#i'm so sorry this is so long. thank you for humoring me. bless u

[maedaeme]

OUGH ALRIGHT magni backstory ramble time under the cut. was putting this off just in case i wanted to make changes but now i'm committed.

and later im not going to be able to stop myself from rambling abt his companion connections at length so i'm dropping this here as the starting point to keep me CONSISTENT.

refers to mild act 2 spoilers because I need to be a little bit unhinged about things. currently in act 3, but i'm saving that for later because there is so much happening. anyway

bullet point backstory bc it's 11 pm. what up.

used to be a priest(ess) of lolth. raised among devout lolth-sworn, which of course gives him baggage he doesn't even realize exists until like halfway through the game.

'i had a normal childhood' - guy who very much did not have a normal childhood. am i projecting my religious trauma here. who can say

very committed. basically used serving lolth as an elaborate excuse to get away with whatever selfish whims popped into his head

worked alongside two other, equally terrible priestesses under the mutual understanding that they were only 'allies' until they could stab each other in the back

last one standing is loth's fav. you know how it is

did in fact get stabbed in the back when one of them uncovered a secret of his and used it to oust him

fully accepted he was going to get sacrificed to lolth. was pretty chill with it, actually. as far as he was concerned it only made sense.

the priestess who ousted him decided it would be meaner to banish him to the surface instead

she was correct.

became SO INCENSED at being told he was not a worthy sacrifice that it became ALL he cared about

like. he refused to wrap his brain around it, so he just went 'fine, i will claw my way up from the dirt and eat bugs or whatever and i WILL become so fucking impressive that when i come back DOWN here you will HAVE to sacrifice me. that's how good i'll be.

'also maybe i'll trans my gender while i'm at it bc at this point I Have Nothing To Lose'

lost ability to use magic in the middle of this and just refused to think about the 'god abandoned me' implications

knew nothing about the surface. broke into places, stole, and murdered to survive. discovered life was easier if you got good at lying, just in case you got caught stealing. and he was already Very good at lying.

once he got it all figured out, he fell into organized crime VERY easily, while still secretly holding onto his General Disdain for everyone around him. this was not hard to do. people are shitty to you when you're a drow.

spent a couple decades fighting, stealing, and occasionally murdering if you paid him or annoyed him enough. mentally tucks away all of the crimes he does as 'for lolth' even though he's lowkey aware that's not how that works. there's a bunch of complicated stuff going on in his brain up there and he is avoiding all of it.

basically he starts the game an expert manipulator who FULLY expects to just eventually murder these people he keeps picking up because it Has to be that way, except thru act 1 he. doesn't. and then he starts to get used to them. enough that at camp he starts to drop his Eternal Performance, which everyone initially writes off as 'magni being weirdly dismissive and blunt for some reason' until late act 1 when they realize 'oh wait. that's what he's REALLY LIKE. he was LYING.'

his feelings towards the companions and himself and his goals get incredibly complicated. sometimes he sucks. sometimes he doesn't. gale makes him ask himself questions he does not want to know the answer to, but he can't just let it GO now that he's asking them. the people around him are trusting him with their deepest secrets and desires and it is FREAKING HIM OUT because he doesn't know how to do anything with secrets except destroy. so he drops the act further thru act 2. except they're still doing it. because they know what he's like by now. and they know that sometimes! he refrains from doing the mean selfish thing! because they wouldn't like it! and he hates that he feels that way and is occasionally halfheartedly mean and petty later like it's going to make the uncomfortable taste in his mouth go away but he is forming attachments to these people and there is NOTHING he can do about that

anyway. i'm going to shake my laptop later re: gale being asked to Explode by his god and how it forces magni to look literally his Only Driving Goal For Decades (getting eaten by spiders) in the face and ask himself if that's really what he wanted, but i'm in full hyperfixation mode. also he just rly loves astarion. he can't say that word though. feels wrong in his mouth

it's also put him in the weird act 3 spot of being the person who has already ASKED himself the hard questions that everyone else is now asking. he is, for the first time ever, somewhat the reasonable one. which means he's gotta accept he thinks differently about things than he used to. which he doesn't like. but he's embraced the softness, he just doesn't want you to mention it.

and sometimes he just goes and stands in a cold lake at 1 am so he doesn't have to think about anything. you know how it goes

[specialgradefckr]

Dear author....I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv u I luv I luv u soooooooooooooo much 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶💗💗💗💗

I just finished reading both parts of BYHTD and I'm sooo over the moon...I cried...I laughed...I got mad....may as well badmouthed Gojo and Geto a little bit ....but ur writing is so beautiful and full of emotions,the way u described the reader's internal conflicts was a Chef kiss💋 thank god u kept our reader's dignity and let her stand on business(I said our reader and didn't say me as in I'm the reader cuz unfortunately I'm not her in this specific fic cuz I can't handle all that,a few months with that pressure and I'm deleting myself from the world😔🤞)

And don't get me started with the last paragraph on the second part...ohhhh the last paragraph was soooooo delicious I devoured all of it YUM YUM YUM (licking my fingers right now btw) the name on gojo's chest idea was genius (I may freaked out a little bit but let's just ignore it) the way gojo looked up at reader combined with his pov I'm down baaaaaaad he's so babygirl just Soo inlove with reader that he wants to give her his heart just so she can know the love he has for her,and Geto 😮‍💨😮‍💨 this man and his ways of elaborating is sooo annoying but in a good way and how he ignored the reader 😮😮 I felt a pang in my heart everytime the reader thinks of how they love each other and she's just an outsider u cooked with that honestly

Also wanted to ask if there's a part 3 and when r u u willing to bless us with it? And if it's the last part of the whole fiction??

Sooo sorry that I talked a lot just wanted to appreciate u and ur work and let u know how talented u are...love u🫶🫶

ahhhHHHH i got this a long time ago but THANK YOUUU!!! this is all so sweet of you to say, i was giggling and kicking my feet reading through this ask hehe~

i'm glad you laughed honestly i do toss in points of humor in fics sometimes and it's often one of the most fun parts. just thinking about sukuna getting pissed off at gojo because you catfished him ksdfjhglsdhg fucking hilarious

the name on gojo's chest idea was genius (I may freaked out a little bit but let's just ignore it)

girl READER is also freaking out dw. that is the intended effect. i felt really smart when i came up with that because the scene was supposed to escalate, to have you and geto going harder and harder until one of you tried to call the other's bluff.

reader standing on business was definitely a call i made like. you ARE pathetically in love. it's true. it's undeniable. but you're also just... not willing to make a fool of yourself. you're so angry and frustrated.

in a way, you almost have an advantage over gojo and geto. because you've had time to mourn the love you don't think you'll be able to have. you still have feelings, but you have no hopes for them.

but gojo and geto are planning for you to confess to them. they "know" you're going to end up together. they can't "go too far" and ruin the relationship before it starts. unless...? >.>

and i'm also soooo so soso happy the scene with gojo looking up at you came across that way!! that's exactly the vibe i wanted!!!

he's really like. almost golden retriever style loving. just looking up at you with all the trust and adoration in the world. you look at him and you can't hurt him, you can't.

because gojo's affection here is pretty pure, compared to geto's. geto's got a lot of insecurity, he wants you to come to him, to confess first. gojo's mostly going along with all this because he thinks it's sexy when you're jealous.

unfortunately you HAVE reinforced this behavior for him by carving your name into his chest so skfdhjglhdsg we'll see what gojo takes from this,,,

part 3 IS already in drafts but since these works are on the longer side, it's going to take a while. i have soooo many fics skhfglshdg

maybe after the next few installments of the kitty hybrid series i'll do another poll,,, i could obfuscate it even MORE next time dhgjhdg