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ohbutwheresyourheart · 2 years

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me: I just feel so hopeless. I've been making all of the recommended changes to my life - cutting out alcohol, eating healthily, exercising, in therapy - and nothing is helping me feel even slightly better. In fact, if anything I feel like I'm getting worse. I don't know what to do and I need help. therapist: well you can't expect to lose 100lbs overnight :\

#i'm not even kidding this is exactly how the conversation went #like are you fucking serious #you listened to all of that and your takeaway was #'I'm not losing weight fast enough'#i'm literally in that fucking david firth unfixable thought machine video #every time I tried to be open and honest about how severe my symptoms are #she just went off about how a CBT therapist can't do anything to help with that #like ma'am trust me I did NOT ask to be referred to you #in fact I specifically requested to NOT be referred to CBT because I knew this would happen #'well you were a good fit for CBT when you referred to us'#no I was not the NHS is just desperately trying to use CBT as a paper-thin plaster over the gaping wound #of the country's worsening mental health crisis #like I'm sorry okay?#I'm sorry I can't just 'get better' on a fast and convenient timeline #believe me if I could then I fucking would #I'm not deliberately keeping myself in constant daily agony as... what some kind of bizarre 'gotcha'?#I just want to scream and cry and give up because what is even the point #brain adventures #mental health #bpd #tw suicide

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