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elytrafemme · 4 months ago

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sometimes i do miss the era where i could go ballistic crazy do you know how much reprieve i'd get if i could text someone do you think i'm insane and pretty and bad at sex. i've never actually sent a text like that in my life but there was something awfully rhythmic about doing literally ANYTHING so that someone wouldn't leave and now i just have to like... sit here. and like their instagram stories. and try not to go insane? i can't even vague like i used to because there's too many eyes on me WHAT DO I DO...

#i should NOT be like kicking my feet giggling about the most earthshattering breakdowns i've had #but honestly i kind of devoured when i blocked random friends of my ex because i think my ex lied to me or something?#<- she did NOT devour this WAS really bad do NOT do this #in my defense i was like literally fifteen and the only reason why my partner was alive and they kind of kept lying to me #and they also weren't attracted to me when we started dating they just agreed to be in a relationship because they were scared for me #and they also never communicated if i did anything wrong and if i tried to stop myself they'd double down and say it was fine #and they are kind of also the reason i started having a psychotic break So like literally what was i supposed to do in this situation #like i'm so hashtag girl. also i'm separately insane bc oh this is so bad to say #but i go viscerally fucking CRAZY when someone experiences the same thing as me but worse #b/c like Yeah i get it nothing i've ever been through was that bad. like i literally know that i ALWAYS know that #i'm like literlaly sensitive. but this makes me want to go fucking insane off the handles because like #people do NOT understand how i feel <- They do they literally do #Ahem. ANYWAY <3

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