#i'm fine (genuinely) just. a bit freaked out given the uhh *gestures* them

[theemperorsfeather]

Periodically I remember how, 10, 11 years ago, when I was reading everything that came my way on the topic of spirit work and being intensely god-bothered and all that, I ran across a few accounts talking about one of the things that indicated you were getting into spirit work in a big way was having some intense visionary experience of being ripped apart by wild animals, or fairies, or whatever manner of being was relevant to your brand of Weird.

"Yeesh. Glad that's not my thing!" I thought with reasonable confidence. And again and again I was like "Yeah still hasn't happened" though at some point 1t became obvious that it was my thing despite not having that sort of "typical" initiatory experience.

I'm still occasionally mad about the fact that I don't recall any of those writers being like "BTW it could also happen a bit here and a bit there over a span of years. Enjoy!"

Why this keeps surprising me is a good question; perhaps the next time They enact a moment of something swift and brutal out of fucking nowhere my reaction will only be "this shit again" and not "wait what?! Really??"