#i'm moving into a pet friendly apartment and i keep telling my parents i'm going to wait a year and see if i feel ready/like i have time for

[zipquips]

petition for my parents to stop thinking i'm unprepared and being stupid with the idea of getting a pet

[9tzuyu]

my guitar is slightly out of tune, but i’m eternally yours.

[reuploaded and revised from my old blog.]

↠ prompt: you have a terminal illness but you have a chance with treatment but you deny it, then you meet wanda and you feel alive again.

↠ warnings: kinda angsty, but worth the read :>.

requests are always open!

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“Oh–” was all you managed to say. “I recommend we start radiation treatments-” You zoned out and watched your feet dangle from the edge of the exam table. Was this it? Was this really all there was for you? It seemed hopeless to even do anything at this point. You figured if this was affecting you again, it was for a reason. 

"No. I don't want treatment." The doctor looked at you and his gaze faltered. "You do understand that if you refuse treatment this will inevitably kill you?" You nodded. The words felt empty, they carried no weight behind them anymore. Nonetheless, the doctor continued to try and persuade you. 

"I said I don't want the treatment. I'm refusing medical advice. I don't want to have to go through this again, it's obviously not going away. Now where the hell do I sign the papers?" You exasperated. The doctor gave you one last look before getting the papers for you to embark your signature on.

“You’re one-hundred percent sure about this?”

You shrugged your shoulders, “I've got nothin' left for me here anyways. Might as well just let nature take its course.”

"Well surely you've got someone, a friend maybe?" You shook your head.

 "Nope." You replied, popping the P at the end. The doctor seemed to finally grasp the situation when you handed the papers back to him as if you were turning in a job application.

He pursed his lips, "I'm going to give prescribe medication for the pain. Based on the size of the tumor I'd say you have about eight months to live, but only about half of those months will be enjoyable." You nodded your head in reply and gathered your stuff together. 

So how were you going to spend your last months on earth? That was the question you asked yourself. You walked out of the building and found yourself in a coffee shop. It was busy, but you found yourself a seat next to a window in the back of the shop. Your eyes gazed out the window as you pondered your question from earlier.

'I could move to New York and see broadway shows I've never wanted to see'

'There's always casinos–'

'–Or what about splurging your money on dumb things that you'll quite literally never need?'

You laughed at your thoughts. You made up your mind right there, you were going to live the rest of your life just the way it was. It’d be easier that way. You didn't have friends, no longer had parents, so it's not like anyone would really miss you really. All you had was your pet cat and your guitar. And truth be told, that's all you needed. 

Coffee.

"Hello?" You snapped out of your gaze to see a beautiful brunette standing in front of you. The second thing you noticed was her accent, you'd never heard it before. “I was wondering if this seat was taken?” She softly smiled at you. You returned the gesture and shook your head no. "The place is cram packed and you seemed trustworthy. I hope I'm not disturbing you or anything, you seemed to be pretty deep in thought." The young woman blushed a crimson color, "I'm sorry I probably seem weird or something, I'll go."

Normally you would have cared, but at this point in time you didn't mind the company. So, with the slightest bit of hesitation, you called out for her.

“Wait! It’s fine, don’t worry. I-I’m all alone.” The woman’s smile widened as she took a seat across from you. “Thanks. I'm Wanda, what's your name?”

"Y/N." 

"Y/N..." She flexed your name on her tongue, "That's a beautiful name."

"I'm stuck with it for life, so I sure hope it's at least a decent name." You narrowed your eyes at her as you joked. A giggle escaped the gap between her lips, causing a small flutter to emit in your stomach.

"So what do you do?" She asked, intrigued by your presence.

"Well I do a lot of things, I walk, I talk, I breathe-"

"Oh shut up! You know what I meant." Wanda’s eyes gleamed with friendliness and warmth. She seemed like the type you'd be friends with if you weren't dying. "Okay, okay, I play guitar and sing while my cat eats her food." Wanda's eyes lit up at the mention of a cat. 

"You have a cat? What's her name?" Her elbows were propped up on the table with her head resting in her hands, showing just how actually interested she was in you.

“Her name is Nala. You know, from The Lion King?”

Wanda’s brows furrowed together. She’d never seen The Lion King, much less heard of it.

Your jaw dropped at her confusion. “You mean to tell me you’ve never seen The Lion King?”

“I’m Sokovian, what do you expect?” 

“Ahh, I see. Well, do you at least have any pets?”

"My apartment doesn't allow pets."

"So? Sneak one in." You replied nonchalantly, crushing ice between your teeth. Wanda looked at you in shock. "No way! Knowing me I'd get my ass caught on the first day." You shrugged in reply and the conversation quickly went dead.

Wanda checked her phone, moving abruptly to get up from her seat. "I'm so sorry, I have to go now. I'll see you around, okay?"

“Sure.”

After another half hour of waiting on nothing and thinking about everything, you finally decided it was time to leave. A feeling of regret washed over you. The woman was kind, very friendly, something that you craved.

But you couldn’t allow yourself these things now, especially given the direction you were heading.

_____

Over the next few weeks you'd spent your time songwriting, journaling and a midst of other lonely, boring things. Sometimes you'd catch yourself thinking about the woman in the coffee shop, but you tended not to dwell too much on the past. 

You thought about your tumor and all the different ways it was growing inside you. It grossed you out more than anything, but you weren't afraid. At least not now you weren't. 

A heavy sigh slipped from your lips, and the sudden urge to go to the park overtook the need to do anything else. You’d never really visited the park in your area before, so you decided now was the time. 

The beige acoustic guitar rest heavily on your shoulders, similarly to the weight of the world. It was bitter, no taste of sweetness was left over in the aftermath.

Leaves crunched under your feet as you made your way into the park. The smell of pine and bark surrounded you, just as the pinch of cold air that struck your face. It was tranquil.

You marched your way over to a nearby tree secluded from everyone else. Setting your guitar down, you nested cozily against the wood. Your journal rest aside your hip as did the pen that exchanged your thoughts into words.

Humming quietly, your fingertips grazed the instrument’s delicate strings. Music filled the air around you, but it came to a quick stop nearly ten minutes after you’d begun.

"Hey, I know you. Y/N, right?" You heard a familiar accented voice behind you. You turned around to find Wand standing above you. "Uh yeah, that's me. What's up?" She sat down beside you, making you a little uncomfortable, but you figured you could deal with it for the sake of being nice. 

"Nothing. I just saw you and thought I’d say hi. What about you? I see you have your guitar."

“Just singing,” you mumbled quietly.

She smiled and pushed a strand of hair out of your face that was blown in from the wind. "You’re really pretty." You bit your lip and you could feel the heat rise to you face. "Thanks."

"Mhm. So last time I didn't get your number, maybe I will this time?" She asked (although her eyes were begging). You couldn’t help but feel something while she bit her lip, her doe eyes unintentionally focusing on your lips.

"I'll have to give you mine, I didn't bring my phone with me – don’t use it much." You replied. She handed her phone to you and you typed your number in.

"Do you not have family or friends you keep up with?" Her brow quirked in curiosity.

"Parents died, no siblings, and no friends. I don't have many people to worry about."

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have-"

"It's fine, I don't mind." She looked down in her lap before asking another question. "What about a job? Do you work?" Wanda was definitely a curious one, but each question she asked carried you in a way you’d never felt before. It was refreshing to have someone interested in you, and not your disease. 

"Nope, when my parents died they left all their life savings to me. It's plenty enough for me to live on." Your fingers began lightly playing the chords of a song. It was often that you unknowingly played when you were scared or nervous. You'd only realize afterwards. 

"That's good– not that your parents died, but you know, you have money and stuff. Even if it's– oh my god- " 

You cracked out a laugh, causing her to look at you in terror. Noticing this, you rest a hand on her shoulder. "Wanda, it's okay. You're fine, I know what you mean." She nodded shyly and looked up to the sky. 

"Hey, it's sunset! I love sunsets, I used to watch them all the time with my brother back in Sokovia." Her voice wavered at the end of her sentence, and you easily picked up on it.

"Something wrong?" You asked. She laid her head on your lap and you stiffened, but quickly relaxed. This is fine. This is okay. You set your guitar aside and began to play with her hair.

"I miss him. Pietro..." She paused for a second before continuing. "He died a couple of years ago from cancer." You felt your heart drop for the first time at the mention of the horrid disease that stripped you away from most of your life. "Oh." The word seemed to become your go-to for whenever you didn't know how to accept information you were given.

"He was the other half of me. We were twins, I felt like my whole world fell apart. After he died I moved out of my country and moved here. Since then I've made some good friends. You might like them." 

“I’m sorry about your brother. I’m sure he was wonderful, Wanda.” You whispered, bringing a piece of her hair to the end of a braid. “I'm happy you've made some friends." Wanda nodded and snuggled closer in your lap. "Maybe I can be your friend?" You gave it a thought. You weren't sure you could do that to her, not with your illness anyway. Guilt nawed at you already. She’d already lost someone so beloved and close to her from it, how awful you began to feel if you had to put her through that again.

"Y/N?"

You stared at her for a few moments before answering. "I don't know, maybe." She turned over to face you, but you avoided her gaze. "I'm going to figure you out you know." You stifled a laugh, "And you'll be sorry you ever did."

"Whatever."

____

Four months passed and you thought they would be empty, meaningless months, but with Wanda nuzzling her way into your life you began to feel alive for the first time. When she came around it was like a switch you couldn't turn off. 

Right now, you sat at your desk strumming your guitar while watching Nala play with a toy dinosaur you’d bought her just weeks ago. This life was good too, you thought. But it was lonely.

You weren't quite sure what Wanda meant to you yet, but you were slowly discovering that whatever the two of you had, blossomed into something more each second you spent together.

Popping a Vicodin in your mouth, your phone buzzed. It would be no one else but Wanda.

be there in a few, it's urgent. 

Panic set in your body as you worried for the safety of your friend. What could possibly be the matter? Normally Wanda talked about what was bothering her.

A knock at your door brought you out of your gaze and you stumbled to answer it. Wanda was distressed, her hair a mess and her eyes red.

“Whats wro-” You were cut off By Wanda smashing her lips onto yours. 

She pulled back in shock. "Oh my god, I'm so sorry! I-"

You shut her up by pushing her into the wall, door closing behind you. Her lips tasted of strawberry and her hands began to roam your body.

One thing led to another and you both ended up naked on your bed. How amazing it must be to wake up and know that you won’t be dead in the next few months.

"You're good. Almost too good. Where did you learn all that from having no friends?" She smirked at you. You gave her a smile and kissed her again. Your arms wrapped around her nude body and together you felt the utter bliss and excitement radiating from one another.

. . . . 

Three weeks later yoy began to shake. It was hardly noticeable, and it just so happened to occur when you were playing

It’s downhill from here and you know that.

"Can you fix it? Can you fix this?" You yelled at him, despite knowing it was all your fault. If you would've just taken the treatments you wouldn't be in this place. But back then your life had no real meaning, it was just you and your cat.

You hadn't planned on falling in love with someone. 

"There's nothing I can do now. Treatments won't work, it's too far gone. I'm surprised it took this long to start showing symptoms."

For the first time in years, you felt tears beginning to build in your eyes. "You don't understand, I love her and now I'm just going to leave her? This can't be happening, you have to do something!" You pleaded, but the doctor’s eyes were solemn, giving you the only reply you needed. 

You stormed out of the hospital and made your way to Wanda. Silence rang through your ears.

Tell her. You have to tell her.

It will be over.

Sobs wrecked your body as you fumbled with the keys to your shared apartment. The door opened to a sight you wanted to live forever.

There she was, perched on the couch while massaging Napa’s scruffy fur. She was content, happy, and here you were to ruin it.

"Y/N? Baby what's wrong?" She got up from her spot and rushed over to you, worry etched on her face. You clung onto her for more life than you had left. And god, You weren't scared before, but you sure as hell were now. 

"I have terminal cancer."

Wanda froze.

"That's not funny, Y/N. You know how I feel about this topic." Her glare was hasty, burning into your skin.

"I was diagnosed almost five months ago, please Wanda you have to believe me. I have tremors, don't you see?" You raised your hand up to show her, but she slapped it away. "You're making yourself do that, Y/N. Stop joking, or I'm leaving." She crossed her arms

"W-What?" Your chest tightened.

"I said stop joking."

"I'm not joking, Wanda!"

"I'm leaving," She huffed, snatching her jacket before slamming the door shut.

And it was true, she did leave. However, Wanda didn't leave for the reasons she gave you.

She loved you, but she couldn’t handle another loss like this.

. . . . 

During the next two months you experienced the most heartache you'd ever felt before. The combination of vomiting, body aches, and dizziness didn't help. If anything, it made it worse. You missed Wanda. Everything about her gave you a reason to live.

You were on your seventh month and the pain was unbearable. It hurt to reach out for a cup of water, your hands shook uncontrollably all while sending jolts of scorching pain throughout the entirety of your arm.

Undoubtedly, the hospital bed became your next best friend (although it was the worst one you’d ever had. But it somehow managed to weasel its way back in your life).

Wanda was nowhere to be seen, and if anything that only progressed your disease. The only thing that kept you sane was your guitar, and the fact that Nala was being taken care of by a sweet, old nurse (who sometimes snuck her in so you could see her).

It was about the small things now. 

More days passed and each one was getting worse. By now you just wanted to end it all on your own, but you were physically too weak to do that.

There was a knock on your door, but you ignored it thinking it was just another nurse. "Y/N?" The voice was soft, it felt like it'd been years since you last heard it. You turned your head slightly to see Wanda standing in the doorway. A weak smile formed on your face.

"Hey you." 

Wanda quickly dropped her things and ran to your side. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." She mumbled over and over again as you calmly stroked her hair.

"It's okay, you know it is." You whispered in her ear. She looked up at you and shook her head, "But it's not okay, I left you when you needed me the most." You stared at her adoringly and the tips of your fingers gently rubbed away the tears from her face. "But I'm still here, aren't I?" She laughed through her cries, "Yeah... you're still here."

Both of you knew you didn't have much time left, but you ignored that other than the fact that you made her promise to take care of Nala when you were gone. She held your hand and got you everything you needed.

And you love her so deeply for that.

One night you had the feeling that your time was coming soon, so you woke Wanda up from her sleep. "Sweetheart?" She stirred a little before finally sitting up. 

"Yeah?"

"Hand me my guitar?" She tilted her head, "But your shakes?" You ignored her and asked for it again. 

When she handed you your beloved guitar you took it with grace. "Come help me, I wanna play a song." She nodded and came to your side.

Your fingers struggled as they strummed the delicate strings on the instrument. You picked one of Wanda's favorite, and when you were done you spoke lightly.

"My guitar is slightly out of tune, but I'm eternally yours."

[liljungie]

MVP | Jeon Jungkook | final part.

Pairing: [soccer player] Jungkook x reader feat jimin.

Warnings: angst | smut! | cheating confession.

Parts:

One / two / three / four

Word count: 8134 (it took me forever to write this part)

A/N: I'm sorry in advance!!

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You stopped your car and glanced over at jimin's house, you shut your engine off so you couldn't hear it rattling anymore it was giving you a headache, it was quieter now you feel the nervousness take over you completely that you found it hard to open the car door and get out.

You didn't notice jimin walking out of his house. he obviously knew your car and jogged towards it, knocking on your window.

"_____?" Jimin questioned smiling warmly at you pulling you out of your trance, startled you fumble with the door handle swinging it open "hey jimin" your voice was shaky as you got out of your car rubbing your sweaty palms against your jeans.

You didn't think you'd see him just yet.

He smiled and opened his arms taking you in for a hug, you felt the weight of the world on your shoulders subsiding, you missed his hugs, you missed spending time with him, you just missed your bestfriend.

After what happened you're lucky that you got a chance to make it right with him again.

"You drove all the way here?" Jimin questioned laughing at the end because he was honestly impressed ,you pulled from the hug "I came to say I'm sorry..." you mutter just loud enough for him to hear.

His gaze softened "_____" he whined giggling softly "it's okay I forgave you" he tells you tracing your cheek with his thumb the smile didn't leave his face at all which made you relax "I'm sorry too..what I said back then about you and um...that was uncalled for it" he rubs the back of his neck, embarrassed.

"But you were right about everything!" You cry, you just couldn't handle not crying anymore, he pulls you back in a tighter embrace rocking you side to side hushing your cries while he runs his fingers through your hair "I'm sorry for not being there for you"

jimin continued to say while holding you in his arms "I never meant to hurt you I should have punched him before he even thought of approaching you" you knew he was beating himself for it you pull away wiping your tears looking at him with glossy eyes "I don't deserve you park jimin" you sniffle.

He giggles "I know, you deserve the world" he pokes your cheek, ruffling your hair as you both chuckle "come here stop crying it's almost Christmas!" He tells you while pulling you in for another hug you wiped away your tears and finally smiled.

"So we're okay?" You ask looking up at him smiling softly "we're more than okay munchkin" he tells you with a grin knowing how much you hated that pet name you shove him off laughing "last one in the house is a donkey" you yell behind you running towards his house.

He gasps "you little-" he follows you trying to catch up with you, the sound of your and his laughter echoes in the streets making your heart blossom with happiness and contentment.

This is the friendship you missed with jimin, for a moment there you had completely forgotten about jungkook and that part in your mind that calls out for him didn't bother you while you're with your bestfriend and for that you were thankful.

_

The drive back to you was longer than it should have been, making Jungkook drive recklessly and yell and shout at the others on the road to make him pass through.

It was christmas eve so the streets were busy and crowded, so much traffic he wanted to scream, he shouldn't have taken this too far and for what? to make you jealous? You weren't even fazed. apart of him was starting to fear that you started to move on and he didn't want to push you away this far.

So he just couldn't wait any longer, he needed to get to you and make it right, even though he still didn't figure out what he'll do with the girl sitting next to him; he was planning to finally tell her the truth after christmas passes he just can't keep leading her on like this or hurt you anymore.

He wanted to make sure that you knew he loved you and is willing to fight for your relationship no matter what the price is.

As he turns around the corner another traffic welcomes his car and he sighs in annoyance slamming his feet on the breaks to stop the car completely until the cars infront of his start moving.

Which by the looks of it won't be happening soon.

He glances at his girlfriend, she was awfully quiet the whole ride back to Seoul, he didn't try to chat with her either, he didn't feel their spark anymore and it was hard for him to maintain it any longer he looks over at her and she looks like... she had been crying silently.

He got worried for a second, did he hurt her by his reckless driving? He did make sudden turns and stops he definitely could have hurt her..

He turned to face her pushing the strand of her hair that had fallen on her face covering it, she flinches from his touch and moves her head away from him making his eyebrows furrow with confusion.

"Nari?" He softly calls her, pulling his hand back, she sniffs and looks away "Baby what's wrong?" He asks placing his hand on her thigh, she pushes his hand off taking a deep breath.

"I know about you and  _____" she declares, turning her eyes to stare into his wide ones, his blood runs cold.

He could feel every emotion drain from him, he could feel ropes around his throat tightening by the second making it hard to breath.

He just stared at her and he cursed himself for not finding any word to say.

"The night I was over at your dorm sleeping over, you told me you left to get something from taehyung's.. my friend who lives next door saw you and _____" she sniffles wiping her tears, her voice is steady and slow even though she had been crying for awhile it seems.

And even though she was being calm jungkook still found it hard to process her words, it was like she was speaking another language, he felt like a part of his world started to collapse, he didn't want her to find out.

Not like this. Not ever until it was the right time.

"It's not what you think I was just checking on her because jimin asked me t-" Jungkook tried to say but she cut him off "Eun saw you kiss her!" Nari shouted rolling her eyes as more tears stream down her face "when will you come clean?" She weeps making his heart break at the way her voice finally broke echoing in the car.

"I knew all along!" She turned to him, her eyes were puffy and blood shot "but I was hoping the confession would come from you, not my friend!"

His head hangs low, he was at a loss of words he didn't know how to respond he looked away feeling slightly ashamed.

"Eun just confirmed what I already knew, you and her really played me like a fool, you thought you had it all figured out huh?" She mocks him "she was even dumb enough to wear your Jersey and come home reeking of your smell!" She cried her arms waved around as she spoke.

"I just want to know what I lacked..I wish you came and told me I wasn't good enough instead of cheating on me with the girl I live with and see every day!" She sobbed "do you have any idea how hard it was for me to live with someone who I knew was betraying me and my trust and with who? My own boyfriend!" she yelled at him.

He was tounge tied, he just let her talk he looked straight ahead trying to block her voice and not surrender to the guilt that was eating him.

"I trusted you! I gave you all of me but Jeon Jungkook that's never enough is it?" She laughs rolling her eyes pushing her hair away from her face.

He never saw her like this and they dated for quite a while. he never saw her this heartbroken and he hated himself for not finding the ability to comfort her or apologize for what he had done.

A few minutes of silence pass but they felt like a year until she spoke again opening the car door;

"I don't want to see you or her ever again...forget I even existed because I'm done with your bullshit" she told him getting out of the car "where are you going?" He yelled feeling furious now, does she have to make a scene? "I'm getting the hell away from you what does it look like I'm doing?" she spat shutting the car door after her harshly, not spareing him another glance.

He rubs his face, frustrated.

He could go after her but he felt relived, he didn't feel sorry, yes he cared about her but it was time he finally let go so he decided it's better that he doesn't because what would going after her really do for him or her? He already cheated; multiple times.

There's no way for anything to be mended in this relationship and he knew that. now all he had to do is carry on with what he wanted to do, what he should have done before hurting Nari this far; Is to be honest and face his feelings for you.

He sighs loudly before pulling out his phone his fingers hovering over your contact on his phone, debating whether if he should call you or not.

But you were so unpredictable and the 'what if's' swirl in his mind endlessly.. would you pick up if he called?

_

Dinner with the Parks was always a delight.

You didn't know how much you loved Jimin's parents until now, they were so kind and down to earth, they didn't make you feel like you had messed up, they welcomed you right in it's like you never have left. Even though you didn't see them or talk to them for a whole year.

The banter with Jimin was unlike what you were used to lately, it wasn't mean it was wholesome and friendly and it warmed your heart.

As Jimin's father was cracking another joke your phone started to vibrate against your thigh.

You apologized and pulled it out feeling a bit scared and worried, because who would call you on Christmas eve?

your family were on a trip.

Jungkook wouldn't call you for sure so you immediately scrapped him off of your mind.

Nari is with Jungkook so you doubted it could be her since she's with her prince charming meeting his royal family.

The thought of that still stung you a bit.

You looked over at the name of the caller as your heart drops..

Were you dreaming?

Because Jungkook the Jeon Jungkook was calling you...

Jimin glanced over your shoulder without you noticing, he saw Jungkook's name bright and clear on your phone screen he couldn't help but clench his jaw, slightly aggravated.

"Excuse me" you smile warmly at Jimin and his parents before getting up from the dining table walking to the hallway to answer the phone.

Your heart was beating uncontrollably in your chest, everything you built up to block him from getting back into your life was slowly evaporating. Like you never built up walls to protect you.

You were shaking, questioning what he wanted, why was he calling? and why now?

You leaned against the wall trying to calm yourself down before you answered, you swiped the green button when you felt slightly steadier and lifted the phone up to your ear closing your eyes shut.

"Hello?" Your voice sounded like a quiver you cursed yourself for not having a stronger voice.

"_____ oh thank god you picked up!" he sighs you can tell he was smiling at the other line, you roll your eyes but your heart was doing flips "what do you want?" You hiss trying to sound unbothered; but god you were gonna melt at the sound of his voice and the way he said your name.

"I need to see you.." he heard the scoff you let out "where are you?" He asks crossing his fingers and hoping that you weren't with jimin; to his disappointment you replied "I'm actually in busan so whatever you want to talk about can we talk about it later? I can't right now" you say biting your bottom lip praying that that was convincing enough glancing behind you to find Jimin was looking back at you, you turned away.

"It can't wait _____! it's about us" he says with gritted teeth, are you serious right now? There's no way he'll wait another day for this to be resolved, he needed to talk it through tonight.

You sigh leaning against the wall behind you staring at the ceiling again "so? You had no problem delaying 'us' for a whole week I think you can wait two more days Jungkook" you tell him frustrated.

He was used to getting what he wanted and that's not gonna happen, not from now on further, you were deeply hurt and there's no way he's getting you back easily.

"Nari knows about us!" He says knocking all the air out of your lungs you feel the world around you stop moving "what?" You ask in disbelief, was this another lie of his?

"_____ we broke up...like minutes ago" he says making your world burn as the realization hits you; now that she's not there anymore he's finally ready for you? He finally realized that he wanted you?

"Oh so that's why you're calling? Congrats on being single jungkook but I'm not intrested in being your rebound I'm done I thought I told you that!" you heard him groan on the other line "goddamn it you're so difficult! Why are you like this? do you want to kill me?" Jungkook yells what were you talking about?! You can't be serious! Rebound? Why do you think that low of him?

"I'd love to!" You snapped back angrily.

You couldn't believe him right now, you wanted to reach through the phone and slap him.

"I'm being serious I need to see you this can't be talked through the phone please believe me I'm not fucking around anymore!" He says his tone changed making your guard flutter, right when you were about to submit to him you felt a hand on top of yours over your phone.

Jimin took the device from your grip smirking at you "she told you she's busy Jeon" Jimin spoke with gritted teeth.

You heard jungkook on the other line shout but you couldn't make out what he said but he sounded so angry, jimin turned to you and winked making you smile and wait with anticipation to hear what's going on.

"Don't worry kook I'm taking care of her very well, goodbye now!" jimin sweetly spoke before pressing the end call button satisfied, he hands you your phone back "I'm sorry but I overheard your call and I thought you needed saving" he rubs the back of his neck as he feels like he shouldn't have gotten between you and Jungkook.

You giggle and sigh nervously, as Jungkook's words play in your mind over and over again shaking your head, Jimin looks at you with worry you look up at him giving him a reassuring smile "let's go back we kept your parents waiting!" you said quickly not wanting to talk about Jungkook or what's going to happen next, dragging him behind you by his hand.

"I'm sorry for keeping you waiting it was an emergency" you said smiling at them before you sat down. jimin gives you a knowing look when you said 'emergency' making you roll your eyes.

[ an hour before midnight ]

If you thought your mind was not going to overthink everything you thought wrong..

Apart of you suspected that Nari knew about you, no matter how much you thought you hid it well you two were still roommates there's no way the thought didn't cross her mind. There's no way she couldn't have known.

You noticed the way she looked at you lately you knew it was different but you pushed it aside not sparing it a second thought because Nari was Nari, you weren't the bestest of friends but you lived with her and knew enough about her and her moods to know that the stares were just how she looked at people.

But with what jungkook just told you, you knew these stares were her way of examining your behavior, you felt so bad and there's no way you were gonna go back to your dorm now, you felt so ashamed you couldn't face her.

She had every right to hate your guts, she trusted you and you betrayed her.

Mentally you prepared yourself to move out because you knew there's no way you'll continue living with her for another 3 years.

Not after betraying her, you wanted to apologize but you know you'll be the biggest bitch if you do that. because your apology won't do anything. it won't fix your mistake and it surely won't help her with the situation or bring her boyfriend back or undo your doing.

You couldn't help but feel for her and imagine yourself in her place, you couldn't blame her for whatever she did with Jungkook.

You started to wonder and question your relationship with jungkook, and what's going to happen now that she's not in the picture, if he cheated on Nari he could cheat on you too...

He done it so easily to her even though they've been together for a good while, what makes you so different from her?

Do you really trust him to not think like that about him? Do you really want to be with someone who cheated on their signficant other to be with someone else? One day the tables will turn and you'll be in Nari's shoes and you'll taste the same medicine.

Did you really want that?

Jimin looked over at you and smiled sadly. He knew you enough to know that you were overthinking, everything...

He pulled you closer as you laid your head on his chest and sighed "Jimin I'm so confused..." he sighs and rubs your arm in hopes it's soothing, he was gonna try and help but he's not sure about what he should tell you.

"Do what your heart tells you to do" he tells honestly, you stare at the tv, his parents went to bed it was just the two of you now.

"My heart wants him but I'm afraid he'll cheat on me.." you feel ridiculous as you unfold the topic with Jimin he sighs again "love is stronger than any other emotion, if he didn't love you he wouldn't go through all of that just to stop here.. knowing Jungkook he never lost once in his life so I doubt he'd give you up easily" you look up at him and he traces your cheek "I know I said jungkook doesn't love you but what if he does.." he asks himself more than you before he stares at you with a look of admiration.

"and he does because he swore he'd cut my dick off if I get near you" he chuckles as your cheeks overheat and you hide your face in his chest groaning with embarrassment making Jimin throw his head back with laughter.

"Did he really say that? Or you just wanted to see me flustered?" You look up at him, your hair is all over the place from hiding.

Jimin nods "maybe the latter" he winks "anyway, I think you should listen to him you'll never know unless you hear him out" he looks back at the TV.

"But I'm scared...I don't know how I'm gonna react if I see him" you bit your lip as the nervousness embraces you once again.

"at least give it a try it's better than regretting that you never have given him a chance"

The way he spoke these words made an uneasy feeling run through your body, you look up at him then turn your head away with a sad smile you ask "jimin?" You hear him hum a yes "do you still...love me?"

You knew your question was dumb and unnecessary but you were dying to know..you didn't know why the urge to know that suddenly mattered.

You felt his body tense up underneath you as the question hangs in the air but then he relaxes "how can I not?" He whispers but you heard him.

You gulped the lump in your throat as you listened carefully to his words.

"But _____ I don't want to lose the friendship I have with you, it's so precious to me" he giggled but you knew it was the bittersweet kind of giggle it wasn't sad but it wasn't the happiest "this year without you was awful...I know it's cliche but I can't live without you and I don't want to lose you we're already acting like a couple anyway"

He scoffed running his fingers through your hair you wiped a tear that have slipped from the corner of your eye as you sat up to look at him.

"Maybe it's not our time yet" you smirk watching him make a face before he rolls his eyes "oh please don't start with your soulmates talk, I can't stand it! I still can't believe you got over that phase" He got up and walked to the kitchen

"Soulmates exist jimin! You're gonna see!" you tease him following him to grab a cup of water only to find him filling a cup for himself you stop and he raises his eyebrows "don't tell me you want water too" jimin gronas and you chuckle nodding "see! That's soulmate behavior!" You tell him winking at the end he only rolls his eyes

"On a second thought I don't love you all that much" jimin joked making you roll your eyes repeating what he said in a tone then laughing at how he looked at you, offended.

"In another life time you'll be my soulmate jiminie" he flips you off disappearing into the living room, you chug the water down and follow him back to the living room.

[12:30 am]

Jimin started to feel sleepy so you decided it was time to go to your motel and call it a day, he insisted that you sleep over but you complained that you didn't have any of your things or the charger of your phone.

It was all in the bag you packed and left in the motel room you rented for today and tomorrow.

He didn't want to pressure you into staying so he let you go of course after he made you pinky promise that you'd be here first thing in the morning so you can open the gifts he got you.

And with that you drove off, you couldn't wait to get under the sheets and sleep the night away.

You got to your motel pretty easily the streets of this part of town weren't as crowded as the main roads.

The room wasn't fancy but it was cozy,kinda scary, but you won't be here for long you thought.

[1:01 am]

As you were about to turn off the lights to finally rest you heard knocking on the door.

You figured you forgot something at jimin's house and he was dropping it off you did tell him your room number incase something were to happen to you so you got up from the bed and made your way to the door opening it. excepting to see jimin...

But you were met with Jungkook's tired face that lit up when your eyes met.

You stood frozen in your spot not able to comparehand that he's right in front of you.

He smiled and sighed relieved that he finally stood in front of you, he finally was twenty centimeters away from you.

"Can I come in?" He asked he couldn't help but smile with contentment.

You couldn't speak you just nodded and stepped aside to let him walk through closing the door after he was inside the tiny space infront of the door.

Your body brushed against his as you shut the door behind him, the feeling of him near you didn't feel odd it felt comforting and inviting.

You gestured to the two chairs that were beside each other in the corner of the room, he sat down and waited for you to do the same when you did he turned to you.

"I'm sorry" you turned to look at him as he started to speak his eyes were filled with regret and they were glossy.

"_____ I'm deeply sorry I know that you don't want me here right now but thank you for giving me a chance to explain myself" he says you hear him swallow before he continues "I couldn't break up with her because I-" he groaned trying to find the right words to say.

You look down in you lap playing with your fingers trying to breathe in and out, you felt a terrible anxiety take over you.

"we have been together for so long I thought that I'd die if she wasn't in my life but when you came into my life you turned it upside down" he smiled reaching forward to wipe away your tears that you didn't realize were falling.

You didn't know what to feel, but you definitely felt overwhelmed by his presence his aura gave off a feeling like nothing else, even the room felt different.

"being with Nari felt like a chore rather than a relationship I knew I was in love with you before we even slept together that night" he was now knelt infront of you rubbing his thumb against your cheek wiping the traces of your tears.

his other hand held yours in your lap "but I was just afraid of letting Nari go... I knew it had to be done I wish I did that instead of cheating on her but I just couldn't" he looks away from you, you knew he was trying not to cry.

You knew he was speaking sincerely the Jungkook that came over that night in your dorm was someone and this jungkook that was kneeling infront of you tonight was someone else.

"I love you and I'm sorry it took me this long to realize it" he tells you smiling at the end of his sentence making you chuckle lightly as well "please don't cry I don't deserve those tears" he softly whispers his forehead touching yours.

He places a kiss there before he looks into your eyes that were looking back at him.

Love was truly a battle filed, Jungkook was the mvp at every match except yours, you were his weakness, you were his soft spot, you're the only one who he'd surrender to.

Your emotions were a mess, your heart screamed at you to take him right then and there while your mind set off alarms in your body to push him away, both of your senses haveing a battle inside you made it hard for you to do anything, you just sat still.

"Show me" were the only words you could say, he stared at you examining your face before he started leaning in capturing your lips in a passionate kiss.

Making you melt in his arms, you wrapped your arms around his neck, surrendering, the fire in your heart finally subsided, he picks you up swiftly.

He gently he places you on the bed climbing ontop of you not breaking the kiss, afraid that you'll dissolve in the air.

You pulled away to catch your breath before pulling him back in latching on to his lips kissing him with every emotion pulling out from you "nothing feels better than this" he says against your skin as he scatters kisses on your neck, your eyes roll to the back of your head at the feeling of his lips sucking and marking your skin.

You tug at his sweater whining he pulls away from you to take it off tossing it somewhere in the room before his tongue latches onto yours, as both of your tounges dance together he pulls off your shorts and panties,sneaking in a finger making you moan against his lips "you're so fucking wet princess" he groans pulling away from your lips staring down at your clit that started to clinch around his finger he slides in another one making you gasp at the feeling, you throw your head back when he starts pushing them in and out of your core.

Your toes curl at the feeling of your climax nearing and he knew that by the look on your face he pulled out his fingers making you cry at the loss of them you look up at him to see him sucking on them moaning on purpose when his eyes meet yours "s-stop teasing-g me" you groaned he laughs pulling off your shirt cupping your breasts in his plams "how about you stay silent baby hmm?" Before you could protest his lips were back on yours, shutting you up,making you taste your juices on his plump lips.

His hands were squeezing your breasts gently before he started to pinch your sensitive nubs making you moan against his mouth you could feel him smile then he pulls away his hands fall to his sides "such pretty tits" he curses as he stands at the end of the bed before he pulls you by your thighs as he gets on his knees "stay still babygirl" he murmurs before he licks your burning core slowly you hiss at the feeling of his tounge flick your bundle of nerves over and over again, you try to get away from the feeling of his kitten licks on your heat drove you crazy you couldn't take it.

Only for him to pull you back biting the inside of your thigh to stop you from squirming and getting away from his mouth "I'm- I'm gonna cum kook-" you cry out when you feel your climax approaching once again he pulls away standing up wiping his mouth with the back of his hand "I want you to cum when I'm inside you baby" he rubs your cheek softly you stare up at him with a pout.

He chuckles deeply as he leans down, kissing your pouty lips while he strokes and pumps his cock, your mouth waters at the sight of his red tip it was already leaking with cum, you wanted to lick him clean but he pushed you back gently "no tonight is all about you" he smiles before he lines his tip with your entrance he looks up at you as if to ask if it's okay you nod furiously not having any patience left.

He pushes inside you with difficulty, your core was warm and tight it made him curse and cry out your name "fuck, how are you still this tight!" He throws his head back trying to push more of his length in but you're barely taking in the tip "stop crying and take all of it slut!" he spoke frustrated slapping your thighs to keep them open you were clenching around his legs tightly "I-I can't" you whimper, shaking your head, your face is red and the sweat was covering you from head to toe your hair stuck to your face "yes you can baby just try a little harder for me princess" he encourages you patting your cheek softly, you try to relax your abdominal muscles your eyes were tightly shut then you feel the rest of his length slide in you hear him grunt satisfied "that's my girl" he smiles wiping your tears away placing kisses all over your face as he pushes in and out of you.

He pulls out all the way and back in hitting your sensitive spot multiple times, abusing it. He places his hand on your abdomen "do you feel me here baby hmm?" You cry and nod his hand pressing against where his cock was hitting made you see stars.

He moaned your name feeling his climax nearing you clenched around him you were on the edge of letting go "let go baby" he reassured you as you started to cum shaking underneath him.

He groaned as his head fell on your shoulder as he let out a moan releasing his seed inside you, he pulled out of you a string of your juices was the only thing contacting you to him he gathered up the substance tapping his finger against your lips you opened your mouth taking in his finger tasting your cum combined with his, he smiles turned on again by the sight, he leans in kissing your lips after he pulled his finger away, he pulled away from you to catch his breath and to let you catch yours.

He falls beside you then turns to you laying on his side tucking you in with the sheet to shield you from the cold as he smiles at you, he couldn't contain his happiness he felt so content he finally felt happy.

With you by his side everything felt right, his arm was around you before he started brushing away the strands of your hair as you smile up at him tiredly, your cheeks were red and your body was still hot and sweaty.

"I love you" he says after all the hair was out of your face, right after he said that, the look on your face was the most beautiful thing he'd ever seen your lips broke into a smile as you look back at him your eyes flutter shut drifting off in a deep slumber jungkook smiles then he too falls asleep beside you.

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You woke up early the next day so you decided you'd go to jimin's house earlier than planned, to open your presents and give him his presents that you bought last minute before you drove here yesterday.

You felt sad that you didn't wrapp them up nicely but you knew he'd understand and appreciate them regardless,at least you still bought something rather than going empty handed.

You bought something simple for his parents as well, to apologize for the last christmas tantrum.

You decided not to wake Jungkook up because you knew you'd be back soon and he was a heavy sleeper so he won't be up anytime soon.

You made your way to Jimin's house of course your legs were bruised and walking the space from your car to his front door hurt like hell,you made a mental note to scold Jungkook about that once you get back but for now you just wanted to spend time with your best friend before you go back to taking classes and doing assignments and all that.

His (and jungkook's) championship was next month so he had a lot to prepare for so you doubted you're gonna see him after today not until he's done with the championship.

And who knows where the university is taking the soccer team this year, the championship was held at a different country every year so you had no idea for how long they'll be there and where they're going.

As for jungkook you still needed to talk about your relationship with him, what happened yesterday doesn't mean he's back in easily, there's so much he needed to do to prove to you that he's serious about you.

And a big part of you was afraid that what happened with Nari is gonna happen with you.

You had every right to have your doubts and fears as anyone would if they were in your place.

You shoved those thoughts aside,as Jimin welcomed you with his smile and bed hair you giggled as you hugged him "marry Christmas jiminie!"

"Marry Christmas! now hurry go open your first present I can't wait any longer!" He pulls you inside you shut the door behind you laughing as he drags you to the living room where the Christmas tree was placed.

"The red and green wrapped gifts are yours" he said smiling proudly at the sight of your presents underneath the tree you were in awe "jimin this is a lot!" you pout "this isn't fair I'm ashamed of my gifts now" you say hiding the two bags that had his gifts inside behind your back he shakes his head pulling your arms out "oh shush and gimmie my gifts go get yours!" He pulled the two bags from your grip smiling instantly when he saw his favourite album at the top of the bag.

You huff and stump your way towards the pile of gifts taking the smallest one, it was wrapped very nicely and you remember how passionate jimin was when it came to decorating and wrapping Christmas gifts you smiled when you saw the wrapping paper had small snowmen all over it "come on just rip it open!" Jimin gronas behind you "I don't want to ruin the wrapping paper it's too cute!" You whine opening it carefully making jimin roll his eyes.

You stop when you see the white box "No!" You gasp already knew what it is he broke into fits of giggles behind you "your reaction makes going through all that trouble to get it worth it!" He ruffles your hair you unfold the wrapping paper and open the Gucci box to find the bag you gawked at every time you two went to the mall a year ago "jimine this is so expensive!" You cried "thank you" you dragged your words out "I love it!" You turn around to hug him placing kisses on both of his cheeks before you continue opening the rest.

Every gift beat the last one, you loved every single one, you couldn't believe you were this lucky, Jimin still knows you like the back of his hand, it made you cry from how happy you were, you didn't deserve him at all.

He felt so relieved that you loved his gifts and he thanked the heavens for his good memory otherwise he wouldn't have gotten you something that you liked.

You left his home feeling a lot better and way happier than you've ever been, you were so thankful for having someone like him in your life and you sower you'd never let him go again.

You needed jimin just as much as he needed you and that was never gonna change or so you hope.

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You kept your gifts in the car since tonight you were driving back to Seoul so there's no point in carrying them up to your room and you hurried to get back afraid that jungkook was awake, you didn't want him to wait for you.

Regardless of how much he made you wait, you were better than that.you shut the door after you were inside taking off your coat.

"Good morning" jungkook smiled sleepily at you sipping on a cup of coffee his sweat pants hanged low on his waist making you lose your train of thought for a second.

you greet him back smiling "breakfast just got here let's eat before it gets cold" he told you walking to the bed where he placed the tray you scoffed "very romantic" you remark he smirks "breakfast in bed is not just romantic the food tastes better in bed" he shoots you a wink and you roll your eyes at him.

"After breakfast can we talk?" You bite your lip nervously glancing up at him, he was already eating his piece of toast he nods at you his mouth filled with food you sigh and grab your piece taking a small bit of it.

"I'm assuming you were over at Jimin's" he asks, you nod "He gave me my christmas presents" you say taking a bite of the omelet.

Jungkook curses himself, That's one point for Jimin! he always had a thing for celebrations he should have gotten you something.

You look over at him and know that he feels bad about not getting you anything, well you haven't gotten him anything either.

"Jimin is just trying to make me feel better please don't feel like you had to give me anything" you tell jungkook smiling reassuringly.

He pouts "but I kinda wanted to"

"I know you don't like chirstmas so it's okay" you laugh and he looks down at the food, still feeling upset about not getting you anything.

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Both of you finished every last bit of food that was in that tray, you both had a nice conversation just catching up on what happened lately with him.

You can't help but feel like you're gonna fall of the edge, you were just so nervous not knowing how the conversation you two are about to have is going to go.

He barely touched you, knowing by the look on your face you still didn't forgive him completely, he wanted things to go steady from now on just in case you had a change of heart.

After you cleaned up the bed from the food crumbs and Jungkook called the motel staff to pick up the tray you both sat back down on the bed crossed legs facing each other.

You sigh smiling nervously at him he rubbed your back "it's okay" he reassured "I'm gonna be here for you no matter what" he continued.

You took a deep breath before you spoke looking at the wall behind him because you felt overwhelmed if you stare at him.

"Jungkook you know I love you I can't and won't deny it" you smile looking down "but I can't help but feel afraid that if we date you're gonna treat me just like you treated Nari" you feel his hands disappear from rubbing your arms then he reaches for your hands holding them tightly "you're everything I wanted I don't want anyone else I only need you" he tells you with the gentlest tone you look in his eyes "there was a time where you also wanted Nari but you let go of her..for me"

You sigh again looking away from him, you didn't want to cry, his gaze on you is soft waiting for you to continue fear is growing inside of him.

"Jungkook I love you and I know you love me too but...we can't be together"

You look back at him, your chest tightening at the way his face fell "falling in love with you was beautiful and awful at the same time but I don't regret it I won't ever regret it even though the timing wasn't right" you smile at him your hands were still intertwined.

"Jungkook I'm afraid the spark we both have is not love but a bad habit, I got used to you...you got used to me. you were in a relationship when we met and you were in a relationship when you fell in love with me we built our relationship on someone else's broken heart and I don't think we'll ever be happy together knowing that we've hurt someone by this" you sniffle "by us being together"

"But who cares she knew all along why does it matter?" He whispers you can see the tears drip on his face too "I care, Jungkook! I know my fate with you is gonna be like her and I don't want that" you cry "let me let you go please don't make this harder for me..." you whisper pulling your hands away from his to wipe your tears away.

"So I'm never gonna see you again?" He asks you look up at him, you can see he was crying too you shrag your shoulders "I don't know" you sigh he scoffs standing up "why can't you trust me when I say that I love you and I won't ever hurt you" he says staring at you in disbelief

You can tell he's trying to stay calm "how about I hold you on for that?" you say your chest heaving up and down trying not to sob

He looks at you "what do you mean?"

"Jungkook if we're meant to be together we'll meet again somehow someway and if you and I feel the same way we do now even after being apart then it's meant to be.." you speak ever so calmly.

"Then it's not a bad habit and we really love each other?" jungkook asks smiling sadly while he looks back at you, you smile back nodding thankful that he understands where you're coming from.

"Your championship is next month you won't have time for us" you whisper, tracing the patterns on the bedsheet.

"You know I'll make time for us my championship is not an excuse" he argues back walking behind you "it won't be the same...you're on the other side of the world...I don't trust you that far" you try to joke but cry at the end of your words, he hugs you from the back, his head resets on your shoulder.

"I'll come back for you I promise I will" he whispers kissing your cheek multiple times, your heart melts at his words "please keep loving me until I'm back I promise I'll make it worth it" he murmurs against your neck,placing a kiss there.

you let out a deep breath "I'll keep on loving you until then but as long as you keep on loving me too" you turn your head to him, he's an inch away from you.

He smiles a sad smile leaving a peck on your lips "deal" he tells you painting a hopeful smile on your face before he pulls away.

With a heavy heart he makes his way towards the door "Alright then,I'll see you someday?" He questions looking back at you still sitting on the bed with a single tear on your cheek and a bittersweet smile on your face

"See you someday mvp jungkook" you tell him he nods biting his bottom lip,shutting the door after him.

You stay still feeling the room go colder and darker you could feel your heart breaking when you hear his footsteps walking further away until you couldn't hear them anymore not bearing listening to the silence that was deafening any longer you get up from the bed and run towards the door swinging it open

running down the crappy motel stairs you see him, head hanging low as he makes his way towards his car "Jungkook!" You call out from the bottom of the stairs he turns at the sound of your voice you run into his arms sobbing.

He runs his hand through your hair lifting up your chin to look at him, he captures your lips in a kiss, that you knew was your last kiss.

He pulls away "this is the right thing to do _____" he nods smiling down at you the saddest smile you had ever seen "I know" you reply pouting  your face was pressed against his chest now "I only want to make you happy "he tells you.

You pull away, pressing your lips "I don't think you can anymore" you whisper and that's when he cried too.

"I love you and I'm gonna let time prove that to you" he says wiping away his tears chuckling lightly before he gets into his car you shut the door after he's inside.

he slides the window down "we'll see about that jeon" you tease leaning in but he is faster than you he pulls your face closer kissing you again both of his plams cupping your cheeks kissing you passionately.

I love you too" you say back stepping away from the car he pulls out of the parking spot he stops and waves at you one last time before he takes off you wave back at him watching his car disappear into the fog.

You sigh as the rain starts to pour, you hope that you had done the right thing, hope that Jungkook lived up to his name 'The MVP' hope that he doesn't give you up and that he comes back again to win your heart.

The End

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A/N: before you kill me I didn't want the ending to be sad I originally planned that they don't end up together because in reality it wouldn't be a healthy relationship so bare that in mind I still made it somewhat a happy ending:) thank you SO MUCH for reading this far seriously I love you with all my heart! I'm sorry for any mistakes I made and I'm sorry for the vanilla smut !I need a smut writer to help in that department (I'll give credit ofc)! Thank you so much again and I hope your Christmas was an a amazing one.