#i'm tired my head hurts and i'm also on my period bc why not

[gon-and-killuas-mother]

i'm nearly done moving everything to my dad's house. just gotta go back to the apartment today to get all the leftover stuff and do some cleaning.

my body is very against the idea, yesterday was insanely difficult on me. but bc my friends are wonderful, i am in much better shape than i would've been otherwise. at the expense of their own fatigue and body pain, they made sure i took enough breaks and that i didn't take too many trips up and down the stairs. if i'd tried to help like i wanted to, i doubt i'd even be mobile today.

once everyone had gone home and i had to swing back by the apartment last night for a couple more things (like the cat food someone forgot to put in the car) i did take a moment to say goodbye to the apartment. i know it's an inanimate thing, but i have carried this accumulated trauma over moving since i was little. between the divorce(s) and the frequent changes of houses, i was able to make a safe space for myself in each home only to have to pack it up again a year or two later. kid me never got to grieve properly, or say goodbye to the houses. my homes.

so last night, i wept alone in the almost empty apartment. it was my first solo home, and it saw me through some of the hardest, most painful times of my life. but it also saw me grow into a more confident adult, someone who wasn't afraid to take up space anymore.

i couldn't be more grateful for that year-and-a-half of living on my own. after a lifetime of tucking myself inward to be more convenient to my family and then later to my roommates, i learned how to be comfortable with myself. i made friends with my neighbors. i was, for a while, independent and free.

now, though, i have to accept that i can no longer support myself. my body can't take the extra work of keeping a job, doing my chores, running errands, and staying healthy all on top of my disabilities. moving back into one of my childhood homes is a bizarre experience. i got home very late this morning after that trip back to the apartment, and had to creep quietly through the dark to not wake anyone up. the same smells, the same creaks and groans of the floors and stairs, the same hums of the AC, everything i remembered from childhood almost overwhelmed me.

luckily, my new room is in the downstairs "condo" my dad had built for my sister and her niece. it's made of two rooms, a bedroom and part of the den that used to make up half of the downstairs area. it's honestly bigger than my entire apartment, plus the bathroom i'm using is across the hall with the laundry room and the kitchen is upstairs, so my two rooms are all my living space rather than amenities.

my knees aren't going to enjoy the little hill between my car and the front door, nor the stairs. but now, if my body says "no stairs today", i'll have my brother and my dad to bring me whatever i might need.

now if only i could figure out how i'm gonna pay that last months rent on time ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ

lastly. this might be the best possible time to start writing my book. if i can't work, and i can't do much other than stay home tending to my body, then this could be a good moment for me to word-vomit some rough drafts. and Dad would probably be pretty supportive, he's also a self published writer and has always appreciated my interest in writing. i may even let him read some of my drafts except for the possible steamy sections no way is he reading those

anyway. long day, long weekend, ready to start this new chapter of my life. saying goodbye to a home is, somehow, harder to me than saying goodbye to a person. maybe bc there's no going back? idk. signing off.

[theinfinitedivides]

it's telling how some people who were in denial that assad's snub/exclusion from marketing had anything to do with racism and Islamophobia (throwing all kinds of insults for months that we're being delusional, that w'ere doomposting) are also lamenting how the awards nominations are now "pitting jacob and sam against each other". their outrage feels performative as hell, when they act more concerned with "homophobic amc" splitting up their imaginary rpf ship rather than understanding that racism is the reason a white man was propped up at the expense of the main POC who had the most screentime this season. i'm actually annoyed that fans were even trying to write rpf fix it fic of jacob comforting poor sam at the awards ceremony??? (is That what they focused on from this controversy?), it's so obvious they treat this jacob like an accessory to his white coworker.

they don't get to pretend that amc wasn't being racist and islamophobic when they threw assad under the bus.... only to evoke jacob's name when they're mad that he should have been nominated alongside sam, as if this season wasn't carried by jacob, delainey and assad. there's no excuse for why sam is repeatedly promoted over one or two of them, or all three of them. i'm sick and tired of not only amc but also all these fandom hypocrites.

anon came in my inbox so hot i had to check to see where the fire was before i burned myself, goddamn. had to let this one sit and cook. let it marinate. let it fucking soak up all that juicy shit and then serve and eat bc truly what else is there to say? what else can i say about this that hasn't already been said in better ways with more evidence. what the fuck. i will never forget accidently ending up on that side of the fandom where they're convinced that 1. JA is not straight (ok. fair. their prerogative. i have my list of celebrities who are assigned bi until further notice. i function with the baseline that people in general are assigned bi until further notice i just don't put that on the internet all the time) and 2. he married his wife as a beard and he and Sam are dating BTS—look, i have no problem with RPF. live and let live peace and love on planet earth etc etc i am an RPF warrior but that right there? that's some scary scary shit. 'if Sam wins at the awards Jacob is going to be there and they're going to hold hands on the red carpet and—' stop. the levels of presumption and delusion and tokenism can only go so far, you do not see me saying Eric and Jo Anne are going to pull up to their next event together with Assad hanging off their arm as their third and believing it with my whole chest. that's for the great fic writers of Zamasian to solve not me to invent wholecloth as fact

heading back to the point from that quick detour (aka understanding that racism is the reason a white man was propped up at the expense of the main POC who had the most screentime this season, as you said)—honestly we need to send the Jassad-Delainey crew some fucking ice packs bc i know. i know their backs hurt from carrying s2. i know they still do. i'm talking spa treatments getaways salary raises whatever they need bc they are continuously overlooked by the people and outlets propping up the white man who was barely here and they're still giving 1000%. in fact you want to talk about white men that should have been propped up on the side in terms of screentime let's talk Ben Daniels. hit after hit after hit as scum of the earth Santiago (and he put the Iago in his name. he was on his Othello shit) and no submissions. none. now granted i know he's been going through a period of grief after the loss of his partner + he was technically a guest star so maybe he asked not to be submitted. maybe they decided not to regardless. my point is you had Santiago giving more depth and dialogue and just *motions* everything than Dreamstat hanging around to be Louis' glorified inner critic and manifestation of his intrusive thoughts. the writing was on the wall from the minute we saw how they were treating Assad this time around the awards we were the canary in the coalmine telling you that Jacob and Delainey could be next bc of pisspoor promotion and what did we get? accusations of anti-Blackness and taking away appreciation for their success so no. you don't get to use them to hide behind your bitchass behavior Jacob especially. you're the same type of people who pulled up like some freaks and said that Armand should get back with his maker or get assaulted in s3 just to spite the fans blowing the whistle do not let his initials even touch the inside of your mouth

and the Islamophobia........................ hoo boy. Assad has been unapologetically open about his upbringing and religious background for years. he's said that he talked with Rolin about his thought process and approach to this multi-faceted role he knows what he brings to the table in this starvation economy and we thank him for it. AMC isn't thanking him for it when they choose to use his scenes as social media promo without acknowledging it in the FYC rounds and the fandom certainly isn't thanking him every time some shit comes up and people turn a blind eye. hey. newsflash. you want to not be a racist dick you have to not be a racist dick to anybody. you can't handpick a few of our Black siblings and be like see i'm not racist and then turn around and act like our South Asian siblings are talking out of their ass when they bring up the kind of stereotypical rhetoric that has been used in this fandom to talk about Armand. i ain't even telling y'all to like Armand i'm telling y'all to stop reverting to the vilest shit possible to say since you don't, just like some of you Lestat fans will take every opportunity to make Louis look like the aggressor and abuser in that relationship. fuck that

see now. i said what else is there to say but anon you got me fired up you see how long this is. awa. anyway i'm a strong believer in if you put that kind of energy out it is going to come back. by hook or by crook by God or the universe or your own motherfucking actions Crapaud going to come and pull up in your driveway and smoke your pipe. choke you choking there on the fumes. who doesn't hear will feel rope long but you hanging eventually wi

[laguezze]

PAC: What you should be confident about

Theme: Focus by Ariana Grande

I am kinda back guys! Feeling better and ready to step into a new, confident energy! So here are some reasons why you should be confident!

Warning ⚠️: it's honest, also there is a +18 pile soooo. Minors DNI.

Let's see the piles!

Pile I

Pile II

Pile III

Pile IV

Pile I

(+18 only bc i don't wanna be calling a minor sexy and alluring)

You are sexy. Period. Like you have something so alluring and attractive about you. There's something so seductive in your aura. You're charming and talk well. I'm hearing your voice may be very attractive and siren-like. You might get tons of compliments on your voice.

Your calmness also makes you incredibly mesmerizing. You seem mysterious, but also playful. You're like a femme fatale fr (no matter the gender, it's the energy they bring to the table)

You just know, subconsciously at least, how to pull people in.

You speak well and are educated. You understand social customs and the way conversations work, so you make people very comfortable.

You should be more confident of your energy, like you're so charming and hot like genuinely charming and irresistible.

Look around at the room, see all those eyes? Yeah, they're looking at you bc you rock. That's why.

Pile II

The way you walkkkkk like we got a strutter here. I'm hearing the way you walk accentuates your curves very well and makes your body look very good. People notice the way you carry yourself. I'm seeing someone walking around the city with a handbag and a good fit. Fashion may be your strong suit too.

People might see you as someone fashionable and confident, whether you are or not. You definitely carry a strong energy with you. People love it.

You make heads turn a lot more than you realize. Like omg feel free to ignore this but I'm hearing you may have a good dump truck if you know what I mean. Like you're just built different in that department what can I say? People admire that. People wanna be you and be with you.

You also have such a positive energy to you, like your confidence shines through and people want to be around you a lot bc of it. They want to be like you.

Pile III

I knew I was gonna get this pile. You guys are my brains pile. The smart ones, very intelligent people. That's one of your strongest suits and I think you know that. You definitely do, yeah. Well, I'm here to tell you what you already probably saw coming. You should be confident about it. Own that IQ babes. But ALSO I'm hearing some of you are not satisfied with this answer. Maybe you read some of the previous piles while scrolling and you're like "bro why is everyone being called hot and I'm out here being called smart??? Am I not hot or what?" Calm down. You are hot. Your intelligence makes you extremely hot. Sapiosexuals would kill for a day with you fr.

BUT since you wanna hear something physical maybe, I will mention, there's something about your cleavage area and eyes. Maybe some of you wear glasses and people love that look. Your look compliment your personality. Very neat and clean, it's effective and attractive. People love that.

You might not be physically strong, a lot of people like how dainty and fragile you look because of your strong personality and brains. They love the contrast and so should you.

Pile IV

Hmm... You're probably expecting me to say your body. A lot of you guys might party a lot and get told that your body is hot and this and that. And although you take pride in that, deep down you are tires of hearing it. You want to be called "beautiful" while someone stares at your face. Not looking down.

You are beautiful, I'm seeing your soul is wounded a little bit. You may have had a rough time and got over it but the scar still hurts sometimes.

Your soul is beautiful. It really is. You want the real thing, you're passionate about life and love. You came out of a Renaissance painting literally like you're just so idealistic and it's hard to be that way in such a dull world full of hookup culture (note! I'm not judging anyone for hooking up. I respect decisions and personally don't see anything wrong with it. I'm just saying for some people that are more hopeless romantics looking for their one true love it might be hard to navigate a world in which hookup culture is very prevalent)

Your soul and your inner life makes you stunning. Your body is, of course, hot and beautiful. But the main thing you should be more confident about is your inner self. Your kindness and deep thoughts.

You will be loved the way you love one day 💕

The End

[harryconcepts]

part 77

I can't stop thinking about blue collar harry omg like he's out working hard all day and he comes in and gives you a little kiss but he's sweaty so he doesn't want to let you get too close so he goes to shower and you join him 😵‍💫 definitely very "my pretty little wife, so sweet to me" giving you kisses under the warm water 😵‍💫 definitely some touching bc you both get worked up 😵‍💫 afterwards he tells you to get dressed cause he's taking you out 😵‍💫 he watches you get ready and once you spray your perfume on he can't help but give you a few kisses on your neck he just loves it 😵‍💫 and he was raised right so he's always holding doors and carrying your purse and escorting you with a hand on your lower back 😵‍💫 he never lets you pay for anything and it's clear money isn't an issue for him 😵‍💫 sometimes he's sore after a long day so you give him a little massage and he always makes it clear to you how grateful he is 😵‍💫🤕

harry getting a little stern with you 😋 being in a bad mood for whatever reason and you've been snapping at him all day, finally he grabs your jaw to make you look at him and he says "that's enough, you don't get to be mean to me when i haven't done anything wrong" and he doesn't let go until you tell him what's wrong and why youre in such a mood 😋

aster when his angel takes a nap at his house ☹️ she's soooo tired after class so she just goes there and crashes in his bed and when he comes home from work he finds her all cuddled up with the stuffed animal she keeps there ☹️ he wakes her up so gently bc it's time for supper and he's kissing her forehead to be soft and not startle her ☹️ when she sits up a little he sees her mascara is smudged everywhere and he can't help but smile and say "you had a good nap, hm?" running his finger over the black smudged under her eyes ☹️ she nods and cuddles into his chest bc she's not awake yet ☹️ he hugs her close and kisses her head saying "just wanna sit for a while baby?" and she lets out a little "mhm" and he reaches over to grab her bunny and tuck it into her arms again ☹️🤕

he is soooo convincing saying "i actually just bought a spare toothbrush and that special coffee you like 😁 oh and did I mention it's going to be cold in the morning? maybe even a little icy and I know you hate walking to class when it's icy 🤨 but i actually have a car so there's that! and also i know you hate going out after you've gotten settled for the night and you do seem very comfy in bed here so maybe it's best if you just stay 😁"

please he would go to every appointment with you 😔 he hates that you're hurting and not feeling well but he tries to stay positive and say "it's gonna be okay, they'll figure something out" and he would ofc go with you to get a treat after to make you smile 😔

okay I have a period tracker app and there's these little sex/women's health articles that come up a lot on there and I just saw one that was like ideas for foreplay 🤭 and the first one was called the 20 minute challenge where you set a timer for 20 minutes and you and your partner are allowed to do anything except touch down there 🤭anyways u know who I'm thinking about and i fear he would love it 🤭

riding harry for the first time on grammy night 🫶🏻 usually he's on top and kind of sets the pace but you're just feeling feral after seeing him so sexy all night so you push him down on the bed and straddle him 🫶🏻 he's surprised but definitely okay with it when you go for his belt buckle 😋

texting sneaky linkrry a short and sweet little congratulations text after his win and you don't rlly expect a response bc you know he's out celebrating but he texts back less than 5 minutes later thanking you and asking if you'd like to celebrate with him 😁 you think he has a big group together but when you get there it's really intimate maybe like 10-15 people and you're surprised he invited you and you're feeling a little awkward but he's running up to you and giving you a huge kiss on the cheek clearly very drunkie 😁 you're blushing bc you didn't think he wanted people to know you're kind of a thing but he's all over you all night 😁 a few people leave and you get worried thinking he's just too nice to ask you to leave but he keeps giving you drinks and any time you say "you've had a long day are you sure you don't want me to-" he just shushes you and asks you questions to distract you from leaving 😁soon you're the only person left and he's all "i thought they'd never leave" and he's coming to give you a proper kiss for the first time all night 😁 definitely some very tipsy and filthy sex later but for now he just wants a kiss 😁

PLEAAAAASE BEING HIS NORMAL NOT FAMOUS GF AND TOO NERVOUS TO BE IN THE CROWD AND HAVE EVERYONE KNOW YOU and he totally understands and never wants to push you so he lets you know it's totally okay for you to hide out backstage 🥹 and afterwards he's immediately running to you giving you the biggest hug nearly crushing you but neither of you care 🥹 he's basically giddy saying "I can't believe- I didn't think i would actually-" and he cuts himself off bc he can't wait to kiss you 🥹

the fact that harry does a lot of strength and resistance training and he gets so bulky all over his body.... thinking about watching him do pull ups or literally anything else and you're basically drooling just staring at him... he definitely gets all smirky when he realizes you're watching and he blows you a little kiss before he keeps going..... horny

yes i just sent something soft but I'm a whore first and foremost so here we are! the thought of gentle mocking truly never leaves my mind like..... it just fits so well in so many situations..... when you're sitting on his lap making out with him and you start to rock your hips on his bc you're already dripping and he grips your sides to stop you and says "that desperate for me already baby? haven't even touched you yet" and forcing you to look in his eyes even when you're blushing trying to look down 🤭 i can feel very much him saying "that's okay, I know your pussy is always just so sensitive for me, hm? she's always so needy" and making you admit to it before he'll give you anything more 🤭 he loves edging you over and over until there's tears in your eyes and then he pouts at you while he thumbs them away and says "poor baby, it's just so much hm? just want to cum so bad don't you" and you nod hoping he'll be nice and let you but he just pouts even more and says "that's too bad, I'm not ready to let you cum yet" and he smiles when that only makes you whine more 🤭 and when he's had you cumming so many times it almost hurts and you're grabbing at his hands to stop him from touching he's just all "oh is it too much for you? thought you wanted to cum so bad, what happened to that?" and you're sooo pouty saying "too sensitive ☹️" and he brushes his thumb over your lip saying "put that away, good girls don't pout" 🤭 and he's so close to you crowding your space saying "you're gonna give me a few more, kay baby? I'll be gentle though, i promise" and his voice is soooo condescending and mocking 🤭 he kisses back down and he's trying to be a little bit nice and leave your clit alone for a while but his nose still bumps it every time he moves and his tongue is really not giving you any time to calm down 🤭 he just does whatever he wants and he's a little mean sometines I'm so ferally horny 🤭🤕

actually I think maybe you wouldn't do it tonight bc you're both tired and drunk and just in shock but you fall asleep together and wake up around noon tmrw and it's so on bc it's sinking in that he is now a 4 time Grammy winner and that's your man 😋😋😋

going to plugrry for some gummies on your first valentine's day after breaking up w your bf. he doesn't know you broke up so he's all "no hot date tonight?" and you kind of look down saying "not so much" and he hears how sad you sound so he looks up, and he kind of can tell by the look on your face what happened and his face gets soft and he says "I'm sorry" and you just shrug and say "so how much today?" but he shakes his head and says "on me, don't worry about it" and you're all "are you sure?" and he says "you're too pretty to be looking so sad on Valentine's day" and that makes you blush but you just look away 😋 he finishes bagging up your stuff and you're feeling brave so you say "and what about you? who's the lucky girl tonight?" and he just laughs a little saying "no actually, this is my busiest day of the year so I don't have time for that today" and you say "ahh of course, all the pathetic lonely girls hit you up all day I bet" and he looks at you with a little frown saying "don't say that" and you shrug saying "it's kind of true" but he says "it's not, not at all" and he goes to give you your stuff but then he stops, you look at him for a second and you're about to ask what's going on but he says "do you want to maybe- you could stay? we could smoke a little, I have food so we could, you know, eat if you wanted?" and he sounds so nervous to be asking but you say you'd love that before he can get too nervous 😌he looks so relieved and he's definitely blushing a little 😌 he says "I'll get some stuff together, wanna pick a movie?" so you go over to the TV and get comfy while you find something to watch and he's very happy to see you making yourself at home 😌 he brings over all the snackies he can find and he looks a little nervous saying "or if there's anything else you want I can order something or-" and you cut him off saying "I'm fine, this is good thanks" 😌 he hands you the blunt and lets you do it first before you pass it back to him and he's not shy about how he's staring at your lips 😌 maybe a little later when you're both a little floaty he asks if you've ever tried shotgunning and ofc he's very willing to show you how it goes 😌the whole night youre just laying around watching dumb shows and eating lots of snacks and you're both so giggly and it gets late and you're tired so you end up staying the night 😌 in the morning you make sure to tell him it was the best valentine's day you've had in a long time 😌

harry loves his chubby gf so much ........ he is obsessed with touching you and how soft you are and he loves squishing your cheeks and how when you wear his shirts they're a little snug he's just so down bad I need him

I get very moody and sometimes mean when i need to eat and I feel like harry would handle that so well 😭😭😭😭😭he would know you're not feeling well so when you snap at him he maybe just raises an eyebrow and says "I'm not going to fight with you when you just need to eat something, we can talk after you have some food" and that makes you more snippy bc everything he says is bugging you at the minute but he gets you something or he would even make you some food even though you're not being nice 😔 he would leave you alone bc he knows you need some space and an hour later you come to him and give him a hug saying "I'm sorry i was so mean to you" and he hugs you back saying "it's okay, feeling better now?" and you nod and thank him for taking care of you 😔🤕

harry would love how warm you get after you take a nap🤕 when you're just sooo tired you tell him you're going to lay down for a bit and he would want to come with you even if he isn't tired 🤕 I think he would wait until you're asleep then he would get up and do some stuff around the house but an hour or so later when you come find him and wrap your arms around him and put your head on his chest bc you're not quite awake yet, he tucks your head under his chin and murmurs "you're so warm" and keeps you close 🤕 then he would say "did you sleep well?" and you nod, he says "that's good" and gives you a kiss on your forehead 🤕

harry waking you up in the morning 😭 he turns your alarm off bc he hates it when it startles you awake he wants to wake you up gently 😔 he gives you lots of kisses and soft little "good mooooorning baby" and you're pushing him away, saying "it's too early" even tho it's nearly 11 and he just smiles and says "even if i made you breakfast?" and you stop, you open one eye to look at him and say "are you lying" and he scoffs acting all offended saying "am i lying 🙄 would i lie to you? about breakfast? is nothing sacred? 🙄" you huff and roll over again saying "if you're gonna be annoying I'm going back to sleep" but he laughs and says "im kidding, I'm not lying I did make you breakfast" but you're still just toooo sleepy so you turn your head and lay down on his chest 😔 you say "i need to sleep some more" and he laughs saying "okay baby you can sleep some more" but a few minutes later he's kissing your face again and he whispers "are you sure you want to keep sleeping because I went out and got you coffee and the ice is melting more and more every second you lay here" he is the most annoying in the mornings I just know it

no no no no him giving you money all the time.... you text him saying "Harold 🙄" and he's all "yes?" acting like he has no idea what you're talking about 😌 you say "stop giving me money" and he's all "what money?" he's such a pest but he just wants to take care of you 😌

harry when you haven't been doing well 😔 he's doing everything he can to help, he cooks meals and helps clean up around the house and he gives you a million hugs if that's what you need 😔 he takes a nap with you whenever you're tired even if he's not, he'll lay down with you for a few hours to make sure you're getting enough sleep 😔he's always letting you know that he's there to talk if you need it but otherwise he'll just be with you and let you know you're not alone 😔

and whenever you're sad 😔 you come to bed one night and just lay on him, resting your head on his chest and not saying anything 😔 he leans down to kiss your head and says "hi baby" and you don't say anything, and he can just tell you're sad 😔 he hugs you tighter saying "it's gonna be okay, i promise" and he doesn't let go 😔

i don't want to think about how feral harry was in the bedroom last night.... he's sooooo high on adrenaline he's shaking and he can't stop smiling and definitely lots of manhandling you bc he's just so wound up and you're both so feral...... he leaves so many love bites bc he wants to mark you up to remind you that youre his.... definitely lots of teasing and edging you and making you beg before he lets you cum bc he gets off so much on you needing him and praising him.... I'm not well I'm going to go get my straitjacket

harry really just .... he loves making you cum .... he loves having you on his lap and making out with you and he loves flipping you over so he can go down on you .... he loves holding your hips to keep you still so he can go to fucking town .... he loves making you cry for him ....... okay ... also he loves fingering you literally so much.... he loves laying kind of halfway on top of you so he can still kiss you while he reaches down.... he loves getting you so wet with gentle touching so that when he finally tries to slip his fingers in it's so easy..... he loves being at the angle where his palm presses on your clit while his fingers work ...... he loves kissing you while you cum so he can feel you moan into his mouth .... okay ... and he loves hearing you beg.... when he's been teasing you and keeping you on the edge for way too long and you're so impatient he gets all smirky and says "beg me for it" ....... he slows down and refuses to give you anything more until you beg sweetly enough...... he wants to hear "please, I need you to let me- please" he just gets off on hearing you beg..... okay

harry also loves edging you until you're actually crying bc you're so worked up and frustrated then he pouts at you and wipes the tears away saying "poor thing, let me make it better" and making you cum until you see stars 👍🏻

DO NOT think about harry lifting you up and putting you on his lap so he can have you close and give you some kisses

whenever older h is feeling mean he makes pretty girl ride his thigh and he refuses to touch her 🤭 he's all "oh yeah? if you're so desperate then you can get off just like that, you don't need my help" 🤭🤭🤭🤕

flying in to surprise harry at the birthday show 🥹 you tried so so so hard to get there on time but it just didn't work out and you get there when it's mostly over. then you're waiting backstage and on the last song he catches a glimpse of you and does the biggest double take and when he realizes it's really you waving at him he breaks into the biggest grin anyone's seen all night 🥹 after he's immediately running into your arms and pulling you to his dressing room saying "i can't believe you're here" kissing you all over bc he missed you 🥹 you tell him happy birthday a million times and he's smiling so big and he's just so full of joy 🥹🥹🥹 later you're laying together and his head is on your chest and he says "you made my birthday wish come true" and he pulls you a little closer 🥹

harry wouldn't let you cheat he would make you break up w your bf first before he touches you and idk why but that makes me horny 😵‍💫no because you sitting on his lap with his hands on your hips ... whining bc you want to kiss him so bad ..... but he just turns his head and says "I told you we're not doing anything until you break up with him, so did you break up with him yet?" and you whine out a no and he says "then I guess we're just sitting on the couch, aren't we?" 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫youre trying to kiss him but he says "mm mm, I don't want to be yours until you can be all mine"

harry who has a huge crush on you invites you to his birthday show and he invites your bf too bc he's trying to be nice, your bf says no bc he can't stand harry but you tell him you're still going bc he's your friend 😋 harry ofc invites you backstage afterwards for the little celebration and he "accidentally" arranges things so you'll be sitting next to him 😋 when he gets a little drunkie he gets touchy with everyone but esp you bc you're such close friends 😋 at one point he plants a big kiss on your cheek and you're both giggling and soon you're basically on his lap and you're sooo close 😋 he feeds you a little bites of cake and someone gets a picture of you all cuddled together laughing and it gets posted on someone's private story and your bf sees it 😋 he gets soooooo mad and Harry's all "hm... that's too bad isn't it.... well I have some leftover cake so if you want to come over...." 😋😋😋😋😋

I have never been sane once in my life so I'm thinking about overstim 🥰 idek which of your harry i like the idea most with but probably aster bc he's so soft but also very filthy 🥰 anyways she gets a little overwhelmed and starts trying to squirm away from his hands and his tongue but he just grips her thighs and pulls her back down the bed to him 🥰 he says "you're not going anywhere until I'm done with you" and she lets out a pathetic little cry when he starts mouthing at her clit again 🥰🤕

[minnowtes]

Okay first of all: Ow ;w;

We know G'raha was really lonely, but you do a really good job of showing just how much. He can't go far from the Crystarium and oftentimes tends to be in the Ocular for most of the duration of our time in Norvrandt and the mirror really is his only connection to the rest of the world and the people in it. It's really sad, and cold and the lighting demonstrates perfectly the vibe. Also sadness being associated with the cold makes this extra ough yk ;w;

Seeing G'raha get progressively more sad as he watches on bc Vivi is smiling and seems genuinely happy and carefree and just by his words alone, he truly believes he doesn't deserve any of it. Look at how tired he is, how the posture just melts out of his body, how his shoulders sink from the weight of not only two world but his own traumas and his loneliness and everything, you can tell he doesn't have a single good thought abt himself here. Want to give him hugs ;w;

Given that I'm always saying "I love their smiles" if sort of hurts extra much that G'raha says "you'll never grace me with this smile" like I wh ough ue ;w; Is he saying this bc he thinks that's how Vivi thinks of him, or is he saying this bc that's what he believes of himself? It could be both. And given what we know abt Vivi and what you've said before ("love him or hate him, just be honest with him") he might not even be entirely wrong even ;w;

Look at how he sinks to the floor, he's so burdened by so much and he didn't have anyone at all to shoulder that with him I'd literally simply perish. Does he ever feel warm anymore? Will he accept it if someone tries to help him? Does he believe he deserves it? I'm big sad rn

Meanwhile the duality of Vivi having fun running around Il Mheg, kicking up petals generally just having a good time, GIVE THE NU MOU HEAD PATS—

He's smiling so much. I mentioned before that he looks so carefree here and I wonder how long it's been since he was really able to do this for a prolonged period of time?

Love the Nu Mou in the shadows watching him interact with one of their own, they look almost at peace. It's been a while since they've been able to interact with someone from outside the faerie kingdom and it shows in their little hopeful smiles.

Hello Urianger my scrunkly archaic little man I love you o7

And now Vivi's smile is gone ;w; Pain agonidhogg

BUT FEO UL IS SLEEPING ON HIS SHOULDER I LOVE THEM

They're so ;;; eepies

I love how they're always at Vivi's side, it shows just how close they are ;w;

I love the gremlin energy of Vivi briefly interacting with Urianger before they get down to business, I love love love seeing his happy or his relaxed or generally just him having even a second of a good time. He deserves to be happy and to relax ;;

I wonder why G'raha trailed off at the end though. Does he see Vivi's tired expression or is he realising something? Or is it both? Vivi really looks so like.

Like when you do so much but people just keep asking more and more and it just weighs you down, like Vivi looks so. Tired. Like he looks Tired. It's going to be a while before he gets Rest but god he deserves it rn.

I love how you draw their expressions. It isn't a Jaye comment if I don't talk at least for one second about how much I love Vivi's smile. Love him being happy ;; Even love how G'raha's smile in the first page he looked briefly like how he used to when he was but a BRAT—

(I love you, G'raha)

For a moment he looked like that young man again. And then he just. Was brutally reminded that he isn't that young man anymore and.

I remember reading one of your notes that G'raha thought that he and Vivi had something but Vivi didn't think anything abt their kiss and idk how to connect it to this chapter but just know that I'm thinking heavily abt that.

I love them, they make me really sad and you did a wonderful job as always. Thank you so much for sharing!

✧✦✧ “Fragments” - episode 25 ✧✦✧

.....save the world .....pet the dogs ✔️

New reader? Start here: @ffxiv-fragments

[skinni-girls-eat-books]

Thursday, January 25th, 2024!

12:49pm my brain feels so burnt out, it's difficult not to just return to bad habits. My body is tired and stress is wrecking my physical being. My back hurts, legs hurt, neck tension and headaches. Owch

Need to find better things to focus my little energy on. Things that feed me, I am very empty, like there's a hole at the bottom of me where everything leaks out. Old is bad, new is better. I want to stop going back to old, bad, tired situations. Nothing in the past changes. New is good.

Lots of just being in my own head, I want to get back to reality. I think that will help me not feel so floaty.

1:22pm omg I just realized my bad bitch playlist is public on Spotify and 6 ppl saved it?? Omg who are you guys and can we be friends what that just blew my mind and made my day how?? What?? I love it

3:24pm Reactive abuse is so real. I have to remember that I am NOT to blame for this shit. I actually didn't DO ANYTHING TO HIM WTF fuck him, he hasn't changed and only serves to prove me right and as a reminder again and again. I feel like he has moments where he'll admit this, or agree with me, but I think it's just breadcrumbing. Yeah so one day he says it's not my fault at all then the next day yeah it is kinda my fault like which one is it 😑 Rip but I know what I'm dealing with. The only reason I'm sad is bc the situation is so fucked up, it's more like grieving than actually being sad sad. It's just like damn wtf. I know I can pullllll when I want to though haha the issue is I just don't want to right now 🤭😁

I think I do need to get help for my depression/ anxiety though bc I don't want it to snowball into something so much harder to come back from. At least I'm aware of the issue, it's just deep rooted in me atm.

9:56pm Sat next to two of my bff's at the TB Lightening game tonight! Learned that there's 3 periods in hockey (I thought there was four) and the fights are REAL not like fake wrestling but the refs just stand there for too long and let them duke it out lmao?? I love my friends :)

Being happy lately results in me literally crying it's like feeling pure joy with no "waiting for the shoe to drop" :) I think I'm crying bc of relief? Grieving the fact that I was not happy for so long so I'm crying? Crying bc for example I've missed out on the past two years of these bc I didn't want to buy 2 tickets and for whatever reason.... It wouldn't work out or he would just be so embarrassing to me... Then it's going alone and ppl asking why he's not there?? It has been too much anxiety >> benefits in the past, but not anymore ❤️ I'm changing for the better. I miss the old me so much, but I know I'll love the new me even more.

Also yeah whatever technically some things were probably my "fault" bc of my anxiety...... But a partner who actually takes time to know you would be able to identify that or at least question the possibility that anxiety is a factor in decision making. But his actions/ emotional abuse >>>> way more impactful than just my social anxiety (plus I literally had the social anxiety for good reason if I can't take you anywhere without you smelling like weed and texting other girls while we're out).... Yeah I'm not fucking crazy, but I do need self-help. The intrusive thoughts are a lot still. They'll dull with time, even if it takes years I have a good feeling they will become submerged and buried under all the good memories I'll make. It's honestly already starting to happen if you ask me. I'm so ready for my birthday, what a new chapter I love it ❤️

11:45pm Went ahead and deleted the emails. He did not respond to me today so it's all moot point. He's abusive and idc if he doesn't know now and idc if he never figures it out. He's one out of 8 billion people on this planet and he needs to stay in the past. His loss I'm literally awesome af future doctor baddie and he's fucking retarded scrub bum byeeeee. Good way to end the evening ❤️

[sircocas]

26/01/2023

I guess that nightly text posts are my thing now

Today I painted my nails, which was nice!

I usually do this when I notice I'm self harming, and do it to stop myself -- mostly I pick my skin, but that does fuck up nail polish

So now my bedroom air is thick with polish fumes and I have snazzy nails

Do I need to take a rest from the world? Absolutely, the other day my bf said I should take a month long break from my thesis and HE WAS RIGHT

But I can't stop, the work won't get itself done, but I'm also trying to be patient with myself

Yesterday I got so tired I almost fainted, so I took it easy for the remainder of the day

Today I did some work (not a lot), but I don't feel like dying as much as I did yesterday

I had enough presence of mind to notice that I needed to paint my own nails

No hallucinations today, but my head is really fucking heavy -- I think my periods coming

Tried to think about a vday gift for my bf but honestly, I don't know -- thinking of getting him Berserk Deluxe vol 2 (got him the first for his bday) or maybe Cuphead or Hades for the Switch. I do have an excel spreadsheet (yeah, ik) with ideas but I'm so... Overwhelmed right now

And he keeps saying that I don't need to worry, being with him is enough but... What if he resents me? What if he thinks I'm not okay with spending money on him?

I love that man so much, miss him so dearly, I honestly can't wait for Saturday so we can hand out and bake and read together and just have time for each other

Is it risky to vent on social media with the same handle as my other socials? Absolutely

On the other hand, I don't think my colleagues would think of looking me up on Tumblr, and if they do, well, it's their own damn fault

I'm lying in bed, partly dissociating, partly just being, but I think what I really need is a hospital stay. Have people care for me for a couple months. Only focus on making myself feel better for a couple months. But alas, a thesis doesn't write itself

Let's just hope I remain kind of grounded and dont do anything that would make me require being hospitalised

Although some broken ribs don't sound too bad in comparison to having to stumble through a code base of stuff I'm absolutely lost

Sometimes I wonder what my mental health diagnosis would look like. I know that for sure depression and anxiety would be there. With the Sunday thing, maybe PTSD. But the rest? The dissociating, the swings, the hallucinations? Sometimes I think it might be BPD -- self destruct, sometimes I say bad things and only know it bc my s/o gets hurt and I get fucking confused because I DONT REMEMBER SAYING THAT I ONLY REMEMBER THINGKING IT

Sometimes I think I might just have no cure. Just like my constant tiredness and period imbalances, no one will know why the things are happening. No one will bother with extra tests and all I'll have is a "theoretically, you're okay"

[bemylord]

ꜱ/ᴏ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴄʟɪɴɢʏ

characters: satoru, itadori, megumi, toji, nanamin, sukuna.

warnings: it's not an angst, but it has triggers because they screamed at you :( [toji and sukuna parts bc yall know those man] + grammar issues. [aged up?]

butler's remark: it was hard to write yuuji, megumi and gojou parts bc they are good and sweet boys and i practically cry. i also had decided to do as a hdc not in the fake text. i did a reader with a strong character.

apologies part.

ɪᴛᴀᴅᴏʀɪ ʏᴜᴜᴊɪ:

pls no. i can't even imagine that yuuji would scream to you or say you're bothering him.

but, okay, that's why you're reading this.

you just wanted a piece, a little bit, some, of yuuji's attention while he was training.

you came to him from behind, wrapping hands around his neck.

you were happy to finally see and hug your boyfriend, planning to spend an evening watching some tv-shows.

suddenly, yuuji turned to you, and instead of the usual: 'sweetie, i'm so happy to see you let's watch the tv or eat ramen!'

he answered: 'i'm busy, y/n, let's talk later.'

being busy by doing something is totally normal.

but he could at least said you not cold as that. he turned around his body, continuing to do the same thing.

'but i missed you, yuuujiii~' you stretched out [?] his name in a smile, clinging to his shoulders again.

'can you not being clingy y/n, i'm trying to train. give me some space, you're starting to annoy me!'

you were standing there with doe eyes - he had never screamed at you.

'yeah? whatever, itadori. i'm gonna cuddle with megumi-kun, good training.'

you left the room with tears in the corner of your eyes. you'll give the space that yuuji had mentioned - you won't be talking with him for some days or weeks, therefore he'll know he should watch his mouth. [to follow what he says]

ꜰᴜꜱʜɪɢᴜʀᴏ ᴍᴇɢᴜᴍɪ:

he came back to the dorm late after training with satoru.

you, being the lovely girlfriend ever, wanted to help megumi: you filled the bathtub with water, made delicious dinner, and find a good movie to watch after bath. maybe, it isn't a romantic thing, but it'll help him to release the tension in the muscle.

'megumi, you finally here!' you had green your boyfriend with a warm hug, as you always do, cupped his face to kiss him.

you were about to give a kiss, when 'gumi intercepted your hands, looking at you tiredly.

'how was the train? you must be tired, that's why i made for you bath and dinner.'

you walked into the living room as you heard him muttering.

'you always being so annoying and so mommy [i mean, hyper custody], i am not a child, y/n, i can help myself.'

'gomen-gomen, megumi, i just wanted to help you relax.'

'stop being like that! that's annoying, i'll take a bath alone, without you.'

you saw bruises and abrasions on his face - he must be angry about that. you have known how megumi hates to be beaten gojou or todou.

you decided not to answer, only waiting till his fury will calm down and he will apologize.

ꜰᴜꜱʜɪɢᴜʀᴏ ᴛᴏᴊɪ:

i want to confess right away - i'm already afraid of him.

toji should be about to return home from a mission any minute now.

you had baked apple pie and made dinner, anticipating for your husband to arrive.

you only overheard heavy footsteps in the living room, immediately run to see him.

'my love, you back home.' you were about to kiss him, when he turned his head, pronouncing:

'don't touch me.'

his obnoxious nature. over the years of living with him you have taught him to be more gentle with you.

'use better words, toji.'

'i will talk to you as i want, woman. the fact you are my wife doesn't mean i'll be docile.'

'don't talk to me like that, i'm yo-'

'shut up, you're just a wife who comes when i need her. don't exalt yourself. don't be clingy.'

notwithstanding your strong character, tears start to roll down on cheeks.

'i have no intention of being your servant, toji. find another 'wife', i'm leaving.'

ɢᴏᴊᴏ ꜱᴀᴛᴏʀᴜ:

as you know, gojou satoru is a playful guy, who wants to tease you like 24/7.

you never thought that gojou would scream at you due to you being clingy. it happened, tho.

you are basically just like him, naughty and agile, waiting for him after work so you could take gojou in your arms and kiss him.

when you heard as the door opened, you ran to hug him. however, when you were anticipating to him to do the same, he uttered: 'let go of me.'

you thought he wanted to hug you first, so you've wrapped your arms around your neck tighter.

'did i not make myself clear? get off me. you being so clingy and intrusive.'

'i missed you, 'toru.'

'we see each other every single day, let me spend a few days alone, don't act like a child, stop being sticky'

when you heard the last word, you get off your boyfriend, watching as he slowly walking into the living room, not look at you.

'a few days alone? fine, gojo, whatever. all you want, i'm leaving.'

you grabbed your phone, leaving the house.

ɴᴀɴᴀᴍɪ ᴋᴇɴᴛᴏ:

you had mentioned that you might be clingy or sticky, demanding a lot of attention, when you on the period.

he agreed, laughed at your words. 'i always be with you anywhen, angel.'

as silly as it may sound, you wrapped your arms on a pillow, which was smelling like him, imagining it was kento.

you heard as a door opened, cheerfully coming down to greet your boyfriend.

'welcome home, darling, i was waiting for you to have some.. cuddles!' you straighten arms on him, expecting kento hugs you.

'it seems as you need me only for that, y/n.'

'no, darling, of course not. how was your day? tell me while we're gonna have a bath.'

'that's what i'm talking about. can it be only one day when you stop being sticky like that? i'm tired from work i want to be alone.'

you were speechless. you mumbled something illegible, step backward.

'y-yeah, s-sure..'

you walk in the bathroom, hiding your tears from him. as soon as you found yourself in the room, you sob.

'he just tired. i-i won't cry.'

you let your boyfriend spend an evening on his own, trying not to cry.

ꜱᴜᴋᴜɴᴀ ʀʏᴏᴍᴇɴ:

disclaimer: the king was really mad today, exactly today when you wanted to cuddle him.

you came to his domain, happy and shine like the sun - you've moved up in the ranks, isn't that a success?

you baked muffins, the kind that the king likes - with chocolate, and garnished with nuts on top. [it's only my opinion]

so, when you stood in front of a pile of skulls, sukuna unexpectedly said: 'you should leave. now.'

'huh?' you turned your head on the left, in a curious gesture, waiting for him to explain.

you did a step forward, thought you misunderstood him.

he didn't even look at you, sitting on the throne like you ain't here like you're sort of a slave, not a girlfriend.

'i've got so good news, sukuna. the first i had baked muff-'

before you could've finished the sentence, he used cursed energy to stop you, knocking the treats out of your hands.

'i fucking said you to leave my domain, woman. are you that stupid? and stop being clingy, it's irritating me.'

you knew his nature, you knew he might indicate something offensive, but, that one - above hurtful.

'what's wrong, the king?' you said his position mockingly, going down the skulls, looking at his back. 'go to hell, i'll tell it itadori. be here alone, sukuna.'

well, shall i do a part two with apologies? also sorry for kinda sad post.

[?] - pls corrent me if i used the wrong word.

↳ back to the main master list.

[actualbird]

i got the luke SR timely rescue and (SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!) i'll say it... he def knows some shit about rosa's parents like. the way he looked so nervous and changed topics when she was wondering aloud if her parents were doing a similar work luke does for the government? VERY SUS! I was kinda hoping he wouldn't bc I'm sick and tired of being lied to by him for the plot's sake but now I'm 100% sure he knows smth about her parents and has to keep it to himself

waah, congrats on timely rescue!!! when i started playing tot that was the regulay rotation SR i wanted the most (as in i wanted it before the game even rELEASED) and it took like, WAY TOO LONG TO ACTUALLY COME HOME LMAO

and YEAAAAA theres something v obviously going on with mc's parents that i assume luke either knows about and/or is directly linked to. it's been a while since i watched the card but i remember mc mentioning her dad was also rlly into shooting, and then theres in general just the whole "gone on a Top Secret Govt Research" which is exactly the same frigging excuse luke made about his own disappearance, very sus and my god, when will hyv release more deets about mc's parents JHAVFKJDSHFD it's been driving me nuts for ages and ages cuztherES SOMETHING THERE or at least it (whether intentionally or not) IS MADE TO LOOK LIKE SOMETHING IS THERE but i will be patient and wait for the story there to unfold naturally

and by "patient" i mean pacing back and forth in my braid 24/7

on the lying bit, it's not too surprising tbh taking into account the vague timeline of when SR Timely Rescue occurs. all of the regular SR cards take place pretty early on in the main story. if im remembering correctly, in timely rescue doesnt mc attribute luke's crazy good paintball shooting skills to him saying it was a "hobby" he picked up? like the govt work is known but not the NSB agent thing but if im wrong im v sorry, it's been like 10 months since ive watched this card JHVSKJDH. but yea if SR Timely Rescue does have that tidbit then yea, the card was set before main story 5 aka luke hasnt even fessed about the truth of his oWN JOB so it'd be absolutely way too early for him to even be thinking about fessing the truth on other ppl's involvement, esp ppl close to mc, since this is also the period of time hes still got it in his dumb pretty head that the best way to protect her is by keeping her in the dark

ridiculous and infuriating dude....//proceeds to kiss him passionately

oH WAIT theres another thing i remembered. in luke's bday event i distinctly remember mc mentioning that it was mc's parents who told her about His involvement in Top Secret Govt Project and thats why he could no longer come home for a long while.

i found that interesting, why did it have to go thru them specifically, sure, he couldve lied to them too and just wanted to tell them to tell her instead of him telling her directly because of his Overwhelming Guilt Of Hurting MC With His Absence but....idk idk idk maybe an implication that mc's parents, at that point, already knew that luke was doing nsb work? MANY THOUGHTS

but yea i wANNA KNOW MORE ABOUT MC'S PARENTS WHERE ARE THEY WHAT ARE THEY DOING AND LUKE! WHAT! DO! U! KNOW!!!

[bby-ahgastay]

Locked In - H.J.S

a/n: so this took way too long :/. my brain cell is giving out fr🤧. i hope you enjoy it!

member: Han Jisung (Stray Kids)

summary: one friday some of you decide to sneak into school and hotbox the principal's office, but you and jisung get locked in together, leaving you alone for a while👀.

warnings: smoking weed, oral(m.receiving), fingering, unprotected sex(always use condoms tho bc fuck them kids loll), slight degradation, hair pulling, a little choking.

requested: yes!! and i wanted to say again thank you for requesting this at all, and i'm still sorry it took so long🥺. i really want to try writing more so feel free to request more too!

"miss y/l/n, would you like to repeat that?" your math teacher tilts one ear towards you from her spot in front of the class, new seating chart still clutched tightly in her clammy hands. every one of your classmates shifts to look back at you, your seat in the way back and clearly on purpose. while you were back there, your three closest friends were all scattered in the front.

each of them watches you as well, on standby in case you need any of them to help you out. ryujin is good at helping you rile the teacher up even more. jeongin and chaeryeong use their baby faces to their advantage, usually throwing the teacher some puppy dog eyes and hardly even saying anything, yet still managing to get her to back off of you guys. in some cases they even distract her long enough for you two to escape.

you're not sure why, it's not like she doesn't know that they're your friends. it must be something about their cute, innocent looks that always seemed to make your teacher forget whose side they were on.

"oh, sure!" you chirp, setting your pencil down and beginning to fold the paper you just wrote on. the words 'let's leave early, fuck this' get covered more and more each time you fold a piece of the paper, your eyes not even moving to look at the teacher as you continue. "i said, this seating chart is bullshit. moving us all from our friends won't stop us, you know. it might be quiet for now, but we are not paying attention," you chuckle bitterly, inspecting the paper airplane as you finish it.

"now we'll just be even more distracted finding new ways to communicate," you hold up the plane to show your teacher, making a small 'pop' sound with your mouth as you launch it to ryujin. your friend lights up and stands to catch it, opening the paper and snickering before nodding at you, chae and innie catching your faces and already knowing what to do.

"you two cut it out right now! shin ryujin, give me that paper!" she steps closer to ryujin, the girl scowling at her as she stands on her desk, holding the paper up high as she crumples it in one hand.

"full name? really? i mean, who do you think you are? my mother? get over yourself already," ryujin scoffs. the teacher seethes, arms crossed and foot tapping.

"get down before i call security!"

"bite me, dude."

"AH!!" chaeryeong suddenly screams, climbing on top of her desk dramatically. "miss, i just saw a rat!" she cries out, pointing towards a gap between the wall and bookshelf. the teacher sighs as everyone else gasps and shouts, bringing their feet and bags off the ground.

"chaeryeong... this school does not have rats..." she rubs at her face with one hand, eyes covered as she boils in frustration. while she's not looking, ryujin slowly lowers herself back to the tile, quietly gathering her bag and backing up. you also get your stuff together and begin trying to head towards the back door.

the teacher takes her hand from her face and nearly turns around to ryujin's desk again, but jeongin jumps up to her side, clinging onto her arm to bring her towards the shelf and timidly pointing towards it.

"no, miss, she's right! i saw it too! it-it was huge!" his eyes stare down at her, wide and shining. the last thing you hear is the teacher groaning, then the bookshelf moving and even more chaos from your classmates, then you and ryujin rush to slip out of the door.

as soon as the door closes, you both break for the cafeteria, deciding on an early lunch like you usually do when you sneak out of this class. you both laugh as you make it to the lunch room, catching your breaths for a moment before walking into the large room.

a few other students are already there too, some in line to get food and some sitting at tables while they wait for friends. you and ryujin head over to where you usually sit, a large table where a couple of your friends already wait for everyone.

"hey guys," ryujin pats yeji on the shoulder, sitting between her and lia. you sit in the seat next to yeji, leaning back and smiling at your older friends. as they begin talking you just take out your phone and headphones, opting to listen to music and scroll through twitter rather than join in.

as you start your playlist you hear the chair next to you scraping against the floor. with only a glance over your shoulder you see han jisung, laughing with some friends as they all sit at your table. you try to bite back a smile as he sits next to you, turning his attention from minho and felix to you.

"hey, you're here early," he beams down at you, opening the drink he just bought and handing it to you to have a sip. you shrug and set your phone down, taking your earbuds out as you sit up straighter and take the bottle.

"yeah, some stuff happened in class today, ryujinnie and i-"

"oh my god, y/n, ryujin! you should have seen, it was so great!" you hear chaeryeong exclaim as her and jeongin come bounding towards your table. you chuckle and shake your head lightly as they plop down in seats across from you, gasping for their breaths through laughter.

the others all give them their full attention, curiosity in everyone's eyes. your partner in crime grins at them both, ready to hear what happened once you left, but you just watch jisung as he waits to hear what they have to say.

"after you guys left everyone pretty much said fuck it, we spent the rest of the class with everyone just throwing paper airplanes and the teacher totally just gave up! she sat there the whole time at her desk on her phone and just let us. it would have been sad if she wasn't such a bitch," jeongin shakes his head, cringing at the bitter memories of your teacher.

"ah, i had her, too! she was awful," jisung scrunches his nose, eyes coming back to you. he's a year older than you, meaning he's also a year ahead of you in school. "i must applaud you, as much as me and the others tried we never got her to actually give up. surprising since there were so many of us, really! you two did what me, seungmin, felix, hyunjin, yeji, and lia couldn't," he shakes his head a little, seeming amused yet proud of you.

you only smile up at him as the conversation continues around you.

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"GAH!" you feel someone jumping on you, hands on your shoulders. with seungmin being consideredably larger than you, you nearly topple over and try to grab onto the closest person to keep yourself up. you catch hyunjin by surprise as you do, his reaction being to practically scream and jump back when you try to grab his arm, swatting you off of him and hardly making it any easier for you.

"my god, you two are gonna kill one of these girls one day," chan shakes his head at the younger boys.

"min, that was unprovoked!" jisung tries to stop himself from laughing, hands on both of your arms to make sure you're steady. this is really pointless given that you've already stopped yourself from falling, barely assisted by hyunjinnie.

he ruffles your hair and scrunches his nose at you playfully. you're sure that you look up at him with hearts in your eyes, your face heating up just from being this close to the boy.

"gosh, my poor baby! just look at how red her face is, she's overwhelmed!" lia exclaims, stroking your hair gently from behind you, then turning to lightly hit seungmin on the chest. the rest of your group all laugh as her and yeji both begin lightly scolding seungmin and hyunjin.

with jisung still not moving, you only look up at him. a pretty smile takes over his face as he laughs at your guys' friends. you can't help yourself as you reach out to pinch one of his cheeks, your face heating up again as he looks at you with a pout.

"what was that for," he tries not to laugh, his bottom lip still sticking out. hiding your giddy expression, you shrug, turning to ryujin before he says anything else.

"did you ever get your phone back from the principal?"

"no!" she frowns deeply, crossing her arms and glaring towards the principals office. she had been forced to go all day without it when a teacher took it in first period. "i went to go get it last period but she said that since it's happened so many times she gets to keep it here all weekend. which, by the way, is a rule that i have never heard at this school!" she nearly shouts, and everyone in your friend group just stares at her.

"sorry, i'm just mad about my phone," she mumbles, arms crossed.

most of the group nods understandingly and returns to their conversations. but you look around and pull together a group of six; you, ryujin, chaeryeong, seungmin, jeongin, and jisung. they all look at you curiously as you motion for them to take a few steps away from everyone else.

"why don't we get your phone back? like, tonight," you look at each of them. they all consider it for a moment, ryujin the only one who doesn't look unsure. "no one will be here past eight. that's when even the last security guard gets tired and goes home, and we already know how to sneak into the office," you point between yourself and the other two girls.

"how?"

"why does that matter?"

"well, i mean, i'm just saying, i don't know how, so this is obviously something you did without me," jeongin grumbles, arms crossed and pouting childishly.

"god, hush up!" chaeryeong lightly smacks his head, not hard enough to actually hurt him. "bigger things are going on than when we hotboxed the office without you scrubs," she smirks, eyes on you now as she waits for you to continue.

the boys stare at you three in shock, seeming more offended than before. "the betrayal," jisung can't help but smile as he speaks, your heart racing you just smile and look away.

"anyways, it wouldn't be too hard. all we have to do is plan a little and come back around nine or something tonight. are you guys down? we can hotbox the office again?" you grin at them, knowing that's all it'll take to get them to agree.

and they all do.

"i would have been on board either way, hell yeah," jisung ruffles your hair, making your heart clench as you giggle and push his hand away.

"on board for what?"

chan, yeji, and lia all walk up to you, curious and already suspecting something bad. the three of them are easily the most parent-like friends in your group. they all tend to try to steer you and the others away from trouble, and you know they wouldn't love this plan. 'just be patient instead,' they would no doubt tell ryujin. the six of you know that's much less fun, though.

"nothing. just sungie and minnie agreeing to help us four with an assignment this weekend," you smile at your older friends. they eye you suspiciously but let it go, deciding that ignorance is bliss.

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"jesus, han, please let me drive back," ryujin shakes her head, fixing her hoodie as you climb out of han's car.

"no way, i'm not that bad! besides, you probably have road rage and i don't fuck with that," he dangles the keys in front of her before shoving them in his pocket.

"he's not that bad," you assure ryujin. she looks at you as if saying 'of course you think so,' and you three continue towards the school gate to meet the other half of your group.

you and ryujin came with jisung, only because he lives closer to you guys. and seungmin lives much closer to jeongin and chaeryeong, so you guys are meeting them at the front gate.

as you guys walk up to the tall gate, you can already see seungmin, jeongin, and chaeryeong come down on the other side. ryujin is quick to jump onto it, grinning down at the three already inside your campus.

"can't believe you guys started without us! how lame!"

"well, when you guys take forever," seungmin responds, offering your friend a hand as she comes down on their side.

"blame mr. grandpa driver over there," she lazily nods in jisung's direction, letting the older boy help her land softly. the four of them wait for you and han as he only rolls his eyes, offering you a boost to climb up.

you let him help you and the two of you make your way over the gate quickly, landing with your friends with ease.

"okay, so we all know where the piggy's office is," chaeryeong speaks up, pulling her beanie down as you all look to her. "i know how to pick locks, so i'll take care of that. after, it would be easiest to leave through the window, it leaves us closer to where we parked and it's just quicker. also it's more fun to leave the window open to let her know someone was in there. sounds like a nice big 'fuck you' to me," she smiles sweetly.

the principal tends to be a bit of a bully. she's been rude to each of your friends on multiple occasions, even the sweetest ones. so it's not like you guys are doing this only for fun. or only the get ryujinnie's phone. she also deserves it, which is why you and the other girls have done it before too.

you guys all head for the office, your steps hurried and quiet just in case anyone is still on campus. it's unlikely, but you all still wanted to be careful.

once you reach the door to the principals office, all of you stand behind chaeryeong and wait for her to get the door open. it only takes her a minute to get it, and she pulls the pins out of the keyhole and pushes the door open.

"hurry up, everyone," she smiles, pushing each of you in gently. she enters last, closing and locking the door behind her as you and ryujin go straight for the desk.

"this one," ryujin mumbles as she reaches for one of the drawers. you help her rummage through it in search of her phone, eventually finding it under a stack of papers and folders. "bitch," she grumbles while slamming the drawer shut, flopping down into the principals chair and pulling her backpack off her shoulders.

unzipping her bag, ryujin begins pulling out the essentials for you guys to hotbox the office as planned. you and chae begin going around the office to close the vents and make sure the windows are closed. the guys all watch as you prepare, only finding it funny that you guys are so used to this.

"so how often do you guys break in here?" jisung questions. you shrug and pull your sweater off, stuffing it under the door to close the gap. hannie's eyes travel over you, now only in a black top and shorts, a smile tugging at his lips as you straighten back up.

"not often... but often enough to know what the fuck we're doing," ryujin speaks from behind the desk, comfortably rolling a couple blunts in the principals chair. everyone gravitates closer to her, you and chaeryeong sitting on the desk and the guys hovering around the desk and the windows behind it.

"i still can't believe you guys do this without me. the other two losers i can understand, but come on! i'm in the same year as you guys, that's supposed to mean solidarity," jeongin complains, coming to rest his chin on chae's shoulder and watch ryujin work on the blunts.

"yah, these two 'losers' are your seniors, innie, watch it," seungmin scolds playfully, stepping closer to pull the younger boys hair lightly. jeongin sits up and pouts, rubbing his head in fake pain.

"oh, both of you stop. i get why they wanted to hang out without us. we're fucking annoying," jisung smacks them both in the back of the head, sitting next to you on the desk afterwards. you gaze up at him with a grin, your heart speeding up just like always as he comes closer to you.

he notices your stare, letting his eyes move down to meet yours. "hi," he smiles cutely, patting your head.

"hi," you manage to respond, looking back to your other friends and trying to remember to breathe as he pulls your head onto his shoulder, his arm resting across your shoulders.

ryujin finishes rolling three blunts, passing them to whoever has their lighter out already. jisung, ryujin, and seungmin end up with them and they share with whoever they stand closest to. you share with jisung, ryujin shares with jeongin, and seungmin shares with chaeryeong.

as all three blunts are lit up and all six of you begin taking hits, the room slowly but surely fills with smoke.

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"ah! oh, oh my god!" you all gasp for your breath through laughter nearly an hour after you start smoking. jisung rolls around on the floor and usually you'd call him extra to joke around more, but now you're right there with him as everyone else clutches onto some sort furniture or something to keep themselves up.

"s-stop my stomach hurts!" chaeryeong cries out, still giggling through it all. jeongin tries to sit up in the principals chair, failing as he collapses in more laughter. seungmin sits across from him in a chair, one that students sit in when they come to visit the principal, the two of them enacting some sort of scene where jeongin imitates the principal.

usually you guys would all laugh at the joke and move on, but given that everyone is high as shit right now, it's been the joke you guys have been dying at for the last twenty minutes. all of you try to catch your breaths as your laughter starts dying down, everyone finally calming down.

"oh, fuck," ryujin gasps, suddenly sitting up in her spot and looking towards the door. you all look too, silent as you wait for her to say more. "i just heard footsteps!" she looks at all of you, eyes wide and ready to leave already. all of you must be paranoid or something, because not one of you questions her. instead you all jump into action, speaking in hushed voices as you all make sure you have everything.

when everyone thinks they have all of their stuff, you all gather by one window and wait for chaeryeong to get it open. the footsteps become louder and clearer as she picks the lock, cursing out loud at the fact that your school had to make sure it couldn't be opened without a key even inside. once she hears the locks shift she pulls the bobby pins out, sliding the window open quickly.

"shit, everyone go!" seungmin speaks as jeongin crawls through first, the two helping everyone get out and on the ground safely. but just as it's your turn, you realize what you're forgetting.

"oh god, my hoodie," you meet eyes with jisung, and he moves aside to let you rush to grab it, telling seungmin to go while he waits for you. bending over to snatch your sweater from it's spot on floor, you can hear the last couple of footsteps before the person stops. in front of the door. you come up as the lock begins to click, a key being inserted to unlock it.

"i swear, it stinks in here," you hear a voice. straightening back up, you clutch your sweater to your chest and slowly back up. it feels like you black out, your heart is pounding and you can't think of exactly what you should do. you don't hear it, but jisung is quietly calling for you to hurry up and climb out of the window already.

before you can process anything properly, you feel a hand grab you and drag you into the open door to the left, a small room full of filing cabinets which you guys were goofing around in not long ago. now jisung is pulling you into it, closing the door just as the other one swings open, the schools principal walking in.

"oh, shit," the principal groans, the door slamming. han still has you in his arms, his chest to your back and a hand over your mouth. your try to look back at him, but you can't turn around fully in his arms, so you just listen to the woman on the other side of the door swearing some more.

"god, those stupid kids must have been in here again! it smells like god damn marijuana and my window is wide open! that's just rude, if you ask me," she grumbles to someone, probably on the phone. "i should really drop by on weekends more often, try to catch them! i'm sure this hasn't been the only time and probably won't be the last... i find this out all because i forgot my ipod."

she must have put the phone on speaker, because as she goes through a drawer you can barely hear a girls voice respond to her. "stop, mom, if nothing is missing then it's fine! leave those high schoolers alone, already... and stop using an ipod you have a phone for that!"

you and jisung almost bust out laughing, his hand on your mouth keeping yours contained and one of your hands going to cover his. the principal tries arguing, but her daughter keeps telling her she's wrong in some way. as the fight continues, she leaves the office.

both of you take your hands from each other's faces, neither of you stepping away from each other as you wait. "think she'll come back?" you glance back at him, shaking your head slightly as his eyes stare into yours.

"probably not, she's lazy. i'm surprised she came back for her ipod," you pause for a moment, still looking up at him. you two struggle to look away from each other for a moment, your mind blurring as he licks his lips.

suddenly one of your phones starts ringing, the sound making you flinch away from him. both of you search for your phones in your pockets, pulling them out and seeing that it's your phone.

"hey, we just saw her car leaving! are you guys coming down or what?" chaeryeong's voice comes through the phone. you put her on speaker for jisung to hear, opening the door and walking back into the office.

"small problem with that..." you sigh as you see the window is closed. "she closed the window. and locked it," you try without success to push it open anyways, han coming to stand next to you as you both peer out of the window.

"well, shit. it wouldn't be a problem... if i didn't lose my bobby pins climbing out," your friend sighs. you can hear the others all yelling and groaning in the background, chaeryeong whining as they do. "i'm sorry, y/n and jisung! i'll have min drive us to go get some, we'll be back, don't move!" she hangs up after that, leaving you and jisung stuck in the office.

"no clue where we'd go, but okay," jisung sighs, running a hand through his hair.

you look over at him and can't seem to hold back the laughter bubbling in your chest, one hand over your face as your try harder. he looks down at you, confused but still smiling. "what?" he questions cutely.

"i don't even know," you gasp. "just... this is so funny for some reason," you realize suddenly that you're still high, nearly falling over as you lean against the window. he stares down at you, starting to find the humor in it as he watches you, and soon enough he finds it hard not to laugh too.

"i-i think we're still a little fucked up," jisung manages to get out, placing his hands on your shoulders, shaking you lightly as he continues laughing.

"no shit, sungie," you reach up to smush his cheeks with both of your hands, giggling even more at his face as you do. he takes your wrists and brings your hands away from his face, his laughter fading as he gazes down at you.

"i like when you call me that. it sounds better coming from your mouth than other people," his charming smile and deep voice nearly kill you. he chuckles a little when all you do is stare up at him, admiration and longing in your eyes.

"stop," you whine in embarrassment as he lets go of your wrists. you bring your hands up to feel your cheeks, your skin much warmer than usual as you blush.

"no way," he mumbles before letting one of his hands come to the back of your neck, pulling you towards him for a kiss. you gasp a little as his lips touch yours, the way his mouth moves over yours making your knees weak.

han's other hand goes to your lower back, tugging you against him. when he pulls back from the kiss, you look up at him, feeling happiness buzzing through you.

you don't think you've ever been this close to jisung, not like this. maybe standing together in a crowd, or sitting next to each other in a packed car. but never with his arms actually around you, with his face hardly centimeters away from yours. your heart pounds because of it.

"you know i've liked you for like, a while now, right?" he asks you softly, resting his forehead on yours. you're not sure what to say, you don't usually do well with talking about your feelings for someone, not to that person. you just lean forward to leave small kisses against the skin on his neck, hoping he'll get it from that.

he chuckles as your lips move against him. "i know you've liked me too. jeonginnie has a big mouth." you move back with a pout.

"what?! how long have you known..." you whine, bringing your arms around him and nuzzling your head in his chest. his chest vibrates with his small laugh, teasingly pinching at your hips.

"not too long... a week or so..." you're able to hear his grin in his voice, your heart swelling as his hands begin moving up and down your back. "i just was too scared to bring it up until now, i guess," he brings two fingers under your chin, making you look up at him again. "i have no clue why, now i wish i kissed you a lot sooner."

you feel yourself melt as he gazed down at you, eyes closing as he moves to catch your lips on his again. as his tongue slips into your mouth, he steps backwards, not letting your mouths disconnect as he moves towards the principals chair.

you two part for only a second as he sits down, guiding you onto his lap, you both giggle at each other giddyly. he doesn't hesitate to bring your lips back to his, smirking through the kiss. arms tightening around your waist, he hugs you close to him as you explore each other mouths.

after making out for a few minutes, he moves down to your neck, hands moving up and down your thighs and gripping your ass every so often. a choked moan slips from your lips as he sucks and nips at a spot near your collarbone, your teeth sinking into your lower lip to stop any more from coming out.

jisung leans back slightly, his expression smug and eyes hooded as he stares up at you. "did you just moan?" he asks, amused and letting his hands roam over your body.

"no," your face heats up and you pout a little. one of his eyebrows goes up, that cockiness still very evident in his grin. "shut up," you mumble, putting your head on his shoulder. you leave a small kiss where his neck and shoulder meet, your own grin growing slightly.

"i'm sure i could get you to moan, too, sung," you chuckle a little, one of your hands going to play with his waistband. you see his eyebrows go up, eyes wide as his breath catches.

"wha- ...here..?"

you hold back more laughter, leaning back and nodding before going to kiss his lips again. he eagerly kisses you back, one hand on your hips and the other tangled in your hair at the back of your head. as you kiss him you can feel him pulling you closer to him, your body already pressed against his, just trying to be as close to you as possible.

hands roaming his body, you can feel his hard chest under the soft material of his shirt. both of you smile as you make out, this moment long awaited for each of you. your hands go under his shirt, cold fingers making him shiver and dig his own fingers into your hips. you hum quietly as he moves to leave hickies on your neck and collarbone, his hands tugging lightly at your shorts.

he pushes you back from him gently, gazing up at you with a smirk. "stand up, baby," he speaks huskily. you obey him without second thought, standing in front of him and letting him pull your shorts down. his lower lip goes between his teeth as he eyes you, hands slowly coming up to slip under your top, removing that next.

only in your bra and underwear now, you go to your knees and start unbuttoning his black jeans. you look up at him through your lashes, smiling innocently as he watches you tug his pants off, hips lifting slightly to help you.

his head falls back and he tries to hold back a throaty moan, failing terribly, when you bring one of your hands to rub him over his boxers. in no time he's panting and fully hard under your hand, so you take his cock out of his boxers and give him a mischievous look before licking a long stripe from his base to his tip.

he lets out a loud moan as you wrap your lips around his head, sucking and swirling your tongue. "ah, shit..." he swears breathlessly. "get the fuck up here already," he growls, pulling you back up on to his lap and roughly attaching his lips to yours.

one hand tangled in your hair, the other travels up your thigh to your panties, thumb finding your clit immediately. you moan into his mouth as he rubs circles over the material, the friction from the lace only adding to the sensation.

two of his fingers go to push your underwear to the side, rubbing up and down your folds to feel how wet you already are. you almost have to pull back from the kiss when he pushes a finger inside you, but his hand at the back of your head keeps you in place, his tongue still in your mouth.

after pumping in and out of you for a moment he adds one more finger, this time letting you pull away to whine and put your head on his shoulder, chuckling as you do. "what, babygirl? what's the matter," he coos, his tone smug and proud under the fake concern.

"fuck jisung, please," you breathe.

"please what, sweetheart," he speaks monotonously, forcing you to look at him, one hand on your neck. he doesn't apply any pressure, but even just the feeling of his hand on your throat is almost enough to make you moan again.

"please fuck me already."

he grins up at you, taking his finger from inside you and lifting your hips to line his dick with your entrance. his nails dig into your skin as he pulls you down onto him, both of you moaning loudly as he fills you completely.

he gives you a second to adjust, your head buried in his neck, before slowly dragging your hips against his. panting, he lets his head rest on your shoulder, eyes closed and still holding onto your hips tightly.

you moan and whine as you feel him moving inside you, hitting all the right spots. he lifts his head to look at you, leaving a kiss on your jaw as he brings one hand to unclip your bra, shocking you that he can even do it with one hand. you don't time have to react though, jisung smashing his lips to yours and his hands moving over your body, stopping to massage your boobs as you ride him.

pleasure washes over your body, making it hard for you to keep up a decent pace. he smiles as you still try, eventually wrapping his arms around you and standing up, setting you down on the desk instead.

his lips touch yours as he starts thrusting into you, slowly building up his pace until you're clinging onto him tightly as he snaps his hips against your quickly, moaning into his shoulder.

"oh, fuck," he groans. "i can't believe you're letting me fuck you at school," his voice is breathy as he continues pounding into you quickly. "right here on the principals desk... what a little slut," he smirks, pulling you by the hair to force you to look at him.

you whine as his eyes burn into you, one thumb moving to rub at your clit. "only for me though, isn't that right, baby? you'll only be my little slut from now on, huh?" you nod and moan pathetically, eyes closing as he keeps a firm grip on your hair.

"keep your fucking eyes open," he mutters, his hand going from your hair to your neck. this time he tightens his fingers around your throat lightly, you forcing your eyes open as he does. he lets out a throaty moan when you clench around him, already feel your high approaching quickly.

"you're gonna cum already, aren't you?" he chuckles as you try to get out a 'yes', the hand on your heat goes to pull one of your legs around his waist, making you cry out loudly as he hits a new, deeper spot inside you.

he grunts while pounding into you, doubting he'll last much longer either as you keep tightening around his cock. his hand tightens even more, his lip between his teeth as he watches your face, your eyes struggling to stay open as the knot in your core builds and builds.

"ji, i-" you just barely manage to get out, cut off by your orgasm when you feel him hit your spot once more. he groans and curses as you cum around him, quickly pulling out and pumping himself a few times until he releases as well.

his cum lands on your thighs and the desk underneath you, both of you out of breath as he loosens his grip on your throat. you lick your lips and glance down at his white seed on the dark-colored wood. giggling lightly, your eyes going back to jisung to see him smiling affectionately down at you.

"here," he reaches for the box of tissues on the other side of the desk, taking a few and wiping your legs and the desk clean before throwing them away. next, he hands you your clothes off of the floor and gathers his own, pulling his jeans and shirt back on as you start getting dressed again too.

once you're both fully dressed again, he pulls you into his arms for a warm hug. he sighs happily hearing your soft laughter, slightly muffled by his shirt.

"please say i can tell everyone that you're my girlfriend now," he mumbles, cheek smushed against your hair. you take a step back, beaming at him as you nod slightly.

"please do."

his face lights up and he can feel his heart flutter, grinning happily down at you. one of his hands comes up to your cheek, caressing your facing gently as he leans down to leave a sweet kiss on your lips.

you feel as if you're glowing as your mouths move against each other, the only thing you're able to pay attention to is jisung. which is why you hardly notice as the door to the office swings open, chaeryeong knealing on the carpet and everyone else huddled together behind her.

"oh, shit!" you hear seungmin exclaim loudly, making you and han flinch apart, seeing them all standing there in shock. there's a long pause where you all just look at each other, no one knowing what to say.

"well, fuck," ryujin speaks up first. "finally!" everyone nods and mutters in agreement, you just rolling your eyes as the boy next to you laughs lightly, putting an arm around you and guiding you out of the office.

"k, guys, let's go," jisung chuckles, walking past your friends and down the hall towards the school exit.

[hellreads]

For anyone who saw this, i urge u to read Right of Way. Okay io, my heart. First, as a jk stan, i feel like a several punches hit me from every direction. I'm the kind of reader who easily immersed into the character especially w the pronoun 'you' i feel like someone is reading me a story of my life, so yes i am bawling, usually it took me a few fluff or smut fic to simmer down the emotion but not this one. I went to bed with swollen eyes. I couldn't read a shit after that.

I will put all my answers under the cut because this is RoW and my emotions for this fic has no end T_T | 🍒

❤️ Rara | 🍒 Io (I decided to answer it as if we’re just chatting and not hurting rip our weak hearts for RoW Jimin, Jungkook, and OC)

[AN EXCHANGE FULL OF SPOILERS]

❤️ : For anyone who saw this, I urge u to read Right of Way. Okay io, my heart. First, as a jk stan, i feel like a several punches hit me from every direction. I’m the kind of reader who easily immersed into the character especially w the pronoun ‘you’ i feel like someone is reading me a story of my life, so yes i am bawling, usually it took me a few fluff or smut fic to simmer down the emotion but not this one. I went to bed with swollen eyes. I couldn’t read a shit after that.

🍒 : Rara, I feel you!!! I am the type of reader who hardcore immerses herself even if the main character gets killed or is a ghost because the best way for me to relate and feel everything to the core is to immerse, I can never read something as an outsider, okay maybe there’s a few I started out as an outsider but eventually caved in (even named OC fics lol, it’s fun to be someone else), sorry to break it to you but NO FIC CAN EVER HEAL THE DAMAGE RIGHT OF WAY HAS DONE TO YOU, NO FIC CAN MAKE YOU FORGET OF THE EVENTS, THE MISTAKES, THE REGRETS, THE PENANCE, THE ACCEPTANCE, THE WEIGHT THIS FIC WILL HAVE ON YOU IS TOO HEAVY YOU NEED A SUPPORT/SUFFER GROUP. 

ONCE YOU READ RoW YOUR HEART WILL NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN.

❤️ : RoW jk is childish, to me. But maybe he is just naive or confused. For him to fall for oc but still care about sohee is kind of dick move to me, but someone once told me “we cannot choose who fall in love with, and we certainly cannot choose how it will happen either”. That’s their fates. I’m pretty satisfied w the ending bcs there’s no bad person in this story, just bad decisions. What saddens me is, it seems like only OC who pays the price.

🍒 : That is true that he seems like a childish one but isn’t that the beauty of being a child? loving without limits, with all your heart? no hesitations, just trusting that love will be kind, good, untainted even, he saw something in OC that’s why he opened up himself to her and fell for her even if we cannot fully understand the set-up they agreed to have, I hated him for staying with Sohee, I could never understand that part but then again have you seen how feral Sohee was for Jungkook? the girl would kill for the boy, she snaked her way to get him and she’d do anything for history to not repeat itself, but the gods said fuck you Sohee we’ll let the boy stray, he cheated once, he’ll cheat again, what makes you think you’re special hun? you’re right nobody is a bad person here since they’re all humans, something led them to commit the sins they’ve done in this lifetime…

Sohee’s Fault was stealing Jungkook from Seulgi, she was head over heels for him she didn’t think twice, she just wanted to get him at all costs even if it means karma will find her sooner or later, she lusted after him and eventually loved him so there’s no way she was letting go, hence, she carefully planned everything so she gets pregnant with his baby, sick right? but the reality is she’s not the only one who did this thing to their partner, she just didn’t fucking care as long as she keeps Jungkook.

Jimin’s Fault was trusting and loving OC too much he shrugged every sign of her infidelity under the rug, what a libra thing to do Jimin (I am a Libra and I can attest to this Libra trait especially when in love) he was too blinded by love that he gave her every benefit of the doubt whenever she skips dates, goes home late, always tired, even asking to be fucked dog style, sigh, he lost the love of his life to his best friend (well he lost his loves twice to the same boy) she was nothing but an empty shell pre-programmed to respond to him like a lover would and that fucking hurt, I think among the four characters here he received the most damage cluelessly, what a poor loving soul, my heart shattered for him, he only wanted to give her the world but she decided to run to a different planet.

Jungkook’s Fault was being weak and not opening himself up to Sohee, if he only opened up to her the way he did to OC then this wouldn’t have happened,  she’s always been there but something is still missing but he should’ve talked things with her instead of finding solace in the arms of OC, because of the secret class they shared they had to write something together which I think could’ve been written minus their drunken state but whoops this is their fate, maybe in another universe they belonged together and they’re trying it as well in this one? (coherence fucked up my mind so I keep thinking of alternate universes) also, Jungkook did nothing to stop the sins they’re doing, he’s into deep inside her in every sense and there was no going back, he was willing to ruin relationships and friendships but fate was cruel, he only had a taste of his euphoria before everything came crashing down.

OC’s Fault was thinking she was strong enough to fight her strong feelings and urges, she thought she was not capable of doing such thing, she wasn’t a bad person, maybe the stable relationship really got to her (long-term relationships can get boring and it isn’t pretty) and having a taste of something or someone new is titillating, also, it wouldn’t be bad right? because it’s the worst, just like Jungkook she gave in to lust, god their sexual chemistry and actual chemistry off-sex is something every lover should have except they aren’t lovers but sinners trying to milk each other everything they got before the world reveals their secrets, she knew it was wrong but she always kept coming back for more, as much as she tried to stay away and forget about everything she keeps spiraling down with Jungkook, it was no longer a mistake but a choice. ultimately, she had to pay the price because that was her predicament, she got the short end of the stick, everything was ruined for her, her relationship with Jimin, Sohee, and Jungkook.

❤️ : If i could wish for a different ending i would say a happy ending but that is unreal. I would want oc to end up w jk, sohee didnt ended up pregnant. (Thats the thing isn’t it, when u’re pregnant u’re bound for life, for the sake of the child). Maybe oc can end up w jimin, she will live her whole life as jimin wife and also as a liar. Point is, the ending is “this is bound to happen, someone have to take the bullet” n i think it’s necessary rather than satisfying,

🍒 : You’re absolutely right about somebody taking the bullet and that’s obviously OC, this is why it fucking hurts, you know for a fact that she didn’t do all of this on her own, it’s not like she forcefully had her way with Jungkook, I’m just so appalled because he was a fuckboy and suddenly lost all knowledge and imagination on this exact position “It’s actually pretty shimple… The girl is straddling the guy, her back facing him while her face is turned to the side so he can kiss her.” imo, he tricked her by playing dumb, maybe it’s true they’re tipsy but he constantly bugged OC after which means he remembers everything they’ve done that one sinful night…

~ the first ending I hoped for was Jimin and OC getting back together, I prayed so hard that he’ll have the heart to forgive and take her back but this the reality of cheating and getting cheated on, no matter how much you try to mend and put the pieces back together it will never fit perfectly again, edges now cracked and torn there’s no way their perfect relationship will ever be the same, as one of my favorite songs said “with each passing day the pain still stays the same” no matter how hard Jimin tries, his trust and love for her will never be the same, he will always doubt her and be reminded of her infidelity, it will not be a pleasant ride for them so it’s better that they didn’t end up being together because even if time heals all wounds the scar she gave him will always hurt like a salted fucking open wound.

~ the second one I hoped for was that Jungkook gives up everything even if Sohee was pregnant, this is brutal I know but if he truly loved OC he would keep his promise and be with her, with or without a child growing inside his girlfriend because it’ll never be the same for them but unlike Jimin, Sohee was willing to try and forget because he loves Jungkook too much, I applaud her for trying but I believe she will never be truly happy, she will be constantly reminded of stealing Jungkook from Seulgi, forcing their child into this world as a trap to keep him, and the devastating fact that Jungkook was willing to give everything up for OC, and that for a short period of time he loved her like the world was about to end, and end it did, Sohee won in this lifetime, suffering is a small price to pay to be with Jungkook ig, they can try but reality will come checking up on them once in a while and it won’t be fun, their relationship is damaged but for Hikaru their innocent angel they will try. 

~ the last and ultimate ending I prayed for was OC ending up alone, another savage wish because I love suffering, but this was the only way for her heart to be free from all the pain and guilt, she suffered long enough by keeping secrets and coming back to Jungkook’s arms, she wasn’t a bad person, she was just weak and lost the battle in holding tightly onto her morals because love is something you can’t run away from, yes, I believe that she and Jungkook fell in love it was evident in the incriminating poem he made her “the tiny islands of your birthmark leading me to your center like a happy trail” he paid attention to every part of her and you don’t do that to a random fuck, it was hard not to love the pair despite the sins they’ve done because fuck I’m crying again, my chest now heaving from too much pain ugh, they were perfect (these lines should’ve been on my second ending but whatever I’ll get to my point) if only Jimin and Sohee didn’t exist or sure let them join the picture except they’re just random friends, but they’re not, and that’s why it sucks that she had to endure all of this losing a lover, losing a friend, and losing a soulmate (because fuck the way Jungkook loved her screams soulmate to me except he’s tied to another T_T)

❤️ : My favorite moment would be when jimin found the poems, man it went down like I’m falling from a cliff straight into the coldest sea on earth. U know when u ride a rollercoaster, on the falling part, u feel like ur heart is at ur throat? That how i feel as jimin reads the poem. Now imagine being jimin. Imagine being cheated on in the worst way anyone could possibly imagine. He was ready to propose to oc, jk is his bff, she fucked jk while he was away, on the couch next to their photo…

🍒 : RARA, I FELT THAT, I RECENTLY VISITED A FAMOUS THEME PARK AND FUCK THE ROLLERCOASTER RIDE THERE TOOK MY SOUL, ALL I SHOUTED OUT WAS LOOOOOORRRRRRDDDDD AND I DIED ~ anyway, that poem part fucked me up, I was literally bawling my eyes out, I have been cheated on but if I happened to discover the affair the way Jimin did I would die, when I discovered my boyfriend of almost 8 years cheated on me my heart froze, literally fucking freezing cold and not a single tear dropped that day, the following days were hellish, that’s when I wanted to cry and release all my pain but still no tears (I knew it was coming I guess) ~ this is why the length of a relationship doesn’t really matter because it’s never an assurance that your partner will be faithful to you, maybe things got boring okay I admit to that but what I can never understand is, why stay and cheat and hurt your partner if you’re no longer happy.

no one owns anybody nor is anyone entitled to own anybody or have them as a back-up in case your mission to cheat or flirt fails, that is just fucking sick.

❤️ : I love it that I major in literature study, bcs i can keep my mind sane instead of just blaming myself (oc), i see it from each characters’ pov and god, the author deserves a standing ovation. This is so many asks hehe, i feel like i still have a lot to say but I couldn’t think straight right now, too clouded by the angst smoke, hehe p:s i love u more!

🍒 : ohhh that’s an interesting fact, my major and my profession has nothing to do with literature or anything, in fact, people who studied my major probs hate English ghasdjfghjdsagfhjsadgfjksd, I’m just used to seeing both sides of the story and trying to understand why they are like that, did something happen to them to end up in the situation they’re in? what is missing in their lives? what are they craving for? what tipped off the balance? nobody wanted to be in the predicament they’re in, Sohee, Jimin, Jungkook, and OC were victims of time and circumstance, just because things didn’t turn out the way you want them to doesn’t mean life or fate or destiny is cruel, this is the nature and balance of this universe, if they give everything to us freely even if we tried taking it in the most inappropriate or evil way there would be nothing but chaos, I just hope that somewhere out there our girl OC is happy and having the time of her life, I’m no longer wishing for Jimin to come back, I just want all of them to heal and learn from their experience, it’s sad and painful but they were just never meant to be, Jimin nor Jungkook was never meant for OC, OC wherever you are my love, I hope you’ve healed and loved yourself well and put back the pieces of your broken self together, love will find you and it will be beautiful.

[harryconcepts]

part III for the guys the gals and the nonbinary pals

just sat in a parking lot for 4 hours with my besties and why do i feel like harry would do that 😭 like you can't sleep and he doesn't want to go to sleep if you can't so so throws off the blankets and says "come on" and you're like ??? where are we going even tho you're already getting out of bed and he just goes out to the garage and opens your car door for you and then gets in and picks a random direction and starts driving 😭 and then u stop and get french fries or something and then he pulls into a random parking lot and you just sit there for hours in your pajamas talking about nothing and everything and sharing fries 😔

I'm so clumsy like I have bruises all the time and I feel like harry would be all 🥺 gotta be more careful baby i don't want you to get hurt 🥺 and give them kissies 😔

not to be h word on main but harry would def suck on your clit until you cried and your legs were shaking and you pushed him away

imagine going from fwb to more with harry 👀 like one day he asks you to come over😌 and you're just having a bad day but you're acting like everything is fine bc you don't want to dump all this emotional stuff on him bc you're not sure if he likes you the same way😔 and then you're kissing but he can tell you're acting a little off so he pulls away to look at you and says "are you okay? we don't have to do this" and you're just shaking your head and saying it's fine but he pushes a little and says "I need you to talk to me, need to know what's going on" and you say "I should just go, I'm not really feeling it tonight" and start to get off his lap but he puts his hands on your hips and says "you don't have to go, you could stay and tell me about it?" and you think he's just being nice but then you look at him again and you can tell he really wants to know how you're doing 😔 so you sigh and tell him everything 😔 and he would be so comforting and sweet 😔 and that's when you both realize you have feelings for each other 😌

I saw this ad for this oil that's supposed to make you more ✨sensitive✨ down there and why can i see him using that when you come visit on tour 👀 like not the first time you have sex bc it's all rushed and desperate but then a few hours later when you're just laying around together he goes "so I was shopping the other day... saw this" and hands you a little bag with the bottle inside 😌 and your eyes go wide when you realize what it is and he leans closer to you and kisses your neck and whispers "I think we should try it out" 😌😌😌

what if you're at a party with harry and your social battery is running out and he can tell 😪 he would see how you're kind of zoning out and lean over and whisper "are you tired baby? we can go home" and then kiss your cheek 😔 and you say "no it's fine we can stay" bc you don't want to make him go home but he knows you're really not feeling it anymore 😔 he would stand up and pull you up too and start saying his goodbyes 😔 and ofc he would be all "I'm just really tired tonight" so you don't feel like it's your fault 😔😔 And then as soon as you get home he's getting ready for bed bc he's excited to cuddle you 😔😔

no but walking around Harry's house with only his sweatpants on 😵‍💫 no shirt or anything 😌 and he comes down to see what you're up to and he's like okkkkkk 😌😌😌 and obvi he's pretty h word but also so happy to see you comfortable in his house 😔

harry would def ask you to sleep in one of his hoodies for a few nights before he leaves on tour or a trip so he can bring it with him and have something that smells like you 😔

ok but harry taking care of you when you're sick 😔 like you tell him to stay away bc you dont want him to get sick but he refuses to leave you 😔 and if you were cold bc you have a fever he would cuddle you to help you stay warm 😔 and just let you sleep all day 😔😔😔

my boobs hurt and I know I'm about to get my period and I know harry would be the actual best 😔 like if you were having mood swings or being more bitchy than normal he would be a little 🤨 but he def wouldn't get mad or snap at you 😔 he would just kind of have that "I'm not going to fight with you" attitude even tho he could just be snappy right back at you 😔 he would be willing to do whatever you need to make you feel better and he would hold you and cuddle you even if you had been mean to him earlier 😔😔😔and he would take a bath with you that's way too hot for his taste bc he knows it makes you feel better 😔 and he would make your favorite foods to make you smile 😔😔😔😔😔

harry would absolutely go feral seeing you ride him for the first time JGXKGSKGSTJS he would be moaning so much and gripping your hips tight enough to leave bruises and then when he's getting close he would reach down to rub your cl*t and say "come on baby, need to feel you, need you to cum" with his voice all stuttery and deep 😵‍💫

omg smoking for the first time with harry 😵‍💫 it's jus you and him on his porch one night and your legs are on his lap and you're wearing one of his hoodies 😵‍💫and he makes a big show of taking the first hit and says "just watch what i do" and then he holds it to your lips 😵‍💫 and you start coughing and he just smiles a little bit and rubs your back and says "it's ok, everyone coughs their first time" and once you get it under control you're wiping the little tears from your eyes and saying "im sorry, that's embarrassing" and he goes "not at all" and then pulls you into his lap and says "can we try something? might be easier" and you nod so he takes another hit and puts his hand on your cheek and pulls you in and kisses you and blows the smoke into your mouth😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

harry would be so good when you didn't feel well before your period 😔 like holding a hot water bottle against your stomach and rubbing your back and taking a nap with you 😔 and you would tell him to wake you up in half an hour bc you have a lot to get done but he would just let you sleep and take care of everything for you 😔

i feel like harry def gets in a mood where he just wants to make out with you 😵‍💫 just holding you on his lap 😵‍💫 and he sneaks his hand between your legs to rub you over your clothes 😵‍💫and you can literally feel his evil little smile against your lips when you gasp and whimper 😵‍💫

why do I feel like harry would get so soft seeing you without makeup 😔 like if you were part of a friend group and he'd always had a little crush on you but never did anything and then he heard you had a bad day so he shows up at your house with Chinese food and a terrible movie you can laugh at together 😔 and you're in your pajamas w no makeup and you say "oh in sorry I look like a mess right now" and he goes 'you don't, you look beautiful, you always look beautiful"😔😔😔😔 and now his crush is much bigger 😔

wait omg I have a concept so imagine you and harry are besties and everyone else can tell you like each other but neither of you will admit it 😌 and then at one point you're dating a guy and harry is all 😒 bc he doesn't have the right to say anything but he still hates it. and then you find out that the guy cheated on you so you call harry in tears and he says he'll come over right away 😔 and then he shows up at your door with your favorite food and an extra hoodie of his bc he knows you like wearing them 😔 and then he sees the 🥺 face you're making and he goes "you want the one I'm wearing, dont you" and you say "well it'll be so warm 🥺" and he rolls his eyes playfully but still takes it off and hands it to you 😔 and then you're cuddling on the couch watching a movie and you have your head resting on his chest so you can hear his heartbeat 😔 and then you tilt your head to look at him and you see that he's already looking at you instead of the movie so you smile and say "what are you looking at" and he goes "you're just so pretty" all soft and quiet and lovey 😔 and you're just looking at each other for a minute before you get really bold and lean up and kiss him 😌 and he's v surprised at first but then he puts his hands on your sides and starts kissing back 😌 and then you sit up and straddle him and start kissing down his neck and he groans and holds your hips even tighter 😌 and then you get back up to his lips and start grinding on him a little bit and he's obvi v into it but then he pulls back a little and says all out of breath "i don't- we shouldn't do this now, I feel like I'm taking advantage of you" and you look at him and say "I've wanted this since i first met you, I promise i know exactly what I'm doing" and something about that just gets him going bc he grabs your thighs and stands up 😌 and you yelp a little but put your arms around his neck 😌 and then he's walking you to your bedroom 😌 and he lays you down and says "I'm going to make you forget all about him" 😌😌😌😌 omg and then he obviously goes down on you bc he's so eager to make you forget and just wants you to feel good and he has to hold your hips bc you're moving so much 😌 and he's moaning and making the filthiest noises 😌 and then he kisses you and you're both out of breath and he goes "we don't have to do anything else, we can stop-" and you're already shaking your head and pulling him back down for another kiss 😌 and then you say "please just fuck me, I need you so bad" and ofc he's more than happy to give you anything you want 😌 and then the next morning you wake bc someone is knocking on the door but you're still cuddled in his arms 😔 so you have to get up and get it even though Harry's like "noooo don't leave me" like the cuddly baby he is 😔 and you grab your robe and open the door and it's your ex and you roll your eyes and close the door again but he puts his hand against it and says "please just hear me out, i really need to talk to you" and then Harry yells from the other room "who is it love?" and your eyes go wide bc you're not really sure what to do and then he comes around the corner with just his boxers on 😌 and you turn back to the door and say "please just leave i don't want you here" and he's trying to talk over you but harry goes "she said she doesn't want to speak with you, goodbye now" and pushes the door shut 😌 and then there's a few minutes of silence before he goes "want me to make you forget again?"

harry would go feral when he saw you wearing his clothes i just KNOW IT like maybe you're staying over at his house for the first time since you've been dating and you wake up earlier than he does so you decide to make some breakfast and you throw on the closest thing you see like his button up styles shirt 😌 and you leave it unbuttoned 😌 and then he finally comes downstairs and puts his arms around your waist to say good morning and then he realizes the shirt is open and he peeks over your shoulder and realizes you don't have anything else on and he drops his head against your shoulder and says "it's too early to be this turned on" 😌😌😌

imagine being pregnant and your baby loooooves kicking you at the worst times like when you're trying to sleep 😔 and at first it was like omg!!! and you and harry were both so excited to feel it but now it's just like please child let me sleep so you're trying everything to get her to settle down and then Harry puts his hands on your tummy and leans close and says "please leave your mum alone, we're very tired" and your eyes go wide bc she just stops kicking 😭and from then on you're convinced he's magic bc he can make her settle down right away and then after she's born there's just something special about being held by her dad that makes her fall asleep right away 😔

imagine you're cuddling w harry and he moves his hands under your shirt bc he likes feeling how warm you are 😔 but his hands are cold so you gasp and shiver and he goes "oh I'm sorry baby" and moves his hands and tucks them between the two of you to warm them up bc he never wants you to be uncomfortable 😔

the way harry would be so turned on if you had longer nails!!! and you're scratching his back when you get filthy and his mouth falls open and he can't even kiss you back bc he's moaning so much 😌 and then he's whining for you to "please do that again please"

harry would 100% put his face in your neck when you're cuddling and say "you smell so good" in a soft voice and you're confused bc you don't have any perfume on but he just thinks your natural smell is so nice and comforting 😔

harry bringing his hand between your legs after you've been kissing for a while and he gasps and says "fuck you're soaking" and you nod and try to pull him down to kiss you again and he smiles and keeps moving his fingers slowly 😌

harry would so help you study for a test 😔 like he would stay up late and go over flash cards and stuff and be hyping you up every time you got something right 😔 and then if you did well on the test he would be so so so proud of you and giving you the biggest hug and he would take you out for a special lunch or something 😔😔😔😔😔😔 and if you did bad he would be so comforting and holding you and telling you it will be ok 😔😔😔😔 and that he loves you so much and is proud of you no matter what 😔

harry cuddling you while you watch a movie and at first it's all soft but then a sex scene comes on and maybe it's something rlly filthy and he feels you shifting around a little and he smiles bc he can tell and he says "something wrong?" and you say "...no" and he goes "are you sure?" and brings his hand between your legs and rubs gently 😌 and you gasp and tense up and he goes "yeah? sensitive, aren't you" and you lean your head back on his shoulder and nod and he smiles and says "maybe i should do something about that?" 😌

wait omg i hate haunted houses and jump scares so imagine harry knows that and he's trying to convince you to go with the group 😭 he's all "please it will be so much fun" and you're like fuck no absolutely not and he goes "pleeeease I'll keep you safe i promise" and then halfway through he's screaming and hiding behind you 😭 and you're like "you said this would be fun!!!!" and he finally has to admit that he girlbossed to close to the sun jfdkgxgkdkts

he would say "you like that, don't you? you like when I call you my good girl" and you blush so hard and hide your face in his neck and he says "no, you look at me when I'm talking to you" and puts his fingers on your jaw and pushes your head back into the pillow and looks right into your eyes 😌 and he smiles when he sees how hard you're breathing and he leans closer and whispers "you do like it... filthy little thing"

having sex for the first time with harry 😵‍💫 he would be so slow and teasing and you u whimper and put your hands in his hair as he kisses down your tummy and on your thighs and you say "please don't tease me i just need you" and he would smirk and say "I want you to be ready for me baby, don't worry about anything I'm gonna make you feel so fucking good" and his voice gets softer and lower as he finally touches you 😌

so like that anon said you're fwb and you have an agreement where if neither of you find anyone else you go home together but then what if you both kind of started avoiding looking for someone else bc you want to be with each other 👀 like it starts off small where you maybe saw someone cute but you were like "eh harrys better" and then it gets to the point where you're both actively rejecting advances from anyone else 😌 and neither of you wants to admit how much you really like the other so you're just like "yeah nope couldn't find anyone :/ oh well let's go back to your place now!" and then it gets to where you don't even look for anyone else bc you know harry will be asking you to come home with him later 😌 and that's when you realize "oh shit im catching feelings huh!"

ok so like you and one of your friends have been in a friend group with harry for a while but you're not super close with him and then one day she just asks if you'd do it and you're like I mean.... if harry wants to ?? and then she asks him and he has a tiny🤏🏻 crush on you so he agrees right away 😌 and then you all go back to his house after a party or something and you're a lil nervous but also very excited 😌and he's losing his mind the whole time bc he can't believe this is really happening and then after your friend has to leave so you're getting your stuff together bc you don't want to make it awkward but then harry goes "you don't have to leave... you could stay?" and he sounds so hopeful bc he really wants you to stay bc his tiny crush is now much bigger 😌 and then later that day he's all nervous and he asks if he can kiss you and you laugh and say "you've done a lot more than that already' and he blushed and says "i know but it's different like this" and you're not exactly sure what he means but you hope he feels the same way you do 😌 and then he's laying you down and he says "i think it's time to focus on you, didn't get to do that earlier" and then it's a very long night of him finding out exactly what you like 😌

harry would literally be obsessed with figuring you out during sex i can't even explain JTSKTSKTZKG like esp if you weren't super experienced so when he asks you say you don't know and he goes well 😌 guess we'll find out won't we 😌 and he would be so cocky when he gets you to moan or does something that makes you arch up off the bed 😌

WAIT PAUSE PAUSE PAUSE WHAT IF YOU AND HARRY WERE FWB BUT NOT EXCLUSIVE AND ITS LIKE A THING WHERE IF YOU DONT FIND ANYONE ELSE THAT NIGHT YOULL GO HOME TOGETHER AND THEN ONE NIGHT YOURE OUT WITH A GROUP AND YOURE BOTH FLIRTING WITH THE SAME GIRL AND THEN WHEN HE REALIZES WHATS GOING ON HE COMES UP TO YOU AND SAYS "seems like we're in a bit of a situation... maybe you could still come over tonight... but we could invite her too?" JGXKGZKYZGLSTKSLUDLYSYSSLYKYDYLDKYDDYLFULLUFLUFLYDLYDYLD

imagine coming home late and harry was so insistent that he was gonna stay up but you know he'll be sleeping when you get home 🥺 so you're texting him on your break like "you can go to sleep it's ok i promise" and he's just like "no no I'll stay awake" and then he stops answering so you're like oooook and then you get home and he's all cuddled up and sleeping 🥺 and you get into bed and move so you're in his arms and he shifts a little bit and lets out some sleepy mumbles and then says "I wasn't sleeping" all low and gravely 😔 and you kiss his shoulder and say "I'm sure, but you can go back to sleep now" and he doesn't even respond bc he's already out again 😔

do u think harry would let you tie him to the bed even tho he's usually the one who does it to you bc I think he would and I have some thots 😌 i think you would suggest it one day and he would kind of laugh like yeah right and then when he realizes you're serious he would be like 👀👀 okayyyy I mean 👀👀 so then you obvi have a discussion abt what you're both ok with and stuff you don't want to do and all that and then when he's ready you're like ok 😌 let's do it 😌 I'm going to have so much fun 😌 and he's acting pretty cocky at first like "i don't think you'll be able to do much" bc he's used to you being a little more shy and gentle but he shuts up pretty fast when you start sucking him off 😌 and he usually moves around and puts his hand in your hair so he has some control but he can't do that rn so he's a little more 😵‍💫 than usual bc it feels so new 😌 and then just as he's about to c*m you pull away and he whines desperately and pushes his hips up but you just shake your head and say "I'm in charge tonight, remember?" and that's when he realizes it's going to be a very long night 😌