#i'm in a bit of a difficult situation right now @ uni so it'd really help out ;;

[silvermun]

ko-fi doodles open! ( ´ ▽ ` )

i need some help for university so i'm opening my ko-fi for doodles again! i appreciate any and all support, it would really help me out a lot ♥ all my terms of service is listed on the site if interested ^^

[ceram1cfish]

so basically they are fucking me over at my new job. in my contract it says 6 1/2 hours a week for 16 euros an hour. what it comes down to is regular 8 - 10 hour shifts. like so regular they're listed in the work plan as that. even though 6 1/2 h x 16 euros should be around 395 which means im below 450 a month, which would mean i wouldn't have to pay taxes, they aren't putting me in the no taxes tax bracket, they're putting me in the worst tax bracket there is which means i'm paying 50-60% in taxes each month. there are regularly no breaks on my ~ 9 hour shifts. everyone i work with is unhappy because of the poor planning and extreme saving plan we're on. even though i CAN get my tax money back at the beginning of next year, i'm still not making enough money to survive on my own at the end of the month, so if i stick with this job my mom needs to help me out. but my mom has always been poor and is retiring come september, and i don't want to accept any more money from her from thereon out. so my thinking is i'm quitting and looking for something else, until i have something else my mom will be helping and i will be using up money i've saved, i still have 2 months until then so knock on wood this wouldn't last long. my job is trying to figure something out for me and if they can't, i'll be looking for a 20 hour / week position, which is more normal for my age and the stage my university career is in and even though it'd be more stressful, i would be able to sleep at night. not knowing whether my job can help me out and when i'm gonna have that other job is making me crazy and i'm hesitant to send out my resignation today for that reason. but the thing is that i know i won't be able to live with the disappointment in myself and guilt that i would feel for still accepting money from my mom, even though she insists and will still be insisiting when i have a position where i'm making enough. at the very least then i'll be able to convince her to give me much less than she would in this situation. the new job itself i like, i'm supervising german language exams, the examees are all sweet and i'm good at making people feel comfortable and calm so i'm good at it. i can eat and pretty much work on my thesis / uni assignments the entire time. 8 hours scheduled into every week where i'm working consistently is not bad for my productivity so the job itself really isn't bad and i'm really scared i'll regret quitting if i don't find anything else. and i think if i was the only person affected by it, not my mom, i would stick with it. like being fucked over a little bit isn't uncommon at jobs and when my regular +2 hours of work time a week add up to a whole 6, i get a day off. so it's not completely illegal or anything and kind of still cushy. it is fucked up to put me into that tax bracket though when i could, with the amount of money i make, be emplyoed under a different title and not pay any taxes. the other thing is that when my partner moves over here next year, even with the help from my mom, i won't make enough money to support us both, which i would need to for however long it takes for him to find work, so i would have to find something else for a year. going with this, having my mom give me money, would only be putting the situation that i could deal with right now, off. so it doesn't seem like a difficult choice ... i guess i'm just scared to be in this spot i'm in!!!