Rosa Vasquez (Tales From the Gas Station), Amelia O'Brien (Tales From the Gas Station), Spencer Middleton, Original Characters Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe - Different First Meeting, Trans Jack Townsend, Trans Male Character, Pre-Relationship, Pining, Secret Identity, Canon-Typical Violence Series: Part 1 of Behind the Trigger AU Summary:

Antonio Vargas’s first day at the gas station went a little something like this.

He showed up right on time at 6:30 a.m. on Monday, clean and presentable. He did his shift dutifully, though he didn't make much in the way of conversation, and at the end of the day, he went home. All in all, it was a completely normal first day for a completely normal man.

Of course, nothing stays normal at the gas station for long.

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h-hey gamers,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, this is the thing i wrote, if any of y’all are interested

the rating is for later violence and not sexual content, but still tread lightly if you’re concerned about that!!! do what is best for you

[theokusgallery]

I wonder what's their relationship with their siblings. (referring to Nick and Sunny)

Also...Will there be Mari, Aubrey, Kel, and Hero?... I wonder if you're going to add them or not (hhshjsjs I'm getting a little bit *too* curious)

Interesting question ! I was literally continuing a WIP about Nick and Statice's (Nick's sister) realtionship as I saw this ask, lol. (No link with the picture above, I just drew that one for fun). I was also just talking about them extensively in Tosteur's server, sooooo...

Statice and Nick love each other very much. They grew up constantly around one another, and since their parents weren't always around, they always had to stick with each other and play with each other... They basically only had each other for most of their childhood. So they stick together.

Now, I can't remember if I've ever talked about it here, but Arsenic wasn't really liked by other people as a kid (and that hasn't really changed). He's weird, he's queer, he's mean (socially incompetent), etc etc. Statice, on the other hand, is a lot more normal than he is. They're identical twins, so they were in the same grade growing up, and when they made friends, it was usually together. But every friend they made always, consistently preferred Statice to Nick.

That's not to say Statice doesn't have her fair share of "weirdness", but when it came from her as opposed to Nick, kids around them didn't mind it as much. Like, sure, Nick was into boys, and that was weird and creepy and embarrassing to other kids, but... not only does Statice also like guys, she's trans. Weirdly enough, Nick was ostracised for being queer a lot more than Statice was.

Nick and Statice are very, very close. They spent 99% of their time together, growing up, shared a room, went to the same schools, in the same classes, they still go to the same university (though they don't study the same thing). They share a lot of things and know each other very well. But they have... unaddressed issues and built up resentment on Nick's part, and judgement on Statice's part. S o it's not exactly perfect.

I feel like it's important to note that Statice is the one and only person that Nick doesn't have an unhealthy power dynamic with. She's quite literally the only person that Nick is an okay guy around.

(She's also Sunny's best friend, so you can imagine how that goes when Sunny and Nick get together -- while Statice disapproves of it very much because she knows exactly how much of a creepy piece of shit Nick is :)...)

--Sunny and his sister Mari were also very close growing up. After growing up, though, they kind of drifted apart as Mari moved away for college and Sunny started seeing flaws in her that he... hadn't really wanted to see before, because he idealized her as a kid. They talk sometimes, and they still love each other, and they have an okay relationship, but they're not nearly as close as Nick and Statice are. Sunny kind of gets jealous of them for that sometimes.

I'm not actually sure if i want to add Kel or Hero or Aubrey to the story or not. There's a third friend in Sinny and Statice's friend group that's essential to the storyline, and I'm not opposed to making them Kel or Aubrey, but I haven't thought about them too much, so I don't know yet. Might make 'em an OC. I was hesitating on making Sunny's sibling an OC as well, but the characterization/role I was planning for them ended up being taken by Statice (who I actually care about and think about a lot), so I don't mind it being Mari. Hero is in the story by virtue of being Mari's boyfriend in every universe (/ref), but he has no role or purpose. Imagine he's standing in the background if you so wish

[starryjkoo]

https://www.tumblr.com/starryjkoo/764086905378881536/httpswwwtumblrcomstarryjkoo76407096882620006?source=share

I'm just reading this now since i was inactive (going again) so I'm replying now (not saying you were waiting for my reply but I'm the same anon who's ask this was 😅)

I don't really have anything to add other than I agree with everything you said there. i know all those accounts you're talking about, i even know the "random taekook" account you said there without u mentioning their @ because guess what? been there done that kinda..i saw that tkkr saying all those "Just because i follow TK biased doesn't mean I'm tkkr" this that bs when 99% tweets are about TK and them following all sort of tkkrs ones that drag jm too lol. and their little ot7 followers backing up them..idk who they're trying to fool as if we can't smell a trash from miles away 😭

being honest u don't need to be chronically online to see what is the shit that's going on in Fandom or How it's filled with Tkkrs. a newly entered fan can tell it's full of Tkkrs so idk what pleasure others get by Lying saying TK are most hated in Fandom (just Today i saw those tweets with thousands of likes).

What pisses me off tho is ot7 jkkrs acting like many of the armys don't hate jm deep down. saying "They're hating on jm so they're not army" is such a bs thing to say and literally big jkk blogs here say that but ask them why they generalize solos because there's good solos too who just support one member in peace without dragging anyone but nope for them "If you stan only one member then you're an anti" like who gets to decide that? You? and who are you? their logic is just as useless as kpopies to me. You're the only jkkr who even talked about all the things happening with jm others are too ot7s to even address those things. Them saying that Fandom majorly doesn't dislike jm because of TK as a ship is funny because the same Fandom was seen begging Tkkrs for help when taehyung and Jennie's video was leaked but sure.

Hope the deserved people gets their karma back is all i can hope for now because i know for a fact that things are going to get worse in future Especially with what's going on with hybe and tkkrs loser ass Linking all of that to "jm is company's fav and they force Jkk" shit.

hi anon! no I’m happy to hear from you again, it makes me feel more sane to see people with the same opinions on some of this lol 😭

Yeah, that one account who just makes corny tkk shipping jokes and is very clearly an actual tkkr but you had half of ARMYtwt coming to their defense because they were all part of the same clique and most of them are “tk-biased”. They were laughing saying that using a duo name doesn’t mean you’re a shipper but when people were pulling up screenshots of them literally reading AUs they would just deflect lmao 😭 It’s just embarrassing.

And yeah I saw that too, a big and popular account talking about tkk being the most hated 🥴 just the audacity to say that, as if we don’t all have eyes and see the absurd amount of followers and engagement tkk accounts have on EVERY platform. And I could write a thesis on the absolute obsession ARMYs have w/ a tk-subunit just proving how deeply enmeshed the tkk shipping bias is in this fandom. And talking about the fandom hating a duo, I could write another thesis on how ARMYs are insanely weird towards Jikook, like damn AYS just drove that home for me.

Yeah, the hardcore OT7 jkkrs who deny that the fandom treats Jimin weirdly are just bizarre to me. Literally right now there’s discourse going on about US streams and you can find multiple hit tweets where they are straight up shading and attacking Jikook up and down in the comments, especially JM (they’re for sure getting nastier towards JK about this but some of them can at least concede that he has GP/popularity, but for some reason the bulk of ARMYs think that w/ JM it must be favoritism bc in their minds they decided that tkk were miles ahead of him in popularity despite his solo music ALWAYS performing the best or second best in the group). Like throw a dart at a board and you can find a random reason that ARMYs resent JM, whether it be over associating him with his solos the most (literally HYBE saw and marked this as a problem??) to just the fact that ARMYs are literally full of tkkrs who ALWAYS resent him on some level. Bizarre for jkkrs of ALL people to try and deny this as hard as some of them do? (and like I said I’m not saying JM is the only member who gets weird treatment from ARMYs sometimes, but he for sure gets it the most by virtue of tkkrs being as big as they are if nothing else. There are still tons of ARMYs who love him tho obviously).

And 100% on some jkkrs/ARMYs trying to say that people who hate JM aren’t ARMY to wash their hands of the issue. It’s literally not true because half the people shading him consider themselves ARMYs, a lot of tkkrs consider themselves ARMYs, ARMYs literally make up the following and likes of toxic tkk accounts, so what are they even talking about? That attitude is literally why it got so bad and we are where we are. Like just say you don’t care about Jimin and go I guess.

It's like we can be fandom critical and still care about/be a part of the fandom, this is the way it's been for me and literally any community I’ve ever been a part of? If you care about something you want to make it better which means looking inward and trying to identify and fix the problems. I get there’s a fine line between being critical and “victimizing” and “solo narratives” and “manti narratives” but c’mon, we can use critical thinking to differentiate, yeah? Because not every fandom/company complaint makes you a “solo” or “manti”. Just insane to me.

There’s so many issues with hardcore OT7 logic that we could get into tbh, but you’re right in that there’s nothing wrong with liking only one or two members as long as you’re not hating on the others. And tbh there’s nothing wrong with not liking and supporting all of them equally when isn’t it just normal to have preferences and to stream the music you enjoy the most? And just a note, the funny thing is that a good chunk of ARMYs who complain about this ARE pretty heavily biased, they just don’t want to admit it, even to themselves. And that’s one of the reasons diet-solos emerge and are so prevalent in the fandom right now.

I think the karma is definitely the fandom falling apart at the seams right now (even though sadly good people are getting punished for it). It’s toxic as hell in ARMY spaces, good ARMYs have left in droves, our charting is not great for non-Jikook (part of this I just blame on HYBE and their bad strategy of relying wholly on the fandom, or maybe it’s some of the members strategy tbf, but whoever decided, it wasn’t a good idea). I mean, I guess we’ll see what happens when BTS return, maybe more people will return and things will improve/stabilize somewhat but I also don’t think there’s really ever going back to how things were in the fandom either. Plus BTS are going to focus on group work for a minute, but it’s never going to be the same rate as pre-CH2, the solo careers are here to stay and we have no idea what the actual balance of solo/group/subunit work will be yet. I guess we’ll see but at least we know the karma is that JM antis and tkkrs are like the most miserable jobless people on the planet and JM is happy and healthy and wealthy and loved, so there’s that if nothing else. Stantwt in general just full of miserable losers.

Anyways sorry for yapping so much again lmao, I resonate with you on all these issues, I could go on forever about some of this lol so I’ll stop. And for sure, it would be nice for more jkkrs to talk about this kind of stuff tbh, at least the ones who are active in the fandom. And yeah the situation with the HYBE leaks and how they’re already doing the most to twist and start another smear campaign on JM and jkk, just insane 🫠 you know if solo fights were just name-calling it wouldn’t be as much of an issue, I don’t feel like some people understand the kind of damage these groups are doing and the lengths they go to. But we will just keep streaming and supporting and doing our best I guess 😭 same old same old, always something insane happening.

[aseriesofunfortunatejan]

You've probably explained it before because I remember rbing back and forth about it on one of my other accounts, but I've long since forgotten. Out of curiosity, is it okay for me to ask why you wouldn't classify Cutthroat as a yandere?

I don't think I've explained it before? Or if I have, I don't remember.

Of course, I'm not the abritrer of all things, but I personally don't think Cutthroat actually fits the bill as a yandere. I understand the similarities and why he appeals to yandere fans - and of course I have no issue with that, or having him mentioned in correlation to that, I just personally don't think that term is a good fit for him.

Of course I have to acknowledge my bias here that it's not my personal preference to use the term yandere in general. In my personal experience, it was like... One of those terms that I gave a lot of importance to when I was aged 12 and discovering anime, but nowadays using it as part of my regular vocabulary would feel embarrassing. It's a completely personal hang up, I don't think there's an age limit for using that word, that's just how it presents itself to me with my own experience. So I have a very neutral view of the word yandere: I may interest myself in its history, it's baseline definition(s), its iconic characters, etc., but I'm not interacting with people who care about yandere characters so I don't know what is generally accepted, where the lines are drawn, etc., in that fandom. Does that make sense? I'm looking at it from a "I know it but I'm not in the fandom" point of view.

The way I understand and view yandere characters is the baseline "this character presents as sweet and affective to their person of interest, but plot twist! They're a sicko [...]!" I see how Cutthroat shares traits with that, with his weirdly cutesy attitude in contrast to the violence exhibited in Episode 9, and his attachment to Swindler the entire way through. But the thing with Cutthroat that makes him not a yandere in my opinion is the complete lack of plot twist.

Of course there's the tiniest plot twist when it turns out oh, he's really doing it. But what I mean is that Cutthroat is introduced as a serial killer. That is even his name in the original dub. He kills and exhibits violence the entire way through. Moreover, there's no "complete switch in personality" normally exhibited by yandere characters: Cutthroat isn't being all sweet and making cookies for Swindler, only to reveal he can also be completely violent; he's ALWAYS a weirdo. He's ALWAYS the way that he is. He's a little childish and creepy from Episodes 1 through 8 and he continues to behave childishly and of course creepily in Episode 9.

Cutthroat, to me, isn't a yandere character. He's a serial killer character.

I don't know exactly what his deal is... But that's just who he is, and it's pretty plain. I don't think I'm giving a sufficiently thorough explanation of it, but to me he's missing the base of what makes a yandere a yandere. He may have traits in common with them, but he doesn't have the yandere personality, nor the yandere intent. He's just a killer waiting for the right moment to kill his prey. Like the man is a literal predator, not a yandere archetype.

Again I understand that he fits multiple key points that are likely to be attractive to fans of yandere archetypes. (Like literally the intense lover who's a violent murderer is a popular trait of the yandere, even if not the only one.) And for tagging purposes I understand how it makes sense to just put him in that category, especially if you're a fan of the yandere archetype and are going to expand on that in your writing. But if you ask me to cite a character who's a yandere I won't say Cutthroat. I guess I tend to mention it because I wonder if anyone else understands my very specific vision of "having dabbled in a little bit of yandere in the past".

One last aspect is that the yandere archetype is very much linked to women characters. In my opinion for a man character to be considered a yandere he would need to fit the bill very well. I genuinely think its history as a trope for women is way too important to be ignored. I don't think an untrustworthy and violent serial killer guy deserves to be called a yandere too easily because there are many interesting reasons why that archetype was created for girls. Etc. etc.

Thanks for asking though! I was thinking someone may ask me about that soon honestly asjsjaian

[kimbap-r0ll]

Hiya! A good friend reccomended your blog and I love your work! I would like to participate in your event and get two romantic TWST matchups please! I don't really have any preferences but I would NOT like to be matched with any of the staff members if that's alright! :]

— I'd like to think that I'm a very sociable and outgoing person. Contrary to most people that I tend to associate with, I really enjoy social situations where I get to mingle and expand my circle of friends. On that note, I have a lot of acquaintances but I don't have many people that I'm particularly close with, and of the people that I am really close with they tend to be the more reserved and introverted type. Personally, I'm very intimidated by people who are very extroverted like me and I tend to have closer relationships with people who can mellow out my energetic disposition

— Speaking of bring energetic, boy am I hyper. Especially since I'm very extroverted and get my energy by socializing. This is definitely not helped by the fact that I have a huge sweet tooth. I have scared my friends on one occasion with the amount of sugar and sweeteners I put in my tea. Sweets are among my favorite foods, as i enjoy cakes, crepes, icecreams, and bite sized candies the best! But I'm not picky and I can really go for anything as long as it's sweet.

— I'm also an extremely affectionate person, but weirdly enough I get very shy and flustered when it's reciprocated. I really like linking arms, holding hands, and cuddling though not necessarily in a romantic sense. Due to my less than average height (4'10" to be exact) I've also been told that I give great hugs. I'm not shy when it comes to giving random gifts and spur of the moment compliments, but I turn into an absolute mess when the affection is reciprocated.

— With that being said, one thing that I have noticed is that I often make fun of and playfully tease the people I've had romantic feelings for. We tend to banter, but it never escalates into genuine bickering. I'm not sure why that is, but I'm guessing it's because it displays a level of trust and comfort. Since we're both comfortable with taking light jabs at eachother and trusting eachother to not take any offense.

— In terms of hobbies, I play videogames and i draw on the side. It was my dream to be an artist as a kid but due to parental expectations I lost hope of that coming true so its more or less just a hobby. Over the years I've become progressively more embarrassed about said hobby, but I'm trying to become more confident in my abilities to draw (since I've been honing them for so long). I do have a passion for teaching and tutoring though, and I might go somewhere with that. I'm not exactly gifted in terms of academics but I am very hard working and I love being able to share some of my own personal study tips alongside reviewing the curriculum. I have dabbled into the world of theater as well!

Anyways, I think that's all. Please let me know if there's anymore information you'd like me to add! And again, congrats on 100 followers! :D

Hello! Thank you for the request! There’s a lot of characters that I see matching with you, but the people that I see going best with you are...

1.Trey

If you love sweets, this is the man for you. He loves baking, especially for others, and seeing you happy whenever he makes something for you makes him melt. He might offer to bake together on some dates, imagine how cute that would be! He probably says something cheesy like “it’s sweet because I made it with love” or something like that to make you all flustered haha. Be expected to be invited to unbirthday parties if you aren’t part of the Heartslabyul house, and Riddle will like your company too since he’s close friends with Trey.

He likes how outgoing you are, but also loves the fact that you like the more peaceful alone times that you have with him. He’s never been the most extroverted, so the two of you match vibes very well.

If you tease him, he won’t stop you, but he will definitely tease you back. It gets worse when you realize how tall he is, and he definitely loves to make you all flustered by doing things like kabedon as a counterattack to your teasing. He definitely finds it cute that your so small compared to him, and loves the kinds of hugs you give. Either way it’s very cute to see the two of you tease each other.

He admires your art and thinks that you tutoring is so sweet. He thinks that you’re so kind of helping people in academics, but he also likes how you balance it out with your hobbies. He wants to draw with you if he can, but he would be embarrassed at how his drawings always end up looking like chicken scratch haha.

He loves you for who you are, and you are definitely the sweetest thing in his life.

2. Floyd

Man, this guy is honestly all over the place but somehow he vibes so well with you. He loves giving hugs and overall is big in pda, so he loves that your hugs are so good. He will make you a flustered mess all the time because of this. One time, he probably spotted you in the hallway and just ran to you with his arms open, tackling you into a tight hug. Did I mention he likes seeing you get flustered? He’s just as big of a tease as his twin brother is, so be prepared for a lot of times where your face feels like its burning.

He isn’t big in video games, but I can see him interested in watching you. He would want to join if it’s a game like Smash Bros or so, but he absolutely loves how hardworking you are. It’s something he was drawn to when first meeting Azul, so it was likely a similar thing when he saw you too. He likes seeing you focused when he’s trying to distract you from the side. He also really likes to watch you draw, it calms him. Don't worry about being embarrassed about drawing next to him, he just loves the things that you make. If you ever gift something to him in the form of an artwork, he will tightly squeeze you (in a nice way) and show it off to Azul and Jade for sure. He will definitely keep the art and make it a permanent resident in his room.

The two of you are very social, so you guys would probably be very chatty at first, but then as time goes by you guys are fine just sitting in silence together. He has two sides and he flip flops between them a lot, so he totally gets how you can be both extroverted and introverted at the same time.

He thinks that the height difference is really cute too, similar to Trey. Will absolutely tease you about this.

Overall, he finds you exciting to be around, and will pick you up on random occasions because he thinks you’re so cute.

[doexoeyes]

Of Finches & Firsts

Ok so here’s a fic I actually have on Wattpad and AOO3 but I decided to bring over here. On those sites I wrote a character for this story, but on here it’s gonna be Draco x Reader ♡ Only thing to note is that your last name in this story would be Finch (so to make sense of the title and some other little parts of the story) as well as you’re a Hufflepuff. Sorry to the other houses,I adore you all but Draco and a Hufflepuff is just to juicy to pass up (in the first book he literally say’s they’re the worst) so just trust me when I tell you that it’s all for the story. Anyways I hope you enjoy and if you’re interested in reading the original, here are the links:

Archive Of Our own link:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/26707513

Wattpad link:

https://my.w.tt/ZoUHpu1e59

Summary: "A Hufflepuff? Crushing on a Slytherin? Sounds like the start of a terrible joke to me, but ok." You’ve harbored feelings for Draco Malfoy since your first year at Hogwarts. Secretly, of course, and very much from afar. But when you’re finally taken out of your role of being a background character in his life, will it be what you always wanted, or what you wish you never knew?

         Chapters

Chapter 1 ♡ Chapter 2

Chapter 1: The Firsts Of Many

The first time you ever saw Draco Malfoy was at the sorting hat ceremony your first year at Hogwarts. You thought he was striking upon first sight, with his silver grey eyes contrasting with his nearly white hair. You knew he would leave a lasting impression upon whoever looked at him, and you very much envied him for it. You felt like you were as plain a Jane as they came, especially when compared to him. You couldn't keep your eyes off of him for the rest of the night, drawn to, not just his features, but the mysterious aura that surrounded him.

When your name had gotten called for the sorting, you were incredibly nervous for many reasons:

1. For the house you were going to be sorted into that would shape your life for the next 7 years.

2. For the several hundreds of eyes watching you go up the steps.

3. For the white haired boy who you seemed to have developed the tiniest little crush on.

Thankfully, you made it up without tripping and making a complete fool of yourself and were pleasantly surprised to find out that the house you'd be sorted into was:

"Hufflepuff," the storing hat declared, and a thunderous applause followed suit.You smiled, looking towards the table with the yellow cladded students as they cheered and waved you over. You couldn't wait to tell your father, who was a proud Hufflepuff himself, that you were now one, too.

When it's Draco's turn to be sorted, you made sure to pay very close attention. A small silly part of you wanted to cross your fingers and hope that he'd somehow be sorted into Hufflepuff just like you.

Of course, that was a very optimistic wish.

"Slytherin," the hat announced, and all those hopes quickly came tumbling down because if there was one house you knew you weren’t going to be able to fit in with, it was Slytherin.

There went your chances of being potentially noticed by Draco Malfoy.

Letting out a sigh, you were able to manage a small smile as you clapped for the boy along with the rest of your fellow schoolmates.

You spent the entire year making new friends, learning spells, studying up for exams, and never having the opportunity to talk to Draco, your only regret of the year.

For Draco, his first year at Hogwarts consisted of him developing the reputation of being the school's bully. Most of his antics we concentrated heavily on Harry Potter and his friends, but he truly didn't spare anyone that wasn't a part of his Slytherin crew.

Still, this didn't lessen the small crush you had on him since the day of the sorting. Despite his actions, you really felt that the boy was much more than what he projected to the world.

The first time you ever got to talk to Draco Malfoy was during your second year, when you had accidentally run into him as you rushed to your potions class.

You were too busy worrying about making it in time to class, really not wanting a reason to make Snape chastise you, that you had forgotten to pay attention to your surroundings. A disastrous recipe for running into someone, which was exactly what ended up happening.

"Hey!" he said with a grunt as his books fell from his hands.

You, mortified, hardly even noticed it was Draco at first, as you immediately leaned down to pick up his books.

"Oh I'm so sorry! I'm a complete klutz. I should've been paying more attention, I just-" as you got back up from the floor, books recovered & in your arms, you froze as your eyes made contact with his striking silver ones.

"Yeah, you definitely should have! Next time, try not to run into your superiors, first year," he said in distaste, brushing off the sleeves of his robe.

You stood there, shocked into silence, feeling your cheeks warm and mentally trying to coach yourself through the moment.

Take a breath, don't sound so nervous.

"A-actually, we're in the same year. I...umm...I first saw you at the sorting, but we had History of Magic together. I sat a row ahead of you," you corrected, biting your lip.

He tore his gaze away from his sleeves and locked eyes with you again, a chill going down your spine.

"Really? Strange. I don't remember you. Then again, you Hufflepuffs are so forgettable," he stated with a roll of his eyes. 

"I'll take those," he said as he grabbed the books from your hands and walked off.

Just like that.

 No 'thank you', no apology. Not even an offer to walk you to class which you happened to share this year as well.

You watched him walk away, cheeks definitely as red as Gryffindor's robes at this point, feeling dejected and absolutely embarrassed. You always imagined what your first conversation with Draco would be, as pitiful as that sounded, but in your head it definitely never went like this.

You ended up late to potions class and got lectured by Snape in front of the whole class, including Draco himself and wondered if he remembered who you were, or if he once again erased you from his head and permanently labeled you as a 'forgettable Hufflepuff'.

The rest of the year went on as normal after that, nothing too special.

The first time you really understood what your feelings for Draco Malfoy were was in your third year, on the train ride to Hogwarts.

You watched from the window as the train passed through the lush scenery of grand trees & clear blue skies, hands fiddling with the sleeves of your sweater. Your best friend, Mauve Ambrose, was seated beside you, gossiping about potential romances ("I think Ginny is head over heels for that Harry Potter kid and everyone knows it. Except, you know, that Harry Potter kid.") and who was to have the 'biggest glow up' of their entire year group ("My money is on Longbottom. Remember that I called it, ok. I want a witness to prove that I said it first.").

Hearing the candy trolley pass by, you perked up and politely excused yourself from your friend, walking out of the compartment. Your eyes searched for the trolley, determined to make it to it before the last of the chocolate frogs were taken, and caught it making its way towards the back of the train.

When you approached the trolley, you waited for the attendant to continue on along with one of the students as they picked out a box of Bertie Botts Every Flavor Beans. Once the attendant turned towards you, you smiled wide, ready to request a chocolate frog, when you felt someone approach from behind you.

"A chocolate frog for me, yeah? And make sure it doesn't have Dumbledore's card. I have like 10 of that old bat," said a familiar, snarky voice.

You turned and your breath immediately caught in your throat; it was Draco Malfoy.

"You're in luck, there was only one left. Although, I can't really confirm if this one has a Dumbledore or not..." the attendant said, handing him the box.

You frowned a rather sad frown, disappointed. Perhaps one would blame the Malfoy boy for taking your turn (you did get there first after all) but in truth, he wanted what he wanted and he wasn't afraid to get it.

In your mind, all was fair in candy and war.

"Hey, aren't you the girl who ran into me last year? The Hufflepuff?" he asked, eyes looking you up and down.

You felt so small in his presence. Although you were both about the same height your first year together, he towered over you at this point in time.

"I...y-yeah. That's me. Umm...my name's Y/N, actually. And congrats on the frog. I came to get one but you managed to get the last one," you said, trying to keep it cool on the outside when on the inside you were a mess of nerves.

You really wanted Draco to like you. Not in a big, important way, no. Just enough to remember your name, at least.

He continued on staring at you silently, even when you finished talking. His gaze felt like a microscope on you and you could feel your cheeks heat up.

"You have weirdly shaped eyes," he says bluntly after a moment and you really wished you knew a spell that would have the floor swallow you whole.

"Umm...." you were unable to come up with a response.

You wish you were witty or funny or charismatic, but socializing did at times become quite difficult for you, and you weren't gifted with a quick mind or a sharp tongue.

"Anyways, I'm gonna go enjoy my frog now," he said as he walked away.

You were not surprised to feel the slight sting of tears forming in your eyes. You took a deep breath and tried to calm yourself down. You hated the fact that you were actually so sensitive. Your parents tried to make you feel better about it, stating that it just meant that you had a big heart.

“Well,” you thought, “if having a big heart meant it was easy for me to cry, then it didn't seem like a very good thing to have”.

Keeping your tears at bay (at least until you could sit down and put your sweater over your head so no one could see), you walked over to your compartment.

It was when you were nearly there that Draco's head popped out from his compartment's sliding door, startling you. You let out a small yelp, putting your hand over your mouth almost immediately after.

"Here, have this," he stated simply, as he reached his hand out towards you.

To your surprise, it was the chocolate frog box Your eyes widened, staring at it before cautiously retrieving it from his hand, switching your gaze back to him.

"I only wanted it for the card, and it's another stupid Dumbledore one" he claims, and before you could say anything, he slides the door shut, leaving you standing alone in the middle of the walkway, chocolate frog in hand.

It was then that you noticed that the box had its wrapping still in tact, meaning it was never opened in the first place.

Once you made it to your compartment and sat back down in your seat ("Nice! You got Celestina Warbeck," Mauve stated excitedly as she opened the box for you), You realized that your little crush on Draco Malfoy had turned into an actual one.

The first time you ever got to experience what it was like to fall in love with Draco Malfoy was in your fourth year at Hogwarts, a few weeks before the Yule Ball.

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Truth Syrum: So if you had to choose anyone aside from your husband who would you pick? (Bonus points if Haurchefant is in the room. >:3c)

((Nonny this is so fucking mean I hope you know. Also this is obviously LbR post 5.3, in which Raven and Mingxia receive their past lives memories at the end of 5.0, and the utter mind-fuckery that is. Trigger/content warnings of trauma, technically character death, mentions of blood...there’s a lot. Going under a cut bc again, this is long and has some pretty heavy content here.))

"Oh by the Fury why in the seven hells would anyone ask that?!" Raven shouts as she threw her tomephone across the room before hiding her face in a pillow and screaming in mortification.

Haurchefant, who had set aside a tray of a light meal and a warm drink, caught the tomephone almost reflexively. He blinked before giving a small laugh. "Oh dear heart, why are you so embarrassed? After all, did I not tease you for your gazing of the Vii on the First?"

He knew a political rival had slipped a truth serum in Raven’s drink and nearly caused a ruckus at a gala in the Vault. And while Aymeric had dealt with him, he was a little annoyed he didn't get to feed the bastard some of his teeth.

He may let his Fray have some fun later, but right now he was more concerned on making sure his wife was alright.

"The idea of being with or considering anyone else is revolting. I am a very happily married woman who loves her husband and the idea of straying from him makes me feel so disgusting..." She states, but then clarifies "Mind you, I know polyamory is a thing and I am very happy to see people in those relationships make it work, it's just not for me."

Haurchefant smiled as he leaned in and kissed her. "I love you too my wife. And I know your heart, intimately. I know you would never stray." He set the tray down on the bed and settled in behind her, her back to his chest. They ate in a comfortable silence and after the dishes had been cleared from the bed he got a slightly dangerous thought in his head. "Amethyst?"

"Yes love?"

He was quiet for a second, trying to think of the best way to say this before ultimately taking her hands to link their aether. "Would it help to think of this as though this was your other life? The one in which I did not survive?"

He felt her tense for a moment before she started to fidget and play with his hands. "I'm not sure if that makes it better or worse. The idea of you gone..."

"I know. Forgive me for upsetting you my heart. I-" He starts as he holds her tightly against him.

She shook her head. "I know love. I just... It's really hard to think of that because what happened in that life..." She says before looking down at his stomach and tracing the scar there over his shirt, doing her damndest to block the image of blood dripping from his mouth and the light of his eyes fading. "I mean, what better way to break a Warrior of Light than to kill the one they love in a way that they can't save them?"

"Raven..." He breathed as he pulled her tight against him. She held him just as tight and stayed there for several moments, reorienting herself with the fact that this was not that life, yet in those moments she found clarity in the answer to the question on her tomephone.

"Huh..." She muses once she gathered herself. "That was weirdly helpful."

He blinked as she grabbed the tomephone and began typing. "My heart?"

"I think she decided to talk to me, kind of. Or talk to me through my inner dragon in a sense. Which is weird because technically she is me but not really? Anyway, she told me her feelings towards someone she considered long term even though she still felt like she couldn't give them one hundred percent of her commitment, because she was still mourning. And I think they would've understood that, even if she never actually pursued them."

"May I see? I won't judge. Truly I don't think I could." He asked, fully ready to accept if she didn't want to share.

She hesitated for a second before she nodded as she rolled to where her back was to his chest and he could look over her shoulder. "I don’t mind sharing. I trust you. Though I still want to clarify that this is NOT this life. I am with you and I love you. Nothing is going to happen."

He smiled and kissed her cheek, he knew that she loved him and that he was her first choice, and that whoever might be the ones her previous life considered didn't really matter in the long run. "Tis as I said, I know your heart intimately. I know you would never stray to another. I love you."

"I love you too." She said with a smile as he watched her type.

Well this is a very odd question. I hope you know my husband is sitting in bed with me and laughing over this whole ordeal. But I guess I'll indulge in this.

I think my best choice would be Lyna. She's brilliant and strong, incredibly competent, no-nonsense, and she's also utterly gorgeous. I hate that I had such a high level of gay panic when I met her.

"Oh by the Fury you have a type!"

"Shut up you."

"I'm teasing dear heart. Did you forget that Lyna and I were really close friends while I was stuck on the First?"

"You were also petty as all hells and told her about the Source without the Exarch's say."

"Hey he pissed me off, and plus that's kinda how I earned Lyna's trust as quickly as I did. That and when we got shoehorned into a very uncomfortable blind date by her men I wouldn't shut up about you."

Raven laughed. "Okay fair enough."

"Plus I teased you when you were respectfully looking at the Viis in Fanow. Which by the way were you still curious about that? I could still fantasia-"

"No. I'm good."

He pouted and she lightly swatted him in the chest. "Not that I don't think you'd look lovely and beautiful, just..."

"Too soon for the sort?"

"Kinda..."

He smiled and kissed her cheek. "As you wish dear heart.”