#i'm aware this has been giffed before ok. i realised AFTER i made these

[awsteb]

During the Demolition Lovers bridge at LA night 1.

[modesty-blaise]

Since I'm curious, what caused you to become very possessive of your gifs? Not out of rudeness but curious, since no matter what you do a lot of them show up in the gif function on Tumblr which automatically credits you at the bottom of the gif.

Hey. Tbh, at first I didn’t wanna bother with yet another anon but since I see no ill intent behind this, I decided to go and answer it. Unfortunately, half-way through I realised my reply is turning into incredibly long semi-bitter rant and expands well beyond calling out just one person in Psychonauts fandom (and yes, this is related to Psychonauts fandom – you do know that these anons are not really that anonymous, right?) so… buckle up! All that beneath “read more”.

I’ve been on this hellsite for like…7-8 years? Maybe more? Can’t really tell cause I moved blogs and my old blog now consists of only 4 posts I’ve made close to leaving so I honestly have no idea how much time I’ve spend here before moving. Anyway, during those few years I’ve spent on my first blog I’ve met a lot of creative gifmakers who enjoyed sharing their love for fandoms they were in. I’d like to point out that this was waaaaay before tumblr created that insert-gif option so, back in the day, the only way to add gifs to your post was to: 1. make them yourself 2. take them from someone else. And a lot of people were taking them from someone else which resulted in many gifmakers giving up on making gifs and leaving fandoms and/or even leaving tumblr – and I’ve had many of my friends give up on what they love and have their games/shows/movies/whatnot ruined for them cause people would not stop stealing from them. And many of my friends eventually left tumblr cause they couldn’t deal with it anymore.

Tumblr adding insert-gif option, in my opinion, honestly, just made it worse for gifmakers. Cause now people had the opportunity to use gifs for their posts, with or without creators’ permission/knowledge, but it was alright and it was perfectly fine cause creators were credited. There’s their name at the bottom. It’s alright. Like… it doesn’t matter if they’re actually okay with people using something they’ve put hours into making or if they’re not – tumblr gives them credit so they SHOULD be okay with it. Simple as that.

Well, we’re all different and some people are not okay with that. I’m not okay with that. It took me weeks to figure out how to use photoshop correctly. Took me countless hours of looking through different tutorials and basically trial-and-error-ing my way through the process. Whenever I make gifs, it takes me hours to record videos and then hours trying to achieve that 3mb limit on gifs (thank lord these days we’re beyond 1mb limit). After all that effort I put into creating gifs for games that I love and enjoy, someone is going to make 2 clicks and have that same gif added to their post, without even asking. So how is that okay?

Back to your question. Yes, “no matter what you do a lot of them show up in the gif function on Tumblr”, that is true and that is something I was aware of when I saw you-know-who announcing they would be starting 30 days Psychonauts challenge. So, hating to see my gifs used against my will, and not wanting to start any unnecessary drama and threaten people in advance with reporting them if they do use them, I’ve made my blog as private as I could. It was only accessible through the dashboard, it was not showing in ANY search engines inside and outside tumblr, and my gifs were impossible to find through insert-gif function – I’ve made sure. I did all that cause I just knew that during those 30 days, someone would use my gifs and I would get mad and I desperately wanted to avoid that (hence going extreme). And you know what happened? You know what creator of this challenge (who prevously already reposted my gifs) did? *drums* They used my shit anyway. :3 They just uploaded it from their computer, where they’ve saved it earlier.

And like… a lot of people see pretty pic and decide to save it - I mean, we all do that. Heck, even I have a folder full of shit I saw online and liked it – but i’m not uploading it online cause I haven’t made it. It’s not mine to share.

But some people are not like that.

Some people see fanart of something they like and they want to share their opinion on it – and instead of making their own post, maybe drawing the fanart themselves, they decide to use someone else’s art for their post. Do they know who made it? Do they have creator’s permission to share it? If the answer is NO, then they should be a decent human being and not do that to creators. Oh, they shared it anyway but now people in fandom are calling them out BUT this actually happened on accident? They know who the creator is but, somehow, they accidentally forgot to credit them? OK, well, it’s possible, shit happens, but they better make sure it doesn’t happen again.

Then sometime later these same people decide they want to make a post appreciating their fav character and they want to include pics cause duh, you can’t have character appreciation post without pics, right? Now they have several options: they can get their own screenshots, make their own gifs, maybe draw something… or they can just take someone else’s creation. Do they know who made it? Well there’s my fuckin name on it, and since they’ve stretched it from 245 to 500px, it’s really hard to miss, plus it’s not like there are that many people making Psychonauts gifs. Do they have permission to share it? Hmmm, nope, didn’t ask me. Is this also an accident? Could be. I mean, I’ve seen stranger things happen, so accidentally forgetting to credit content creators twice… kinda suspicious but still possible. Who am I to say?

Now if these people then decide to make a post appreciating their fav ship and they want to add a cute pic of the loving couple – yup, you guessed it! They can either create something or take something. Again: they know who did? They asked for permission? Got the permission? No?!?! But they posted it anyway?!?! :o Could it really be, that after being called out publicly, after being told that reposting is bad (something that’s very easy to understand), after even having tumblr staff intervene and remove stolen shit from their blog, after all that - could it really still be an accident?

Nah, man.

They just don’t give a shit.

Cause if they did, they’d stop with that crap first time they were called out.

(and if you think Psychonauts fandom is their only fandom and that they’re not doing this crap in other fandoms too - hoooo, boy, do I have some bad news for you! Do you know how many stolen and butchered HP fanart is on their blog? Hobbit stuff? They seem to be one of the most accident-prone users on tumblr. And honestly - it’s a real miracle their blog’s not been terminated.)

Back to what I was talking about - I’m not okay with people using my gifs and I’ve made it very clear. I literally do not give a shit if I’m credited or not, I’ve made it very clear that I don’t want my gifs used without my permission. If you like them and want them on your blog, there’s a fuckin reblog button. It’s sole purpose is to allow you to share other people’s creations. Or shitposts, cause lord knows we all love those.

So that’s why when someone spends hours going through my Psychonauts tag and goes as far as to send me “I love your gifs” anonymous message, but the very next day makes stim moodboard post including one of my gifs, now cut and resized to fit 3x3 format they’re going with, I get mad. And that’s why when someone uses one of my gifs to promote their RP blog, butchering it to fit their aesthetics, and later when confronted going as far as blaming their good friend on it cause god! they’ve had no idea it wasn’t theirs, I get mad. (makes you wonder though: if they friend has such skills, why not making them gifs themselves?)

Like…. I’ve had my gifs stolen plenty of times. I’ve had them stolen for roleplaying, for headers, for imagines, just for notes… I’ve had them stolen by people claiming to run official fan sites (that’s a real wild story but I won’t get into that now)… I’ve seen them on pinterest, weheartit, FB, all those random gif sites… and I’ve seen EVERY. POSSIBLE. EXCUSE. ranging from: “well i found it on google so why should i credit you” “lol dunno who made this but its pretty so im posting it” “ive had it on my computer for years so i don’t remember where i got it from” “i dont know how to make gifs so im using weheartit as a source” “credit to whoever made this” (that’s my fav) to “its just a gif so who gives a shit” (it’s not – it’s hours of creator’s time and lots of love that you’re now shitting on so thanks) and “i have an /illness/ and getting notes makes me feel better so dont u dare blame me for stealing” (I don’t remember exact excuse but it was something along those lines and like… how do you even respond to something that without looking like an asshole?).

And sometimes it really is just an accident. Sometimes people really do forget to credit you and/or ask you for permission. And I’ve had my fair share of those accidents. People in Psychonauts fandom have been using my gifs for various crap but, when approached, they’ve removed it and apologised. And it’s something I really appreciate. (if they actually bother reading this and they recognise themselves: i’m really grateful and thank you for not being an ass)

But you know what I don’t appreciate? People making a call out posts about me, asking about my gifs when they know very well they’re the main reasons why I’m not making those gifs anymore, at the same time failing to address any of the issues I have with them and instead rather explaining to others what happened BUT explaining only the parts that make me look like a villain cause how I even dare be mad about them stealing? How I even dare call them out on it? That is so ridiculous and criminal of me, and it’s so so sooooo bad that they need to call me out. I deserve to be called out by the very same person who’s been stealing my shit.

And their explanation is…well… it’s something.

They were sympathetic and polite? When did this happen? Did I completely missed that part? Please someone fuckin enlighten me with such post/message where they expressed their sympathy and politeness and I’ll apologise right this second.

I told them to “literally fuck off”? Yeah, that did happen, I admit that. Did they bother explaining why I told them to fuck off in the first place? Did they say they were caught stealing from me and had tumblr stuff remove my shit from their blog? Did they get into details of how they demanded the proof of my so very wild and obviously false claims but then when I showed it, they just deleted that “how dare u call me out cause I would never do such thing” post? No, they didn’t and geee, I really wonder why.

Instead, what did they choose to address? Out of all the things I’ve said. Hm? What did they choose? Me telling them to fuck off. Me dropping the F-bomb on them, rudely rejecting their obvious kindness and politeness. Nothing else.

Back to what I was talking about before I got derailed again: no, I’m not mad cause this person used my gifs without crediting me. I mean – I am, but that’s not my main issue with them (and they know it). My main issue is that this is someone who will continuously lie and steal and still deny any of it, even when there’s plenty of proof (and you can always count on me to show up with proof tbh), and then go as far as to publicly ask about my gifs and try to call me out. Like me getting mad that something I’ve put hours of work into, and something I’ve made cause I love the game and I want to share my love and appreciation for it, is now being shared against my will and my knowledge - like me getting mad over something like that is so unreasonable that they need to make an entire post about it while pretending they have absolutely no idea why I’m even mad and why we have issues.

And I have every fucking right to be mad. 3 times is not an accident. 2 times to the same person is not an accident. They know it. But yeah, playing stupid is their defense so it’s not like I expected them to actually address their actions this time either.

And you know what? Just because I swear a lot doesn’t mean I’m wrong. Doesn’t mean there’s no solid ground for my claims. People on tumblr have always been and always will be stealing shit. Sometimes they will credit you, often they will not, and that’s just how it is, doesn’t matter if you’re okay with it or not. But that doesn’t mean I’m just gonna sit quiet and accept someone’s shitty behaviour. Especially when it’s directed at me.

TLDR: giving credit =/= having permission

but my previous posts leading to this ask were not about that

you knew that already

[marinacourage]

17 songs of 2017

totally out of order, i just wanted to write this for myself and see what I was listening to. leggo.

1. KARD - Rumor

I love the concept of a mixed group, i love that mv, love the moves. all in all - a bop. and they were releasing hit after hit this year, like wow, that was a super consistent success. and also one of the boy's voice is deeper than my social anxiety issues. props for them, i love KARD.

2. WINNER - Fool

give me a moment to wipe my eyes, please. ok, here we go. this song was actually the one that brought me into K-pop this year. I was always aware of the genre and I've listened to some suju and 2NE1 before, but I was never a die hard fan, I was never into it as much as I am now. and my first step in this direction was this song. gosh, it is so, so good. I've understood exactly one word of all the lyrics in this song and nevertheless I've bawled my eyes out every time I've listened to it in the night, alone, dreaming. idk what was the story of WINNER when there were 5 members, and I do not care, honestly, because those men have obviously hit the jackpot this year, getting all the love and fame they could with such high quality hits, and that one member that got away is probably cursing himself all the way to hell right now.

fool is a ballade that stays with you for long. the simplicity of the accompaniment, the light sound, the heartfelt voices and the sincerity of it all makes it unforgettable. a true winner for me.

3. GOT7 - Never Ever

oh god, I thought this song is 100 years old and is a classics of k-pop, but it happened to be released in 2017, so strange. not the best song of got7 /gif of bambam niga hamyeoning in the background/, but it's decent. maybe 'you are' is overall better, but this one has the vibe of that iconic song that everyone knows, so I put it in here. also i've listened to it lots so.

4. SISTAR - Lonely

a surprisingly good one, soyou and bora's vocal are stunning. I've listened to it a lot this year, and only now I've realised that they've disbanded. that's what's really sad indeed. starship loosing girls bands like wigs. thank god for monsta x.

5. Seventeen - Clap

better than dramarama 100%, I'm being objective here. it's has a clever mv, smart choreo (hoshi is literally a god and proves it every freaking time, he's impossible) and a nice instrumentation. also that break in the live ver. with joshua in front gives me chills.

6. BtoB - Movie

because HOW CAN YOU NOT?!! ilhoon as the joker? minhyuk as james bond?! DO YOU DIE LIKE I DO?! this song is totally my style. funny, funky, great vocals - that's btob for you. in my opinion songs like this one suit them the most. it is like a /movie lol/ ray of sunshine, it gives me the most pleasant feels. it may be not very mainstream, no heavy edm/dubstep or over-the-top choreo, but it certainly found it's listeners. I adore this song. peniel's rap was a killer, wow, fresh and clean indeed, and let's not forget about that iconic music show performance where they all were cosplaying various characters, oh dear, only btob can pull that off.

7. BewhY - Wright Brothers ft. C Jamm

or any other track from the blind star album. see, this is not even k-pop, this is korean gospel rap, for god's sake, and still BewhY kills the game with his hits. yes, that man is powerful like that. bobby, zico, mino, they are all idols now, but BewhY would never be one of them. he is one of a kind, honestly. he has his own style, his flow is effortless and unique, and those silences, did you feel them? his significant silences say more than half of the idol rappers' parts would ever say. the world has been blessed by this album, strong power thank you hallelujah.

8. Monsta X - Beautiful

okay, now listen. maybe it is not an ultimate masterpiece or smth but this was the song that made monsta x more popular in the industry and I'm very grateful for that. but I am still struck by that fact that they only won their first show with dramarama. like honestly? where the fuck was everyone when 'hero' was in promotion? the l e g e n d a r y, absolutely terrific mv for the 'all in'? and literally no one giving a single fuck about 'stuck' when this song is actually a blessing sent from heavens? and my baby hyper man jooheon released his 'rhythm' in early 2017 and no one cared? DID YOU SLEEP WELL, KOREA?!

also the boys slayed this song, btw.

9. EXO - The Eve

damn son, this one is hella sensual. out of all EXO songs that were released this year this one got me the most. ko ko bop is a bop indeed, but the eve has that vibe that pleases me more. also the vocals. I'd probably kill for d.o.'s voice. and that choreo. kai and sehun have no mercy. a great song. special mention for the whole 'the war' album though. I lived.

10. Super Junior - Black Suit

this song is so stylish, classy, has such a chic vibe that you can't just forget it. every time I hear it I smile, dance and lyp-sinc, and I do it literally anywhere, I just can't help myself. this song gives me energy and I have a few memories that I've made bc of this song that I'm very fond of. it is kinda in the same league as BtoB's 'movie', but is more on the dramatique and chic side. the legends and the true kings of k-pop.

11. NCT127 - Cherry Bomb

THAT. MOVE. don't lie, you know what I'm talking about. what a legendary choreo, mother father, holy moly. I am in love with nct because imho thy have the most unique style from all the k-pop groups I know. they are fresh, young and totally wild. their charisma is a weapon of mass destruction. and pls don't get me started on mark. you know, the one that has a 'long ass ride' through all the NCT units and thinks of himself as of a long lost EXO member.

so this song is a hit, it's catchy as hell, it has a great beat, great rap parts, killer hook, bomb choreo, smart mv. it was made for success.

12. BtoB - Missing you

yes, I'm heavily multifandom, but how on the earth, tell me, can you not stan a group where you have, aside of other members, one of the most outstanding vocal line in k-pop nowadays (hyunsik is great at making songs and his voice is great, changsub's falcetto is giving me chills and sungjae is so talented it's unfair to us mere mortals, but eunkwang is... well. silver light. let it shine forever). I think that maybe this song will be forgotten by most people with time, but when btob sing it live it really touches you deeply, and the lyrics are great. I've cried, yes. and also btob actually winning things that they deserve with a ballade is giving me a strong sense of justice existing in this world.

13. VIXX - Shangri-la

did you fucking see this aesthetic masterpiece? if yes, than no words are needed, you've heard and seen it yourself. the song is nearing perfection, the synthesis of minimalistic electronic sound effects and unique asian flavours is majestic, not to mention that they've finally had a DECENT DROP GOD SAVE ME, I've been waiting for a decent drop in vixx's songs since forever. and the performance of this song on the last day of 2017 k.o.ed me completely. a total must-see.

14. G-DRAGON - Untitled, 2014

I need to have another moment here. well, this song is something fragile, delicate, and something so vulnerable, even thinking of it makes it hard to swallow. I've cried to it too. it feels like a confession, not romantic, but personal. the vocals are stunning, you don't always need to be a terrific singer to impress people with your voice. sometimes it's about the colours of the tembre and the way you use it, your imagination. G-DRAGON has it all and more. this song, people, is what is called 'art'.

15. Heize ft. Shin Yong Jae - You, Clouds, Rain

I love heize's style, and the combination of those voices was a win. such a great song honestly.

16. Red Velvet - Rookie

it is so cringy it hurts, but it is a good pain. ma shupa rookie rookie rookie.

17. WINNER - Really Really

did you really think this year's list of k-pop personal hits could go without this jam? really? pfft. everyone knows this song, I mean everyone. thank god they've actually won some music with this song at least. the fact that they didn't win the daesang for the song of the year still sounds ridiculous, sha-sha-frickin-sha. in conclusion, really really is an ultimate bop. neol johahae.

this was unnecessarily long and you absolutely don't need to write an essay like I did here, or write anything actually, but I'd really like to see what songs were you listening to the year, @floraleona and @theblobmaster 😊❤