#i'm probably fine

[realgoogleclassroom]

Don't you love it when the carbon monoxide alarm goes off while you're home alone?

[avas-snazzical-corner]

Life be going fine

Then boom

Tummyache

Ow :(

[dovesndecay]

Started getting sick last night and it's kicking my ass today. It could be a simple stomach bug, or pancreatitis.

[nerdgirlnarrates]

Had a presentation on the SOAP process today, and now I feel ill

[princessxombie]

-SI trigger warning

We have such a stigma around death and especially around suicide and it's really a shame. Like when I've tried to talk to my own friends about it they just shut me down and tell me not to talk like that. The last time I tried to talk to a friend the best argument he had was "I don't want to try and explain that to my kids" and like MY DUDE! I WANT TO DIE! THIS ISN'T ABOUT YOU OR YOUR KIDS! but literally that was the best i got out of him. people just tell you, don't think like that we love you and like damn y'all i love you too, but again this isn't about you. I don't want to die because i feel unloved, it is so much more complicated than that and I need to talk to someone

and that's the other thing, like sure they'll tell you don't do that or don't think that way but no one sits down and says hey why are you feeling like that? what can we do to change that? cause that's what I really need I need some serious change in my life. I'm tired of living a life where I feel my only accomplishment for surviving another day is the promise of another day. I'm tired of doing the same job day in and day out just out of fear if I don't I'll lose my home and my worthless stuff and i'll just end up worse off than I already am. I don't want to wake up everyday fearing the fact that I have to go back day in day out. I don't want to stay up late worried that I'll just wake up to the same dead end feelings in the same dead end life and wishing i could just change something and be happy

the thing is i'm on meds and I have a therapist and right now it feels like I have a gaping chest wound and we're slapping a band aid on it. so i don't know, i don't know what to do. yesterday i spilled my ice tea on the floor and cried over it all the while knowing it wasnt about the ice tea. i've just lived through 43 years of a hard fucking life and I'm tired of it. I just want to sleeep and never wake back up. why can't i have that

[dyslectic-npc]

Thinking of heathers, remembering I where a red scrunchie I'm the persone who ofthen call the shots of a friend group thats usually 3 but added in a 4th person who often go out on their own I question my morals for a bit but then I remember we are not a popular friend group, we are the outcast that got pulled by the hair thru mud metaphorically

[peekoo3]

Just something I decided to do. I had ink and I was bored.

Pic 2 (I took it on my bed, lol)

[anthropwashere]

Hm. Not a fan of tornado warnings and wind speeds fast enough to throw open my front door

[entertainmentmask]

my life is slowly driving me insane and i just realized again that i can die at any moment so i'm doing the most i can to leave my sotries in this earth yet i cannot for the life of me write one more line for my overwatch fanfic, something wrong with me and i need closure

[six-of-cringe]

if you saw that no you didn't. hi welcome to six of crows this is your captain speaking

[paintedcrows]

*through tears* HER LITTLE POG CHAMP

[i-eated-paint]

I may have inhaled a bit of sharpie

[egophiliac]

was this anyone else's first thought, or

[nadiajustbe]

One of my favorite parts about the writing of Howl's Moving Castle is how easy it is to write off all the things from our world at first as him just being a weird wizard™ (also thanks to bestie @jutenium for spotting this I wouldn't put it like that without you!!/pos). Sure, Sophie uses weird descriptions, but readers have every reason to believe them because of the way Howl is presented as a character. When Sophie says he wrote with a quill that doesn't need an ink, you wouldn't think it was actually a ballpoint pen, you would think Howl had just enchanted his quill so that it wouldn't need ink! When she adds that she can't make out a single word, you think he has matchingly terrible handwriting, but in fact Sophie has simply never seen a pen writing. When she sees the mysterious labels on his books, you think he's keeping a lot of obscure magical literature, but it's really just an encyclopedia and a guide like "Top 10 Rugby Tips." When Sophie notices the bottles in Howl's bathtub, you think they're some kind of magical jars where he keeps girl's hearts, but I'm almost certain that they're just 'Dove' and 'Head and Shoulders' that he's enhanced with his spells and put silly labels on. When you read Calicifer singing a song in a language Sophie doesn't understand, you think it's some kind of ancient cipher or code, but it's actually just a rugby song in Welsh that Howl sings when he's drunk. And finally, when you see the terrifying black door, which is completely shrouded in darkness, you imagine a passage to an eerie, mythical place, similar to what Miyazaki showed us - but it's just fucking Wales.

[pearlore]

@eydilily 's gempearl designs r so gorgeous i had to draw........ also a swap?? ft. some nzsl bc i was briefly possessed by the spirit of. hands.

[muppetebbtide]

I think often about the heavy irony of John laughing at Wake's name and mocking BOE's naming systems. BOE are trying to preserve lost Earth culture, but clueless of context, their fragmented merging of high and low culture comes across as silly to John (and us. But it's a noble attempt to preserve everything, even the stuff that wouldn't necessarily seem 'worth' saving. But what does John rename his friends? Pyrrha and Cassiopeia and Ulysses and Augustine. He also names almost everything after Earth culture, but it's literary/religious/historical 'high' culture. BOE is scrabbling to save everything possible, but John has the privilege of context and memory, and so he picks and chooses what's 'worthy' of being used or shared. Low culture is reserved for his little jokes with himself— though honestly, a lot of his references to earth culture full stop seem to be inside jokes at the expense of others. I doubt Cassiopeia knew she was named after the infamously vain ancient queen, for example. John also quotes things at people without explaining what he means, like when he quotes Shakespeare and Hans Christian Andersen at Harrow; he's not really sharing it, he's mostly using it to isolate the other person in the conversation, or make himself seem unknowable and superior. It's honestly very telling that when given the choice John will name most things biblically or classically. It does partially feel like he's desperately scraping to preserve something of his childhood and the home he destroyed (especially with the renaming of Gideon to the Māori translation Kiriona, but... well, he literally renamed her and made her into a walking corpse teenage soldier so :/), but when you look at how he deploys earth culture on the whole, it usually becomes weird and imperialistic and weaponised. He's not really preserving lost art, he's selectively using it for his own agenda, and he's often using the two biggest things that were ever co-opted by conservatives and imperialists, the classical world and biblical convention.