#i'm fine i'm just REALLY REALLY REALLY ITCHY and would like someone to repossess my skin for me please

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Ugggggh. We've reached that point in the winter when my skin reaches critical mass on how desperately fucking dry it is and forces me to put lotion on and then the feel of the lotion is SO BAD on my skin that I want to peel it off with a cheese grater and between the two sensations I just ITCH AND ITCH AND ITCH AND thrash around on my bed and throw the covers off and then ITCH SOME MORE until my skin practically fucking BURNS it hurts so bad... And once I'm in actual pain I can finally stop for a few seconds because the pain is less awful than the itching and the dryness and then IT STARTS ITCHING AGAIN AND HERE WE FUCKING GO AND I WAS LITERALLY FINE FIFTEEN MINUTES AGO PLEASE I WANT TO SLEEP. 😭😭😭

Even the cold air feels bad.

My CLOTHES feel bad.

My blankets feel WORSE.

I really don't want to have to shower to get the lotion off because that will NOT make this better and I do NOT want to have to reapply it now that I've scratched so much because that will HURT.

...and also I'd have to stay up until my hair dries if I shower now and it's after midnight and I don't want that but EVERYTHING FEELS BAD and I don't know how to make it STOP. 😭😭😭