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iamnot-theboynextdoor · 2 years

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sometimes i go out in public for the first time in a week and i realise that i constantly put myself in a depersonalised derealised state and i have no idea how to cope with the knowledge that the real world actually exists

oh my god i nearly started crying in public because i was like WAIT i DID go out two days ago and i COULD NOT REMEMBER WHERE (a haircut) god my brain is just full of holes

i'm just sitting here at the bus station going I WAS HERE! TWO DAYS AGO! WHY CAN'T I REMEMBER WHY

there is something wrong with my brain and i don't mean that in a funny way i mean i'm on the road to being totally disconnected to reality and that's genuinely very scary

do you ever just realise that you ACTUALLY exist and freak the fuck out about it

#i'm being mr mental health issues this is way too much for tumblr's paygrade tbh #for my therapist #what's funny is i just got out of my psychologist's office and my brain decided NOW we're going to have a total freakout #apparently when i talk about the stress in my life my brain decides to deal with that by totally shutting down on the bus afterward #thanks very helpful now i'm having an existential crisis in public instead of on my bathroom floor like a decent person

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