#i'm dealing with dysphoria. mild C-PTSD and probably OCD. I'm dealing with undiagnose autism and ADHD | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

nanowired-lover · 5 months ago

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i keep having meltdowns and huge fatigue and I fucking can't do this anymore, so I try to do research on how to get diagnosed with ADHD or Autism in my country, and I just sob harder, bc all the stuff are for "your children" or telling me that France has one of the lowest rate of ADHD/Autsim diagnosis, and that you can lose your right to HRT if you get diagnosed with autism, and that it depends of the doctors you see, and it's mostly in non-rural spaces

Like everyone telling to get a diagnosis when they don't believe me can go fuck themself. Hard. Make the phones calls for me, drive me to Paris, pay the toll bc idk if my insurance can cover it. Take care of me while I recover from the rejections or mockery, dude it's so hard to get a diagnosis and I have none to help me through it except my friends who can't do much either.

I'm stuck in a fuckinh loom of "I need to do it" and "i'm too disabled to do it" and I want to fucking explode

#my dad who told me “you're constantly fucking up. Don't you ever think there's a reason ? Like You have no idea ???”#and im just like “i fucking know why but you don't fucking believe me or support me.”#he says he wants to help but also he doesn't want to help me the way i need it #and my mom is too in denial #every year im asking myself how i keep surviving. like. i know im young but i want to live better sl bad #i'm dealing with dysphoria. mild C-PTSD and probably OCD. I'm dealing with undiagnose autism and ADHD #i probably have an eating disorder. i'm probably physically disabled. i need to do something radical now.#nano.txt

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