#i'm so insane about school 2013 in general but especially about these two

[haruixd]

Going insane about Heungsoon again because they loved each other so much and their relationship ended up in shambles because of an accident. Then, fate makes them meet each other again after years and everything is a mess because there was never closure, because Namsoon destroyed Heungsoo's dream and ran away because he couldn't deal with the idea of Heungsoo hating him and telling him to leave. And Namsoon regrets so much what happened that he desperately starts trying to make up for what he did even though he knows he can't. And Heungsoo is so angry at Namsoon for abandoning him when he needed him the most but he can't help but still care about him. And even though there are moments when everything feels like it used to be, the illusion is quickly broken. They can't change the past nor go back to the people they used to be. Namsoon can't be with Heungsoo without feeling guilty and that, in turn, makes Heungsoo uncomfortable. Their relationship is so broken is basically irreparable, but they still try again (and in words of Evan Buckley, my beloved from 911: "So every day is the best day ever. Is that really love? Shouldn’t it be when you’re at your worst, they’re at their worst, you have every reason to give up and you still decide you want to try again?"). And it's not like things are automatically perfect, but they heal a bit more with each day and they manage to get to a point where they can feel relaxed and secure in their relationship.

And, because apparently all of that didn't make me insane enough, there's the epilogue of the novel too. A year has passed, high school is over and Namsoon still doesn't really know what he wants to do with his life, but he knows Heungsoo is going to be by his side and that's enough for him. Heungsoo tells him "Let's go home" and Namsoon runs towards him. The story ends with Namsoon thinking about how they're each other's home and about how they will always have a place to return to and, therefore, a future to walk towards. This is literally a love story.

So, in conclusion, they're soulmates and their bond warms my heart and makes me want to cry at the same time. No matter how much time passes, every time I see something about them all the feelings come back.