#i'm gonna have to go to sleep soon bc this post truly was just all over the place

[tvrningout-a]

bronwyn is that figure in the dark reaching a clawed hand upon your shoulder that digs into your skin until you turn and realize it's just a pretty lady with a smile that makes you feel like a mouse staring a cat in the mouth. you think you're just paranoid and carry on, but then you walk in on her taking a bite out of a man's shoulder, and it's absolutely sickening how pretty and predatory she looks all at once. you should be scared out of your mind, and you are, but-- oh, her eyes just swallow you up. maybe murder isn't all that bad.

anyway while bronwyn is a charitable individual, do keep in mind that she's still a predator of sorts. she's got nothing against killing someone if it suits her, if she doesn't like somebody, if they're in the way. can people appeal to her heart? yeah, but if someone is a threat in any way, she won't hesitate to get rid of them. her safety, her loved ones' safety, and the life she leads take priority.

tbh, the worst thing you can probably do is try to make yourself intimidating to bronwyn; coercing her into something won't work. she's too old for most people/creatures/entities to be any true threat on their own in the first place, and you really don't want her to view you as a threat if you want her as an ally. she already doesn't trust easily, but make it known you'd cross her if she steps out of line?? she will put together a plan to kill you if it comes down to it.

this post is all over the place bc i'm sleepy and going feral over my raven lady, but just remember!! bronwyn got where she is by eating hearts, and not just the two offered to her by the sorcerer and his wife. she's ate a ton over the years.

[rouge-fauna]

tbh what You Say about a safer place starting to feel less safe is something that has happened to me before. Idk a exact solution but something that might help is maybe taking a step back from this app for a bit. Also just make what You like about the dsmp and other interest like art, writting etc. It won't make You forget why were You feeling that way, but can help to mitigate it's streght. Also it can help just see another things for a while, it doesn't havee to be another fandoms relate necessarily, it can idk watch differents movies for a week. Also accepting what the feeling is it's a good way to reduce it's streght bc the more You fight a feeling the more strong it is. At the end of the day there's not a only one solution and i think it's worth You try the ones that Will help You the most to avoid things You love to get bitter.

One thing that can help is finding people to talk to, it doesn't have to be about anything specific. It can be about lore, how are You feeling, the weather, random topics, etc.

I hope things get better for You soon 🫂🫂

-Cleo

Aw this is very sweet, I really appreciate it. <3 <3 I will say, that I am doing better now. Not gonna lie Monday and Tuesday had me barely eating barely sleeping, but the end of this week it has all kinda died down. I was really worried it would ruin it entirely for me for a bit, but as you can tell from my posting, that luckily hasn't happened. Apparently, internet drama is not enough to kick c!dream out of my head lol, though I guess that shouldn't really be surprising given what all he had to go through. Anyways, yeah while it was recommended by quite a few people to stay away from tumblr I couldn't manage to stay away, it's just habitual at this point. And I'm glad I didn't, because I think all the support from y'all has definitely helped to heal what was broken earlier in the weak. <3 <3 <3 So thank y'all for that, I can't express to you how impactful it was to have people stand up for me and have my side. While this type of nastiness is hardly new to me, this was really the first time I ever had active support, so truly thank you. <3

I am happy to report, I started a new art project, reworked Musical Chairs outline, and somehow even thought about and posted about c!Tommy, who for a bit just the mention of was triggering me. So we on the mend, thanks in part to y'all and years of therapy making this much less triggering than it could have been. :) <3

[whenfatecollides]

Hi ! I've been getting into Dreamcatcher lately since everyone's been saying if you're a lesbian you're gonna like dreamcatcher, and i do ! i was just wondering from someone who obvs knows them better, do you think they're naturally so close to each other or it could be a bit more... fan service stuff bc I'm always worried about getting into groups who just queerbait all the time, idk how to say this and im not trying to attack DC but there's been a lot of talk abt it in kpop lately

I get where you’re coming from, but with time you’ll see that they’re genuinely close

dc have gone through a lot as a group (some of the members have been together for abt 8/9 years now), specially the ex-minx members (jiu, sua, siyeon, yoohyeon, dami) who had to overcome an unsuccessful debut and decide to stick together despite a rough start. there’s a lot in the member’s own story that makes you wonder if there really isn’t a force in the world out there who brought them together because so much happened, to some members more than others, that literally put them right on the path to become a dreamcatcher member. it just had to be the seven of them. 

for starters, yoohyeon auditioned for a few companies and mbk accepted her. she went the first day and quit that same day because of how she was treated by the staff. she said that from that experience she wanted to quit on the idea of becoming an idol, but she really loved to dance and sing. which led her to meet sua at a dance competition before they auditioned for hfe. sua had been training to become an idol since 2012 and hfe was the one company who accepted her (I can’t imagine sleeping on that much talent). this led them to debut together and even become roomates.

siyeon had a close songwriter friend who introduced her to the company, she auditioned and got in. similarly, jiu’s vocal teacher referred her to the company, she auditioned and got in as well. as for dami she had wanted to become an idol since elementary school, one day she participated in an open audition at her school and hfe called her for an audition.

with gahyeon, she actually went through a few companies before landing on hfe. she was an fnc traineed for a while, she got in both yg and sm, but left since they weren’t going to debut a group any time soon. similar to dami she participated in an open audition at her school and she got called for an audition.

and handong had some interest in kpop when she was in high school, but when she got the chance to go to korea for university her dad made her promise she wouldn’t try to become an idol, it was literally The condition for her to go to korea, she wasn’t meant to audition according to her parents will. but one of her uni teachers told her about hfe’s audition and she just went for it anyway asdkjhs (her relationship with her parents is fine now). it was just meant to be.

they’ve also mentioned quite a few times that they didn’t just instantly click with each other like that (some members having a cold impression of sua at first, siyeon admitting it took her quite some time to get close with handong, jiu saying she was skeptical about the adittion of handong and gahyeon but soon realised they made the group stronger), they worked on their relationship over time and they wanted to make things work with each other which itself is really important and shows the kind of loving and supportive enviroment they wanted to build for each other (I go a little bit more in depth about their overall story in this post). they’ve made sure to build a really great sense of teamwork with each other since the beginning, from the fact that they had about 2/3 months to prepare for dc’s debut (minx still performed on october 2016 and dc debuted january 2017) alone, they really had to make a conscious choice about it all. honestly one of the things that makes me sure that dc are close is that they don’t hide the negative feelings they sometimes have towards each other (which are normal), they've spoken a few times about silly things that they’ve argued about and have even mentioned that they don’t get the other members involved in the quarrels they’re having with another member to not create more drama than necessary. but you can really see that they love and take of each other in the little things too, not just the (sometimes) fanservice. and by this I mean things like, sua calling handong in the middle of her vlive to go get food for her, dami letting yoohyeon sleep in her bed and going to the living room because she didn’t want to wake her up, siyeon falling asleep on top of yoohyeon and yoohyeon not having the heart to wake her up as well, among many many many things.

but truly they’ve gone through a lot of hardships over the years, including having a member be away and unable to participate in comebacks and group schedules for a whole year (not because of health issues or anything like that, but because of the covid situation that made it impossible for her to fly back to korea), and they got out of that situation being even more appreciative of that member when it could’ve easily been something that could have made them turn on each other. it was a situation that brought them even closer and appreciative of one another. they really want to be on this path together.

as for the queerbaiting bit, I’ve made posts about this before and as I’ve said, it doesn’t matter whether or not it’s fanservice because at the end of the day they’re respectful and caring, and they’re only normalising same sex attraction. they never make you feel gross for that attraction either, they’ve never pulled a ‘no home though’ moment, they continuously sing songs directed at female lovers without changing the pronouns, continuously accept marriage proposals from their female fans, and even when a fan was dubious and said “but we’re two girls” jiu said that it didn’t matter and that love is love, and they’ve said many times that it’s okay for female fans to be nervous around them (aka attracted to them). 

and not that it’s anyone’s business but the members themselves have dropped many hints over the years, from not specifying the gender of their ideal type

“Dreamcatcher Handong, “even if they’re not good-looking, a warm-hearted person is my ideal type.” “My idea type, erm... a warm-hearted person. A person not necessarily need to be good-looking, if they’re warm-hearted they’re a good person” ©

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Handong: For me, firstly, kind. It would be great if the person has a good personality and is tall.

Gahyeon: For me, because I’m still young I don’t have a definite ideal type. Just someone who smiles prettily and is fun. Ah, if the person has a good voice, it will be good. I like to talk on the phone. ©

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Jiu: I wish to have someone I can chat non-stop with, and who is also knowledgable and has a good character. I’ve never really thought about an ideal date, but what’s most important is that the atmosphere has to be comfortable!

Yoohyeon: My ideal type is someone who’s like Peter Pan, someone fun-loving and positive! My ideal date location would be Paris, France. It’s a really romantic city! Really look forward to spending time there with the one I love.

Gahyeon: I like someone with a beautiful smile, and someone who can really take care of me.   ©

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to lowkey admitting a same sex crush (she went to an all girls school as far as we know)

to being uh very straightforward about it

among other things 🐒 I’ve been into kpop for quite a lot of years now and I never experienced a group make this as comfortable as they do honestly. that’s why I say that it doesn’t matter if it is just fanservice, they’re still changing things for the better. but that being said, take your time getting to know them~ I think it’s better that you see it for yourself rather than have someone tell you really

[greenandbluebubblegum]

Heyy, it's Kinnporsche anon!!! Hope you had a good day!! 💜

Well I'm glad we can talk about it bc I feel like I would already lost my mind ufg 😭 it's only Tuesday, hope are we suppose to wait until the weekend? Going re-watch some of the episode!

The cast just are too easy to fall in love with, truly unfair 😭 I couldn't resist their cutie faces 🥰 (watch Bible post a thirst trap as I write this). Do you have any idea what the little video they post are about?? I don't understand a thing (but I Cleary don't mind watching them in repeat)

OH GOSH, I didn't think of the possibilities that The Mole could be a bodyguard???? Like nope nope don't wanna. I'm pretty sure that the mole would be shoot in the head when they are discover (that is going to be one of the biggest betray of the series, and we saw what they did to that guy in ep1), and I don't wanna loose any one of them 😭😭 now I'm scared that Big or Ken are going to be the mole. Nope. Nope. Nope. They can have Tawan.

Next episode we are going to see two idiots on screen. I feel like I'm going to scream '' communicate stupid '' at them 😭 I can't wait to see what the creator did really, like so many possibilities!! Wonder in what direction they went!!

I saw your giftset, that is exactly the scene I talked about!!!! You did great, you capture the exact moment when Kinn look at Porsche with so much love and fondness!!! (and who know, maybe I like the post 👀👀) (or maybe not 👀👀)

Omg you got good taste!!! You'll see, the K-pop community is a great one! It feel like no matter who you are, where you come from, what your ethnicity is, your age, your sexual orient, you will be accepted!! I love how music can reunite people!!

So now I wonder, whose are your Biais? 👀 What's are your favorite songs?? 👀 Your favorite come-back this year?? 👀 The come-back you wish will happen?? (I'm a bit noisy)

Yeah, I did see a lot of BTS from you, so I figure they were in your ult list!! Can't blame you, I'm the same. I'm so glad to have find them, especially after the 1d 'hiatus'! Are you excited for their new come-back??

Are you planning to see them on tour?? (Or any other K-pop artist??) and what is your favorite songs /albums from them??

SHINee my beloved. I'm so excited for next year, they annonce they will be having a come-back!!!! (I hope for a tour too!!) I was so happy when Minho says that Taemin was doing good!! They deserve all the happiness in the world!

(I could talk about K-pop for hours, sorry)

Good luck for your exam!!! I'm sure you are going to great!!! 💜 What are you studying? (don't feel obligated to answer my question, I would understand if you don't want to share it on your social media!!). And do not worries m, I understand you take some times to answer, I will be waiting for your response!! (I can wait promise!)

Bye bye, see you soon darling!!! Don't forget to get good night of sleep and to eat well before your exam, it's important!!!

💜✨

Hi darling!! sorry for being late! hope you are doing fine!!  💓 well, now you know my pain!! all these past weeks waiting for a new episode to be release!! it was horrible, still is  😭 haha 

oh I saw the little clips and now we know is a world tour? I don’t know what that means but yeyyy!!!  🎉 🎉 good for them!!! 

I really hope the mole isn’t a bodyguard but we never know!!!  😱 I don’t want that to happen!!!! I don’t know what next episode will bring us!! I don’t want KinnPorsche to fight because of Tawan!! but I feel you are right, we are going to be yelling ‘communicate you idiots, you are in love but pleaseeee talk to each other’ haha I hope we can have more Kim and Chay!! they are so cute!! well Chay is haha  🥰️ 🥰️ Kim just needs to investigate without hurting Chay! Also I want Vegas back!! I’m curious about when are we gonna have another Pete and Vegas interaction!!!!! I’m yearning for more of them!! 

Awww I’m happy you liked the gifset!!  😍 😍 I love Kinn’s eyes in that scene, so much love in there!!! they love each other so much!!! I can’t!!!  💕 uhh I will add the gifset to the clues hahaha I’ll be preparing my board lmao Let me know more clues!! haha 

Yesss!!! Kpop is amazing!! I wasn’t expecting being so in love of all their music so much but it’s so good!! they are so many bops!!! love it!! it’s lovely to be part of a fandom again! well at this point I’m a multifandom haha but in terms of music others groups that I like are not like the kpop community, the only one was 1d but yeah don’t much hope in them haha I follow their solos careers so at least I have that. 

So for BTS my bias is WWH love of my life JIN!!!!!! (amore 😍) and my bias wrecker are Yoongi and Namjoon!!! I really love all of them!! For other groups well I don’t have it clearly defined as for bts but I have faves of course, in stray kids are Chan and I.N (but I don’t know because Felix is so cute and Changbin is son funny as Hyunjin hahaha aaaaaa) for ateez well Yeosang,  SeongHwa and  HongJoong I am so bad in choosing my faves haha for Shinee is impossible like I love them all !!  💓 💓 and for other groups I have plenty like Q from the Boyz or Wyatt from ONF What are yours?? let me be noisy too!!! haha 

I really want to go to their concerts but I feel I’ll have to sell a kidney for a ticket  😭 😭 like for BTS everything is so expensive!! I’m excited for the new songs and what new arrangement the old song will have!! For faves songs in general mmm... I have a lot like Run or Fake Love (such classic but I love them so much), View from shinee (that’s a completely summer bop), Shinne’s last album I mean I love it so much,  Love talk from WayV, We must love from ONF , why why why from Ikon, lovesick girls etc Yours?? 

I love talking about kpop too!! it’s so fun!! 

Thank for your good luck I’ll need it lol I’m studying English Studies but the exams I’ll have are the boring part so meh!! I only want them to end to focus in KinnPorsche and more series I want to watch!! Yes I will eat and sleep well!! Thanks!!! 

See you soon!!!  ❤️️ ❤️️ ❤️️ Have great days!!!  😘 😘 😘

[eurydicees]

Never apologize for your long thoughts and tangents!!! Those take time and I appreciate the detail you go into. I'm sorry for not being clearer in my ask, I think my sleep deprivation got to me lol; I was actually asking about your thoughts on their friend groups/skills in university bc even though they have so much more...time and space to make friends, I always wondered how many they would really make in college and esp people like Hikaru and Kyoya

all good, all good! i’m glad you enjoy because i have SO much fun writing them out, even if you and i are the only people who actually click “read more.” anyways. thoughts. i have so many. oh god. i know you said not to apologize but. this is so much. and i only covered the friend thing, i didn’t even talk about skills. i will def think on that though because i have opinions on everything. well here we go i guess: 

i think one of the things i experienced in college was just a huge influx of opportunity. like. i was living with people that i saw all the time and thus became friends with them, and then friends with their friends, and then people in my classes, and people in the extracurricular projects i did-- like. there were just so many new people, and i go to a relatively small school. 

all of that being said, my experiences are (a) only my own, and i don’t think that everyone does this, and (b) very, very, very american. like. the quintessential “die over college apps and then thrive in college” american experience. i’m sure that a lot of my experiences wouldn’t apply in japan (just based on what i know from other media i’ve consumed / people i’ve talked to), but some of them are pretty universal, i think. 

okay all of that out of the way. i think that haruhi is going to have a very similar experience to me in that she doesn’t have a huge world outside of the hosts while at ouran, but once she gets to university, she’ll really thrive and branch out and find Her People, you know? over the course of the manga, she progressively learns to take initiative in things, as well as keep herself from burning out over that, and i think that’s something she continues to work on throughout university. 

tamaki would also be able to branch out a bit, but at the end of the day, the hosts are his family. the hosts are the people he cares about. he definitely makes other friends, and definitely cares about them, but he loves the hosts. i think he has trouble prioritizing anything other than the other hosts, which makes it hard to make new friends, at first. 

once he figures out that you can like. have multiple friend groups, he’s great. he also, i think, has to really accept that the other hosts are at different universities and are going to be making new friends, too, and he’s not going to be their “king” anymore. they’re all going to have to find different paths, and he has a lot of trouble accepting that for the others, even more so than he has trouble with it for himself. 

kaoru does a similar thing to tamaki, i think, where he has trouble making friends only because he has trouble accepting that everyone else is also doing new things without him. especially hikaru. we see him-- in both the manga and in the anime-- have trouble with the idea that their little family is going to break up, almost to the same extent that tamaki fears it. i think that really holds him back for a while, but once he accepts that, though everyone is moving on, they all still love each other, he’ll be able to make new friends. 

and oh god once he starts making friends, kaoru goes for it. he branches out wildly in university. he’s spent his whole life just sharing everything with hikaru, and once he starts trying to find out who he is apart from hikaru, he tries everything. he dyes his hair. he dresses like an e-boy. he joins a band, and then quits immediately. he wears dresses. he learns to do make up better than anyone else he knows. he takes every class he can. 

he also burns out, i think, probably during his second year of trying everything new and figuring himself out. once he recovers from that lapse, where he kind of gives up on everything, he then settles down into being a person that he’s happy with. jesus christ ok there’s this really good demon-megane post that i have been trying to find for AGES that i simply cannot find, about how kaoru and hikaru are when they get to university and have to work on their codependent relationship. i think about this post every fucking day. it’s so good and it’s so relevant rn. i’m gonna go looking for it again later. 

okay and this is gonna be a hot take, but i don’t think that honey and mori figure out how to make friends at university either, at least not until everyone else has graduated ouran and is off to university. in the manga, it’s honestly like they didn’t even graduate-- they go back to ouran for a lot of lunches, and they see the other hosts all of the time. i don’t think that, if they’re doing that, then they’re going to be able to make many friends at university. 

but once everyone has graduated, i think that they’d be able to branch out better. as soon as they don’t have a significant fear of missing out on host club shenanigans and their old friends’ lives, they can kind of move on and find other people-- which is just. gonna be so good for them. mori, especially, would have a great time in college trying out new things without worrying about honey (mori has eldest daughter syndrome, change my mind). honey has always been popular and charismatic, and once he truly moves on from ouran emotionally, i think he’s going to have a great time making friends. 

and on the other end of the spectrum, i think kyoya would be. suffering. like. he’s friendly with people, but he doesn’t have friends. he’s so focused on studying himself to death that he doesn’t have time for emotionally valuable friendships, and i don’t think he really wants them either. like i said in that last post, i think he’s pretty satisfied with what he’s got, and he’s not going to want to branch out much. also i wrote an entire fic about this lmao. 

similarly, hikaru would have the worst time trying to make friends. i think that he has one of the most impressive character arcs throughout the manga, but he still has a long ways to go in terms of his social skills. and if we’re talking anime-only, hikaru has absolutely no idea how to like. be a good friend. he’s so used to just using people that it’s hard to not do that. and even then, he’s so wrapped up in the hosts that he doesn’t really know how to find other people.

side note, but i think he’d also have a lot of trouble at ouran after tamaki + kyoya graduate, because he really just doesn’t know how to find people outside of the hosts. during university, he probably has a lot of trouble figuring himself out-- what he wants to do with his life, with his career, with people. he doesn’t like. seek out clubs, and just takes random classes, and doesn’t reach out to anyone. i love him so much, but he’s definitely a mess in university. he figures it out, i think, but it does take him a hot sec. he needs a year to learn how to stop burning bridges via anger issues, and how to not rely on kaoru for the social skill aspect of a friendship, and what he actually wants to do with himself. GOD. i’m thinking about that post AGAIN. every time i think about the twins i think about that post it is KILLING me. 

but in conclusion, all of the hosts miss each other so terribly during university, and they have such a rough time trying to figure out new relationships. except for haruhi, who fuckin thrives in university, except for the fact that she’s studying all of the time and doesn’t know how to manage her time. but that’s just the #college life. anyways i am SO curious to hear other people’s thoughts on this bc it’s a very very interesting question! 

[tumortunes]

it all sucks

you're finally home from your first round of chemo and first 4 days of radiation.

and it sucks. it all sucks so bad. and it sucks the most bc you haven't even had the chance to process everything you're going thru bc it all needed to happen so fast. and it needed to happen quickly bc your brain tumor is really aggressive.

it's really daunting to think about how hard this first round was on your body. physically and mentally.

the recovery post craniotomies 1 and 2 were incredibly easier than the recovery from chemo.

it's been an emotional rollercoaster where you're sprinting just to keep up. but it's all kinda hitting you now that you're home.

you def stifled your feelings when you saw that kid in the elevator with the bald head bc thats gonna be you...really soon too. and you were irritated on the phone with the social worker. and you got emotional with the NP who does fertility stuff for young adults came to talk to you. but there just wasnt a time to truly feel those feelings yet. there was a lot to do, lots of meds, lots of people to meet, fam was constantly there, and you felt so so sick. like maybe even more sick than you felt before the brain tumor. and i didnt think anything could be worse than that.

and now you have to do it again.

you have to do it 7 times total.

so 6 more to go.

and it sucks.

im overwhelmed that this is my reality now. i dont want it to be me. it's so frustrating and not at all what i expected 2022 to look like. i was supposed to be excelling at PA school curriculum and super involved in APAMSA, SUPASA, and IM basketball. nathan and i were gonna move in together. maybe go to taiwan over the summer. hang with lin lin and liz lots.

but now you have radiation M-F for 6 weeks. and chemo 3days/3weeks. and youre always nauseated, or throwing up, or not pooping enough, or not drinking enough, or sleeping too much. There's so many people asking you questions and asking you to be strong. you wanna do your best so you dont let them down. and honestly, it was easy doing that during both post ops. it was chill.

idk why but this time is much harder. so much harder.

im really sorry you have to go thru this.

i just wanted to have fun this year.

i think seeing the physical effects of chemo and radiation on my body has made my diagnosis more real. the vomiting and weakness and hyperpigmentation are a constant reminder that i'm sick. before i could just middle part my hair and nobody could tell.

now people can definitely tell.

and the frickin port sucks. it's achy and im worried i'll get it infected. they had to do 2 pokes both times they accessed it and it was soooo sore. i dont like laying on that side of my body now bc i dont wanna pinch it or anything. but the other side of my head is where the incision site for the craniotomies are. no winners here.

meng and lisa have been really great resources about the fertility stuff and just general support. I was already leaning towards not doing the egg retrieval bc it would mean delaying chemo. but then i wasn't even given that option when i saw dr. spunt on thrusday. She said my most recent MRI showed that the tumor was growing back. and we needed to start chemo the next day.

there was hardly any time to process that. it was an option she gave me on tuesday and taken away on thursday. i havent even had the time to cry about it or figure out how i feel yet.

there's so many more things i want to do once this is all over. i hope i can do everything i want with the people i want.

love you lots.

Mel

[tipsyreads-female]

Hello hello my sweet Darling 😋💕

Here we go into the second round of reviewing of your amazing Ihy Ily Series and my desperate try to keep up with it! 😂😅🙈

Hopefully I am able to read the third chapter soon, so I can move on to the fourth chapter that will get posted today!! 🙈😍

Also, your response to my latest review on Ihyily chapter 1 made me all sad and soft... I know how fucking long and intense you worked on IhyIly the last months and put all of your blood, sweat, tears of passion into that story. I just can poorly imagine how discouraging it must be not to receive the feedback you hoped for... so I am trying my best to keep you up and give you at least a little bit of all the feedback this mindblowing story truly deserves! I may be forgetful or sometimes really slow to read your stories on time but I want you to know that I love and support you the best way I am able to! 🤧💕 Love you Bestie ❤

ANYWAY, let's move on with this review and to point out all those nice scenes that you've written!! Idk if I remember everything chronological but I am trying my best not to mix everything up... 👉🏻👈🏻🙈💕 Love you Sweetie and I am so thankful for you posting this amazing story ☺💕

First of all... I can't believe how fucking curious Yoongi and Jiwoo are... honestly, my first thought was "Tratsch im Treppenhaus", oder was?? (engl. "Gossip in the staircase")

How Yoongi says all gently and lovingly, that Jiwoo is overdue with her period and might be pregnant... WHY THE FUCK IS SO CUTE I CAN'T 😭🤧💕

When the Reader and Tae drives to the Sunday Dinner and he exactly knows that the Reader isn't allowed to drive a car bc of stupid gender roles and he literally pours salt into the wounds... KIM TAEHYUNG YOU'RE MEAN 😡😤 DON'T DO THAT EVER AGAIN!

Mrs. Kang... I FUCKING LOVE HER SO MUCH, Mrs. Kang/Mrs. Choi/Mr. Choi... some of the best side characters! 😍😘

Taehyung literally running into the Reader's Dad arms and having und of the worst times of his life 😂😂 Karma~

Jungkook and the Reader are so sweet and cute, I caaaan't!!!🤧💕

...when they say that they want to have some private time in their bedroom and her parents looks at each other, thinking they're gonna fuck in her childhood room... Thank you for this unpleasant mental Image, Sibi 🤢���

When they're alone in her old room and Tae is frustrated, angry, annoyed (and annoying...🤦🏻‍♀️) and just talking back without being cooperative in any way... TAEHYUNG YOU'RE NOT 5 YEARS OLD ANYMORE, JESUS CHRIST

...but THEN you just threw helpless and vulnerable Beby Tae bc he didn't brought ans clothes over in and I'm all soft for him again

...AND THEN THIS CHILDISH ASSHOLE TAEHYUNG DECIDED TO BE ALL BITCHY AGAIN, LIKE WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH YOU TAEHYUNG??? ALL GRUMPY AND MOODY😤🙄🤦🏻‍♀️

I still can't believe it that he just drove home afterwards so they can sleep seperated... he's truly a drama queen

...the sex scene with Jungkook... fuck... that was way too hot and that attacked me... I WASN'T PREPARED THAT'S GONNA BE THIS HOT EVENTHOUGH YOU STATED IT IN YOUR WARNINGS-

...and then everything got destroyed because she said Taehyung's name and Jungkook realized what he just did there... having sex with a married woman (or as Tipsy said it "a married wife!" 😂)

the fucking business magazine interview that turned out to be more unprofessional than some cheap boulevard magazines

I am just saying... the Hickey

Really, that scene was a different breed of " the cherry on top of unprofessionalism" like wtf was that?!

...I almost spit too, my dear reader... not only you! 😳😩🤯🤮

...the fact that it went even worse...

I am so sorry for Taehyung... that must be the fucking worst feeling and his anger and Jealousy is absolutely berechtigt (my english just died, I am sorry)

...the fucking car ride back home was... was... was... I can't even put my feelings for that into words!

...his anger is so hot, don't ask me-

....THE FREAKING SEXUAL TENSION BETWEEN BOTH OF THEM

...when Tae provocates her to really use and fuck him, just like she wants to...

UNBUCKLING HIS BELT AND LOOSING HIS TIE, NOT TO FORGET OF HIM OPENING THE TOP THREE BUTTONS OF HIS DRESS SHIRT! 😩🤤💕

...after she pulled back and denied his "avanches" he didn't cared about closing his open dress shirt...

BOOBS. TAETIDDIES EVERYWHERE I AM JUST SAYING! 😤🔥

I mean... is that a fucking joke to you?? 🥵🤤👆🏻

...as you can see and read, I enjoyed the second chapter freaking much and I am very curious to read the third chapter but I am not ready how you're going to torture us now- 😩���

Love you so incredibly much, whore! ♡ If other readers can't give you the feedback you deserve, I will do that 😤😡❤

↳ Index [Chapter 02 - Cut the Cameras]

Warnings: sexual tension, suggestive themes, talks about sex, fighting, hickeys, jealousy; also minor Jungkook x Noona!Reader, mutual masturbation, dirty talk

Wordcount: 8.9k

a/n: This chapter still haunts me in my dreams omfg 🥵

“So?” Jiwoo and Yoongi slip into the booth beside you, “Now that you have managed to go through a month without killing Taehyung, how is your marriage going?” she asks.

You send both of them an annoyed look.

“And here I thought you invited me over for drinks”, you grumble.

“We did”, Yoongi says and waves the waitress over, “but we are still curious”, he places his hand on Jiwoos upper back and rubs little circles on it.

You watch his gesture for a moment, clicking your tongue afterwards.

“Well, we are most definitely not doing that”, you say, nodding your head into Yoongis direction.

“Care to enlighten us?” Yoongi cocks an eyebrow up at you.

Just this moment the waitress arrived at your table.

“What can I get you?”

“A mojito with double the rum for me and a bowl of peanuts”, you tell her.

“Whiskey neat”, Yoongi orders his signature drink.

“Just a glass of water for me please”, Jiwoo says and it makes your ears perch up.

The waitress scurries off with your orders scribbled down in her little notebook.

“Jiwoo, did I just hear you right? You order water? Uhm, what is going on?”

Yoongi and his wife exchange a look, smiling so goofily it is gag inducing.

“Our little Chaeyoung may be getting a sibling”, Jiwoo says.

“Whaaat?” you gasp.

“We’re not sure yet, Jiwoo’s a few days late so we don’t want to risk it”, Yoongi explains, cheeks wearing a rosy tint to them.

“Okay damn”, you chuckle, “you two are really going at it. But congrats, I really hope that you’re pregnant.”

“Thank you”, Jiwoo sends you a smile, “speaking of pregnancies. I hope you and Taehyung are busy too.”

“Me and Taehyung?” you gag dramatically, “I would rather get it on with a stray dog to be bloody honest.”

Yoongi and Jiwoo exchange a look.

“You do know that you need to fuck in order to produce an heir, right?” Yoongi says so annoyingly bluntly.

“I know that too, thank you very much”, you snarl, sending daggers his way.

“So? Fuck him”, Yoongi throws back, cocking his right eyebrow up.

“You don’t tell me what to do”, you spit.

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[meulinthekittytroll]

Rant af I'm sorry

Yunno I don’t know what my dads problem is with my boyfriend. He doesn’t like him, at all. And I honestly have no idea why. Maybe it’s because this is the only relationship he’s seen me in? I’m not sure But if my dad could have seen all my past relationships he’d understand why B is probably the only one I could ever want to be with. There were some major people who impacted my life in negative ways and I’m still recovering from them. I will point out the major ones First there was David. He tried to kill me once, and manipulated me and made my self esteem plummet. (Grade 3-7) Yes, I know, 3rd through 7th grade and he tried to KILL you? Are you over exaggerating? No I’m not lol. Then there was Devin. He was the first boy to cheat on me. Which made my self esteem plummet even further. He also was the first boy to treat me… like I wasn’t a person I guess?? I don’t know how to describe that one but it made me feel very inferior. (Grade 6) young I know but shoosh this shit can happen at any age if you let it happen. Then there was Max. We never actually dated, but he is still very important because oh boy I crushed on this boy HARD from 8th to 10th grade. He and I had a thing going on in 8th grade but never quite did anything about it which only made me like him more. Then 9th grade came along and we only got closer but still didn’t quite do anything. (I also had a boyfriend at that time that I’ll get to in JUST a second) Finally 10th grade came along and I FINALLY made a move, only to get shot down, HARD. That was partly my fault I suppose for being too scared to tell him my feelings earlier than that. But still, ouch ouch that hurt me a lot. Jacob, the boyfriend mentioned just a second ago, this was a long distance relationship. He was a couple years older than me and I had never met him in person, I dated him because I was extremely lonely. This lasted almost a year, but not quite. It started out really fun because I could lowkey flirt with Max but still have someone to go home to and text and get the feelings of love that Max didn’t give me, I know I know that’s borderline cheating but hey I was in 9th grade and I was stupid in love with Max and it was just a messy time in my life and Ive obviously learned from it and cheating is disgusting ugh……. ihatemyselfAAAAnyways, as the months rolled by, things slowly went downhill with this Jacob kid. He just was a downer. We both were depressed and got even sadder when we realized we couldn’t meet for a long time blah blah you get the point everything was a mess and he made me extremely unhappy, that was a very toxic relationship and I’m glad nothing ever became of it. I haven’t talked to him in almost a year, I hope he’s doing well. Also in 10th grade I developed this crush on this boy named Anthony and he was a dorky kind of cute, tall and scrawny but still muscly, I dug it. I flat out told him I liked him bc I didn’t want another Max situation and he seemed interested at first until he told one of his friends that doubled as my friend that he wasn’t interested so I obviously found out and got shot down again. Ouch! When that didn’t happen I started talking to a good friend I also met over the internet named Gavin and wowie did this boy make me feel wanted and loved. I had a brief thing with him previously but it never followed through, due to the fact that he was a dickbag and cheated on me and blamed it on some personality disorder where he needed more than one girlfriend to be satisfied *cough* bullshit *cough* but anyways, I tried it with him again the summer going into 11th grade c he was sooooooo sorry and loved me soooo much and wanted to marry me (gag!) anyways, things were good for a while but then he slowly stopped talking to me and cheated again and all this other shit and as my confidence in myself slowly went down the garbage disposal as it had been since like 4th grade, I finally told myself enough is enough and told him I was done with him. I told myself I was done with boys until the right one came along and treated me right. As a junior at a new school with no friends, I assumed it would take until junior year of COLLEGE to even consider boys again (besides possibly sleeping around once I got too tired of being a virgin kek) But yunno, life throws unexpected things at you. I remember the night so clearly. I went to bed finally content with being alone, not having to worry about any boy cheating on me or making me feel bad or putting me down constantly. Then, wouldn’t you know it, the NEXT FUCKIN DAY, this super duper cute boy I had seen a few times around school walked into my first period photography class. And I thought to myself “fuck.” Bc I immediately knew something would happen between us. This boy was he perfect mix of goofy, nerdy, and cute as fuck, with a hint of holy shit you’re SEXY. Exactly my type. Tall, dark, and handsome (a spongebob reference has never been more relatable) ((besides maybe “i’m surrounded my idiots”)) ANNYYYWAYS Me and this kid start talking bc I grew a pussy (not balls bc balls are sensitive and vaginas take a pounding) and gave the kid my Snapchat. That same day I reaaallly wanted a chance to talk to him so I posted a pic on my story of me and my dog havin’ a blast (rip Lily u will be missed ily thank you for being the reason the loml messaged me for the first time) anywho, HE MESSAGED ME FIRST AND WE STARTED TALKING AND SHIT bc he thought my dog was cute af (which she was!!!!) and we kept talking and talking and found we had so much in common and finallyyyy we admitted to each other we liked each other and started dating soon after and I’m spare you all the mushy details of how that came to be. Back to the reason why I started writing this little rant/story in the first place. My dad borderline hates the guy. But what my dad doesn’t understand (which is a lot but these next few sentences are important) Every single relationship I’ve had, was with a guy who has done nothing but lead me on, cheat on me, or abuse me (both physically (which only happened twice thank god) and mentally (which happened SO MUCH OH MY GOD it’s so much harder to catch that than actually getting physically abused) Yet, my current boyfriend…. we’re gonna call him B, bc his name is unique and I don’t want people knowing who I am if this ever gets read by someone who knows me and cares enough to read though all of this. B is the most beautiful person I have ever met, inside and out. He makes me feel important. He makes every day a blessing. When I first moved in with my dad in the beginning of 11th grade, I was a complete shut in. I hardly ever left my room besides to eat and bathe. After I met B, I started opening up and spending time with the family, and I made such amazing friends at school that I would have never talked to if it weren’t for him. B makes everything exciting. Of course we have had our fair share of bumps in the road, but ever healthy relationship does. And yunno what else healthy relationships do? They talked them through and fix the problems!!! B has made it so clear to me that I am worth all of the shit that goes on sometimes, and believe me I can be crazy so that is saying something. And oh boy is he a package deal too. He’s constantly got something going on, he’s quite frankly an idiot sometimes. But hey, he’s my idiot! I’ve never woken up and been happy about being alive since I was like 10, until B came around. B completely flipped my view of the world around. We tell each other this thing all the time because weird kinda opposites when it comes to certain things. He looks like the moon, but is the sun. And I look like the sun, but am the moon. He has dark hair and he’s got olive skin (very Italian looking) looking like a human version of the moon. But he has this optimistic view on life, the personality of the sun. Then there’s me; golden brown hair with fair skin, I look like the sun. But I’m kinda a pessimist, and I also am quite the night owl (he definitely isn’t!) personality of the moon. That might not make sense to you, but it does to us. I’m getting side tracked. The whole fuckin point is, I hadn’t felt true happiness since I was 10 until I met this guy. My dad says we aren’t going to last. My dad barely even lets me see him outside of school once a week, and when he does let me he always gives this disapproving scowl and scoff when I ask to see my boyfriend (who I have been with for well over a year now) once a week. Oh and by the way, he LIVES with his girlfriend who he’s only been dating a few more months than B and I have been. I wonder what he’d feel like if the roles were reversed. Yunno? Like he gets to see his gf every day and sleep next to her ever night, but the moment I want to see B, I get a scowl and a reluctant confirmation that I can see him on the day I asked to see him on. I’m sorry for all this rant and I know it’s probably all over the place but I just really really had to get it out because I don’t know why my dad is so unhappy with me being with a guy who makes me so happy. It’s not like B is a delinquent. He has two jobs (one is a photography business, he does really well with it actually he shoots for weddings and shit he’s an amazing photographer ((he only took the photography class at my school for the credit and to laugh at how low quality everything was at the school and how badly they taught it))) and he’s polite and respectful. My father truly has no reason to not like him, he has no idea how badly I’ve been treated up until I met B. B treats me better than anyone ever has, including my dad. Everyone else in my family loves him! Not nearly as much as I love the son of a bitch tho. I truly grew up from 3rd grade on getting belittled and cheated on and made to feel terrible, and if my dad knew that or understood it, maybe he wouldn’t hate the boy that made me happy to be alive again. Thank u for the ppl who took the time to read this through even tho I doubt anyone will do that bless u ilysm