#i'm having to rewire now

[respectthepetty]

This is random I follow you for the BL content but I just saw your Magicians posts and SAME like no show ever betrayed me like this show did, to the point I gave up on it completely and never went back. Thinking of queliot still fills me with both joy and rage to this day lmao. What a nonsense waste.

@inrainbowz, I'm a sucker for a monster taking over a character and a person he loves having to find a glimpse of him within that monster.

Like the Nogitsune plot in Teen Wolf when STILES STABBED SCOTT, yet Scott still knew his friend was somewhere in there and didn't want to hurt Stiles even though he could have killed him.

Because Stiles had saved Scott before when Scott was going to kill himself but Stiles brought his friend back by reminding him of all the good memories between them (SEASON 3 SUPREMACY!).

So of course I was going to love when everyone believed Eliot was gone, only for Quentin to know his friend was still alive in his body hiding from the Monster.

And right when he was ready to kill the Monster believing even if Eliot was still in there, he was suffering, Eliot came through BECAUSE OF HIS LOVE FOR QUENTIN!

WHO GETS PROOF OF CONCEPT LIKE THAT?!

So no matter how many times these shows do me dirty, I will always be a sucker over seeing the person you love turn into a monster, but loving him anyways. Seeing the body of the one person who your soul calls to become the villain, yet still believing that somewhere in there is good. That somewhere in there is the person who would fight to save you if the roles were reversed. And the love between you two being the thing to save you both.

*sobbing* peaches and plums, motherfucker

[jichanxo]

sooooo... *twirls her hair* how many asks should i send until kuwagami art. jk as well. the real question will be: does it happen often that someone else’s art inspires you? in fandom spaces specifically

well you see it’s like a loyalty card program, every 10 asks or so you get a complimentary kuwagami

just kidding you can just breathe in my direction and I’ll be tempted to draw them. kuwagami blast! (you've caught me on a... just okay art day lol)

(people still like kabedons, right?)

anyway for my actual answer: in terms of direct inspiration, it doesn't really happen much? the last two times i did art directly based on someone else's work is probably this one from this fic, and also that time i drew art of someone else's judgment au. oh! and there's that moriohpsycho art based on this comic! (filthyguts' work is so very. hgngngghh. very good.) nothing else really comes to mind, and when i think of the other things i've been into recently there hasn't been as much opportunity for that to happen...

flex and herds = strong fixation but lmao. almost nobody else made stuff about them. nobody is surprised umineko = surprisingly i don't read much umineko fanfiction? and in terms of illustration, i certainly picked up imagery and indirect inspiration but nothing concrete enough for me to give an example... now that i think about it, i did once draw andromalius from redaction/sunny, but that was years ago, and also mostly because i was acquainted with the writer. ...i don't have that artwork on hand right now death note = didn't really get involved with the fandom + i enjoyed my own ideas well enough! ...i can't recall if i drew long-hair-L art before or after seeing other artists do it. and as for everything else the same kind of reasoning applies. didn't really get involved with the fandom or wasn't really compelled to make art in response to stuff i saw, or i just don't remember anymore.

buuuuuuut if we're opening this up to just... pulling ideas from other people? then yeah, all the time, though that kind of goes without saying when you have a creative hobby. ...it's probably going to be hard to come up with examples of this since it's more ambiguous.

there's uhhhhhh... kuwana listens to nickelback which was a @/four-white-trees invention, wasn't it? (EDIT: and @/overdevelopedglasses!) (not tagging in this post so he doesn't feel obligated to read my big ass ask responses 💀) as of writing this, it's not posted but i did end up making kuwagami art based on a nickelback song so. yknow. there's that LMAO

for sawashiro and arakawa, i do sometimes go reference @/todayisafridaynight 's art to help me with my own. ("how did he draw this part of the suit? oh, like that huh? hmm" <- this kind of thing)

and um. i'm not trying to pander to you (at least not this time), but genuinely it's one of the few examples that come to mind at this moment. but when i was writing my first kuwagami fic, i could feel the influence of the ever-changing on my brain... was turning over some of your ideas there...

you remember this? (you even pointed it out in your comment on my fic, and i should've said something then, but whatever i'm saying it now)

that was absolutely because of this

(obligatory poke at anybody else reading this post that you can read passthroughtime's fic here.)

so, um. yeah. not really sure what else to add to that. pretty self evident i think. (i'm always talking about the ever-changing but i don't think i can overstate the impression it left on me at the time)

anyhow there aren't really any other examples off the top of my head! these are all recent examples so they're not so difficult to recall, but there are probably others i've forgotten...

[born-to-lose]

Today was beautiful, I got whiskey, vodka, bacardi razz, 4 coffees, tarot cards and attention on my selfie from the right people

[felix-krain]

One year later, reminiscing about my experience with Pokemon Violet:

[robinsnest2111]

second time that pleasant dreams instead of nightmares have cut my sleep short. what is this lol

[spotlightstudios]

Can someone please just bonk me over the head so I start feeling good about Work again?

[starrynightsforever]

Let me paint you a picture. It's my first night alone in my brand new apartment, and I'm so fucking excited to be living completely alone for the first time. I accidentally stay up reading until 1 AM as usual because I have no impulse control. I finally turn out the light to go to sleep; it's pitch dark in my room. I immediately get a vision of what the night-vision goggle scene from Silence of the Lambs would look like if Buffalo Bill was standing over my bed in my room. I don't sleep for the rest of the night.

[neverendingford]

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[seawitchkaraoke]

Discovered that I can just.... make homemade fries really easily and now i am liviiing

(literally just... cut potatoes into fries shape, mix with some sunflower oil, salt and whatever other seasoning you want (i like paprika and some garlic) and bake for like 30-40 minutes at 200°C)

what other foods am i missing out on that are actually super simple? what other things have i fooled myself into thinking are hard to do?? this is literally 1 ingredient plus seasonings

[iamthepulta]

I hope the Failbetter studio knows how important all the FL game soundtracks are to my writing process. It's gotten to the point I won't be able to write at all if I don't have one of them on in the background. Skies is the most common, but I'm rewriting with MotR and it's the perfect middle between Seas' moodiness and Skies' subtle phosphorescence.

If I end up writing Ellenville, 90% of it will probably be written to the Seas soundtrack. Most of the Liztlie AU has been written to Skies.

[mychemikuromance]

I am tired of having anxiety

[ibleedlikeanyonelikeme]

perhaps a little ridiculous how much better my browsing experience has become now that I have enabled the Goth Rave dash theme

[jeclrs]

I Watch The Plague Dogs when I'm Depressed

And it genuinely makes me feel better. Stick with me, lemme walk you through some personal thoughts I have about this beautiful, but brutal and difficult to recommend piece of art.

(spoilers for the ending)

I feel like the point of The Plague Dogs film, or at least what is valuable to me that I take away from it, is that it's unlikely the dogs survived and the film is challenging you to hope they do. Actively daring you to put down you cynicism and say, "The island is there and they will make it."

The opening scene is brutal. If you've seen the film you know, it's just heartbreaking and uncomfortable to watch. It's also based on a real series of science experiments that was preformed on rats. We do in fact have, as a species, cruelly obtained scientific documentation that rats will fight against drowning for longer if they have been rescued from it before. They have some capacity to understand, "I have been saved before, so I might be saved again if I just fight for a little longer." Hope, essentially.

And I think it would be a valid take away from The Plague Dogs to say it's about how miserable hope can be. It very much feels like "no good deed goes unpunished" made into a movie at times. So I don't think it's wrong to say the movie is about how cruel and painful hoping can be. How no amount of hope actually promises any amount of reprieve from your suffering. It almost feels like a cautionary tale against hope when you're in the thick of it.

But I think the story would have ended with the dogs just drowning if that were the case. This is not a film that is afraid of hurting your heart or showing you gruesome imagery. But the ending is ambiguous. Reason and logic tells you the dogs drowned. There is no island, and even if there was, it was too far out for the dogs to reach.

But what I think when I see the end, and what makes me weep, is that I feel like this movie is a god damn litmus test for your willingness to be hopeful. And it makes me cry not in sadness, but in this great and horrible but wonderful emotion of rending and anguish and hope that I struggle to describe without sounding pretentious. Maybe that emotion just is hope.

As a teenager, I didn't feel this way. As a teenager, I believed firmly that the dogs die at the end of the movie, and I was unmoved, and I loved to use it as a badge of how edgy and impossible to move with sad things I was. Little edgelord that I was.

If you watch this movie and you don't believe Snitter and Rowf made it to the island, I don't think you're not wrong to think that way. You're making a reasonable and calculated guess, and making peace with it, just as I did with this movie for many years. But I think it means you wouldn't be able to make it to island either.

If you were in this same sort of hopeless and painful situation, it wouldn't matter if the island was there or not, because you would not be willing to hope that it was, and thus would not be able to persevere long enough to reach it.

Hope hurts. Hope doesn't always pay off, and sometimes it will mean suffering for longer for no reason. And there are hard times in life where abandoning hope is the correct thing. The less painful and more sensible thing. And I don't think we have much way of knowing which way is "correct" at the time; I think it's a matter of preference and emotional health. Would you rather give up to suffer just briefly, or do you value the wager of suffering longer just in case there's something good at the end?

Hope is very powerful, we all know this, and it is required to make it through some horrendous shit. It is cruel and ugly and beautiful and necessary. And this god damn movie about the dogs makes me weep because it made me realize that I have become someone willing to be hopeful, and that is something I never even dreamed for myself before. I am kind of a cynical and miserable sob often times, and I have a way of being snide about it.

You know the type, if it's not you, it's someone you know. Think we're smarter than the people around us cuz we're too clever and jaded to be optimistic against the odds (there is sarcasm being had here, in case you can't tell).

We're very sad and silly people.

I digress.

The Plague Dogs is my favorite movie of all time, and it is very personal to me, and I'm sure very raw and rampant and hurting emotions have played an intense role in crafting this opinion I have of it. But it's my go to story to engage with when I am feeling hopeless, because I am not yet in a place where gentle kindness is something I respond much to in that state, and so this film is effective in brutally reminding me how miserable it is to be cynical and hopeless all the time. It literally ruins the movie, I think.

And so I have a good weep as the credits roll, and I snatch my hurting hope back up from the floor, tell myself the dogs made it, and I take on another day.

[autistic-shaiapouf]

One day I'm just gonna drop a massive wall of text about my machine ocs and that day may be coming very soon

[sweetdonutsart]

I have now watched Revolutionary Girl Utena and the movie TWICE in TWO WEEKS and I already feel another hyperfixation coming on and an urge to redraw my characters in the poses lol