#i'm not actually sure about the egg immunity tbh

[lookinghalfacorpse]

Okay but can we talk about cdoomsday trio and how all three of them have some sort of connection to gods/goddesses and godhood.

Philza: The Angel of Death, literally MARRIED to the Goddess of Death, immortal, ancient. Idk if the hardcore worlds are canon to cPhil but if they are then he literally has relations to multiple other gods as well.

Techno: Literally called The Blood God, the best fighter on the server, with skills def near god-like, if you think about it, then the bell is pretty much a holy item/symbol for cTechno and ringing it could count as preyer. Also wasn't I might be wrong but wasn't he like basically immune to the Egg and it's bs? Sounds pretty god-like to me.

Dream: Man-made immortality thanks to the revive book(and Punz), it was said in the finale that they found out more stuff besides just reviving people(ex. they found the End dimension), literally just the revive book itself, like he can literally bring people back from the dead. Then there's the fact that he's the Admin of the server, so that has to be something. THE FACT THAT GOD STOLE HIS FACE.

Basically they're all either gods or mini gods. Love that for 'em <3

this is a huge reason why doomsdaytrio is so compelling for me. they make my theology student heart flutter.

what they have in common is that they didn't start as gods.... presumably. i've seen some headcanons and theories about ctechno and cdream's pasts where they're very intertwined with godhood (and i'm personally invested in cdream's past with xd), but there doesn't seem to be much canonical evidence of it. instead, we're looking at three men who painstakingly transformed themselves into gods, whether by gaining the favor of one, getting the reputation of one, or harnessing the powers of one. i love the idea of these three having an alliance when they're all in different stages of attaining godhood, and their godhoods look different, and a DIFFERENT god has dream's face, and we don't know why.

there are definitely ghost stories told around campfires about the winged angel of death, who never misses a shot on his bow. there are warriors who ring bells before battle to summon strength and power. given more time, there would surely be legends about the man who knew death well enough to beat it.

[shares-a-vest]

Overdue Library Books, Clay Bunnies & Paintbrushes

Robin, Steve, Erica and Dustin spend a weekend making Easter decorations and crafts. Just some sweet, Scoops Troops nonsense for your weekend.

Characters: Steve Harrington, Robin Buckley, Erica Sinclair, Dustin Henderson (Scoops Troops!!! 🍦🍧🍨🍦🍧🍨)

Word Count: 2.5k

tbh, i have no clue how the easter period works in America (if school is off or how public holidays work, if any). so i've kept that stuff vague. it kinda doesn't matter here anyway, this is just silly friendship-focused stuff.

“What's with the bag?” Erica asks from the backseat, her voice a mix of nosiness and curiosity.

Robin turns, crinkling the paper bag in question she’s been cradling since Steve picked her up from the dollar store.

“Craft supplies,” she shrugs, now face-to-face with the youngest Sinclair.

“Interesting…” Erica muses, looking her over.

Robin frowns, weirded out by whatever it is Erica is thinking and turns back to look out at the slowly-emptying Hawkins Elementary parking lot. Sinking a little in her seat, Robin shoots Steve a look.

He promptly starts up the car, grumbling. They were already stuck with Dustin for the weekend. Claudia had called Steve a few days ago, saying she wanted to go visit her sister for the weekend, sans her son. And of course, Steve not being immune to Claudia Henderson’s sweet mom-voice, agreed. And, depending on how this carpooling afternoon goes, they might end up with a full-blown babysitting schedule.

Robin sighs, holds her precious craft supplies to her chest and stares out the window...

At least, she attempts to for all of three seconds because Erica decides to lean into the front cabin, craning her neck to look in the bag.

“Seatbelts, please,” Steve commands, pulling out of the parking space and offering his bitchiest pout to boot.

Erica snatches up the bag, retreats and clips in her seatbelt. Robin lunges, her reflexes non-existent. But her seatbelt yanks her back into her seat.

She huffs and folds her arms, settling for leaning forward impossibly close to the rearview mirror, ignoring Steve’s incoherent protests for blocking him as she watches Erica plucking items from the bag.

Eric sets out the wares on the currently-vacated lefthand back seat, pulling out Easter crafts and supplies. Pastel-toned card paper, scissors, cheap paint pots in various colours, tubes of glitter and paintbrushes - enough to last the weekend, doubling up on everything so Robin doesn’t have to fight with Steve over any of the items. The guy paints at a snail’s pace. But maybe that wouldn’t be the case if the dingus would actually wear his prescription glasses…

She frowns when she notices Erica's expression shift from curious and judgemental.

“I'm close to the library,” Steve says, a warning that means, clear the backseat - Dustin Henderson is about to enter like a tornado and will ruin anything occupying his seat.

“You need thinner paintbrushes,” Erica offers, gathering up the items and efficiently arranging them in the bag.

Steve pulls into the Hawkins Library parking lot and kills the engine. If Henderson isn't waiting, it means he has lost total track of time and needs to be dragged out of the place (which is Steve's job because Robin gets distracted when surrounded by endless books). As if on queue, Steve unclips his seatbelt and pops open the driver's door.

“I'll be back,” he sighs, exiting the car.

“I'll bring you some,” Erica says, cutting through the sudden silence of the Beemer.

Honestly, it makes Robin jump. She might have also forgotten what they were talking about because she's wracking her brain trying to remember when she had to return her algebra textbook (not that she got any use out of it anyway).

“Huh?" she grunts, bracing herself for a chastising for not listening.

“Paintbrushes!” Erica clarifies and sure enough, her signature you’re-an-idiot tone is there. “If you are going to decorate eggs, you need smaller paint brushes for fine details. I'll bring you some. You're staying at Steve's house this weekend, right?”

“...Yes?” she replies (asks?), weary.

“I'm telling you,” comes Steve's annoyed voice. “This bag won't fit in the backseat, dude!”

There's more incoherent squabbling as Steve opens the trunk and a noticeable weight sinks the car momentarily.

“All set for the weekend,” Dustin chortles, all but throwing his bag at the back of Robin's seat as he and Steve hop in the car in such perfect sync that Robin and Erica both giggle.

“Yeah right,” Steve says, now in maximum grumpy mode.

Dustin jostles Robin's seat as he loudly asks, “Did you pass your algebra test?”

“Barely,” she laments as the library disappears behind them.

“What!” he shrieks. “I basically gave you all the answers.”

“I'm sorry that I don't like, get mathematics, Dustin!” she snaps, remembering that her textbook is in fact, grossly overdue and will now have to wait until Easter weekend is over.

***

Robin shuffles to the Harringtons’ front door, barely conscious. It’s way too early for Erica to be here, tapping on the door at an enthusiastic speed on a Saturday morning. It’s only breakfast time! She stops rubbing her eyes long enough to catch the time on the gigantic antique clock in the foyer. Okay, so maybe 10am is too early for Weekend Robin.

She opens the door to find Erica beaming, holding a large fabric bag over her shoulder that is clearly weighing her down that she is only barely offsetting by leaning the opposite way.

Robin winces, blinded by the morning sunlight as she squints, looking for any signs of Lucas in tow. She sighs, relieved - partly because Steve always ends up switching between shooting hoops with Lucas, watching whatever sport is on TV and playing video games if he comes over. It’s Steve in peak-jock form, a state that Lucas wholeheartedly encourages while Robin tags along.

She catches sight of the Sinclars’ car - or more, she almost collapses from the pain of sunlight reflecting from the car’s hood directly into her eyeballs.

“I brought paintbrushes,” Erica announces, hobbling inside as Robin waves vaguely in the direction of Mrs Sinclair.

She closes the front door, turns and runs straight into Dustin, who’s peering down at the bag Erica has seemingly dumped in the foyer before disappearing entirely.

He smiles and Robin thinks that if she rolls her eyes at the kid one more time, they might stay stuck in the back of her skull.

It turns out the truckload of books Steve had to haul in and out of his car three times over the past few days was some new egghead venture of Henderson's, whereby he intended on assessing precisely how cold Steve’s house could get at night - some new experiment assessing temperatures in Hawkins… Or something. He'd explained it last night over dinner when he turned his nose up at her signature vegetable lasagne. And then when he finally stopped talking he insisted on listening to his Dune audiobook on tape (an action that he sold as being a matter of urgency), aloud via the Harrington’s stereo system he's likely now paused for a brief moment in order to ask for something.

“What?” Robin asks, cocking her chin as she sizes up the dork who hasn't changed out of his pyjamas in two days.

Dustin sticks out his bottom lip, looking all too innocent as his curious brows disappear under his cap (yep, he also wears his baseball cap indoors, in his goddamn pyjamas). Robin swears it is glued to his skull.

“Are we doing arts and crafts now?” he asks, rocking back and forward on his socked heels.

“So you're gonna do that too?”

“Obviously.”

And nope, it wasn’t so obvious.

“Robin!” Erica calls, her voice laced with impatience.

Dustin gestures for Robin to take the lead and if she had better protection than her holey rainbow socks on the varnished floorboards, she'd stomp her feet.

“Steve!”

***

Okay, so maybe her annoyance wasn't entirely justified because Henderson is patiently watching as Steve and Erica lay out all their craftables and accessories on the kitchen table. The coffee table is of course out of action due to ‘Project Curtain’, named so because Dustin’s hypothesis is that the sheer amount of drapery throughout Steve’s house is the primary cause of a nighttime temperature drop.

“Alrighty, now your bag,” Steve declares, lifting Erica's lofty bag with ease.

Erica kneels on the kitchen chair separating them for a better vantage point.

“I brought all my paintbrushes and my lamp I use when I'm making my DND figurines.”

“Oh... cool,” Steve says, making a face that Erica mirrors (with added glare) that leaves him blurting out a defensive, “What?”

“Don't you want to make your egg decorations nice?” she smirks.

“Who cares?” Dustin quips, sticking his head in between them. “What, is Steve going to gift a bunch of painted eggs? Very romantic. I thought Maggie dumped you…”

Steve rolls his eyes and Robin can't help it. After two days of this, she’s had enough. She drops her spoon in her bowl of cereal and gives Dustin a solid elbow to the side earning a hearty yelp. Payback for being a mooching pain in the butt who doesn’t even pay much attention for a self-proclaimed ‘genius’. Although maybe Robin shouldn’t clarify that Steve went on one disastrous dinner date with Maggie and never called her back. It would probably lead to relentless teasing, possibly the only thing that could drag Dustina way from Project Curtain right now. 

She sighs. Steve’s done a lot of that lately, but best not to get into it right now because Steve and Erica are engaged in some sort of glare-off.

“What?” he asks her again. “I'm not allowed to so much as look at your DND things. Sorry if I'm sceptical about you allowing me to actually use your nerd equipment.”

“It isn't nerdy, it's creative.”

“Erica, you are a nerd!” Dustin chimes, a matter he insists on clarifying every single time Erica protests.

Why can’t this group accept it? They are all nerds. Hell, every person in this kitchen has agreed to spend their weekend delicately painting little Easter bunnies and fashioning decorations just for the fun of it.

“Whatever,” Erica shoots back before giving a sickly sweet smile at whiplash speed.

“Are you going to help me?” Steve asks, raising a sceptical brow.

“Only if you wear your glasses,” Erica retorts.

“Better do what she says, Steve,” Robin adds, slurping up her cereal.

Again, a silent standoff.

It only ends with Steve huffing as he exits the kitchen to fetch the much-argued-over glasses he refuses to wear.

***

Sure enough, Erica willingly gives over her lamp to Steve - even gives a demonstration of her painting techniques. But as Robin suspected, she and Steve both totally suck at painting, even with a lot of help. She quickly got frustrated with not being able to mix the right shade of lavender and switched to the childish packet of paper flower cut-outs she had bought.

Dustin meanwhile, chose to periodically move between Project Curtain (shouting his temperature checks each time) and painting eggs with such expertise, Robin wishes she could smash them into eggy gooeyness with her bare hands, free of consequence.

“Goddamn it!” Steve curses once again.

He shakes his head and mumbles incoherently as he shoves Erica’s lamp-slash-magnifying tool out of the way. He sets his paintbrush down and pinches his little clay rabbit between his glitter and paint-covered fingers, frowning as he looks over the great smear he'd inadvertently made right on the poor bunny's backside.

“Don’t worry,” Erica sings, kneeling up on her chair to reach across the table and take the figure from him. “Just let it dry and we can fix it.”

She smiles and honestly, now Robin is suspicious. Steve has spent the last (Robin checks her watch) four hours - with copious snack breaks - meticulously painting a clay rabbit black and red, with silver eyes and glitter details, a gothic-metal-looking springtime creature that could only be fitting for that one particular dork her platonic soulmate has been pining over since Spring Break.

And Erica Sinclair is being way too nice about it.

Erica who glares and pouts. Erica who eviscerates everyone in her general vicinity with scathing words that have no comeback. Erica who, since the whole Scoops Troops vs. Starcourt Mall Secret Russians-thing, has used pretty much every encounter with Robin and Steve to coerce them into doing whatever she wants (and getting free anything - though mainly ice cream) in the name of some alleged child endangerment.

“It looks fine,” Robin insists, barely looking at her best friend and far too focused on Erica carefully setting down the half-painted clay rabbit on some newspaper.

“You know…” Dustin pipes up, momentarily abandoning his da Vinci-quality egg. “For a supposed calming activity, you sure do curse a lot.”

Steve removes his glasses to rub his eyes and folds his arms, shooting Henderson that look he only reserves for his young friend.

“I just want it to look nice,” he mumbles, a look of disappointment washing over him as he slumps back in his chair to stare at the bunny.

“Yeah, because a rabbit demon-spawn is gonna look all cute a cuddly - ERICA!” Dustin dives to the floor, scrambling for his hat.

There goes Robin’s long-held hypothesis.

***

“Alright, spill Sinclair,” Robin whispers the second Steve charges into the living room to once again yell at Dustin.

Erica sighs, setting down her ice cream bowl. Of course, hosting both Erica and Dustin meant customary homemade USS Butterscotches all around for dessert. Desserts that they joined forces to demand as soon as Steve was finally done with his demonic bunny.

“Henderson, I swear to God, if you set the curtains on fire!” Steve warns, followed by indecipherable whining from Dustin.

“What?” Erica asks, frowning and propping her chin on the back of her hand, looking as guilty as she has done all damn day.

“Let me rephrase,” Robin begins, tenting her fingers and pouting. “Why are you voluntarily hanging out with us? On a weekend? And actually having fun? And being nice to Steve even though he can’t paint for shit?”

Erica drops her spoon, leaving it to clang and teeter in the bowl. And yeah, the slight waver in her usually confident demeanour sends a pang of regret through Robin’s chest.

“First off, I actually enjoy spending time with you and Steve,” she says after a long pause. “It's fun but not super nerdy. Beats tagging along with Lucas while Will stays over for the weekend anyway. Although, I could have done without Dustin.”

She rolls her eyes as the sound of flapping curtains wafts in from the living room.

“Agreed,” Robin nods matter-of-factly.

“And all this,” she gestures to the end of the table where all their craftables are lined up in various states of completion. “I'm really good at. And you two could use some help. Even though I know you can sew and stuff.”

“Yeah, painting isn't my strong suit,” she chuckles.

“Plus,” Erica says, drawling loudly before sighing. “I enjoy helping you and Steve try to impress Nancy and Eddie with the silly little things you make them.”

She reaches across the table for the chocolate syrup Steve has monopolised since they’d started out on making dessert.

“We’re really that pathetic, huh?”

“Just the facts,” Erica quips, punctuating her signature phrase with a hard squeeze of chocolate topping (her third helping) onto her remaining dessert. “You should really be asking for my help more often.”

Robin narrows her eyes at the young Sinclair, a fond grin growing.

“... You're my favourite.”

She drops her spoon, leaving it to clang against the ice cream bowl so she can grab Erica in a tight hug, squishing their cheeks together.

“Get off me!” Erica giggles.

[avephelis]

said i'd ramble a bitt about my vague protege!tommy au so i will do that noww. please heed the tws. all rp! c!

not gonna go super into detail but basic premise is when tommy is on the tower in exile he DOES jump (killing himself) but dream revives him and it sort of spirals from there. so:

obviously for tommy to actually have jumped he wouldn't have realised dream was just watching/controlling him or shaken off that exile mindset

the way i imagine death messages work is canon deaths are notably different on comms. so when tommy's message shows most people see it. dream goes to investigate (and eventually his cover is it was a server issue. he's the admin after all. who else is gonna know.)

i'm also pretty sure, based off the canon timeline, the lazar/vikk experimentation would have happened after exile. so in this au dream hasn't tested the revivebook on people yet. so it's a fluke of luck he manages to get it working on tommy under duress - getting it first try certainly wouldn't help with the god complex

and yeah all that means tubbo and l'manberg and everyone is aware that tommy is a. alive and b. with dream. don't get me wrong, i love versions of this au with a dramatic reveal, but it doesn't really work for this one? and i think there's a lot of under-utilised angst/horror potential in everything happening right under people's noses.

also this would mean dream would be too occupied to help techno at his execution - whether they just wouldn't hold it because tubbo's too worried for tommy, or whether techno just does lose a life, i haven't decided. leaning towards the latter because it has a lot of interesting character potential. not sure how it'd affect quackity's arc, though.

my issue with the au is i'm just not sure where to go with it tbh. because it has changed A LOT over about a year and a half until i settled after dream's revivebook lore this year. so i USED to have scenes and stuff planned out but idk anymore ( - -;;) maybe i'll come back to it.

so ermm misc points of relevance:

tommy's conditioning and mental gymnastics kind of hitting hard. harder than canon, because now dream technically did save him, so there's a feeling of debt added on to all the exile manipulation. (i don't think tommy would want to die again. especially after limbo and the agony of revival. would he stop ideating about suicide? probably not. but i wouldn't have him attempt it again.)

like i mentioned, reviving tommy prematurely wouldn't help dream's god complex. as well as discduo's canon bullshit, he'd probably see tommy as some kind of 'proof' of his godhood? to some degree. gotta think out the intricacies of that more though.

tommy is obviously under duress, so any decision he makes isn't really fair to blame him for. but the idea of him initiating some things with dream - maybe the idea of training or servitude - is just really interesting to me. not really a choice if he's being manipulated and threatened, but interesting character stuff nonetheless.

tommy also does some fucked up shit. probably kills someone at a point haven't decided who. angst and complexity of morality and guilt i love you.

at some point tubbo lifts tommy's exile, so technically he could come back to l'manberg, but whenever he does it's with dream and generally... very off/creepy. if i ever do something with this probably a lot of tubbo things. but yeah the idea of tommy being IN l'manberg but people not comprehending what's going on or being able to help him... freaky.

no idea what to do about enderwalk or doomsday.

clingyduo fight still happens. not sure if it'd be at the community house or not, but it'd have a LOT higher stakes than canon because tommy is slash gen Out For The Kill

I WANT TO WORK IN EGG STUFF!! because red banquet with dream there is a super interesting idea, especially considering tommy's immunity. and the fact he destroyed parts of the egg that one time but took damage from it whatt was up with that.

and above all else if i ever make this a fic or comic or whatever it WILL have a happy ending and hurt/comfort because. i am weak for that.

soo ya. bit of rambling. design notes ermm

as much as i love the classic :( mask i figured (x x) is a bit more unique, and makes sense considering the revival aspect of this iteration

tommy's hair is LONGISH! and keeps getting longer because i have always had headcanons about dream having a preference for it being long (being able to play with it, yank him around by it, etc).

tommy's facial scar is a near mirror of dream's. because i'm fucked up <3

tommy's design is generally much more rounded than dream's and has a hint of a moth/butterfly motif (as opposed to dream's spider)

tommy's mask/hood shows his hair and face behind it because it is not enchanted. just porcelain.

not pictured but somewhere there is a :) carved into tommy. from a particularly harsh "punishment".

also not pictured but TOMMY TRIDENT SYMBOLISM. which i DID NOT COME UP WITH ORIGINALLY!! don't know who did unfortunately. but the connection to the sea plus it being an unconventional weapon plus loyalty and channeling enchantments. yass.

and i'll link a coloured drawing related to this au so you can see the designs better

ermm that's about it for now. very workshop vibes not concrete under construction et cetera. but here if anyone is interested

[ts-nightingaleislands]

Episode #8- “people are going to be blindsided and i'm people”- Vincent

Holy guacamole I feel terrible. On one end I have four people who decided to work together and on the other end are people they told I wanted out. I am at a bit of a loss here but I always like a challenge! I'm gonna go finish my thinking, see if it sticks, and go then voice it!

wow how am i even still here because of my strong social connections! just 7ish tribals until the end! that's so much...i have no idea what's about to happen over the next few weeks except that people are going to be blindsided and i'm people a big part of my pitch to rizo and chris was that cheatham is a threat and he needs to go...which is why now that we're all together i'm in an alliance with all of them, as well as austin and noah. this six is absolutely not going to stick together but i'm in the middle so when it falls i'm not taking the hit! annmarie and liam are cool as well, so ideally the merge vote is between sara and kyle. for me i would ideally keep kyle bc he seems less likely to try and blow up the game in a way which is bad for me, like i feel like he may help me down the line. so i'm going to try to push for that. however, neither annmarie or liam are worth saving at this time so if either of their names come up i'm going along with it this is the first time i've merged in nearly a year and i'm ready to overplay and flop!

Right now Im in an alliance with...Austin, Noah, Rizo, Vincent, and Cheatham by the name of Bottom Feeders. Tbh its just irony at this poiint I am going to end up working with people I wanted out but hey that's Survivor!

(LATER)

My plan of action is to talk with Kyle, consider having a aide alliance with him and Rizo where we get AM/Sara/Liam out and then have BF target Cheatham and/or Noah or whoever in F8/F7..stay tuned!

(EVEN LATER)

Mark my words, this week is going to expose Austin! He has Liam/AM/Sara wanting him and then Bottom Feeders so no matter how this immunity goes and tribal, he will be seen sketchy to somebody.

Wow, So last week I decided what was going on bc i have the idol. If Gwen knew how to stop talking then maybe i would’ve. ANYWAYS, this week. So I got put in three alliances. Big Time Thrush (which I was already in from pre merge) which consists of Me, Noah, Austin, and Vincent. Then there is Bottom Feeders, consisting of Me, Noah, Austin, Vincent, Rizo, Chris. Basically Rizo and Chris made that bc they are on the bottom. I don’t trust it at all. Finally, the one that i’m actually sticking with, is The Frock Destroyers, which consists of Me, Noah, Liam, Austin, Ann Marie, and Sara.... JK i’m not working with that. There is a secret 4th alliance that is the same as the last one but without Noah. I know Noah is probably reading this. Basically, I don’t like the way he talks to me. Outside of the game, I would LOVE to stay friends with Noah bc i’m sure he is a great person. INSIDE the game however, i do not appreciate when someone tells me to shut up, calls me an idiot, or tells me i’m stupid. That is NOT okay. He never listens to my ideas and he acts like this idol, is his. This idol is mine PERIOD. I was his puppet early on because i was so busy with life shit. But now i’m realizing the way he is treating me/ using me. And revenge is gonna be awesome.

Ugh....this is like trying to choose which puppy is cuter when both are identical!! It doesn't WERK! Fricken the only people I really trust fully is AnnMarie and Liam but we can't get on the same damn page. AnnMarie leans more towards Rizo/Chris/Kyle but I have DEALT with them and I know how they are. And it's been confirmed that Kyle won't split from Rizo...he said it on call that they're tight. I like Kyle...don't get me wrong...but he leaks EVERYTHING (so do I...but that's different, right?) and twists and turns things. Yes, working with OG Thrush is risky AF, but so is working against the idol and with a [new] trio, some of which have ALREADY voted for you. I mean...I've done this before where I completely flip on my old 'tribe' to work with the other side and I've won...so it isn't impossible. I also generally just don't click with the other side (as in Chris/Kyle/Rizo) as well as I do with the noobs....so even if they are tight....I'm either on the bottom of the original Petrel or the original Thrush. Noah fence....but I like Thrush better and would rather lose to them than Petrel. And that's just the way it is!

So we gave Sara immunity, I want to use it as strategy to possibly have her like me again but we will see if it works. As far everything else, Austin wants Kyle/Rizo gone. I dont know where it leaves me in his ideal pecking order but Im not waiting around long enough to ask.

(LATER)

Nah, Im not accepting this. Im not waiting for Rizo to be voted out to make mends either. Im gonna get this Petrel chat going and maybe it is the one thing that can save him and me. Im not putting all my eggs into the Bottom Feeders basket just yet and sure as heck am not a out to welcome myself to the bottom of the barrel so easily

Wow...a lot has happened. My alliance with Cheatham, Noah, and Austin supposedly merged with Chris and Rizo to create a super alliance. Guess how long that lasted? As far as I can tell, Noah is targeting Austin but tried setting it up to ensure Chris and Rizo take the fall, using information I gave him (not necessarily important info, but something which incriminates Chris/Rizo which I only told him). Austin heard about this, of course, because he's just so good at this game and everyone is gravitating towards him. I've been completely honest with him, so hopefully he has been with me. Originally the vote was supposed to be Rizo, with myself, Austin, Cheatham, Liam, AnnMarie, and Sara on board. This is why Rizo got vote against him at the challenge. However, Rizo has never targeted me personally. Comparing that to Noah, who I have heard from multiple sources was hoping that I was going to be voted out last round, voting to ensure this happened, and it was clear to me that Noah was the bigger threat to my game. Additionally, Cheatham told me things about how condescending Noah would be with him, so at that point I felt like I had to change the vote. Cheatham was on board with it, and I told Austin as well. Liam, Sara, and AnnMarie don't know (as far as I know) as of when I wrote this, but I really don't see a reason as to why they'd not want to vote Noah. After this, it's 9. I don't want to get too far ahead of myself, just to see how the dynamic is structured to truly figure out whether or not Noah is the best move for me. Liam-AM-Sara are essentially a trio, and they're all good with me bc I voted with them and included them all Chris-Rizo will be an even tighter duo, with Kyle as their auxiliary, and they'll all hate me. However, because I pushed the vote off Rizo (which is evidenced by the fact he got the vote at the challenge), I don't think it's fair to say that I ruined these relationships beyond repair, which I would have if Rizo left. Austin is still the most powerful guy in the room, but he's a powerful guy who fully trusts me. Cheatham has the idol, so keeping him on my good side is essential. To be honest, earlier flushing the idol was my top priority, but now I would not mind if he kept the idol for the rest of the game. Doesn't hurt my game, and as long as Austin is here, why would he take a shot at me? So I think it's fair to say that, based on my current understanding of the dynamic, I am making the best move for my game.

Im gradually realizing Cheatham is the answer. We majorly messed up by not giving him immunity and now I want to talk to him to fix it. Rizo doesnt want me to with fear that it could ruin things but like I cant just sit here and do nothing. He doesnt wanna talk to Austin, Austin doesnt want to talk to him, OG Petrel doesnt want to talk to us, and so really this boils down to us needing to persuade Cheatham. I dont feel right if I dont talk to explain how bad of a decision it was and I'll work to fix it but for now Im just gonna do what Rizo says and wait

Merge !! Wohoo this is where the game starts and I must say I’m playing hard. And it’s starting to backfire. Chris not voting AM out our first Petrel tribal really fucked me because it showed where I lied. I was trying to play both sides and unfortunately it’s biting me in the ass. It’s crazy cuz austin is doing the same thing but it’s working for him. I got last in the challenge because my name is being mentioned and the next target. Austin is clearly the snake and I can’t say I’m mad good for him but he is someone I need out. He mentioned my name to Kyle and with a vote on me already I’m assuming I have 5 votes to my name going into tribal. I know I have Chris and Kyle on board to vote with me. Noah is next to go so he is down to vote with me and I saved Vincent so why wouldn’t he vote me. That leaves 5-5 with cheatham being the swing. I’m trying to convince him that I got his back and I truly do he is a power player With that idol and is a great shield. He is upset he wasent granted immunity by our alliance and that is a valid reason but I don’t want that to cost me my game. Cheatham says he is going to try to take the target off my back but I really want him to vote austin out with Us to make it 6-5 blindside. It would be iconic to get out a big player like austin who is playing a Rob C type of game. It just sucks cuz if I go Kyle and Chris my go too guys are next and austin will steamroll you the end. If it’s my time I played the game how I wanted to play. I’m not going to quit until my torch is snuffed but looking at it now, I have a big uphill battle but if I can pull this off, it goes down in the history books.

(LATER)

Oh shit coming back to you with some great? News. Cheatham and austin came to me stating that they will save me and they want Noah out? Is that what I want? NOPE! Will I do that to stay in the game ? YESSIR! Obviously I want noah to stay cuz he is a shield for me and seems to want to work with me but cheatham says Noah has treated him like shit and austin dislikes him. At this rate I have to lay low and just let austin and cheatham make the move to save me. I’ll tell Chris to vote noah and make sure as much votes go to noah as possible. After noah leaves I can regroup and think of a strategy but tonight the goal is to survive no matter who goes besides Chris and Kyle. I need us 3 to stick together to have a chance. But I might have some life in this game !

Am I a mess for telling Cheatham Bottom Halfs votes in the challenge? Yes. But if it keeps him more likely to want Rizo in then I'll take the consequences

SOOO. OH BOY. I'm in a pretty good alliance with Sara, Liam, cheatham, and Austin. We are all working together against everyone else. I like the comfort, but it's clear that it won't last for long. Apparently Austin is working both sides, and it's just veryyyy frustrating not knowing if there's another plan you're not a part of. I'm doing pretty good developing the trust I have with others, and I'm happy with how I'm doing right now. I want to nap.

So much has happened! So glad that Gwen's elimination went to plan and even ended up unanimous against her, she would've been even more scary in this merge. I've been taking a deliberate backseat in this past challenge because it's messy as fuck & I'd rather everyone else take the heat at the end of the day, I've not heard my name at all & both sides are speaking to me decently regularly so I don't feel in danger at all tonight. I'm hoping the votes to get Rizo eliminated are there because as much as I like the guy he rarely speaks to me & I'm not keeping around people who refuse to speak to me, enjoy ponderosa!

As of now I think the Noah votes over. Noah conveniently is told and only 4 people knew it. So it tells me that Cheatham/Austin probably planned to set us up or something. So now I just want to get Austin to own up to things...which is unlikely

Fuck Kyle lmao chatting shit at tribal with his fake woke bullshit, I'm so over this tribal & I can't wait for it to be over so we can move on and get the rest of this game underway because there's so many more angles I wanna explore & I need the people I know I can't work with on the jury.

9 votes Rizo, 2 votes Austin.