#i'm so glad he has khai now because if she's the reason he was about to heal from his 1d trauma and perform again then

[fuchsea]

sending zayn so much love and strength and hugs for having such a good start to the tour. i truly can not fathom what he must be going through rn because. he hasn't been on stage in nearly a decade now and he has spoken about the anxiety surrounding performing and for him to finally find a space where he can pace through live performances at his own level makes me feel so immensely proud of him. the last time he was on stage, he had four others backing him, supporting him and helping soothe his anxiety. and now one of them is gone. and like. it took him around eight years to be able to look back at his time in 1d fondly, to be able to embrace the band days and get nostalgic about the songs he made as part of the band. and now two days ago he was there when they buried liam. and to go through such monumental change and to still power through and perform. god he truly is one of the strongest people ever. i am always proud of him and he will always be such a shining star in our lives