#i'm glad I didn't cut contact but I literally cannot emphasize how much happier I am with limited contact

[kaleuh]

Day 208: Tell us about your family.

I did this on Day 19, but I guess I was a little harsh (earned though.)

I'm too old to be oversharing but for the sake of getting anything out of this challenge, oh well. Too many people in one small house. Standard Irish-Catholicism looming over everyone's head. Nothing strict though. My parents knew each other for 6 months before marrying, and it was pretty much a shotgun wedding. They had four kids, for some reason. I love my little sister very much. I have complicated feelings about the rest of them. I think my Dad feels bad about all the stuff he did. He's a grandpa now. I think that changed him, if even a little. He's got such weird BoJack guilt towards me. He doesn't have to say anything, it just leaks off him. Used to be BFFs with my Mom until That Thing. Then it was like, oof! Cannot be pals with you like that ever again, sorry! Even though she wants to. I do love them both, but putting a sizable amount of distance and boundaries between us was absolutely the right call. I love my brother too; we're both pretty bad texters so I don't always know what he's up to but I hope he finds direction and happiness in his life. I wish that very much for him. I keep a very sterile relationship with my older sister, who might be bipolar? Narcissist? I have no idea. Topically, my little sister told me she overheard her speaking to my mom the other day, and said I was, quote, "The only sane one" out of all of us. She definitely just wants me to babysit (author's note: lmfao)

Anyway. I absolutely love that none of them really know who I'm with, where I am, or what I'm doing. Like I said: putting a sizable amount of distance and boundaries between us was absolutely the right call.