#i'm so smart and good at reading signs /lh /s

[agenteight]

i think.... i want . top surgery <:]

[gay-otlc]

[Quick note, this is kinda lengthy, so take as much time as you need to respond. Uh, sorry for how long it got.]

Fuck. The chapters keep getting better. Sar you done did good.

-I can't tell you how fucking amazing it is that you were able to write Naomi's thoughts without pronouns. It was something that I immediately picked up on, but it was subtle enough that I read back through the first paragraphs before continuing on.

-I was so fucking anxious for the Crew™ during the elimination. I felt my nervousness rise and I genuinely had the thought of "Shai wouldn't- would ae? No hir evil but not that evil, right?" /lh

-Thankfully I was correct but still I was scared for a second.

-The Gals being pals.

-Cameron, you win the prize of the chapter. I shit you not, I was in the fucking car reading this and I actually had to stop for a sec to laugh at one of their remarks. My father was. Very confused but I've done weirder.

-And she's so snazzy and hilaerious with just the right amount of concern and understanding. This made me so genuinely happy because like. I want to be the Cameron for someone. I want to do that.

-This: (sorry it's a big block of a quote but I had to put the whole thing in here)

"Sometimes it’s like, super clear in my head, like there’s this neon sign screaming my gender at me. And sometimes there’s something, but it’s like, blurry. And then sometimes it’s like, what the fuck. It’s hard to do, but I try not to push too hard for what my gender is if it’s not super obvious. It’s a lot easier to just ask, what clothes would make me happy, what kind of chest would make me happy, what pronouns would make me happy. So, I just figure that out when I’m getting dressed or whatever, and that takes so much stress out of it.”

I have been struggling with my sexuality and my gender for so long and you put it in like. Actual words that make sense, I've never been able to describe it, but just h o l y s h i t. That's incredibly accurate.

- THE PRONOUN CHECK

I'm wrapping it up here because this is a really fucking long ask and I'm so sorry, I understand that sometimes reading takes a lot of energy, and I might add a warning at the top just so you don't have to get down to here and be like, "well no shit!"

So, I'll keep this short and sweet; Shevit, you are such a fucking talented person, and I have never in my life of escaping reality with fiction read a story like this before. I guarantee that if you wanted to take writing further you could make a best-selling novel. And if you don't, then this hobby could still take you really far, even if you want it to be self-indulgent.

So, uh yeah, again sorry for all the words. You're aemazing <3

Bestie I am holding this ask in my hands and hugging it to my chest I will treasure it forever thank you

Okay the like no pronouns in the narration thing is something I planned ever since I knew ey would have a gender crisis eventually, and it was HARD to make that work without it sounding forced but I managed eventually so trans rights

I am evil but also I am so attached to every one of those characters they are all very important to me. Like I couldn't eliminate Lani because gal pals you know? And Noel is hella smart so it wouldn't work logically, also I based him on my best friend and tehrefore love him to death. And Cameron is a gift to the world I could never eliminate them. Like they all have such distinct personalities and relationships to Naomi and the story just wouldn't work if I eliminated someone so you're welcome. Glad I gave you that secondhand anxiety though.

(Also I prewrite scenes and each of them as shown up so it wouldn't work to kick someone out lmao)

✨the gals being pals✨

Cameron is... I love him. I have no idea who she's based off of but if I ever figure that out I will propose to that person on the spot. Anyway I had so much fun writing that and I have spent enough time in queer spaces to know how Seasoned Gender Crisis Bitches react to the newbies

(I personally high-fived my friend when they started crisising and using she/they and said basically "lmao bitch welcome to the club")

Okay I liked that paragraph a lot too because, you've been following me long enough to know, I am chronically questioning my gender. And pushing for a specific label just makes shit worse, so I try to not stress over that and just go with presentation and happiness and whatever. It's really cool that resonates with other people!

The pronoun check <3

This is long but it was such a delight to read and I love receiving long asks and being provided with the opportunity to ramble about my wip because I have so many thoughts

YEs okay I'm framing that last paragraph and hanging it up on my wall Danu thank you so fucking much. I don't think I'll make it a career but the encouragement is really nice to hir. The happy chemicals are off the damn charts and at this point you own my heart I love you