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sunlaire · 1 year ago
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Well...okay I'll take a swing at this. Quick note; I lived codependent for most of my life and then went on a 3 year therapy and research quest to Figure It Out. That being said, I can see some codependent qualities between Harry and Kim but I don't think its at a critical level or anything.
Yeah, in real life situations there's obsession and possessiveness and resentment ect. But those are kind of like the effects of being in a codependent situation. It doesn't actually describe what's happening. Codependency, it's basically when someone takes responsibility for someone else's feelings and actions. There are no boundaries between the two people.
This is a bit from Codependent No More by Melody Beattie (this is The Book about codependency) "Sometimes we rescue because it's easier than dealing with the discomfort and awkwardness of facing other people's unsolved problems. We haven't learned to say, "It's too bad you're having that problem. What do you need from me?" We've learned to say, "Here. Let me do that for you."
The problem with this is, of course, people can't control how others feel. And so in a codependent situation, there's someone trying to emotionally catch another person, save them from having to feel bad. And it doesn't work. Yet more and more effort will be put into it until the 'Saver' will eventually lose themselves.
Meanwhile, the one getting 'saved' will feel even more helpless and unable to handle situations. Relying more and more on the Saver, the caregiver. Addictions is very often part of the dynamic. And these codependent relationships will only lead to less control. Because when someone is being rescued from responsibility at ever step, then it's difficult (impossible) to have any sort of control over their addiction. It's been taken from their hands by someone who thinks the addict is incapable of taking care of themselves or doing the "right thing". When youre in that situation with someone you love and they just wants to take care of you, its hard not to start believing it too. Like i'm a fuck-up, of course i can't do it on my own. How can i possible go up against the Infinite Beast that is addiction. You can see where the problems are building up. neither people in the relationship are driving their own car anymore, or focusing on their side of the street. metaphor.
Now okay, in the game it's nowhere near that bad. Kim shows some compassion and understanding for Harry. Really, they are not on the level where Kim is trying to remove obstacles from Harrys path. In fact, Kim insists Harry talk to Billie after they find her husband. He encouraged him to believe in himself and to function independently. And Harry does. He is surprisingly capable for a man who forgot the concept of money and Wömen (Men of Wö).
But the conditions are there. Textbook. Harry was an alcoholic who is barely keeping himself together. his self esteem and confidence in his abilities are critically low. And theres Kim, who is very capable and he knows it. There's one moment he stops harry from asking Joyce about the Pale. That might be the most overt codependent action in the game. He made the decision that Harry was not ready for that. Then theres Kims tendency to feel he knows best.
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If these two were a shade more messy, then they'd have a doozy of a codependent relationship. I'm talking resentment, worthlessness, helplessness, clinging to each other, feeling insane, no boundaries, all of it. As far as game text go, its not that. They are both independent, and they look out for each other. as far as i can tell, in a healthy way. Or what can be expected of two people, in the midst of a brewing civil war, with only each other to rely on, in a town on the edge of the world. Considering all that, i think they're fine.
I'm not sure how I feel about fan dialogue regarding codependency in disco elysium, so I'd love some input from others. esp since it's a game that deals a lot with the stigma around addiction, disability, and the concept of social murder
I mean I am definitely in the camp that whatever behaviours most people think of when they think of 'codependency' are indeed unhealthy! of course!! manipulation, obsession and isolation whithin relationships are obviously negative things. (that imo can be compelling to read about! please don't think I'm saying 'don't write this stuff'. that's not what I mean here. if I wanted to exclusively consume content about healthy characters then I wouldn't be a de fan lmao)
but from what I've gathered in my research, 'codependency' as a definition isn't something formally identified in academic literature. the term itself is often touted around very loosely by self-help pop psychology circles, frequently from a lens that is very prejudiced against addicts, disabled people, people with illnesses etc.
so when people throw that term around in regards to characters and the dynamics in their relationships, it's hard for me to keep a track of what they mean, exactly.
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thevestigeofvanillaan · 2 years ago
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Dreary.
Sasuke Uchiha x Fem Reader.
angst. nerd reader, sasuke is a jock. highschool au. good ending? smut 18+ minors please do not interact!! pre-relationship. secretive. somewhat public sex. cervix kissing. spanking. mention/underage use of alcohol and drugs.
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"Out of my way loser." Shikamaru, a tall, handsome jock in uniform shoves me into a locker as he walks past with several similarly uniformed jocks.
"Aren't you excited? You look so bummed out.. Big football game tonight!!" My friend, Ino says enthusiasticly, walking up to me.
She's a hot blonde, who's tall, and a cheerleader. She's gorgeous.
And I'm just me. In a big school. A nobody compared to others.
Ino and I have been friends since we were younger since we lived close.
"Yeah, I guess. Why did they choose today? It's so muggy out." I ask.
"Because by tonight it'll be dark and foggy. The field will be more stiff by then. It looks so pretty out there."
"You cheering tonight? I'd wish to have someone in the stands with me." I fake a smile.
"You know.." She pauses. "You can come sit on the track where we cheer. Perfect view of the game, and you'll have some friends to talk to!" She proposes.
I contemplate whether I should or not.
But eventually decide.
"I'd love to. I can get some work done since there won't be so many loud people shoving me up on the bleachers.." I giggle a bit.
"Loosen up, have fun.. You're so stressed about school work. There's a party after the game I want us to go to. Come on.. it's our senior year! Have fun with us!" Ino places a hand on my shoulder with a genuine expression on her face.
"I guess I could take ONE night off the notebook." I enunciate the one, showing no mercy of not doing it again.
She hugs me and squeals. "I'll see you tonight at the game!" She shouts as she walks off to her class.
I sigh and walk to my next class too, as passing time is almost over.
I sit down at my seat in last period, which is algebra.
"Hey Mrs. Eddie." A deep voice sounds.
I look behind me only to roll my eyes when I see Sasuke enter the room.
I don't like Sasuke. He's so rude and pushy. He thinks everything is about him.
He's a gorgeous jock. Everyone loves him.
Except me.
"Well hello Sasuke! Are you excited for the game tonight?" Mrs. Eddie, a young, and very attractive young women walks over to his desk, behind mine.
"Sure am, comin' to watch me?" He asks her.
"Well of course! Only for my favorite boy out there!" She giggles and walks back to her desk.
Barf.
He kicks the back of my seat as he usually does.
"What do you want Sasuke?" I turn around and ask him this same repetitive question I ask him almost every day.
"You goin' to the game tonight?" He asks.
"Yeah. And I'm sitting on the track." I turn around.
But he continues the conversation, curious.
"Oh? And what are you gonna do there? Cheerlead?" He laughs hysterically at the thought of a nerd cheerleading.
"What if I was?" I ask.
"I wouldn't believe my eyes. What are you actually gonna do?" He asks seriously.
"School work." I ask bluntly.
"Lame. You goin' to that party?"
Why does he ask so many questions?
"Yes."
"Seriously? I thought that shit wasn't your type of thing." He asks.
"It's not. Ino convinced me since it's senior year to loosen up and do something fun for once."
"Of course she did." He adds.
"Alright class. Open your math books to page 245." Mrs. Eddie says to start class.
Time goes by quickly when I hear the end of day announcements about the game.
I stretch and crack my back from the annoyingly uncomfortable position I was sitting in while taking notes.
Sasuke grabs my wrist and pulls me to stand up.
"I hope you slip on that field, Uchiha." I whisper when our faces are almost touching from how he pulled me up.
"You weigh as much as a feather." He ignores my previous statement, getting out of my face and releasing my wrist. "I'll see you tonight."
And off he goes with his book bag, out the classroom to his car.
I notice he forgot his reading glasses that he never wear on his desk.
I grab them and run to go find him.
Damn that kid is fast.
Already at his car?
I went to his car and there he is, talking to Naruto.
I walk up to him. "You forgot your glasses."
"Oh." Is all he says before he grabs the glasses from my loose grip, getting in his car with the window rolled down.
I walk off to my own car, getting ready to go home.
I receive a text from Ino.
"I can pick you up so you have an easy ride to the party after, come wearing a dress. The theme for the game is formal wear anyway." She wrote.
That's stupid. Why should I go to a football game wearing a dress?
"Okay." I type back to her.
I start my car and hear the load engine roar, the radio turns on and starts playing some sort of 2000's rbnb music as I drive out of the parking lot.
I don't live too far from the school. So I arrive at home and park my car in the driveway.
I make my way inside, my father greeting me.
"Hey honey! How was school?" He asks, preparing some sort of food for himself.
"It was fine. I'm going to be with Ino tonight at the game and this party she wanted me to go to." I smile to him, placing my bag down.
"Be safe please. And no drinking or smoking. I was your age once, don't you forget!"
"I know dad. You know I'm not into this stuff." I chuckle.
"Just be safe.." He places his hands on my shoulder and I nod.
He brings me into a hug.
We let go and I head upstairs to my room to get my homework done.
I get all of it done and decide to take a shower, getting ready for the game which starts in about an hour and a half.
I grab a towel and go to the bathroom connected to my room.
I turn on the shower.
Warm temperature causing a bliss of warm clouds fogging the room.
I undress myself. Slipping out of my top. Unclipping my bra. Taking off my converse, then my socks. Unbuttoning my jeans and pulling down the zipper. Shimmying the uncomfortable, tight material down thick thighs. Stomping my ankles out of the pant. Looping my thumbs in my thong straps and pulling the underwear down to pool my ankles. I step out of them and kick the dirty clothes to the side.
I walk over to my walk in shower, feeling the mist of the water hitting my naked skin. Engulfing the hot air on my goosebump covered skin, making it all go away. I step in. Feeling my hair flatten, and my muscles relax.
I take shampoo and work it into my hair, closing my eyes, the sweet smell of the shampoo arousing in my hair. Rubbing my scalp. And washing it out just to do it again with conditioner before I grab my brush and begin to brush the wet hair. Knots effortlessly leave my head. Painlessly.
I turn and slip out a slight whimper when the warm beads of water hit my areolas. I cup my breasts for a moment before I grab body wash.
Putting the substance on the pink loofah before I run it under water quickly. Then I begin to rub it on my body.
I feel so relaxed. Everything I was worrying about had just faded away into the hot steam collecting on my mirror. The condensation that sticks to my floor, making it slippery, but not completely wet. Just dampened.
I let my head rest back, all the weight on my shoulders flowing off with the water. Creating a pool at my feet.
I rest for a moment before brushing my teeth and deciding to end my shower.
I open the translucent door to my walk in shower and immediately feel cool air rushing to stick to my skin, causing goosebumps to form. My lips quiver, and my teeth begin to chatter when I quickly grab my bath towel and wrap it around my cold body.
The most calming experience I've had in whiles - was that exact shower.
The cold weather outside fighting to beat the warm temperature of the water I was under.
In the end. It won that battle.
Because when I leave I enter reality once again. That it's late fall. And I still have things to do tonight.
I walk out of my bathroom, into my bedroom.
I look in my closet for a dress that wouldn't be too uncomfortable.
I found this tight black dress, it was long-sleeved, and reached to my mid-thigh.
I got a black bra and black underwear to wear as well so that nothing could possibly slip out.
I grab a black puffer coat that I've been waiting to wear for the longest time, but until now the weather has been so warm.
And now it's cool, and dreary out.
I get dressed quickly and receive another message from Ino.
"I'm outside." She wrote.
"Be right out." I text back.
I throw on some black doc martens and grab my purse before walking out to Ino's car.
I see her in her cheer uniform, and Sakura, another cheerleader that I'm also friends with sitting in the back seat. Ino sits in the passenger seat, alongside her boyfriend Sai. Sai is another quiet kid, but Ino really liked him throughout middleschool. They've been a thing since freshmen year.
I enter the backseat next to Sakura.
"Hi!!" Sakura yells, wearing her cheer uniform, giving me a quick hug.
"Hi guys! The uniforms are so cute!" I smile and try to yell over loud music.
"Thank you! Don't worry we brought dresses too for the party. I love your outfit!" Ino yells, looking back at me as Sai begins to drive to the school.
We arrive in a short amount of time. We get out of the car and I notice that it's real foggy, and dark out. Just like how Ino said it would be.
We walk up to the football field.
I see the other team, and then our team on the other side of the field.
The big scoreboard all lit up.
The blinding lights that light up the field.
We walk over to the track that surrounds the football field, making our spot almost right next to the other cheerleaders.
But we are right in front of the student section, where the many, many bleachers are already almost full.
"People must've been really excited for the big senior football game, huh." I say, placing down my purse near the gate where I'm going to be sitting.
"Yep! It's always a huge deal every year. But especially this year since the senior are just so dreamy.." Sakura says, admiring the team.
"They look so good in uniform.." Ino adds. "Baby, you would look really good in a uniform. I'd go wild." She smirks and hugs the taller figure.
"Thanks." He says quietly.
I couldn't deny.. they do look really good.
And although I hate Sasuke, he stands out. In a good way too.
I see Mrs. Eddie in the crowd smiling with her husband.
I scowl at the fact that she went to watch Sasuke but is with her husband.
Weirdo.
"Baby can you go get us some snacks from that consession stand?" Ino asks Sai.
"Yeah of course." He says before hopping over the gate and walking over.
"He's the best." Ino smiles, watching him go.
"You're so fortunate." I giggle at her.
"When are you gonna get a boyfriend?" Sakura asks me.
And without thinking I quickly say "When are you?"
There's silence.
"I didn't mean it like that hun.. it's just that I feel like it's nice to have someone like that." Sakura smiles and sits next to me on the ground against the gate.
I look at her and give her a sympathetic look.
She smiles, showing that she didn't take it like that.
Sai returns with some food and hands some to Ino and places the rest on the ground near us.
"You guys can take whatever you want." Ino smiles at us.
I smile back but politely decline her offer.
I'm not really hungry.
The foot ball players are let off after their stretches to come hang out before the game starts.
Sasuke and Naruto walk towards us.
"Hey!" Naruto waves and runs over here.
"Hi Naruto." I say.
"Surprised to see you here without a notebook." He laughs.
"Surprised to be here." I smile and stand up.
"I'm really cold." I say.
"Come inside, your wearing a tiny little dress, of course you're cold." Sasuke says, looking me up and down.
I follow him inside, waving my friends goodbye since they have to warm up with the cheer team.
"So, you really are coming the the party tonight." Sasuke says, looking at me.
I look back at him when we lock eyes. I quickly look at the ground awkwardly, but I can still feel his eyes on me.
"Yeah, I guess so." My hands are in the pockets of my puffer coat.
We enter the school and I take my coat off.
Sasuke takes the coat from me and carries it himself.
"Where are we supposed to go?" I ask.
"If you want to we can just roam the halls." He says.
I look up at him and nod assuringly.
We walk together in the desolate hallways of our highschool.
"Are you going to college for football?" I ask.
"That's the idea." He responds. "Can't believe this is my last highschool game though."
"I bet." I smile at the floor.
He leads me up the stairs.
"I don't seem to understand you.." He begins.
But he stays silent for a moment.
"And why is that?" I ask him to keep talking.
"Because everyone is so attracted to me. And you're just.. different. You little nerd." He chuckles deeply.
I wanna squeeze my legs together after that hardy laugh of his came out.
"What do you mean? You're saying I'm not attracted to you?" I ask.
"Yeah, pretty much." He summarizes.
"I mean.. You're pretty annoying."
"You callin' me pretty, princess?" He looks at me and smirks when I look back up at him.
"No.. I never said that!" I giggle.
"Oh but you're thinking about it aren't you."
"No.. maybe." I blush slightly and look down.
Since when was he so... charming.?
We walk in silence for a few more minutes before he leads me back downstairs and he hands me my coat.
"Thanks." I say, putting on the puffy product.
"You're welcome." He says before opening the door, leading us outside.
He led me back to the track where the cheerleaders are before running onto the field.
Before the game begins, they congratulate the seniors on their final game and for the time and effort they've put into making the team a greater one.
"Welcome to the annual senior football game, or the last football game of the season." The speakers sound a raspy male voice.
"I'd love to congratulate the following senior football players. Naruto Uzamaki, Sasuke Uchiha, Shikamaru Nara, and Kiba Inuzuka. Thank you all for contributing to making the football team not only great, but remarkable. You guys may collect your flowers and name bomber jackets after the game tonight. I hope everyone enjoys the final game of the season." He concludes the announcement.
Everyone begins clapping and getting extremely hyped up and the game begins shortly after.
The game goes by quickly. Almost too quickly.
Our team winning within an hour due to mercy rule.
Their team hadn't even scired a touchdown.
Each time we scored a touchdown the band in the stands would play victory music.
And at the very end to celebrate our victory they played the entire song.
He wasn't lying when he said the team was great and remarkable.
I've never seen such a thing.
By the end we all get ready to leave. Which I'm excited to do as I was fucking freezing.
Before we leave, I admire the dreary atmosphere.
It's gorgeous.
Foggy. Dark. Desolate. And Dreary.
It's everything.
It'd the end too. I'll never be able to experience this again.
"Hey, Ino. I'm really glad you had me come out tonight." I smile as I catch up beside her, walking to her car.
"Of course honey. It sucks that this is the last time we're ever really going to have an event like this happening." She frowns, but then she smiles. "But at least we can still party!!" She yells, causing Naruto, Kiba, Sasuke, Sakura, and even Sai to start shouting too.
I laugh.
Sasuke comes over to me. "Wanna ride with me? I'm lonely!" He yells over the shouting adolescents around us.
"Yeah sure!" I yell back and he grabs my arm, leading me to his car.
We're laughing and running together in the soft mist falling from the leaves above us.
And it's then that I realize that I think I've fallen in love with him.
This has always been my dream.
Being able to laugh and have fun with someone like this in the dreary world we live in.
We get to his car and just stand there, both hands in eachothers.
"I wanna try something.." He says.
I giggle "Try what?"
"Kiss me." He says before letting go of my hands and putting them on my waist, pulling my cold body closer to his.
Without a word, I bring my hands to his jaw and pull his face closer to mine.
I stand on tippy toes so I can reach the already slightly bent over man.
I feel hot breath hit my face, and can see the white clouds from the hot air hitting the cold atmosphere.
I sit for a moment and smile. He smiles too before closing his eyes.
I follow him and close my own eyes.
I pull him as he pulls my waist and our lips collide with one another.
The sultry feel of his lips is not only breath taking, but addictive. I can't get away from it. I want to feel it forever.
We release before he pecks my lips once more and I let go of his jaw. I get off my tippy toes and he straightens his posture, looking down at me.
I look back up at him.
My face feels so red and hot.
My lips feel wet and puffy.
I smile at him.
He smiles back before almost snapping out of a trance.
He coughs then proposes "We should get going." And walks to the driver side of the car.
I walk to the passenger seat, frowning.
Wishing, no, wanting that moment to have gone on longer.
But it was just a kiss.
In this dreary parking lot.
With someone who meant nothing to me yesterday.
I buckle my seat belt and he begins driving, not bothering to put on his or even turn on music.
"Where is the party?" I ask.
"Shikamaru's house, he lives pretty close to the school." He responds, pulling out of the school property.
"Oh, yeah, he lives on my road." I say.
"So it'll be easy to get you home then won't it." He smirks at me. "Just don't get drunk princess."
I smile back at him.
We make in there in the next two minutes.
"I'm gonna change in the bathroom, come with me?" He asks.
"Yeah, sure." I say.
"Great." He says, parking and opening his door.
We both exit the vehicle and go to the front door, where we enter what's already a shit hole full of teenagers.
He grabs my wrist so he won't lose me and leads me to the bathroom.
Luckily no one is in there, so we can easily go in.
We go into the bathroom and Sasuke takes off the football gear he had on.
Right in front of me.
I covered my eyes.
"What are you, a virgin? You don't have to do that." He chuckles.
"Well I am a virgin, one, and two do you want me to open my eyes and watch you change?" I take my hands on my eyes to see him in boxers and no shirt.
I instantly blush and go to cover my eyes again when he grabs my wrist before I can.
"You're a virgin?" He asks.
"Yes..?" I question why he would ask that when I just said I was.
I mean.. yeah, virgin at 18 is kinda weird. But listen, I want it to be with someone I actually really like and wanna marry one day.
"How are you a virgin when you look like this?" He puts his hands on my waist.
"I just wanted it to be with the right person.." I say.
"I could be your right person." He says immediately after, almost cutting me off.
"Sasuke, how could you be the right person when we aren't even dating. We weren't even talking like that before what? Five minutes ago? I don't think so."
"Wow. You wound me. You don't want this baby? We could have this.. we could have everything." He rolls his eyes dramatically and holds his heart.
"Sasuke.. it's not like that. I would love that but.."
"Then why won't you let me fuck you?" He cuts me off.
"You know what Sasuke. Maybe I will." I walk up to his placing my hands on his bare chest.
He takes my jacket off me.
"Yeah? You want me to punish you for arguin' with me?" He brings his hands to the bottom of my skirt before rolling it up, up, and further up..
Until it's up to my belly button.
"Huh?" You want that?" He brings his hands to the hem of my underwear, slowly pulling them down. "I want an answer."
"Yes, Sasuke." I nod, tears prick my lashline at subtle realization of what I'm doing.
But those tears of sadness turn to tears of neediness.
He pulls them down to pool at my ankles and turns me around violently, bending my over the sink.
"Now you can watch in the mirror as I fuck you since you're just such a naughty little virgin f'me."
Tears that were once stuck in my eyes begin to roll down my cheeks.
"Look at yourself." He pulls my hair back to make me look at myself in the mirror in front of me.
"Sasuke.." I moan softly.
"What?" He asks.
"Please.."
"Please what baby?"
"Please fuck me good.. wan' a remember you.." I moan when he messes with my clit.
"I will baby.."
I see in the mirror him pulling down his boxers and I can see his large cock spring from his boxers.
It bends downward from sheer mass weighing the large head downwards.
He leads it to my puffy and neglected cunt and I start to grind myself into him.
"Patience honey.." He flashes a toothy grin as he covers his tip in my essence before gently putting it in and completely out before repeating that motion.
After a few times, I suddenly feel more going into me.
It hurts.
It hurts so bad at first when he begins to fuck me with half his length.
Until that pain turned into an unbelievable wave of pleasure.
"Fuck-." I manage to moan out. "S'good.."
When he begins to fuck me with his full length I can feel it against my cervix.
"S'big Sasuke.." I moan out to him.
"It's okay baby.. doin' so good for me.. fuck. So tight!" He groans, kitting his head fall back with pleasure when he breaks me in.
I'm seconds from cumming already as I squeeze around him..
"Fuck! Are you about to cum?" He asks, fucking me harder as I suck him in.
My clit begging to be played with I reach my hand under and begin rubbing it in slopping circles.
"Mhm.." I respond to his previous question.
"Fuck me too baby.." He says, slapping my ass hard enough to leave marks.
"'M cumming!!" I moan loudly to warn him.
"Fuck!" He groans meeting his own climax.
His thrusts become slow and sloppy until it stops.
"Fuck.. Sasuke.." I breathe out heavily.
I watch his bare chest fall up and down as he's out of breath as well.
"I'm gonna.. stop by your house tomorrow.. with plan b.." He says inbetween breaths.
I giggle and stand up, pulling my dress down.
"I need to go home." I say, looking at my mascara covered under eyes and my messy hair.
He walks up behind me and hugs me.
"Look at us baby.. maybe I won't buy you plan b. Maybe I'll just keep you forever." He holds his hands on my stomach.
I giggle. "Keep me forever? You were just gonna leave me?"
He chuckles back. "I'm moving to go to college babe." He turns me around.
"But.."
"I know honey. But I'll still be right here." He pokes my heart.
"Was that your plan?" I shout at him. "To fuck me into remembering you and being attracted to you because I was the one fucking virgin girl who wanted a fucking future without you in it!?"
"Well now I'll be in your dreams and your future." He winks and had been putting on his sweatpants and a tight black shirt, along with his bomber jacket. "Now.. imma go party. But.. I'll always be with you okay? You're mine now. I'm no one else's. I'll visit you." We walks over and puts hands on my hips, kissing my cheek.
"I fucking love you but hate you so much for this." I chuckle and peck his lips.
"I love you." Is all he says when he walks out the bathroom.
I walk out after him, with no underwear on and go sit outside, away from the party.
The dreary outside world.
That I couldn't just live my dream in.
I hear someone open the door walking outside.
"Let's go home." I hear Sasuke say behind me. "My place. Stay the night with me."
I get up and go down the steps and enter his car.
He enters after me.
"I have your underwear." He chuckles and holds them out in front of me.
I go to take them but he pulls them back towards himself.
"They're mine now. Just a little something to have when I don't have you at college." He winks.
"So the reality is.. you fucked me so I could remember what you feel like while you're off at college.. and now I'm yours and only yours forever huh." I narrow it all down.
"Pretty much. You're my princess."
"And you're no knight in shining armor." I smile at him.
He begins driving his to his home, in the foggy, desolate, dreary nighttime weather.
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I'm not even gonna lie rn, that was probably the most descriptive shower writing piece I've ever written/even seen.
But um yeah this is kinda based on a relationship I had in highschool but obviously most of it is not real.. because I would've not acted like that.
But I hope you guys enjoyed it lol it took me like 3 hours to write but I actually was really into this one and think it had some reality to it.
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tminor09 · 8 years ago
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I'm Lame
Yes I'm lame, I'm a "square" and I'm ok with that. We live in a society where folks of my hue will actually look down on you just because you don't want to be like the rest of them. I quit drinking period, I quit smoking I don't want that in my body, I quit clubs, and super hard partying. I always say if it floats your boat go for it, but I know if you try to bring me down I don't get mad or anything because that let's me know that it's your vice. At the moment you don't have anything else to fill that void so you want to get rid of it by not being sober. I understand, I use to live like that. I never brought anyone down though. I actually do take pride in being different, not as a means to show off by going the opposite, it's more I'm glad I'm not falling into the stereotypical path of the average person in their 20s. For a long time I did try to fit in, but it was just weird for me. I caught myself asking why? Just because I grew up around the hood, why do I need to act hard? Just because I grew up around gangs why join? Why is it a constant battle to say which side of town is more hood? What does drinking do for a person/ smoking to the point of intoxication...to feel good right? Escape? Ask yourself what are you escaping from? That's how I escaped, consume yourself in the joys of life grinding for something. That's what makes me happy. It's a lonely world at times because a lot of people don't think like I do. So I'm on a constant quest to find like minded individuals to click with. Instead of clubs you'll see me at coffee shops listening to poetry, instead of alcohol, I'll drink some tea. Be different so with that being said let me introduce myself with something that I wrote: I have a very compelling story which guided me into the man I am today. I can tell you right now I'm probably not for the average individual. I love women who stand out and don't fit in with the norm. They aren't trying to fit in and act like everyone else. They are so comfortable in their skin that others inspire to be like them. I say this because this is my mindset so I tend to gravitate towards like minded individuals. Ones who don't care what others think. They go out in public and they be themselves no matter the setting. I want the woman that I am with to be my bestfriend. We can tell each other anything laugh and joke and be ourselves. A little bit about myself. I'd say I'm unique, odd, I'm a nerd I love learning new things. I have a career but I felt it wasn't allowing me to contribute back to society like I envisioned. Everything happens for a reason, it's paying my way through college right now so I can't complain. I have a weird sense of humor, I think outside the box. When I say I'm not like others I mean it. You'll see lol. I also write, I love writing, I read books, but at the same time I'm still a athletic sports guy who loves cars and working out video games etc. it's many sides to this individual. You can all me a nerd or a square whatever doesn't phase me I like being different and that just means you aren't my type. I quit drugs, alcohol, and I'm a vegetarian. So yeah I'm pretty different from the average guy...lol I love making people laugh with my wit and sarcastic humor...my mind is focused on my career success as well as building the foundations towards something special with a special woman Currently reading: The Girl With All The Gifts before the movie comes out so I can compare the two Be different ✌🏽✌🏽✌🏽 ~TayMinor
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